CHOCOLATE

cough please stop.

2012-01-28T23:09:00.000+05:30

am tired. of this strenous coughing. it hurts my throat a lot. Ya Allah, sembuhkanlah aku cepat. Sihatkan lah aku. :(. And please appetite, come back to me. I miss eating a lot like those days. I don't mind gaining weight like I was before. I want to regain my weight. I almost about to reach underweight for my height.

People used to say: Sakit dekatkan diri kita pada Allah swt. I definitely agree with that. But, with this cough and unwell feeling, I can't focus. :(
I really can't.

untuk kamu:)

2012-01-28T10:51:00.000+05:30

happy birthday, sayang.:)

the 'gift' is specially for you.

happy 23rd birthday.

may Allah s.w.t bless u always.

warong-kap panda-kap much.

pictures:)

2012-01-26T18:07:00.000+05:30

Seems familiar? Well, maybe.:).

Okay, stop dreaming. Let's focus on workshop tomorrow.

Good luck Fit! =)

Don't Quit. Semangat3!! =)

2012-01-25T20:51:00.002+05:30

two years.

2012-01-25T20:13:00.000+05:30

2 years..

Hopefully it passes so fast like that,

Hopefully we learn a lot during the period

And be mature enough to face this life

2 years..

we have to stand still and be patient

As this is their decisions not ours

Wish that this makes us stronger

A lot more to come

A lot more to face

Let's pray that maybe 2 years can be shorten to 1

Or pray that we may accept this with open hearts and patience

Allah s.w.t, HE always listen to us, every now and then

May this relationship is blessed

Amin.

P/S: Je T'aime, ykwya. :)

You know why~

2012-01-20T10:09:00.000+05:30

I'm home. Hihi. Yeahh finally, reached here around 5 in the morning. Guess what? It was a sweet moment, only He knew why. ;))))

Bai Bai Bai. =)

I care.

2012-01-18T16:10:00.000+05:30

Surgery 3rd day.

Hectic life, I would say, but yeah quite interesting. But, since I am still new, I am unable to take history for surgery so well and come out with cool yet correct provisional and differential diagnosis. I am still in the phase of learning. But, seeing others come out with cool diagnosis makes me so eager to learn about surgery and be smart like them too. I did have discussion with senior last night from Batch 21, Mr. Adrian, and he's quite cool. They way he explained was kinda understandable for me. (Forget to tell you, everyday I will take history with other two my group members, Marveena and Fara.). As I have stated in the previous post, maybe previous-previous post, about the one particular lecturer, he never took class with us in Muar. I am so nervous waiting for that moment to come because unlike other lecturers, he really didn't like students to write the history while history taking is done, instead he prefers us to just memorize and remember in the mind all those staffs in the fully-occupied mind, starting from the patient's profile and up to diagnosis of the case. Can you imagine that? -.-. Quite scary you know. T_T.
Well, tomorrow we have PAL(peer-assisted learning) presentation in the evening from 2 pm till 5 pm. The case we've taken for this week is gastric carcinoma, but actually the patient wasn't really cooperative and she also didn't know how to speak Malay, yeah she's a Chinese, old lady. I could understand that. But however, thanks to Adrian again , because he struggled to help us taking the history with the examination even the only finding was pallor. >.<. Janganlah 'dia' mengamuk esok. Seram sejuk kot. :(

And just to make you guys jealous( if you do la kan.:p), tomorrow night, I will be going back homeee!!! Hee, but m gonna skip the friday class, including the surgery workshop with 'him'. And that things also make me chill to the bone, thinking about what gonna be his response when he found out that almost all group D1 and D2 have gone back. T_T.

Next story: I read about the trend in twitter and they keep talking about a poor small child named Ahmad Raif Nufail who is suffering from brain damage due to the nerve infection kinda thing, I don't know what specific infection that he has. To read more about this, visit this blog. I found on while googling. Nisa Kay. Let's pray for this brother, insyaAllah everything will be fine, Amin.

Next to next, I hope that, I can manage each and every problems in mind in a positive way. I don't know why but there are several things that haunt my mind lately. So, to me, bersabarlah dengan apa yang berlaku. Positive thinking is never a waste. You can make yourself smile again and others too. That's all for today. Jaga diri.

It's for you. Play hard if you think you have recovered. Stop playing if you get hurt back. Take care, dear:)

day 1

2012-01-16T19:10:00.000+05:30

"sometimes, it just happened.

feeling like u are all alone and nobody loves you

feeling as if your family abandon u

feeling like as if they don't mind what happen to u

but actually there's someone who always care.

always."

birthday mak.

2012-01-15T16:36:00.002+05:30

Happy Birthday, Mak. I love you so much!!! You are the best mother on Earth. :))). I'm proud to be your daughter. May Allah s.w.t bless u.

MOGA DIBERKATI UMUR DAN DIMURAHKAN REZEKI.


Mak dan abah:)

Second of all, I finally finished my 3 hours of practical. At last, the car is moving. :P

Third of all, I just found this video. Interesting. Paris, Je T'aime.:)

That's all.

Notes:

"I didn't mean to make you annoyed with me,

I didn't mean to prevent you from doing what you like

I am not mean like that:(

I didn't mean to force you

But, I just wanna let you know that I care for you way too much

I just can't see if you are hurting

I can't resist seeing the pain in your eyes

Please understand that, love

But, whatever it is, I know I am nobody yet to you

I can't ask you to follow my wish

I can't I really can't

Your decision is yours truly not me

One last sentence, please take care of yourself if you don't want to see my eyes leak again like

now.

Ya Allah, Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Penyayang.

Tabahkan hati kami, kuatkan semangat kami, redha lah jiwa ini untuk menerima apa jua dugaan buat kami

Supaya kami sentiasa bersyukur dan masih yakin apa pun yang terjadi ada hikmahnya.

Amin.

mistakes

2012-01-14T13:18:00.000+05:30

Hey jumpa lagi for today :). Tadi berbicara tentang fakta umat sekarang. kali ni tentang study plak bleh kan?:p. Yeah. SURGERY, finally I shall say. The last 6 weeks of Sem 6 before the sessional examination which is around the corner. The so-called scariest posting in MMMC Melaka okay not Manipal because both are totally different, the lecturer wise. To be exact, from the kind-never-shouted-persistent-smile-don't mind if you bunk class lecturer to the harsh-persistent-shouted-big-eyes lecturer. What a difference kan? :) But well never mind. What Allah s.w.t has explained, everything happens for a reason, remember that.

This monday is the first day of surgery. I hope for the best insyaAllah and yeah I also hope I learn a lot. I've gone through lists of other postings namely psychiatry, O & G, Medicine, Community Medicine and ehem thats all. :). To be honest, a lot of mistakes I have made throughout the postings like simple mistakes that I made many times, maybe history taking wise or examination part. Because, this is human, we are all still learning each and every day, nobody says that I finish learning already or I have enough knowledge in my genius brain already. Nobody says that because even the best person in the world is still learning( I don't know who to give example, just think by yourself).

Those mistakes I've made taught me a lot. I did cry, I became sad and sometimes down to earth. I questioned myself, why I can't do even a simple thing? Why I hesitate to answer the question? Why I don't know the answer even I studied a lot? That sorts of questions always pop up in my mind, just like that. Tak percaya, tanya dia, he knows how often I cried for that, cause he knows how fragile I am. But crying doesn't solve the problems, it just makes you feel a bit better because you have spilled out the sad sorrow from the heart. What you need to do is that, TO LEARN FROM THE MISTAKES. I hope I do that, now and continuously everyday. Mistakes grow us up. Agree me?:)

So, all in all, I hope those mistakes will never repeat themselves again especially in this posting. I hope I improve a lot. I will try my best to improve, because yeah to change isn't easy as to eat peanuts. ( betul ke tak perumpaan aku ni? hehe). Because medical students should do less mistakes that other courses. Confused much? Let me explain. I give you a kinda situation if let's say doctors make mistakes during the surgery or treating the patients. Guess you can think the consequences, am I right? Renung renungkan dan selamat beramal. Wallahualam. :)

I Should Have Known

2012-01-14T07:35:00.000+05:30

Salam Sabtu.. Sabtu eyh? :) Well, yeah, it's 9.37am in the morning in the beloved Malaysia. And truth is I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. :P. Yeah I know it is kinda late for an anak dara like me, but who cares since it's WEEKEND!! Tidur la sepuasnya kan.. *hands up if you agree..*;p.

What topic to be told today? Or maybe to be discussed? It's about Palestine. Yeah Palestine, the story that we keep on uttering and sympathizing to them because of the things that happened to their country. Actually the things that are still happening.

Last night, I had this so- called 'Sister Gathering' here in Melaka, not far actually, at the area of Bukit Beruang with my usrah-mate with their friends whom I just get to know them last night. :). At first we cooked, talked, laughed and spent time together. It was so much fun since I love doing things with people like cooking because I love teasing and sometimes people love to tease me like Ariffah did. ;p.. And then the programme continued and we ate around 930pm after the dulang- dinner.

Then, came the tazkirah given by the one of the student from University of Newcastles, Australia and she's not Australian, she's Malaysian la. A girl one year younger than me.:). She talked and talked and suddenly it came to the story of Palestine. She asked all of us, "What do you girls know about Palestine?" My reaction was like, blinking three to four times, watching each others, trying to make the gyrus to work. Pity gyrus, because I actually, don't really have the knowledge of what is really the reason for the chaos happened in Palestine. Kesian kan:(. Padahal it is one of the story we keep on talking. We pitied them, sometimes some of us cried watching over the videos showing the suffering of Ummah there but, do we know the reasons for the chaos? Hmm. And 'we' here includes me myself. I know about the story but I don't dig, I don't find although I know it's one of my things to do( finding about what happened to Palestine) because we are Muslims and those that are suffering are our brothers and sisters. :"(.

Yeah maybe I have to start dig and dig and dig. I might not help much but at least I know what is happening to them. With the knowledge maybe something can be done, we never know. Wallahualam. Selamat mencari tentang Palestine. :)

bye bye commed sayang :")

2012-01-12T19:02:00.000+05:30

Salam. Here I am again after the story of Don. Another story is to be told today. First and foremost, I have completed Community Medicine posting of three weeks. Ya Allah, it happened so fast plus the two Monday holidays in sequences. >.<.. Well, even the commed end posting has ended too. Comment about the exam? Not kinda hard, because Alhamdulillah I could do that even the MEQ part was quite confusing. Ah, never mind. Let by gone be by gone. :)

Move on. Next posting awaits! The scariest, toughest, ~~monster-looking~~-ready-to-knock-your-head lecturer. Well, cut the monster-looking part. He actually looks just normal like me and you. The name of the lecturer will not be mentioned. Maybe next time? But, to MMMC student who read this, yeah you know the idea who he is right. *tutup muka*. Hopefully, everything goes well. I don't mind if he scolds us, because at least by his harsh words, and scolds maybe we can be a good doctor one day, who knows. There must be reasons for whatever he does. ;)*positive thinking*.

But well guys, I should have started to continue to complete my portfolio. Duhhh. Banyak lagi kot. Hee. takpe, since I don't have tomorrow morning class, then I can continue doing it tomorrow. HOPEFULLY. Lol. :D.

Maybe that is for now. Enjoy the commed pictures. For more details, you may visit my facebook profile because I have uploaded all the photos there.:)

Don 2

2012-01-08T19:18:00.001+05:30

Nothing much.

This is what I did yesterday.

Yey yey happy happy!! =)

Dapat tengok SRK yang cute miut. ;D

rice cooker, I do love you! :)

2012-01-06T18:25:00.000+05:30

Once upon a time, I did have a thought to buy a multi cooker like every body else. Yeah, it makes your life a lot more easier, you can cook even if you are staying in a hostel, like me. But, truth always hurts. hehe. The price of the multi cooker is way too much, till I have to think not twice but thrice whether to buy it or not. It is about RS200. Not Rupees okay, but Ringgit Malaysia( Rm). Hmm. :(

But, yeah I do have a rice cooker, special thanks to my mak and abah who bought me one, when they came visiting me about a month ago. Yeah, I don't have to spend extra Rm1 for the rice, bleh la nak jimat sikit kan, since nak jimat is one of my wish list this year. Lol. :D.

And actually, to those who didn't know, you can cook even if you have a rice cooker with you even there are too much troubles by doing this like:

It takes time for the cooker to become hot. Maybe it can take ages you know! Err, I am exaggerating here. But yeah it does take TIME.
The button tend to push back to warm after 'cook'. You can't make it remains as 'cook' all the time.( those who have cooked rice by a rice cooker understand this. Don't you?;p)
The rice cooker might get contaminated with the food you have cooked inside it. Duh, you need to wash very thoroughly for this anyway.

But but and but. Not this butt okay. Haha. But, I did something tonight. I cooked using my lovely rice cooker! Hee.. Not much, just veg soup I made, but yeah I made it. It was not as problematic as I have stated before if you could imagine. So so and so, I can save my RM200 in order to buy a multi cooker since the rice cooker which I already have gives so much benefits. ;)))

veg soup with the sardine. my dinner tonight:)

weekend likes weekday

2012-01-06T16:11:00.000+05:30

Salaam.

Weekend is back again. Hello, weekend. :). But, lists of things should be done this weekend, like a lot. Hopefully I can manage all of that very well within the expected duration. One thing for sure before get started, "JANGAN MERUNGUT!" (",). Before you can happily go back home, please and so many please, use your time wisely, fit. These things in mind:

finish up about 100-pages commed portfolio. not much actually, I just have to copy and paste. That's all. =.=

this much okay. banyak kot. T_T

study for the commed end posting. Too much slides till I vomit! Duhhhh.
pre-study for surgery posting. As what I can say, from heavenly commed to hell surgery? T_T. But no worries! I want to focus surgery as maximum as possible since sessional is just around the corner! =)
Weekend equals to driving license class. Have to stand this for quite a long weekends afterwards. Takpe, good luck! (^_^)
Yeah Don 2!! insyaAllah if it is fated that I am going to meet up the beloved SRK this weekend. Depends on time and availability. *finger-crossing*
Counting days. :)

*lesson of the day: whatever you do, just remember that everything starts with your Niat. Niat as in your intention. Allah s.w.t will grant your wish the way you Niat. If you niat for A, then A happens. If you niat for B, then B sets in. It is the matter of what Niat you have made and whether it suits enough and whether it can give you something in future, some good things. InsyaALLAH.

Salam for now. :)

tq!

2012-01-05T21:25:00.000+05:30

saya gemok,

kuat tido,

kuat makan,

berjerawat,

emo tak tentu pasal

tapi

dalam apa keadaaan sekalipun,

kamu sabar je dengan saya,

kamu masih sayang saya,

kamu tak pernah marah.

kamu cakap,

kamu terima saya seikhlasnya sebab saya adalah saya.

jadi, terima kasih. :)

"I Do"

2012-01-05T14:40:00.000+05:30

whaddup? What a boring day.. Huuu... I didn't have d afternoon class today, yeah it is called SDL timezz! Should be yezza but yeahh when you don't have things to do it can be boring too.. T_T, but anyway boring is far way excited than being in a class and listening to a lecture which sometimes you don't even understand a thing because you keep on day dreaming. :P..

Well, anyway since I didn't have nothing to do, I sincerely played The Sims Life Stories which I have stopped playing for a long time! Hee.. :) I do have my own family, Bubu and Bibi with their two children. But, then when I was about to play, I realised that my both kids have gone! Yeah that two little twin kids. Duhhh I wondered and kept wondering. The last time I played was about a month ago or maybe like two months but I still remembered the last time I played that my both kids were there! Hmm, then one idea struck my mind. I forgot that when I went back home during Christmas last time, my youngest brother, Aliff and my younger sister, Wawa played my sims. Duhhh! maybe they accidently caused my two kids ran away.. :(.. But, those kids are twins, like I have dreamt in real life. Hihi. After I have found out, then I lost interest to continue playing. I youtubed and now I am still youtubing then I found this song of Colbie Callait, I Do. I've heard the song so many times and I kinda like it, but I never watch the music video. Then here it is. Done watching. ;)))

new year+ poem

2012-01-03T19:18:00.000+05:30

Salam. HAPPY NEW YEAR people! I hope it's not too late to wish! =))) Sorry, not in the mood to blog for the past few days as I busy did something else. Well, just nak berlagak for a while, I passed my computer test! * yeah, the one that you needed to sit in the steps to obtain the driving license* Well, one thing I wanna say, alhamdulillah. =).. Eventhough I did all of that alone by myself, I managed to undergo that. *mula-mula cuak giler kot sebab sorang-sorang..huuu*..

Okay, fine. New year has come. ~~2011.~~ eh, my bad, it is 2012 ALREADY LA GIRL! And this year, if "long live" I am gonna reach the age of 23. Phewww! About to reach middle of twenties. Feeling matured enough? Well, you judge it by yourself. ;).. Okay, the intro is in English but, the rest of the entry for this time will be in Malay. Yeah, I miss blogging in Malay. ;D

Ha, hello hello. Faham lagi kan? Ada lagi kan korang ni kan baca blog aku? Hihi.. Thanks sebab masih lagi setia dekat Chocolate, walaupun Cekelat ni takdela berinformasi mana pun. Hanyalah lebih kepada aku yang mengarut dekat sini. Lebih kepada luahan perasaan, yang aku tak mampu nak luahkan dekat orang lain, sebab kadang-kadang apa yang aku nak cakap susah nak digambarkan dengan kata-kata.. Hee, sorry konfius sekejap.. :).

Tick tock tick tock sekarang dah pukul 9.00 malam waktu Malaysia. Apa yang aku buat? Aku masih lagi stuck depan lappy mengupdate cekelat., kinda miss him somehow. :").. Hmm, berbalik kepada isu tahun baru, ramai yang menjadikan tahun baru sebagai titik permulaan pada perubahan ataupun titik pecutan untuk mencapai azam masing- masing. Macam orang lain, aku juga punya azam yang tersusun dalam kotak hati, dari sesimple azam kepada sekompleks azam.. Tak semua orang tau azam aku eyh.. sapa yang dah baca previous blog aku, dia tau la 3 azam aku tahun ni, tapi untuk the rest hanya aku, dia dan DIA je yang tau.. Hee.. Mystery enough huh? Well just let it be.. ;)) Berdoalah supaya azam dan harapan aku bakal menjadi kenyataan insyaAllah ameen. ;).. Aku tak nak cerita azam aku yang the rest dengan korang bukan sebab apa, sebab yang utama sebab yela azam tu bisa pudar kan, awal memang la semangat nak buat semua tu tapi by the end of the day, kita lupa dan leka dan kemudian azam tu pun hilang ditelan masa. Aku tak nak macam tu. Aku nak azam aku kekal sampai semuanya tercapai. Azam dan harapan. Aku tahu bukan senang aku nak capai kalau takde usaha yang kuat, tapi sekurang kurangnya aku mencuba. insyaAllah dengan izinNya semuanya boleh! :D Semangat! Semangat! Semangat! Hihihih..

Sekarang macam yang semua sedia maklum, aku tengah posting Community Medicine, jadi kena lah aku pergi Klinik Kesihatan terdekat, tak payah pi hospital dah. tapi aku rasa commed lagi best sebab lepak giler kot untuk yang malas macam aku. hihi. bleh main dengan budak-budak comel, ukur panjang, berat, head circumference, chest circumference baby baby tu. Hee. =)*sori la takde gamba nak tunjuk sebab aku tak amik pun. sebab biar lah kenangan tu aku simpan terus dalam hati, tade gambar pun takpe. :) Teehee,, sweet plak bunyi nya padahal tak sempat nak ambil gambar. :p. Selain daripada tu, kena jugak take care dekat ibu ibu mengandung nie, kena jaga diorang baik baik, bukan senang nak jaga sorang lagi dalam perut tu, hee.. :) kena dengar la apa nurse nasihat kat pregnant mother, selain daripada itu, kena jugak take note blood pressure, weight, BMI of these mothers, yela nak rule out high risk cases, sebab bila dapat tahu awal, dapat lah langkah pencegahan awal dapat dilakukan. :). Bila tengok ibu ibu ni pregnant, teringat la mak aku dulu pernah macam ni jugak mengandungkan aku. so, appreciate la mak anda sekalian yea. :). And dalam masa yang sama, aku jadi takut pun ada. Pheww. takut oww, sebab nanti aku pun akan jadi cmtu gak, korang pun sama la. kena jadi mak macam tu, kena jaga baby dalam perut untuk 9 bulan, sanggup ke korang? tak sanggup pun kena la jaga, amanah Allah kan.:) Best kot tengok mak mak tu, hee.. semangat je cerita berapa kali baby tendang, semangat cerita persiapan( untuk yang peramah la nak cerita. hihi). Selain daripada tu, aku dan kawan kawan aku yang lain pergi jugak 'home visit'. Pergi check mak dan anak lepas bersalin, well known as post-natal cases. tengok la kot kot la baby tu ada jaundice, ke mak tu pun kena tengok jugak kalau kalau ada tanda-tanda varicose vein ke, post partum haemorrhage ke. macam macam bleh jadi ow. Itulah kisah pasal commed.

Lagi satu hal, audry masih tak okay macam dulu. penat dah nak sedih. tak jadi okay jugak. entah bila la aku bleh hantar repair. :(.

oh guys, sekarang ni aku follow " how i met your mother' tapi baru 3rd episode season 1. Hehe. yela kan, bosan tak tau nak buat apa tiap malam. nak study malas,biasala commed. hee. :).

rasanya tu je kot. penat dah. mungkin nanti aku blog lagi. mungkin esok. entah. kalau umur panjang insyaAllah.

Lagu background:

*It Girl, Jason Derulo

*The One That Got Away, Katy Pery

*Smile, Avril Lavigne

*Quiet Hearts, Amy Stroup

*Wish You Were Here, Avril Lavigne.

*I Like It Like That

*Percaya Padaku, Ungu.

That solemn night,
Where blinking stars seem to be gone and the moon appears restless
The cold feet shivers at the corner of empty room
The half-closed eyes force to open endlessly
Mind has gone nowhere, trying to locate the heart
Don't blame own self nor others
It's the fate that remains unchanged over time
Stuck in the middle of journey
With failure and difficulties step in, we wonder
We know but we take things for granted
We understand but we avoid the truth
We learn but we skip the wisdom that sets in
Please change and make a move
Life is like a moving wheel
On top or at the bottom can't be escaped
Knowing about guided sequences
Shall survive us till the end.

Poem setelah sekian lama. :) Untuk kamu. :) Juga untuk kamu-kamu. :)

update. not much

2011-12-27T20:34:00.000+05:30

the driver last nite. my cuzzie. thanks dear. :)

drinks that woke us up along the journey from kedah.

bosan bosan.

Thanks to my cousun. finally she sent me safely to the college back. 1200am on the dot that time. then she continued her journey to her place, Kluang, Johor. By 230am, she arrived there. Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, today's event. windmill. celebrating epah's 22nd birthday. my usrah-mate. happy birthday dear. =) *sorry, the whole pictures are with Kak Mehy, my other usrah-mate. =)

grilled chicken and fish at windmill melaka.

notice the drink? ;)

#Wishlist Number 3

2011-12-21T16:48:00.000+05:30

#3 2012 WISHLIST: TO SAVE MONEY! I'VE GOT PLANS ANYWAYYYYY, STOP SPENDING TOO MUCH FOR THE UNNECESSARY THINGS! =D

-not my photos. I just googled. =)))

A hard day.

2011-12-20T18:18:00.000+05:30

I just finished my medicine clinical end posting exam, not the MCQs and MEQs part yet, with Dr. Lakshmi. She's cool, pretty great and one of the best doctors. But, I screwed up the exams this morning. ::(. I've never 'about to burst' but this time around, it happened. It wasn't a hard case, just a patient came with breathlessness which I correctly pointed out the diagnosis as acute exacerbation of bronchial asthma. But then, still, there were many things that she didn't satisfy. I didn't know why. Maybe I left some findings that I supposed to know. Luckily the patient was cooperative, and answered all my questions very well. Because I kept everything in my heart, just listened to her rising her voice, at the end of the examination, my voice started to slow down and change a bit when I answered her question about investigations. I could answer but because of the voice, it looked all unclear. Then, I tried to convince myself just to hold on and be strong because the exam was about to end already. Be grateful that the patient was cooperative enough, compared to other patients who were usually looked down to medical students. That is it. That's my day today. I wanted to share it with my parents to but I couldn't tell them since I didn't want them to feel pity for me. Maybe I shouldn't blame Dr. Lakshmi for that. Maybe it was my fault too. Be strong fit, be strong. :")

#Wishlist Number 2

2011-12-19T19:31:00.000+05:30

#2 2012 WISHLIST: TO LEARN AS MANY DELICIOUS MEALS AS POSSIBLE, ESPECIALLY THOSE THAT YOU LIKE MOST. *you know who you are* ;P

Nothing much, just a quote.:)

2011-12-18T21:08:00.000+05:30

If I text you, it's because I miss you. If I'm not texting you, it just means I want you to miss me too. If we aren't texting each other, maybe we should just call & simply say "I love you".
- Triston Causey

:(

2011-12-14T19:56:00.000+05:30

I don't know how to explain.

I am NO good.

I am NO special.

I am an ORDINARY girl who always tend to do thousands of mistakes.

Sometimes I have uncontrolled EMOTIONS which goes in favour with SADNESS even for small

little things.

And sometimes, I feel GUILTY for always making you WORRIED and SAD.

You are NICER than typical me.

I am NO great. Screw me. Screw me.

Salaah. :)

2011-12-12T21:32:00.000+05:30

It's too much. Way too much. I just finished less than 50% of CVS while RS remains untouched. Test is just tomorrow. T_T. Now, my head is full already, have to write something to relax it before another trigger. Yeah, medicine. Don't mumble. It's your choice. Be grateful to Him for giving you the chance to study and to learn about all these stuffs. Not everybody is lucky.

Actually, there's something that pop up my mind since this morning, about how sick people perform their prayers. Based on the study I've read, 90% of Muslims( particularly in Malaysia) stop praying while they are sick. Quite a sad fact, right. We always get reminded that, Islam is easy, if you can follow. Islam never burden the slaves. But, why we use the excuse 'sick' to stop praying? It supposed to be this way: The more sicker you are, the more closer we are to the Highness. Kan? Hurm. Anyway, why this thing become the main topic is because I just read about this in the hospital itself. One of the writers said that, those who couldn't perform the prayer while standing can perform the salaah while sitting on the bed, or even if things are even worse, the patients can perform the prayers while lying down on the bed. Ya Allah. :"). It's not a problem at all for those who are admitted in hospital for chronic, acute or untreatable diseases to perform the salaah.

So think about it people. To those medical students out there, or doctors, use this chance to advise the patients to continue praying even if they are sick . It's our duties. Remember, Islam is the way of life, and it is simple if we really understand about it.

That's all for now. Gotta finish what's left. Davidson, MacLeod is waiting for me. Till then, goodbye and salaam. =)

edited.

2011-12-11T20:34:00.001+05:30

enola.

2011-12-11T11:01:00.000+05:30

When I blindly said that I wanted to distant myself from you, it means that I can't resist that I love you way too much.

#Wishlist Number 1

2011-12-10T15:32:00.000+05:30

Almost in the middle of December. Yeahhh can't wait for January to show up. Not because I want to end this year as fast as possible, but because I want to improve many things in life and fulfill my wish lists in a good way of course. From January to December 2011, many many things happened. How I get through many things including bad, good journey and how I survived.

I still remembered about 2010. Tears were my best friend during the time. From the beginning of year till the end of that year. Yeah, good things also happened but being masked by things that hurt. But, I learnt a lot that time, about true love, friendship, my heart desire, and family. Then 2011 showed up. Hello to 2011. Alhamdulillah, my heart became stronger than before, and some parts of my life chapters went well as what I wished and prayed. :). Thanks to THE ONE UP THERE who strengthened myself, so that I can stand well until today.

From now on till 2011 closes the curtain, I will write out about my wishes for next year, remind me if in case I forget and please pray for me that everything goes well. =). The wishes may not always be in order, since I will just write the wish that I remember first. :). Renew your intention people, and be ready for the upcoming challenges of life in front.

NUMBER ONE: SUCCESSFULLY OBTAIN CAR DRIVING LICENSE.

Note: I have registered my name for the driving class. Now I am searching for good and free weekend to start off. Good luck, Fit! =)

:(

2011-12-07T19:45:00.000+05:30

sedih. they went back already. :(. but many good things happened too:). Thanks to mak and abah for willingly came and visited me. Thanks to my adik-adik too. They cheered up my busy daysss. :").. Enough of 'tuang' kelas as mak and abah usually said. ;p.. focus in my study! nak abeh belajar cepat- cepat!! =))))

By the way I forgot to update that we are already in the month of December. How time flies so fast. I am at the end of 22 already, about to become 23. But, I know and I realise that I am not yet a good, perfect, smart, hardworking adult. Yeah, ADULT. That's my middle name now. Jangan tak percaya. =P. Anyway, as before, I usually made a list of wishes that I hope they become true. Same like this year. Lots of things and wishes encircle my mind, but I think I will not yet reveal the wishes. Maybe the right time will come and that time maybe I will update about those wishes later. =).

Audry is still the same. No improvement. =.=.

Thanks to him too for willingly joined the club. Sorry for any troubles during our journey together. :). And just want to let you know that you look pretty much coooll while driving. ;))

Good bye for now. :).

video ni takde kaitan dengan post di atas. it is just that, i love the song. =). untuk kamu.

how the feeling becomes when it is mixed up? :S

2011-12-01T18:12:00.001+05:30

Audry buat hal.*UNEXPLAINED FEELING*

got it right?

Ma and abah are coming. *BIG SMILEEEEE*

big grin!

I have learnt the correct way of ECG *SATISFIED FACE*

Satisfied face of this child getting the ice cream is similar to mine when I am little bit understood about ECG. Alhamdulillah=)

What?

2011-11-29T17:59:00.001+05:30

:'(

entitled.

2011-11-25T15:30:00.000+05:30

goodbye.

I will be away for a while.

Salam.

mood: unknown.

study.

2011-11-22T18:38:00.000+05:30

5 OUT OF 15. :(. Kinda sad, hope that I could do better than that.

Maybe it's not my luck. Just keep on fighting and struggling.

Talking to the patient and his wife taught me a lot about how they believe and put all trusts to the doctors.

I'm only a medical student, not yet a doctor, but still they kinda put a lot of hope when I was taking the history.

"Pak cik, mak cik, jangan risau. Kami akan cuba buat yang terbaik."

Semangat, semangat, semangat! =)

P/s: Kami here refers to all medical students in the world. Especially YOU. =)

this is today's thought.

2011-11-20T18:56:00.000+05:30

hey. salam. pictures will explain everything regarding today. :)

Ttyl. Only smart people know. =P

bad day

2011-11-17T16:04:00.000+05:30

tick tock tick tock. that is the only sound I listen at this moment. The sound of the wall clock. Sigh. Sigh for no reasons. Yeah, there are too much reasons actually. T_T. unbearable ulcer pain at the inner part of left lower lip. feel like cutting that one away. I hate ulcer, but it keeps on bugging me at least once a month. usually I get ulcers because I am so stubborn to drink lots of water, but now I get the new ulcer because I accidentally bite my lip. I talked less today, kinda. Even when I was in the ward, where I supposed to clerk cases, I couldn't clerk well because it hurts when I talked a lot. So, I prefer to just chilling out and just read the cases from the case files. But, guess what? I managed to draw the blood from the real patient in the blood bank. It was so exciting, even at the very first place, I kinda nervous to perform that. :p..

Then, at the afternoon , I had my PBL session. I've not done well.:(.. Uhhh feel so stupidos. :(

At the evening, my little brother called. He lost his mp3, the one that I gave him before because of his good upsr results. He previously lost his handphone too, which I gave to him too. So dissapointing. Haihhh, little brotha, please be careful next time and please appreciate the one that I gave. I gave it with love, so keep it well.:(..

Then, come the story about ticket going back... to go or not to go? to leave or not to leave? am I able to be alone in the hostel? hmmm..

one thing that always keep me calm:)- At Umbai, Melaka.

Thanks mcd for the treat. looks yummy kan?:D- Umbai-

All in all, not in a good mood today. :( Salam all.

sorry

2011-11-12T15:20:00.002+05:30

sorry for the burden I've made.

sorry for the troubles I bring.

sorry because sometimes I demand a lot.

sorry for the undescribable emotions sometimes.

sorry for everything.

hi, weekend.

2011-11-11T16:51:00.000+05:30

super-exhausted. super super super exhausted. even Dr. Lakshmi noticed the tiring face.:(

lack of sleep?

or because of the 4 and a half hours protocol presentation this morning?

or because today is the last day in O & G department for the third year?

or because emotionally unstable? ( nothing much, I just miss home a lot. )

I wonder what are the reasons. maybe all of the above? =.=

feeling like closing the eyes and dreaming the whole day. DREAMING. :)

anyway, I sweated a lot today. yeah, well what else if it wasn't because of the badminton. :p.

Keep practising. Add up the stamina to the maximum level!

11.11.11. Nothing special happened today. It is just a date. a special date. Guess today will be chosen for the couples

to get married. Easy to be remembered till the rest of their lives. Even their small grandchildren will remember. :)).

Till then, salam. Say hi to weekend.

bEacH

2011-11-10T17:08:00.000+05:30

Salam.. Walking around the housing area, chit-chatting about many things were so way good after a busy life. :) Thanks to Syikin Wanzul for the sincere accompany. I think, it's been a long time since I last walked without aims, talking about things unrelated to study and medicine and postings. Feel so good! ;)). And on the way, I saw a known football boot, orange in color( if I am not mistaken). (rasa bangga sekejap sebab boot yang cantik tu saya la yang pilih. :P).

Today, not much things have happened. Just finished protocol challenge( one of the end posting exam) in the evening. Nothing much to comment. Let by gone be by gone. Focus for the next posting insyaAllah.

Aim for tonight: Washing clothes, clear my study tables and keep my clothes in the cupboard properly. And studying not to forget.

And today, I suddenly think about beaches. BEACH as in beach not the other 'beach'. Hee.. :). Calm and refreshing. Maybe romantic and memorable? Who knows? :)

sarcastism.

2011-11-09T15:06:00.001+05:30

Well, salam and hello all! :)) Can see the smiling face next to what I have written? Yeah, it is kinda fake actually. :(. I just finished my long case end posting examination early morning today. Not much to comment, yeah Dr. Sachi, as the name suggest, he is kinda sarcastic to what he says and to what he acts. Anyway, he's a lot better than one other Surgery lecturer( name cannot be mentioned) who is labelled to be the most SCARIEST doctor on Earth. Yelling and chasing the students out of the class is just sooo him. I am so gonna face him very soon, well not so soon because surgery is my last posting. Can you imagine the expectations he is going to have on us since we are the last groups? Life is tough man. :(. Being a medical student is not as honeymoon as other courses. A lot of things to be learnt, to be read, to be practised and to be memorised.

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. Layman proverb that we use but sometimes we take that for granted, aren't we? We think we've done well but actually a lot more to be gained without simply sitting on a comfort chair while youtubing or facebooking. I am talking about myself. Maybe the way Dr. Sachi got mad with us just was kinda over-the-limit, since the questions he asked ALL were about the management but we know NOTHING about that because we think that managements are supposed to be covered by the seniors, not the freshie/ juniors/ new learners like us. Yeah, he was not supposed to get mad like that, but maybe at the positive side, it was our fault too, for NOT trying to read about the management thoroughly. It's like a lesson to me. Don't stop reading. Because new knowledge is not only by seeing or practising but it also comes with reading, reading and reading non-stop. Theory, something that we need to polish more, because without it, we can't afford to perform the examinations if we don't have any idea about the theory overlying the diseases. Okay. Fit, please, learn a lesson.:)) . Obstetrician in wish list, remember?:) The next posting is MEDICINE and hopefully I will try to improve on this. Good luck! :)

Next chapter: It's only one day and I miss them already. :(. Dear loves, please pray for my success. Love u all a lot. :).

tiga gadis yang tak berapa nak ayu. hihi

dua jejaka mata sepet.:D*anak abah la ni mata sepet*;p

ma, abah,adik aliff yang nak boot baru utk birthday*thinking about jpa if I were to give him the gift. :O

I keep on laughing because of these tiga budak gila gila .

adam, muka nak edit aje, nak amekau kak own tak edit hahahhaah.

I love them. so mucho much mucho. ( the pot belly is to be included if I meant the first sentence. )

Next next chapter: I've been bullied. By a big rounded like, pot belly creature. =p.. Boo!! Whatever it is, always and always, I would like to say "warong kap"..(^_^)

I don't mind if u have pot belly. Ily as always. *tutup muka malu*=p

:(

2011-11-08T17:04:00.000+05:30

I am sorry. I know I have hurt u, I know I make u sad, please forgive me.

Thousands time I keep saying: I am hurt when you are hurt. I REALLY mean this.

Hopefully, you will get well soon. I love you.

Gonna have my end posting exam tomorrow. I hope I can focus well, insyaAllah.

Goodbye for now. Salam. :(

I am sorry. I can't resist the tears that keep falling.

Love u!

2011-11-02T21:09:00.001+05:30

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

DEAR

SHAH RUKH KHAN..

:)..

Wish to watch the latest movie of him, Ra. One!! =))))))

http://daily.bhaskar.com/article/ENT-in-pics-a-glimpse-of-shah-rukh-khans-personal-journey-2536982.html?HF-1=

Audry, be good with papa. :)

2011-11-01T20:32:00.001+05:30

Audry. Please don't hurt mama.. :(.. I don't know why on Earth all of a sudden, I couldn't listen to any voices/ songs/ ringtones in my beloved Audry which happens to be my dear Samsung Galaxy. :(.. It happened without any clear reasons, there was no history of falling down, no history of high grade fever and no history of being assaulted for this little Audry. Papa took Audry already to look after it for a while. Please behave with papa.. Pity him because he has to take care of you for a while since mama don't know what to do and kinda blank to face the problems you have sayang. :( Please get well soon. We love you.

Love,

Mama to Audry. :")

someone like you~ unrelated

2011-10-30T18:27:00.001+05:30

It hurts when you wish you can play at least for 5 minutes in the court but it ended up that you didn't get even a chance to do that. :(. I know I am not good enough to play well, but at least, I tried. When this kinda thing happened, seriously, I don't feel like playing for more. Yeah, I am serious. Main suka-suka dalam kolej lagi best. :").. YKWYA told me something which undeniably true.

"experience doesn't always come when u are in the court, even if u only sit on the bench watching the game being played,u r good enuf."

But, I can't continue it anymore. I am sorry my dear.:"(

But, alhamdullilah, after all the things that happened yesterday, I managed to meet my lovely sista, Nurul Najwa Mustapa who came by to Kompleks Sukan, UITM just to see me. Aww.. She's so cute. She came together with her two friends, bringing some spaghetti that she cooked by herself. *rasa macam nak nangis je taw*.. Thanks wawa.. Love u so much!!! =)))).

sayang kamu adik~ :)

Okay, gotta leave now. tonnes of pages are waiting for me to be read. Salam peeps.:)

blood-stained vomitus? duh, no la. =)

2011-10-20T23:00:00.001+05:30

Vomiting. Vomiting. Vomiting.

It's been a long time since I last remembered that I was so sick, sick in term of having fever kinda stuff. Urghh. The feeling

of vomiting wasn't a pleasure at all, yeah just imagine that you could see the contents coming out from your mouth with

an unpleasant smell. Duh~ Just close your eyes and imagine. T_T.

By the way, tomorrow, I am going to sit for end posting exam, continuation of today's exam.

Today's exam was kinda okay, even I could not read up much about the DSM IV Classifications about different types of

diagnosis in Psychiatry disorder.

Hopefully, tomorrow's exam will be just fine too.

Last but not least, GOOD LUCK TO all too. Strive for excellence! Chayok! =))))

=.=

2011-10-18T19:49:00.002+05:30

Speechless.

*rolling eyes*

Muchos to be studied.

GOOD LUCK!!!

Ticket!

2011-10-17T20:17:00.000+05:30

I miss home. I suddenly do.

haihhhh.

Have to wait for 'Hari Raya Haji' to get back home..

Ticket dah beli! Million thanks to Kak Aishah.. =).

Enough movie for the day.

"AKU MASIH DARA".

Nice movie, good plot and useful lessons..

Unknown.

2011-10-16T15:04:00.000+05:30

It is raining.

Outside

and

inside. :")

Percaya padaku=)

2011-10-16T13:03:00.000+05:30

Damn. Why I love to sleep excessively? =.= Yeah even I opened my eyes, I felt so lazy to make my way to the bathroom and started taking the bath. It was so indescribable. Because I used to know that most of people love to take bath like so much and they sometimes spend about ONE HOUR to bath! Super duper incredible. Well, yeah I do spend about 1 hour in the bath room in case I clean the bathroom or I wash my clothes, not to clean myself for that long. Hee. :D.. Maximum time I usually spend is about 20 minutes. Not too long isn't? I really can't stand the cold water even I do have water heater in the bathroom.

Talking about sleeping, I love love love love sleeping. When I got nothing to do, I prefer sleeping than watching TV or whatsoever. Bila kurun ntah nak berubah. Huhuuu.. Maybe when I get married, these all will change. All of these. :).. I have to wake up early in the morning, prepare the breakfast for the family and wake them up. Awww.. To make things even sweeter, while in the kitchen, you are helped by your lovely hubby to prepare the breakfast. laalala~ stop dreaming for now. =p..

If you ever realize, I have wrote something on CEKELAT on the left side.

~~"I wish all these become true soon enuf..(+_+)."~~

One of it is, I wish to be a late sleeper but a morning person. I am learning to do that. =)

By the way, recognise this background song? "PERCAYA PADAKU".

There are meaning behind the lyrics of the song. To instill the strength in my heart and YOU too for another 2 years approx. InsyaAllah..

Have a good day peeps. Ttyl. Salam.

End posting.

2011-10-15T22:29:00.000+05:30

Salam.

Hey. Been bz. So first of all, sorry to all. =)..

Next week I'm gonna sit for end posting exam which includes both clinicals and MCQs..

Hopefully, everything goes smooth and well. Nervousness.. =.=.

Forgive me.

2011-10-10T18:51:00.001+05:30

Forgive me if once upon a time I caused the bleed in your heart

Forgive me if those days I disappointed you with what I've done

I used to keep reminded that 'people make mistakes'

From no one else but you

I am impressed with your patience from the day one we've known each other

Talking about those mere mistakes,

They are not small, indeed they are quite large

Enough to make a very long scar

But, you are too good to me

You said, you forgave me and offered me a hug if we were close enough by distance

And that was when the tears dropped down my cheeks

How calm you were back then and tried to cheer me up because of my guilt

My dear, this is a promise from a small heart of mine

I'll treat those mistakes as lessons

I'll bury those wrongdoings in the thick soil

Because those mistakes grow us up

Those mistakes are the good teachers to improve the life

From this moment, have my words

I'll take care of your heart like I take care of mine

I'll feed it with loves and cares like a mother cares a baby

I'll never make you bleed anymore like the past hurt you

Past is the past

Present and future are what matter the most

Seeing you happy with a curve of smile on your face enlighten my day

Keep smiling and be strong to face any obstacles in front of you

Because I will always be there for you love

Either during bright or gloomy days of yours

I'll sit right next to your heart and heal it

Just so you know,

WARONG KAP like I don't know how much to explain..

=)))

*Please give this to the right one, the one that owns my heart those days, now and forever. Bersabarlah kerana banyak yang indah bakal tiba insyaAllah.. Amin. :)*

Pantai or best known as Beach

2011-10-09T11:54:00.000+05:30

Seniors + Juniors.

Pantai. Or in English word is best known as BEACH. Sometimes, people who appreciate nature love to appreciate a beach. Walking by the seaside, listening to the sound of waves crashing and children playing with the sands calm me down, and enough to make me smile for the whole day.

PANTAI PUTERI, not far from MMMC, was our spot for Rehlah together with the seniors yesterday morning. I woke up at 645 a.m preparing to gather in front of the hostel for the departure. It was fun being there. Playing with the sands making the sandcastle was fascinating although it wasn't our group who made the cute and beautiful castle among us all. :)..

Special thanks to all seniors for the invitation. Hopefully ukhwah that we have built remain for the rest of our lives insyaAllah. :)

-Sandcastle. Teheee. Sorry we weren't creative enough to produce super cute castle. :D-

Indah ciptaan Tuhan. Makhluk Allah s.w.t yang tak pernah lekang dari berzikir mengingatiMU. :)

Simple.

2011-10-07T21:06:00.000+05:30

Maybe at this moment,

we have to pretend that we don't know each other.

It surely will hurt, but that's how things go.

Hopefully we are strong enough to face this.

BERSEMANGAT! (^__^)

2011-10-06T20:51:00.001+05:30

Notice the picture above.

Note the difference.

I made it. :).

Now it stands up like those days.

(^________^)

Nobody dies of hard work. :)

2011-10-05T21:40:00.000+05:30

Hey there. Salam. How ya all? Doing good? Feeling good? Well, I've started my posting. Have met four patients with different psychiatric diagnosis. Anyway, as far as I remember, I have promised u guys to show u all the look of my room after being cleaned and arranged. The thing is that, I didn't have time to capture the pictures. So sorrryyyy guys for that. :(.. Hopefully I can make it this weekend. Just wait n see okeyh.:)

Talking about studying, actually a lot of things linger in my mind. At this point of time, I honestly want to tell you guys that life at Melaka is really challenging with the challenging exams await us all. I just want to quote back what the lecturer did tell us. "Nobody dies of hard work." Now I am trying to be stronger and raise my spirits because of the quote. It works. :) Why don't you have a try on it?;) And please don't reply me back like this: "Surely all the dead couldn't tell us because they already dead. " haha. Well, one friend of mine said that to me. Quite correct but to make things easier take it from the positive side. Chayok! :)

Boxes are all safe!

2011-10-01T20:48:00.000+05:30

Salam all. :).. Heyhoo. It's finally weekend! Duh. At last, the orientation ended very well. Just to let you guys know, the class is going to start on this coming Monday and the first posting of mine is PSYCHIATRY. Yeah, not much things to be done, cz some seniors labelled this posting as relaxed one. I don't really know what 'relaxed' means to them.=.=.

Just want to update something to you guys, well my 9 boxes from Manipal has safely arrived to Malacca. Yeay! Alhamdullilah. So I suppose to clean and arrange the things back and unpack the boxes but till then I'm kinda lazy to arrange them for now. Maybe a little later I guess. :). Thanks to Mr. Panjang and Mr. You-Know-Who-You-Are for your help. ;))

condition of the room before the right arrangement-

So, for the condition of my room after the cleaning will be updated later! haha, wait and keep updating my blog. :)..
Here are some silly yet ugly pictures of us, trying new kind of hijab. :)

Haha~ Solehah team. nasyid not hip hop okay! ;)

Don't say any words. I know I look so spherical. T_T

Saya sayang sampai saya nangis.

2011-09-28T20:40:00.000+05:30

Napa hati aku terlalu fragile kadang-kadang? Sometimes, I can't even stand to feel brave enough to face the realities, n to make things even worse, I will start crying thinking that life is so unfair. There are three things that makes me cry even I try to hold for a while:

a) Mak dan abah
b) Adik-adik \
c)Dia( you know who you are)

Even it's a happiest things on earth happen, I do cry sometimes because of them. I know one explanation for this.

BECAUSE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH, ONLY ALLAH KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM.

**Maafkan kak own ma, andai kata-kata nurul pernah melukai mak. Nurul terlalu sayang pada mak. Andai Tuhan izinkan, nurul sanggup korbankan nyawa nurul demi mak. :")**

Hai Melaka;))))

2011-09-27T21:23:00.000+05:30

Salam. Salam. and Salam. =). I hope three times is more than enough to greet you all after so many days I've been missing from CHOCOLATE. ;p.. It's not that I was kidnapped or I ran away, it is just that I couldn't get the access to the internet since Wawa brought the broadband to her college, INTEC because of some project. Never mind. Truth is, now I am back again maybe for at least 2 weeks more because I get the free access to the internet from the hostel. Haha! Thank you Mr. Zainudin. ;p..

Well, yeah I forgot to mention, I am now respiring oxygen from the Malacca, specifically at Melaka Manipal Medical College, Manipal Campus. Opss, sorry, no longer Manipal campus, it's Melaka campus. I repeat, Melaka campus. It's so unbelievable thinking that I've done half way of medical study. Another half is on the way to be done. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for the good flow of my study at Manipal last time.. :). Hopefully this time goes very well too.:)..

*will update u guys later.. TTyl.. Salam n goodnyte.;)))

Home sweet home

2011-08-24T21:42:00.000+05:30

Salaam.. Hey ya!! Hey hey! Hola! Hello! :D..

Alhamdulillah, finally reached my dearest home sweet home, at last. :) Location will not be mentioned as it is quite clear where I stay all this while. Okay, mention jela jangan mengada.. :P.. TEROI, GUAR CHEMPEDAK, KEDAH, MALAYSIA..
To be specific I reached home last night at 830pm together with my parents and siblings. They has come all the way to KLIA to pick me up.. Hee... Thanks love. ;))..

Yeah, for the first time this Ramadhan, mak, my sistas and me, we cooked together for the buka-puasa-session.. Love it! ;)) We did cooked simple stuffs but, well it didn't matter, because I freaking miss mak's cooking!

sayur manis lala
ikan terubuk( banyak tulang oo) bakar
sayur sawi
ikan rebus cicah sambal belacan.. Hee..
petai bakar.. slurrpp!! :D..
ayam masak merah

Super delicious, super tasty and finger-lickiciousss.. Hee.. :).. To make buka-puasa more memorable, tok and tokwan together with my kuzie, Ecah came to our house and ate together.. =).. Alhamdulillah..

Just want to say some words, maybe this year, we'll be making kuih and cake by our own because well, mak has already bought some ingredients needed to make cakes and kuih.. Maybe we gonna start making tomorrow or the day after!

Leaving On A Jetplane- Aerosmith

2011-08-20T02:16:00.000+05:30

~~Leaving On a Jetplane. Aerosmith~~ version is far way better. Suits well with the situation now, yeah the very last night in Manipal. Sedih? Maybe a little. No, not a little, a lot actually. =.=.. Too many things happened in a two and a half year duration. Some people come and some people go, some people stay and some people make a step behind. Well, that's life, unpredictable and so great, thinking that Alhamdulillah I manage to spend exact two and half year here with good things happened. :)

To my besties who are still here, keep on fighting till the last moment you guys at manipal. Be strong and appreciate manipal as maximum as you can. we'll be missing you. Thank you for everything. Thanks. :)

I don't want to talk much, as I am scared of tears. :'(. Good- bye for now.

manipal, fit sayang kamu:)

2011-08-18T22:34:00.001+05:30

Salam. Hari ini memandangkan adalah hari terakhir saya di Manipal officially, ( actually bertolak dari Manipal ke Ooty pada 20/8/2011)saya punya entri kali pun dalam bahasa Melayu.. Sedap sikit nak menceritakan tentang kenangan, kerinduan dan sayang dalam bahasa ibunda kita. :)

M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L

Bersama boss dan akka nandini.

Saya masih ingat dengan jelas pada hari pertama saya menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Manipal. Tarikh yang sebetulnya saya tidak pasti tapi yang pasti pada bulan March 2009. Pada malam itu, malam pertama saya di Sonia Hostel, saya cuba berkali-kali untuk menghubungi ibu yang memang jauh di mata, pertama kali saya menjejakkan kaki di bumi asing yang memang jauh sekali segalanya dari bumi Malaysia. Cuba dan terus mencuba, tapi panggilan masih gagal kerana nombor Airtel tidak diaktifkan lagi secara rasmi. Mungkin 24 hours notice diperlukan. Tiba- tiba tanpa sedar, ada juraian air mata mengalir dari pipi perlahan-lahan. "Mak, macamana own nak survive dekat sini? Semua tempe-tempe( nama gelaran untuk orang tempatan di India) macam scary je own tengok. Sonia Hostel ni pun dah macam berhantu," saya berbisik dalam hati kecil. Tapi saya gagahkan diri dengan kekuatan untuk cuba lelapkan mata pada malam itu dengan harapan bukanya mata esok, saya dapat mendengar suara emak dari hujung talian menandakan bahawa akaun Airtel sudah diaktifkan. Diharapnya begitu.

Hari berganti hari, bulan berganti bulan, suara ceria mak memang sudah dapat didengar tiap hari( sebab saya homesick jugak mula-mula sampai sini.. Hee.. Gaya macam tak pernah duduk hostel je kan.. teeheee). Kehidupan saya di India semakin lancar dan proses adaptasi berlalu dengan sangat pantas. Sonia Hostel yang dulunya saya label sebagai tempat berhantu kini menjadi tempat yang saya sayang. Lokasinya yang dekat dengan Library, foodcourt dan Interact memang sangat strategik. Tempe- tempe yang suatu masa dulu saya takut kini ada yang baik dan layanan yang diberikan juga baik contohnya macam Akka Sonia dan Lecturers. ( sebenarnya, tempe yang layan kita macam sampah memang bersepah tapi tak payah lah disebut disini. Biar kenangan yang dibawa balik adalah kenangan terindah. :). Masih dalam semester pertama dalam Tahun Pertama, saya agak main-main sebenarnya. Al- maklumlah baru sampai di tempat orang, proses adaptasi masih berterusaan berlaku dan kemalasan kian memuncak, kemalasan study untuk lebih spesifik. Jadi, saya takdelah score hebat sangat dalam Block 1 dan Block 2 exams dulu. Hee..

Inilah Maya :)

Semester 2 pun tiba, untuk Tahun Pertama. Dari Sonia Hostel, semua sudah berpindah ke rumah termasuklah saya sendiri. Jadi, apartment yang menjadi pilihan adalah Ajay Arcade, nun jauh di pedalaman berbanding dengan apartment mewah yang lain. Ajay Arcade bukanlah apartment mewah, hanyalah apartment biasa, yang security guard yang proper pun tak ada.. Lifnya macam zaman Paleolitik, ada gril macam penjara. Heee... :D. Tapi alhamdulillah, sewa bulanannya tidaklah mahal, sekadar Rs8,500 sebulan untuk satu rumah. :) Sebelum terlupa untuk mention, saya juga ada alat pengangkutan sendiri yang dibeli di sini untuk memudahkan saya bergerak ke sana ke mari, iaitu sebuah scooter yang berwarna ungu atau purple, diberi nama indah iaitu Maya. Maya, sebuah nova scooter, yang dibeli dengan harga Rs15,000 daripada workshop memang comel. Sejauh-jauh Kapu Beach dan Malpe Beach pun dah dia sampai. Cool kan dia? :), Sesungguhnya dengan adanya kenderaan sendiri memang la menyebabkan saya suka merempit ke sana ke mari.. Nasib baik mak dengan abah bagi saya bawak scooter di sini sedangkan saya memang tiada lesen di Malaysia, dan even di Malaysia, saya nak pergi kedai beli aiskrim naik basikal ikut jalan besar pun mak tak bagi. :p.. Tekejut jugak bila niat untuk membeli scooter tidak dibantah oleh mak. :p. Mungkin mak dah percaya anak dia nie boleh jaga diri dengan baik dah kot, kata dah besar kan?;p
Itu belum diceritakan kenangan semasa study week untuk universiti exam first and second year. A group of four. :) Kenangan yang tak akan saya lupa walaupun kini ada benda berubah, banyak jugak actually, good and not so good things. =.=.. Takpelah, ini lah perjalanan hidup. :). Rugi saya tak ambil gambar banyak-banyak masa study week.. patutnya tengok muka berkerut sorang-sorang menghafal dan cuba memahami bertimbun timbun muka surat daripada bertimbun timbun buku. Medical student kan, kena la usaha lebih. ;). Heee...

GOLDEN TEMPLE

Kenangan travel selepas tamat First Year pun antara kenangan yang lekat dalam hati juga.. Walaupun ada benda yang sedih dan mengecewakan terjadi, namun, di sebalik itu, kenangan yang boleh membuat saya tersenyum pun saya tak akan lupa. Sampai bila- bila. ;-) Macam-macam tempat kami bertiga belas berjalan. New Delhi, Mumbai, Jaisalmer, Agra, Shimla, Manali dan sebagainya. India! :)

JAISALMER

Kenangan di Manipal pun banyak. Manipal banyak mengajar saya macam- macam benda. Kadang-kadang benda itu tak dapat kita rasa dan belajar di tempat- tempat lain walaupun di tanah tumpah kita sendiri. Mungkin suatu hari saya akan kembali ke sini, cuba mengimbau kembali kenangan lama yang saya yakin masih lagi segar dalam ingatan. Dan mungkin saat itu segalanya telah berubah. Saya, dia, dan kamu- kamu semua. Kita. :). Kita yang mungkin sudah terlalu matang kalau dibandingkan kita pada tahun 2009 yang dahulu. Sebelum saya akhiri entri kali ini, saya nak mengucapkan banyak-banyak terima kasih kepada semua ahli-ahli Manipal yang banyak membantu saya dan memberi pengajaran kepada saya bermula daripada sesimple pak cik lap tingkap di library yang tekun dan gigih mengelap kepada sebesar besar Associated Professor of Manipal University, Dr. K Ramnarayan. :)

Happy Birthday, Nira.

2011-08-15T23:38:00.000+05:30

Salam.. I'm here, maybe will be the last time I blog here in Manipal as such.. :(.. 5 days left, to be exact. I wish I have some extra days to feel and to appreciate Manipal as maximum as I can.. Yeah. Time is flying and we can't deny it for more. Either you wish the time to stop or to pause, it will however continue ticking leaving the rests of remaining seconds behind.

I just came back from celebrating my twin's birthday, MUNIRA MASRI. She is 22 years old on the dot. :P.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG... So happy for her. Have a blast, my dear. :)

Gambar suatu masa dulu di Malpe.:)

Second of all, tonight wasn't a good night for me. I didn't know what happened and why, but I felt so much gloomy and sad. Maybe people will see me as 'just fine' but I am so not okay. :'(.. Sometimes, I wish for something to happen but, at the end of the day it turned out to be some other ways that happened.:( Yeah I know I have to accept the fact that others may not fulfill what you want, because not all agree and have time to follow what you want. :(. Enough speaking about that. T_T.

Anyway, I suppose to call Mak today but since I didn't have time to recharge I have to postpone my wish.. I really want to know what happened to her thigh, was it getting better or get worsen? Mak, get well soon. Sayang n rindu mak. ;(

And last but not least, just want to tell you guys. I'm gonna sit for comprehensive exams on 17 and 18th August. The subjects are as follows:

MEDICINE
SURGERY
OBG
PALLIATIVE MEDICINE
MEDICAL ETHICS
PAEDIATRICS.

I didn't even started yet. Maybe tonight and maybe I postpone it till tomorrow. Depend on the mood. Good- nite peeps. Sleep tight.

Hye boxes!

2011-08-10T01:37:00.000+05:30

Salaam. Hey there, whatsapp? =). Well, currently I am kind of busy folding my boxes to get shipping to Malaysia from Manipal, India. Yeah, it is such a bored thing to even bother because you have to sellotape your boxes so well so that it won't get damaged so easily if by chance the boxes are thrown here and there during the process of shipping. Please and so many please I beg to those who take care of our belongings, please take care of all the boxes very well, don't simply throw them without sympathy.:'( I am scared of my boxes getting wet because there are so many boxes inside together with my clothes, the precious one. You don't know how they mean to us. =.=.. I've done only two boxes. Remaining is still on-the-go-list.. Waaaaa, I don't wanna leave this place. :(

Baru DUA settle. Waaa! :(

Just now, after lepaking at the Teaze( a place where bubble teas are sold), we (whom I refer to Mun, Mira and me) made our ways to the Nandini store, who owns by a blur uncle. Haha. Most of our times in Manipal, Nandini is one of the places we love to chit-chat, talk and talk and spend our times there when we are about to crack our minds after a lot of studying. We talked and talked and suddenly I think of something. I looked over his counter where there is 'a thing' we wrote last night. Something that I hope it won't fade off even if the water spills over the writings. It is such a memory. :(. Goodbye uncle. And goodbye akka too( akka happens to be his wife. She's so cute, I mean the way she talk. ;)

Tak balut lagi. :(

Hey guys, I think I have to stop now. Gotta continue packing. Will update later. Owh, btw last but not least, here is a note to a creature whom I used to call panda. Yeah, the big, fatty kind of thing who happens to be so spherical due to the excessive of eating and sleeping with lack of exercises. :P

Dear creature,

Sometimes we are given too much responsibilities and tasks.

Not because they hate us, but because they believe us. Not because they want you to suffer, but because they trust you. =).. And most of the time, as the consequences, there'll be a lot of tensions, stresses cloud the mind at the end of the day. If this thing happens, the performance tends to plummet. Don't ever ever let that happen. Don't break their trusts and believes. Keep on smiling and enjoy the tasks you've been given. Keep up the spirits and never let the small things crack your heart.

B E S T OF L U C K!! (^_^)

Exam mode.

2011-08-07T23:46:00.001+05:30

Study jom. ;). Medicine. They say, it's the toughest one. =.=

Mixed Feelings.

2011-08-04T22:55:00.000+05:30

Salaam Ramadhan, world.

Believe it or not, it is already 4 days of Ramadhan, yeah I didn't even realize about this.:).. 4 days of our meeting/ mulaqat with beloved Ramadhan. There are too many differences I do feel in this month compared to the other month. I don't know how to explain, but I really feel so good. Month of Barakah, insyaAllah. :). Use this chance to get closer to Him and maintain it for the rest of the years. Ameen.

Memories~

As Ramadhan is passing by, this means that the time left for me in Manipal is really really short. Very short. Mixed feelings haunt me anyway. Feeling good because I really can't wait to meet my family esp. my parents because yeah, I miss them so much. Feeling sad because I really love this place. Good lecturers, cool the way of studying and many more. Feeling relieved because at last, we will be freed from those TEMPE. And feeling so disappointed because, I lost one friend, very good friend of mine, very cool and funny, but unfortunately things happened and we split. Okay, stop or I might burst again. :"(

Well, just so you know I should have started packing, as very soon, these boxes will be collected but i didn't even started at all. Gonna start maybe tonight, we'll see the mood first. Ngeee~.. (^_^).

This coming Monday I might have end posting examination for Medicine. I don't really start studying but at least I have opened the book right? Hee.. :) Okay, I have to gather all the spirits and start doing what things I should have done so long before. Good luck, Nurul Fitrilina! :)

And btw, to Cik Noor Hasmira Binti Bismi,

Cik Mira kita yea.:)

DEAR... May Allah s.w.t bless you always. Sayang sangat kat awak.. ;")

Usrah team-mates. :)

IDK why but this picture really proves me that I am so boolat. Moga dapat kurus raya nanti. teeeheee :)

Kisah Teladan. Teehee..~

2011-08-03T22:51:00.000+05:30

Pada zaman pemerintahan Saidina Umar Al-Khattab r.a., terdapat sepasang suami isteri yang selalu bertengkar dan bergaduh. Si isteri tidak henti-henti membebel. Sedang memasak pun dia membebel, sedang membasuh pun dia membebel, sedang tidur pun kalau boleh dia nak juga membebel.

Si suami tidak tahan dengan perangai isterinya yang sangat suka membebel. Dia pun marah balik isterinya kerana membebel. Si isteri pula menjawab. Si suami mula meninggikan suara.

Dari situlah mereka bertengkar dan bergaduh saban hari. Lama kelamaan si suami merasakan yang isterinya sudah melampau. Memandangkan keadaan rumahtangga mereka semakin parah, si suami pun mengambil inisiatif untuk pergi berjumpa dengan Saidina Umar untuk mengadu kelakuan isterinya.

Sebaik sahaja tiba di rumah Saidina Umar, si suami terdengar isteri Saidina Umar sedang membebel di dalam rumah. Tetapi tidak terdengar pula suara Saidina Umar membalas. Mendapati isteri Saidina Umar pun begitu, si suami tidak jadi hendak mengadukan hal isterinya. Katanya dalam hati, kalau isteri Khalifah pun begitu, apatah lagi isteriku.

Ketika dia berpaling hendak pergi, tiba-tiba Saidina Umar memanggilnya dan bertanya, "Apa hajat kamu datang ke mari?"

Si suami tadi menjawab,
"Aku datang hendak mengadu hal isteri aku, tapi aku lihat isterimu pun berkelakuan demikian terhadapmu."

Saidina Umar tersenyum lalu berkata, "Tidak patut kalau aku tidak sabar dengan kerenahnya. Bukankah dia telah memasak makanan untukku, membasuh pakaianku, bersabung nyawa melahirkan zuriat untukku, menjaga anak-anakku dan dia tempat aku mendapat hajatku? Sabarlah, sesungguhnya keadaannya itu tidak lama (nanti akan baik sendiri)."

August.

2011-08-01T23:53:00.000+05:30

takde kaitan actually. tak tahu napa suka sangat gambar ni. epik. :)

Welcome Ramadhan. :)

First August of 2011.

August. Month of something. Till now and then. =)

Hopefully this Ramadhan will make us a step closer to Him. Ameen.

17 days left. Lub-dup in each beat makes the eyes glassy. Yeah glassy.

Song which is now playing: Misguided Ghost, by Paramore. :)

And to all my friends out there: Happy Friendship Day. 1/8/2011. It is never too late anyway.

Jaime Paris~~

2011-07-31T22:35:00.000+05:30

It is very significant.

Eiffel Tower, Paris.

I wonder why I am so into this place, because actually filming locations of Red Riding Hood(i.e: Canada) is far way better. ;)

Yeah.

First and will always be the first, the MINIATURE. The combined pieces on the table from you-know-who.

Second of all is this.

Third will be mystery. :)

sorry:(

2011-07-30T00:14:00.000+05:30

Guys, I am so sorry for the super-duper-big pictures of the blog.

I blogged from Audry last night. Forgot to change the settings for the size of the photos.

Sorry. :(

Ibu rindu awak cekelat.:)

2011-07-29T01:17:00.002+05:30

Hey there... Salaam peeps.. :-).. It's been a week since I last visited my blog or since I last babled in the blog. Not to say I am busy because they seemed to label 3rd year 5th semester as free as flying bird up far away in the sky.. but it is just too many things that I have done that have me forgotten CEKELAT a little while.. Don't worry baby your mama is back in the house. Haha.. :p.. Well it seems that I have lost the track of time. Yeah.. It happens. This morning when I was in the class, I tried to write something in my log book since I last opened the book which was a week back. However, I left the date box empty which was on the top of the page. I tried to recall what was d day today. Yeah found it! Thursday! But what is the date. Like fumbling in the dark, I turned to Edwin and looked over his watch. It was already 27 of July 2011. DAMN. I never thought that time flies so effing fast. Last time when I called mak, she happily said to me that she did this count down thing- when will I reach home. Aww. She misses me. :').. That time I had only 27 days left to reach my hometown. Pretty fast yet unexpected. Now the numbers will be smaller as per fact.
You might have been wondering what the hell I did these past few days that made me unable to visit CEKELAT daily. Well, these are some reasons:
1) I am in medicine posting right now in which the time alloted for study is a bit more compared to the previous posting.. Yeah medicine is interesting anyway even some people labelled it as so-tiring-you-can't-even-draw-a-cute smile. What the?? Hahaha.
2) I am officially following Dr. Gregory House from the first season.. He is cool as in.: jerk, annoyed, sarcastic, heartless but truth is he is genious, sweetly romantic and concern about people's life.
3) Busy getting in touch with emotions too much. Manipal and the memories, sadness and friendship and keep thinking about how fast a friend forgets a friend because of one single emotional mistake in which it is not under control. Scouffhh~..=.=
4) saree bussiness. This is all mother's idea. Yeah. Woman. What do you expect from us? Shopping is a undeniable quality.:p.
That's for now.. Just wanna show u guys some pictures of my medical books from 3rd to 5th year. Pretty much and thick anyway, as expected for medstu. :)

Ramadhan, welcome home dear;)

2011-07-17T06:18:00.002+05:30

Salam.. It's 550a.m in the morning.. I am blogging now while lying comfortably on my bed.. This is what I love about smart phone. You are definitely able to update blog, tweeting, facebooking even you are on your bed and even when u r sleeping( sorry this isn't true, I mean for the part when you are sleeping. Hee;D).. Well anyway, just so you know now we are all in the month of Syaaban which means Ramadhan is just around the corner. Oh, Ramadhan. So many things I love and miss about Ramadhan, good things of course most of the time. Well, in the month of Ramadhan it is said that Syaitan a.k.a Iblis are prisoned because Allah s.w.t wants us to ibadat to Him very well without Iblis's plan to ruin your Iman. But hey people, you have to remember that you still have your own lust. Yeah, the one that sometimes makes you careless and forgetful about something. So, you need to know how to control your lust so that you can perform good deeds during the month of Ramadhan very well. Talking about doing good deeds, not only for the month of Ramadhan you have to think but nevertheless you have to sustain the good deeds even months, years after that.
In the last and the last Ramadhan, many good memories happened that allowing me to appreciate Ramadhan so much like
- Woke up early in the morning to have sahur together with the whole family. (p/s: usually if I was at the college, I seldom bersahur. Teehee.. Lazy to wake up:p)
-perfomed subuh as early as the azaan just heard. It's good to perform prayer at early prayer times indeed.
-helped my mother in the kitchen to prepare the food for the breaking-fast session. This was cool you know.. Hee.. Smelling the food but you can't really eat it is really quite torturing but the feel is so good because at that time you really appeciate food so much:)
-one forgotten point: when I am fasting, I talk less. So less gossiping and thus less simple sins are done. Yey!!;)
-went to the bazaar ramadhan and purchased delicious food if let's say my mom was so tired to cook.:) I love air tebu! Hee..
- Breaking fast together was so memorable. :')
-Went to the tarawikh and it was actually kind of exercises to me if I was able to perform prayer for 23 rakaats including the witir one:)
-memorable supper with my dad: we usually bought burger as the supper. Bought outside and ate in the lovely home. So cool! I love burger either! Yeah well I love food to be exact. Hee..
That are my good memorable things about Ramadhan. How about you?;-)

What are words.

2011-07-14T18:00:00.000+05:30

Salaam. Rainy day today, is it? Yeah, well since I love raining, it does give me comfort and joy. I can play in the rain, cry in the rain so that nobody can see and get wet in the rain because I have to travel from food court to reach Ajay Arcade without raincoat. =.=. Serves me right. Pemalas sangat nak pakai raincoat. Teeheee. ;)).. Watching over the rain makes me smile somehow even before that my heart had this kind of so called crushing pain. Have you heard about it? Let me tell you. It's one kind of a pain in which it hurts you so much without reasons. It is actually more of disappointment and sadness when you think it isn't worth to have this pain because you have to remember that everything happens for a reason. Yeah, I repeat, everything happens for a reason, why I didn't come to class this morning, why A happened and why B occurred. All in sequences I would say. Perfect timing.

Why should I over-disappointed about something that have been explained why A did that, why B said that? It's because I unfortunately own this fragile little heart that simply hurts when things went wrong even they were only simple things. so SIMPLE that I should just let it go. :(

But fortunately I am not that kind who extend the sadness over a long period of time. Now I am okay, not totally but okay. :)

Peace!

Mak, abah, all of sudden I miss you both. I miss you both a lot :(

Aku.

2011-07-12T00:19:00.000+05:30

Aku mungkin tak bijak untuk meluahkan,

Aku mungkin juga kerap kali jatuh sedih bila angan-angan aku terbatas,

Kerana aku sedar ada benda aku tak mungkin dapat capai

Sebab walau terus aku menidakkan, inilah hidup.

Manipal

2011-07-07T22:34:00.001+05:30

Salam. Hello there. Alhamdulillah here we are again. We are still breathing by the free air He has given to us. Nevertheless, despite of all these, unfortunately some of us do not seem to appreciate what they have got. They tend to take thing for granted I shall say. We only appreciate it when lost it. :'(

sabar:)

2011-07-06T00:32:00.000+05:30

Kerana aku adalah hamba Allah,

Aku tidak sempurna, aku kadang-kadang terkhilaf,

Hati tak senantiasa mulus,

Sering mencari kesalahan orang lain walhal diri masih lagi tidak sempurna,

Aku tahu mungkin ada masa aku terlupa kerana indahnya dunia,

Mungkin juga aku kalah dengan dugaan yang mahu aku bangkit dan tetap dengan pendirian,

Mungkin juga aku terlalu memberi peluang pada si penggoda anak Adam,

Ya Allah, andai aku lalai, ingatkan aku.

Andai aku alpa, sedarkan aku.

p/s: ingatan untuk diri sendiri dan orang lain.

yang terus menerus mahu mencari kesalahan orang lain, sedangkan kita masih leka kita mungkin ada kesalahan yang jauh lebih teruk daripada orang yang kita perkatakan. Biar Tuhan yang membalas andai hati terluka pada perbuatan orang lain. Jangan berdendam, sesungguhnya sabar itu lebih baik. :)

Bola itu football. :)

2011-07-02T00:17:00.000+05:30

Yesterday was the final supremo football match. The last but not least game we( batch 24) have had here in Manipal. So, good bye End point. Good bye Manipal. Good bye and thanks for the memories. ;)

Yesterday was the final match BATCH 24 vs. BATCH 26.

Maybe it was not our lucky day., we lost to them 1-0.

Don't worry much, you guys have played very well.

You have played very well, too. =)

End Point, where the battle began

"ultimate victory is a team victory"

Surgery

2011-06-30T10:49:00.001+05:30

Just finished surgery's class. I am at home now. I don't really know what to do. Maybe I'll be sleeping. Maybe I'll continue watching Harry Potter or maybe I'll play some games. =.=
*mood: boredom!!'*

Bye Bye Karkala

2011-06-29T22:54:00.000+05:30

Today was the last day I posted to Karkala, since I have finished OBG and Paediatrics. Yeah, I am so happy thinking about this since there will be no more long journey after this. No more problematic AC bus and no more bumpy-humpy-bus-because-roads-are-super-terrible. But, to be real honest and at some point, I am kinda feeling sad some more because of so many reasons. The reasons include:

the lovely ikan goreng with boiled rice even the kedai was so critically ill condition in terms of hygience and the eating place.

this is the lovely ikan goreng with boiled rice. :))))

the super cool and nice OBG lecturers: Dr. Satisha, his wife Dr. Sujatha and fatherly Dr. Sanjay. :"( P/s: Dr. Sujatha is so hot!! Heeee~ She has a very niceeeeee smileeeeee I can say. *shy shy cat*
the 15 minutes time before the watch ticked to 1030 a.m because at this point of time, I love to be lazying in the class, sometimes I slept. Hihi. :D:D
Long journey allows me to sleep so soundly. :(

This is it. No more Karkala. Be good there, Karkala. Even you are only a small, little hospital, but you taught me a lot. :)
Say hello to SURGERY. Hello to Dr. Santosh Pai and hello to Dr. M.G Shenoy. :)

I will be missing you, dear karkala.:(

right in the kedai ikan with the boiled rice on the table. :D, Daun pisang beb. Epik!

Just want to update, currently I am following Harry Potter. I love Ron! He is cool, with cute eyelashes. ;))))))

Drama manusia

2011-06-26T19:04:00.000+05:30

Salam. One topic, about the matters of fact, why people love to stalk your life, judge you and tell others about the story of
yours which is NOT TRUE at all? I don't know what's on these people's mind. Talking behind someone's back is actually
what we love to do. I said WE cause sometimes I do the same. But, one thing I am so not okay is, when you talk about
someone's behind his/her back but after that you tend to tell others about that particular someone which is CLEARLY not
true whom you know that these 'others' may reveal the story to the subject back.. Can you imagine how this subject's
feeling would be when others talk about him/her about something that is not true at all. Yeah, maybe it sounds a little
complicated, but this is what I really mean. If I was the subject, I may feel sad either. :'(. Tak nak cakap banyak. People and their dramas. They may look innocent by their innocent looks, but don't be too comfort for that. :)

p/s: New name for my baby. Audry. Welcome to the world, Audry! <3<3<3

Minah di sebelah kiri suka berdrama gak. Tapi bdrama comel. :) Rindu wawa. :( She will be registering to new school, INTEC next week. Good luck dear sis! (^_^)

Andry

2011-06-25T10:31:00.001+05:30

Salaam.. Here I am after so many days of disappearance. Not to mention I am busy but it is just that I am so lazy to login and start typing. Yeah with this monsoon season, many things couldn't be done as such. So not much activities to be shared in Cekelat. Heee.. Sorry!! By the way, now since I have this so called Android I can easily blog anywhere.. Maybe after this I will be frequently updating this blog. Just so you know, now I am heavenly lying on someone else's bed to get the wireless connection but actually I am supposed to go posting at Udupi. I am so lazy today. *singing The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars* lalalala~.. Tata!!!

burn

2011-06-13T23:47:00.000+05:30

What you can hide, you can hide, because people can't really dig your heart you know, they really can't.

You may seem happy in front of the world, but truth is you suffer in the soul, that is what people love to do.

Let yourself burn inside.

"tidak ada kena mengena yang hidup atau pun yang telah tiada."

Salam and good night, world. :)

Kucing hitam dan oren. meow2

2011-06-10T19:00:00.001+05:30

Hey. Salam.

Nothing much in here. Just want to say something.

Hati manusia cepat lembut. Dulu mungkin pernah sampai suhu mendidih. Tapi sekarang dah macam dekat Alaska. lalalala~. ;)

Anyway, IMY. Just so you know, IMY.

I am hoping that one day, things go back to the way it was before.

Because memories can't be faded.

People tend to do mistakes, and people may regret of what they have done:)

:(

2011-06-08T22:36:00.000+05:30

Semangat itu kadang-kadang datang, kadang-kadang pergi,

Kalau dia datang kita biar, kita abai dan kita leka

Sebab kita terlalu yakin bahawasanya saat dan waktu yang lain dia akan muncul kembali

Tapi andaian tidak sememestinya betul, tekaan tidak semestinya kena

Dia pergi macam angin pergi lepas singgah untuk seberapa ketika sahaja.

Itulah semangat sebenarnya.

:( :( :(

Janji Allah itu benar.

2011-06-05T22:57:00.000+05:30

Hello. Hola. Salam, sunshines. :) Well, meet again. Nothing much to talk and babble, just something about things I have learned today during Usrah.

Whatever we do, like studying, just remember that no matter how hard you struggle to pass the exam, no matter how focus you are to gain the knowledge, always remember that you still have to put Him in the very first place. Never forget about Allah s.w.t who always listen to your prayers. To absorb well in the process of knowledge collection, the clean and clear heart is very crucial. :)
Islam is very simple, it doesn't complicate the slaves. use the opportunity to appreciate and perform what you are asked to, as long as you are still breathing in this world. Once your heart stops beating and your brain stops functioning, nothing can be undo.
"Janji Allah itu benar."(^_^)

Second of all, my baby is about to be delivered. Still thinking about its name and its twin's name. Haha. :D:D. Hopefully, I will get it as soon as possible. So can't wait to meet it. ;)

Third of all, I just realized something during the group discussion just now. We have to submit the case-sheet which we never start doing it. And plus end posting exam is just around the corner. Takut. =.=

:)

2011-06-05T08:27:00.000+05:30

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta,lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata, itu bukan bermakna dia lemah, tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu..

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila seorang perempuan marah, memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu. Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh. Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang, semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak, dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas, tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah, itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya, tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik, bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk masa depan anda.

Andainya lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda, bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang..tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda dan masih mengangap anda anak kecil yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian. Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya, anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi. Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat. Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan merajuk, jangan kata dia mengada-ngada. Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit atau hadiah sedozen, tetapi cukup dengan perhatian yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’, itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya, bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu, dia benar-benar maksudkannya. Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.Andai lelaki tahu..Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu, jangan percaya kata-katanya kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu. Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya. Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya. Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah, walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan menjadi degil, dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil tapi dia mahu melihat sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya. Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut. Andai kena caranya, jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Apabila perempuan berkata, “tolong tinggalkan saya!”, dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya. Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja. Apabila dia kembali tenang, percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula. Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda. Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan. Dia terlalu emosional. Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.

Andai lelaki tahu..

Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri. Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami, mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan . Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali. Di sebalik air matanya, tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya. Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri yang bisa menggoncang dunia dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya. Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyongkong anda dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna. Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda...

Hujan. Kirimkan pesanan kepada dia. :)

2011-06-04T23:18:00.001+05:30

Salaam. Today again, there is raining, maybe a slight rain with a little thunder even till now. I can hear the sound of the 'awful' creature, Frog( as for me la kan. hihi) singing a terrible song. =.=. I don't know why the hell I am so cannot go with this greenly thing. I am sorry, I know it's not your fault, but till now, I can't open my heart to welcome you. T.T. well, move on to the topic of rain. Well, I'd love to say that I love rain! so much! Like I don't know how to explain but I love it so much!! :D:D I know some people may say that, yeah rain is not good because some people tend to fall sick when they are exposed to the rain, or some might have cold or fever, but truth is, all of these do not applicable to myself. Alhamdullilah, till today, my immune system is quite impressive. I can stand with this for so long, I mean the rain part. I don't mind exposing myself to the raindrops because the chance that I might get the cold is very much less compared to the others. Bukan nak riak ke apa, tapi kebenaran, even I don't know why.

Even when I was in primary school, I only skipped class for 3 days for the whole year, because of only 3-day-slight-mild-fever. Cool kan? :) hee. But, that time I was so jealous to those who could bunk class, using the reasons that they weren't feeling well. I obviously couldn't use the reason because I RARELY sick. But now, having this advantage really makes me feel kinda grateful sometimes. I don't have to buy medicines so much, like others do. Pity them huh. =.=. Spending sometimes about RM30 per day because of the drugs are so expensive in which you can use the money to buy something else apart from the medicines if you don't fall sick.

I love watching the rain. It touches the heart sometimes, I don't know why:)

Again, RAIN. I love playing in the rain. Getting yourself wet, and play something under the heavy rain is really satisfying. :) I know some groups of people tend to label people who love to play in the rain as crazy but I really don't mind. hihi. If those times when I was young, I used to go out from my room everytime I listened to the sounds of raindrops on the roof. It's time to play!! And yeah, mom always care about us. =.=. If my mom caught me playing in the rain, I gotta listen to her talks the whole day. Hee. sayang mak! ;)

masa first year:). nanti jadi monster ni la balik, dengan baju hujan dan bawak payung ke sana sini:)

By the way, even today, at the age of 21, I have the thought to play in the rain again. The last I remembered I played in the rain was during last year, heavy monsoon season and we played football that time. I miss those memories so much:(

Don't worry of being sick. Ubat kan ada. Main je hujan. Haha.

Bagi saya ni free, saya kahwin dengan sapa-sapa la. Haha~

That's the story about rain. Now it comes to the story about phone, yeah whatever you want to refer it to like hand phone, mobile phone or ring ring. :) Let's make thing simpler, I have my own NOKIA express music 5730 now, which I bought on August 2009. But now, I don't know why I think I want to buy new one. ANDROID kinda type. First and foremost, I preferred HTC brand more. But then, since the price is too expensive which I am not so affordable to buy HTC, I bury my intention deep down the ground. ( Actually, if I want to but it, there's no problem at all. but in Malacca I may have to eat Maggi for dinner. Haha.:P) So, from HTC I revert to SAMSUNG Galaxy SL. Hee. Still thinking about it, and maybe I am gonna buy it. InsyaAllah. :) I asked the opinions from different people, my parents, him, and my friends and they mostly say "It's up to you" which I interpret it as, "Yeah, you should buy it one. Hihi".
Today, we won netball over batch 27. Congratz, teammates. :) Hopefully we will meet Batch 26 again for the final , and this time we gonna show you guys our real 'we'. Teeheee~ :D.

That's all from now. I will have end posting exam this Tuesday at Karkala before move to the next posting, OBG which I can't wait the most. ( I am so thrilled to see the process of delivery with my own eyes. LIVE. ). Wish me luck.

Jadi Kuat Macam Badang ?

2011-06-01T22:21:00.000+05:30

Salam. What's up people? Fine? Doing good? Or something happens in between? :S By the way, whatever it is, just live your life to the fullest because we only get the chance one, don't regret if time passes and you've done nothing good to yourself or others. :( Chillax:) Anyway, have I told you guys that now I have posted to Karkala? Well, it is 45 minutes away from Manipal, quite a long journey right? Takpe, people used to say that, the more distances you take to reach to a good place, the more rewards you get. Rewards macam pahala la. :) One word about Karkala so far. NOT BAD. Not bad in what way? Hmm, that makes me think twice to elaborate. Actually, there were many things happened for the past two days, things which were categorized as not so good. *Sigh* One of them was, we were scolded by lecturers in Karkala saying that we learnt nothing in Udupi and they weren't satisfied to our presentations. Pity us kan? :( But, actually, that was the thing we've been taught in Udupi. These lecturers expect too much from us. I'm sorry, we promise that we'll try our best to satisfy you guys okay. :) Please have faith in us. T___T

Second of all, I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home.

Third of all, I lost one of my best friend, because of something that I can't control. My heart desire. I can't control, if only you know, and I can't choose if only you know. Then, goodbye from me, if that is what you really want and if that is what's the best for you. Take good care of yourself.

Fourth of all, I am thinking about buying ticket to go back to Malaysia, either MAS or Air Asia? T__T. Oh my my, I really don't have any idea about this. Should I buy the expensive one because after all, I can claim the ticket's price. Hopefully, I got the answer a.s.a.p.

Last but not least, last night I suddenly thought of something, something about my future career. When I was about to sleep last night, I suddenly had this thought:

"Lagi 3 tahun, saya akan jadi doktor. Bukan doktor haiwan ke doktor tumbuh tumbuhan, tapi doktor kepada manusia. Manusia yang ada perasaan yang boleh cerita dia sakit ke tak. Saya kena cuba treat manusia setakat mana termampu. "

What I thought was, am I able to perform this duty very well? Am I ready to be scolded when things go wrong during the duty-performing? Do I have the gut to treat people, and diagnose them and comfort them if I have to? Ya Allah, this isn't the easy decision. I've come this far, and I've to continue and have the faith in myself and most importantly, I have to believe in you, Ya Allah, whatever happens is under Your control, not mine or not others. I don't know the future obviously, but I hope I can do the best. Yakin pada diri, yakin dengan hati, gunakan ilmu yang ada untuk mengubati orang yang memerlukan dengan izinNya.

Sometimes, I feel so weak, thinking that am I that good to have the chance to be a doctor, or it is actually just a coincidence of all? But, deep down my heart, there is one voice that keep telling me this:
Nurul Fitrilina, awak boleh buat sebab tu DIA bagi peluang dekat awak untuk jadi doktor suatu hari nanti. DIA yakin awak ada kebolehan untuk selamatkan orang yang memerlukan bantuan awak dengan izinNya. Jadi, awak kena kuat supaya orang yang mencari awak nanti pun kuat macam awak."

And truth is, this voice which keeps me stronger at this point of time. Ya Allah, please help me to face all of these obstacles so that I will be stronger as the day passes. :)

Hey Stalker!

2011-05-30T23:41:00.000+05:30

I like you without reasons
I care for you without hoping for anything in return
I only look at you from far doesn't mean I am scared of truth
It is just I don't want them to know, I don't want them to judge me
I just want ONLY YOU to know that I am here for you
Come hell or high water, the feelings will never faded
It is uncontrollable, unchangeable as the seasons are changing
Remember the first thing you gave me, I kept it at one corner safely
I don't want to lose it, I don't want to spoil it
Trying to retain it for the rest of my life
Because I appreciate memories and pasts
Some pasts are easily forgotten but some stay in the hearts,
Like the one I created it with you.

People always remind me that, we don't know the future,yet it can't also be predicted,
But, they also say, we can build the strong base for the future,
We can cover it with beautiful and strong roof,
And place a nice floor on the land,
That's how the future starts.:)

Maybe one day we both grow old,
You may have grayish hair, I may have wrinkled unattractive lines over my face
I may stumble while walking, and you may take the steps forward with stick slowly
We may come to 60, 70, and maybe luckily 80,
But one thing I wish from the day I met you till the last day I may see you,
you still remember my name, and where I once stayed which is in your heart,
You still remember the loves, laughs and the cries we share together
And you still remember I have once( not once but thousand times) uttered to you, "you are special to me."
:)

*I mean it. I really do*

Emo.

2011-05-26T01:08:00.000+05:30

*Amaran keras: Hari nie post aku akan semuanya ditulis dalam bahasa kebangsaan, bahasa melayu terchenta.* Heeee~

Okay, macam ni, aku pun tak tahu kenapa dan sebab apakah tiba-tiba hari ni aku EMO gila. Aku ulang, aku EMO. Check check balik nak kata 'SPM' pun tak. Hadoi, ni mesti penangan Dr. Kunal Narad yang suka nak marah-marah bila kitorang tak ingat Anatomi. Logik la kan, dah dua tahun tinggal, macamana la nak ingat. =.=... Maaf, chekgu chomel. Hihi.

Mari fitri nak chechite chechite kenapakah fitri emo hari ni. Apa yang aku buat yang menyebabkan aku melabelkan diri aku sebagai emo? Adakah aku emo tak bertempat? Atau emo aku emo macho dan cool? Haha. Saspens tak? :) macam ni, tadi aku dail la nombor tepon mak terchenta yang duduk di kampung teroi, guar chempedak. Maka, aku dengar sayup-sayup suara wawa angkat. "Ya own, napa?" Kata wawa. Terkejut dengar suara dia, (sebab aku ingat dia kat rumah makcik aku lagi kat SP sebab dia nak pergi program 3 hari di hospital), aku pun bertanya: "Aikk? Dah habis ka program?" Maka, wawa pun menjawab ya. Dia pun tanya adakah aku nak cakap dengan mak. Aku cakap ya, dan sejurus selepas itu terdengar sayup-sayup suara mak dari jauh.. Mak tanya bila balik Malaysia? Aku cakap lah tak taw lagi sebab ingat nak jalan-jalan Kashmir dulu. Pastu tetiba mak cakap, nanti wawa p, mak nak p manipal dengan aku n semua. Tetiba aku sedih. tah pape kan? Aku EMO. Aku cakap kat mak,

"Yela, bila wawa dapat sini baru mak nak datang tapi own kat sini mak tak datang-datang. :( Sedih sampai nangis. Pelik kan? hahaha. Mak cakap, "Sekarang mak susah, adik adik nak sekolah busy lagi, wawa nak masuk tempat baru lagi, banyak duit nak pakai. Nanti kita p sama-sama la tengok wawa. :)" Tapi aku ni degil. Aku pun cakap kat mak, "Takpela kalo mak tak mau datang. Tak kan nak paksa." Aku EMO. Skarang baru malu. Padahal small matter je kot. Emo macam tahi kucing. Oppss. Hihi. Tetiba mak bagi fon kat abah. Abah cakap napa? Lagi la aku sebak. Aku cakap takde pape. Takpela. Aku cakap kena hang-up aku nak pi solat. actually, tu alasan jer. then, lepas letak je telefon, ada orang lain call. Tersebak lagi kat orang lain. Sumpah segan. (T_T)..

Wawa gemuk :p

mak dengan abah:)

Sampai lah kemudiannya, aku jadi nyesal cakap macam tu. Aku rasa, kasarnya aku cakap camtu. Kenapa aku tak mengiyakan je apa mak abah cakap? Apa diorang cakap betul kot. Aku je emo. Mak, abah, own minta maaf. :( Sorry teremo tak bertempat. Sayang semua sangat-sangat. Rindu semua sangat-sangat. :(

Then, pada malam hari, aku ada basketball match. Macam biasa la main macam taik ayam kali ni. Haha. Main jela, try je sumbat. Kalo masuk rezeki, kalo tak de tak de la. Dah penat nak aim menang. :) Kalah pun tak pe, at least semangat tu ada..

adam n wawa. abah kat belakang.:)


ina busuk! ;)

aliff mata sepet. :D

Mungkin setakat ni sahaja entri kali ini. Maafkan saya andai awak terasa dengan emo emo saya, ya sapa-sapa pun awak. Saya ni manusia biasa, yang kadang kadang terkhilaf. truth is, I never meant to do that. XOXO, Fit. ;)

ABC

2011-05-25T00:51:00.001+05:30

Salam all.:) I am here again. I will not talk much, just a few words about what has happened during these few days.

I have watched Fast 5. It was super superb I shall say. The stunt was great, unbelievable and I love it! ;) I like the main character, so called Dom. OMG, he was so freakingly undeniable hot!!! Burning hot! The way he talked, acted and smiled, ohhh, so sweet and cool. And the best female character goes to the lady who ride the bike, with long hair. She was also hot. :D.

I tried Ais Kacang or ABC which is made here in Manipal for the first time. Out of 5, I'll give 3 maybe. Not bad, but still cannot beat the one at Malaysia as always. :)

My groupmates including me, were scolded by Dr. Kunal Narad, from the department of Pediatrics. :( At first, I felt kind of sad and disappointing, but when I take it from the positive side, if he never scolded us, we never learn. Cool huh?;)

Again, we are busy with Supremo games. If you guys still remember, I've posted something about, I felt so not into sports anymore, but since too much supports I got and the left-over spirits, I decided to just continue playing. Thanks to the additional characters esp. the main one:)

I miss HOME. Yeah, I mean this. I suddenly miss mak, abah, ina, wawa, adam and aliff. ;( I supposed to call mak tonight because I have promised her, but since I got netball practice, I TOTALLY forgot about it. Sorry, ma, I call you tomorrow k. :) Love you always. (^_^)

I fell down from the bicycle at T M A Pai Hospital. OMG, so embrassing. :( I didn't have pictures of me, on the ground where the bicycle was on my lap, but I've got the pictures before the incident happened. Ngeee~~~;)

That's all for now. Love you always. :)

layman.

2011-05-18T18:02:00.000+05:30

I know I am not a good human being. I am not noble, not even great person. I am a common somebody who don't have anything to be proud of so far. I have a typical daily routine that I follow that have nothing to be satisfied about. Sometimes I talk about others behind, sometimes I say bad things, sometimes I am so not grateful of what I already have. I am me.

Even in studies, most of the time I sigh a lot, I comment about the hectic medical student life, I comment about the lecturers even I know I am not supposed to do so.:( My mom once said to me:
"Kak, cikgu ni pekerjaan paling mulia. Apa pun yang kadang-kadang depa buat, macam terpukul, termarah, tertinggi suara, depa buat untuk kebaikan anak-anak didik dia. Sebab depa ada mission. Nak semua students depa cemerlang dan jadi orang berguna masa depan." Those times, I didn't appreciate of all what she said. Even now, sometimes I do comment about lecturers, I get mad to the lecturers. Owh, how bad I am.:( And thankful to Him, I still have the thought that what I did was wrong. I have the thought that I want to change the part that I suppose to change about myself. I wish to not even sigh in studies when it comes to thousands of works to be done esp. in this medical field because I realise that life is still long. There are millions of obstacles are waiting along the journey. Life will never be the same. Later, I will get MBBS degree
( insyaALLAH) and that time, the responsibilities will be even more like hard time during work, etc.Hopefully, I don't treat the responsibilities as some kind of burden. Hopefully.

Then, in relationship, I shall say, I am not a perfect-noble-great woman in terms of qualities. I easily get jealous, tend to have bad thoughts when I keep thinking about futures and etc. Especially the jealousy part, I can't help it. I am so jealous even a little thing. I know, sometimes I have to be matured enough and be professional. But, yeah, things happen and we just can't help it.:( maybe after this, I'll try my best to be as professional as I should be. =.=. Maybe this time, tolerate and understanding between both is important. Don't worry, I will try my best.:)

All in all, I know maybe people may say back to me: Nobody is perfect, accept of who you are. I agree with that, but from some points I hope all my negative thoughts will revert to positive someday. All of these are for my own good and people around me. By the way, just so you know, I love you all and will always do. :)

yeah! :)

2011-05-18T01:49:00.000+05:30

Salaam. :) Today, I played something that I never ever played before, something that is quite cool and sharp even precise to be scientific.:D. Presenting, the new talent that I've got( Should I stress the word talent? haha. Because, to be honest, I am still learning, not even reach the medium level. Pro memang tak la kan. hee.) which is the, POOL. Cool enough huh? :D Maybe pictures can tell how cool it is. :)

Sayang cikgu selamanya.:)

2011-05-16T15:04:00.000+05:30

Finally. After struggling for about 2 weeks, The Red Hawk won the battle. Should I say struggling? Because, as per counted, I only got two gold medals for Tug of War and Volleyball out of 5 games that I participated. To be real honest, at the very first place, I was kinda disappointed, why we couldn't make it, although we've tried very hard, trained almost every evening but, the victory is still not ours. :( Even sometimes, I have to thought to retire from playing in any of the games offered. But, as what I encountered and as what he told me, "Menang Kalah adat permainan, it is the spirit that matters, " then I started to realize that, I need the spirit more, not the winning. Congratulations NORTH for the good effort. You guys are rocks.! and to the southern team, don't worry. You guys were great too, especially the ATHLETICS part because just so you know, I am athleticophobia. Hahahah. B). I love the spirits that have been showed by both parties. Love it so much. Sometimes, I feel like crying in a smile, when I saw those spirits . :)

That is it. And now. just want to update. Just finished community medicine posting. and the end posting exam was over! After the exam ended, both F1 and F2 groups together with Dr. Sanjay had a cake, specially made by Ain. Yummy! So delicious. :D. We watched the slide show of the groups together. Actually, at first I was supposed to make the slide show, but then, I passed the job to Sundaraa, as he knew more than me, as I am still learning to use the Cyberlink Power Director thingy.:) What I did, was just providing the appropriate songs to Sundaraa. By the way, when it came to the song entitled "Graduation" by Vitamin C, the air was suddenly turned sad.:( yeah, F1 and F2 gotta separate for a while, since Paediatric and OBG postings are divided into those who go to Karkala and those who go to Udupi. Hey, F2, maybe we'll meet again during the Surgery posting which will be in one months and half time.:) Don't miss me much. :D

Owh, one more thing. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all my teachers from kindergarten, SKKP, SKT, SKHHD, SMKGC, MJSC LANGKAWI, KTT, AND MMMC. Thanks for the knowledge that you guys poured to me without bored. Happy teacher's day to mak too. I still remembered when I was 7, when I couldn't answer math questions, you used to pinch me, and compared me to the best student in class. I was so sad that time:( But, now when I think it back, I think I should thank you for doing that, as now, I am standing the way I am now. ( Even I know, there is so zero relation between math and medicine. hee. :)) You are the best teacher I've ever had. :)

And one last thing I want to tell, I've got new message tone! jeng jeng jeng. :D

I love my memories. Do you? :)

2011-05-14T11:29:00.000+05:30

Hello sunshine. ;) Meet again, here, nowhere but Cekelat. As time passes by, I've learnt too many things. From A to Z, then reverse from Z to A, then again M in between and back to G somehow. It is a learning process, and it is routine and a norm that we all have done even till today. Learning and memorizing things are two common terms that are so familiar in the world of medicine. Memorizing what you have learnt is a must. Understanding what you have been taught is a priority but then again when the exam is just around the corner, you tend to memorize things. I am talking about medical students to be specific. No one should deny it, cause we all do the same, now and then. Memorizing about drugs, pathologies and physiological changes in one's life are common things we do. But, have you ever wondered, about certain MEMORIES either sweet or the other way round, are they stucked in the head because we keep memorizing them, or they stuck in the head, because we can't control them and they stuck whenever they want? Do I make myself clear? Yeah. MEMORIES.

You don't invent the memories, they came and attached to our lives as time passed by. Easy, let me simplify for you guys. Let's say for example: One day, you gave one of your friend a gift. Not really special but the gift was something that she like the most. For you, maybe yeah it was just a gift, it didn't worth much, only costed about RS120, but you know how much it meant to your friend? It means something. It means everything. It is enough for your friend to write in the diary about her/his appreciation due to the gift you gave them. That is the MEMORY. Even they sometimes keep the wrapping papers till now. MEMORY mustn't always be so permanent, sometimes it fades with time. Memory may fades if the persons that involved in the memory were no longer exist or they purposely fades the memory away because sometimes they get hurt or they don't want to linger their lives to the past, it maybe goes that way. But, the real and unforgettable memory is the one that keep hanging on the walls of heart till your last breath. That MEMORY is the real one, undeniable, unshakable and enough to make you smile for the whole day if it strikes the heart all of a sudden. :)

I do have my memories too. Memories that are long lasting, unforgettable, sweet and irresistible. I bet all of you have one at least. Just want to let you guys know that, whatever the memories are, and whoever the memories related to, just APPRECIATE the memories that you have. Sometimes, they don't repeat. They are sweet and they tend to make you diabetic but, appreciate those memories. :) Even it is only a small thing that maybe you think as time passes by, you may erase that memory away. But, please don't. Please keep them in the heart.

Someday and some other fine days, you may sit somewhere with your loved one, reminiscing back the memories that you have instilled with him/ her together that were too sweet to be described in words. Appreciate each and every day you have, and store the memories in the heart, and don't let them buried deep in the oceans. (^_^)

And one more thing I learnt today, we are made in couples( Allah jadikan manusia ni berpasangan.). One has certain positives and certain negatives, and same goes to the other one. Both complete one another. You maybe good in A but I maybe even better in B than you. That makes life sweet and that creates the memories. * back to the main topic, memories.*:)

By the way, now I just realise I am in third year, and too many things have passed and some stay and some have gone. I appreciate those who stay and goodbye to those who leave, maybe there are certain hikmah in all of these. Maybe, it's the fate that make some stay and some leave. I love my life. Hope you do too. ;)

Shared Link.

2011-05-14T11:27:00.001+05:30

Salaam. I've got this story from someone in FB, just suddenly found it out. :) Read and think. For me, and for you out there.(^_^)

Dengan Nama Allah y Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasih.

Aku bukanlah orang yang baik. Itu satu benda y pasti. Tapi aku nak jadi baik. Itu satu benda y susah sekali. Ya, memang aku ada niat nak berubah. Itu langkah pertama aku untuk berubah. Tapi langkah kedua aku selalu tak menjadi. Langkah kedua ialah buat perubahan. Itu tersangat susah.

Ada orang kata "senang je nak buat baik...". Ya..untuk orang-orang macam korang boleh la cakap macam tu sebab korang memang dah baik. Aku ni dalam suasana y susah untuk aku berubah.

Selalunya jika kita ikhlas ingin berubah ke arah lebih baik kerana Allah SWT, Allah SWT akan memudahkan urusan kita kan? Haa..y tu betul! sangat betul! Sebab lepas je aku niat nak berubah tu, aku berjumpa dengan kawan lama aku kat FB ni. Bukan kawan lama tapi kawan sekolah y kitorang tak pernah bertegur sapa. Aku luahkan masalah aku kat dia. Dia layan aku sangat baik. Malangnya dia perempuan. KENAPA MALANG PLAK?? Sebab...kitorang xboleh rapat sangat...dia menjaga dirinya. Tapi seingat aku, bila aku chat dengan dia y aku nak berubah, dia balas...

"betulkan niat awak nak berubah tu kerana Allah ye..kemudian solatlah.."

Aku beritahu dia y aku xreti solat...xpernah solat...aku sedih bila nak berubah tapi ambil wudhuk pun aku xtahu..

Dia balas...

"So..mulalah belajar solat.. =) "

Simple giler ayat dia kan? Just suruh betulkan niat & solat. Boleh caya ke minah ni???

Then, xlama selepas itu aku terbaca satu hadis Rasulullah SAW...

"Amirul Mukminin Abi Hafsh Umar bin Khattab ra berkata, Aku mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda,

sesungguhnya amal perbuatan itu disertai dengan niat & setiap orang mendapat balasan amal sesuai dengan niatnya. Barangsiapa yang berhijrah hanya kerana Allah & RasulNya, maka hijrahNya itu menuju Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa hijrahnya kerana dunia yang ia harapkan atau kerana wanita yang ingin ia nikahi, maka hijrahnya itu menuju yang ia inginkan."

[Diriwayatkan oleh 2 orang ahli hadis : Abu Abdullah Muhammad bin Ismail bin Ibrahim bin Mughirah bin Bardizbah Al-Bukhari dan Abu Husain Mualim bin Al-Hajjaj bin Muslim Al-Qusyairy An-Naisaburi, di dalam kedua kitab tershahih si antara semua kitab hadis]

Patutlah si dia suruh aku betulkan niat. So, aku pun betulkan niat kerana Allah semata-mata. Aku pun sedar yang aku dah banyak sangat dosa. SANGAT BANYAK! aku takut aku mati dalam keadaan aku tengah buat dosa. Tak dapat aku bayangkan kalau aku mati sewaktu aku tengah berjudi, minum arak, atau pukul orang. Ya ALLAH, aku takut...

Tentang solat...aku tak tahu kenapa penting sangat solat ni...kan lebih baik kalau si dia suruh aku bersedekah ke, berzikir ke, baca Al-Quran ke..ni dia suruh aku solat plak..dah lah aku ni xtahu langsung tentang solat..huhu

Aku pernah dengar solat itu y membezakan orang Islam & kafir...fuh! biar betul..aku tak nak jadi orang kafir..nak jadi orang Islam..Ya Allah..bantulah aku..

Tetiba aku dapat inbox message kat FB ni..dari si dia...

Hadis Nabi...

Abu Abdurrahman Abdullah bin Umar bin Khattab ra. berkata, Aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda,

"Islam dibangun atas lima pilar : (1) PERSAKSIAN BAHAWA TIADA TUHAN SELAIN ALLAH, dan MUHAMMAD RASUL ALLAH, (2) MENDIRIKAN SOLAT, (3) MENGELUARKAN ZAKAT, (4) MELAKSANAKAN IBADAH HAJI, dan (5) BERPUASA RAMADHAN."

[Hadis riwayat Bukhari & Muslim]

Patutlah solat itu penting..aku dah pun mengaku y Allah satu-satunya Tuhan & Nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah SWT..seterusnya aku kenalah dirikan solat kan?

Sejak itu setiap kali aku chat dgn dia, dia mesti akan tanya "da mula belajar solat?"..aku pulak asyik jawab "belum lagi..susah la awak" dia akan balas "semoga awak diberi kekuatan sebelum terlambat.." dan selepas itu dia takkan balas pape mesej, chat, or komen dari aku.

Benda tu berlanjutan sehingga sebulan lamanya hingga tiba suatu hari y kitorang dah mula lost contact. Dia ada je online, tapi tak pernah tegur aku. Takpe lah..sekurang-kurangnya aku dapat baca post-post dia...ad satu Post status dia yang wat aku terkesan..

"Wahai manusia, jika kamu ditinggalkan oleh manusia y kamu kasihi, pasti kamu akan merintih..tapi jika Allah meninggalkan kamu, kamu tidak peduli..mengapa begitu? Sedarkah kamu bahawa jika Allah sudah membiarkan kamu, kamu hanya perlu menunggu dimasukkan ke neraka jahannamNya..tahu mengapa? kerana jika Allah meninggalkan mu, kamu akan terus dibiarkan dalam maksiat yang kamu lakukan. Hati kamu tidak akan terdetik lagi untuk bertaubat. Keadaan itu akan berlanjutan sehingga akhir hayatmu jika tiada usaha darimu untuk membuat perubahan..sesudah habis hayatmu di dunia, kamu akan dibangkitkan semula & pelbagai soalan akan ditanya kepadamu..tentang UMUR mu, HARTA mu..wallahu'alam~"

sangat takut! Sejak dari hari tu, aku berubah perlahan-lahan. Setiap kali keluar dengan kawan-kawan, aku dah mula hormati azan. Kawan-kawan aku tegur "perh..otai kite dah tobat r.."..aku mesti balas "wak lu..saje je nak diam..hehe" Ya Allah berilah aku kekuatan...selain tu, aku mula jaga cakap aku..tak mencarut sembarangan..aku mula layan you tube cara solat..aku beli buku cara belajar solat budak tadika sebab comel & aku pun tak pening nak baca panjang-panjang..hehe

Makin lama sedikit demi sedikit aku berubah... SERIUS aku cakap nak berubah BUKAN SENANG tapi kalau asyik bagi alasan, tu y rasa berubah tu macam payah sangat je..hehe

Alhamdulillah sekarang aku dapat rasa aku dijaga Allah..kalau aku di ajak ke PUB dengan kawan-kawan, aku elak untuk pergi, tapi kekadang pergi jugak sebab susah sangat nak elak. Tapi bila pergi tu, mesti aku balik awal..xlepak lama-lama dgn member aku. Aku g lepak kat tempat lain..lepak r kat mana-mana contohnya atas bukit tepi highway ke..macam jiwang kan?haha then tengok bulan, bintang..aku xperasan selama ni Allah dah bagi macam-macam nikmat kat aku..tapi aku sombong dengan Allah..aku buat macam-macam dosa..akan ada ketika aku teringat pesan si dia yang dah lama hilang dari hidup aku. Walau apa kita buat, betulkan niat & jaga solat. Terima kasih awak...semoga urusan awak dipermudahkan...

Selagi bergelar hamba Allah, semua orang berhak berubah! ;D

Secret Garden?

2011-05-14T01:12:00.000+05:30

I lost the previous post. :(((((((

Who stole it? Tell me, tell me. :(((

By the way, I am currently following the Korean movies entitled Secret Garden.

I love the story line. I don't really like the hero, Hyun Bin nor the heroin, Ra Im. Hehe~

But, the story line is super cool. Yeah, I admit that some part of the movies are kinda lame, but yeah, it can be a great
Korean movies to be followed.

Comel pulak lahaiii budak dua ketul ni dalam gambar ni. :)

Err, not to forget, end posting exam is just around the corner. Haha. Screw you commed! :D:D:D:D.


Takde kaitan. Saja nak letak. Impian saya: Nak ada secret garden sendiri dekat rumah saya nanti. Landskap pun okay. Heee~


Asian style landscape.:)

This house may look dull and gloomy. but I love the green scenery around the house:)

Pictures of you, pictures of me, pictures of us.

2011-05-11T11:45:00.000+05:30

Days of pictures.:)


Ain and Fit. :) She's cute, I am not. haha

As the title says..

Doing data analysis about water source, and quality. I love commed if and only if bocin didn't take the class. ^^

Two cute birds I met yesterday at bird's shop when I accompanied syikin searching for her tortoises' home :)

They finally got closer with each other, when at the very first place, they looked shy. Haha!

Aww. ~ :D

Clindamycin 1%. Bye bye pimples. :)

Last but least, thanks for the idea of this background. :)

Cekelat nak baju baru, ibu. :(

2011-05-10T19:28:00.000+05:30

Hey there.:) Whaddup? Salaam. Anyway, I am about to change Cekelat's cloth, because yeahhh he is so fussy, bored about his lame old shirt? Is he commenting? Or I am the one who is commenting all the way? Haha. :) I guess, it is me. Yeah, it's me. I am kinda bored with that old chocolate picture, and guess I need new background. I browsed for so many pictures and finally it came with this. This may be temporary, because I asked for other's opinion too. This may look a little bit complicated to read, that's why I am still searching for the new background. It can be any type: NATURE, CARTOON, FOOD, OR anything, so on and so forth. Any idea? =.= *blank and blur*

The Princess Kissed The Frog!

2011-05-08T01:39:00.000+05:30

The title: Fireflies
The singer: Owl City
Mood: Mood 'Kelip-kelip.. :) Sebab baru lepas tengok Princess and The Frog.

Nice movie. :) I've watched it once, and this was the second time. I guess you all know that I am so not okay with froggie, but truth was, I could watch this movie. :D Not bad, huh? :P.. Not much to say about the movie, but I would recommend you guys to watch it if you still haven't. I dedicate this song to you, Kelip-kelip. :) Hopefully, you are happy with your Evangeline. Awww so sweet. ;)))) *Don't be scared of dreaming high, because, everything is possible.*

Here are the lyrics::

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)

Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

Retired?

2011-05-05T23:53:00.000+05:30

I miss home. I suddenly do. I miss everything about home. The living room. The kitchen. The rooms. The garage. The dining room. The tok's house. I miss the people, too. I miss mak. I miss abah. I miss ina. I miss wawa. I miss Adam. I miss Aliff. I miss tok, tokwan and Ecah too.:( I miss talking to them, laughing and giggling together. The laughter of Ecah caught my attention. ( Attention: Ecah is my smallest dearest cousing.;p)

Actually, to be real honest, my heart is breaking, literally. I am tired of keeping the spirits up high but, truth is I never earn anything. I tried, tried and kept trying, but nothing was there by my side. I lost. I lost. I lost. Very rarely I heard myself screaming, "Finally, I win!!" So UNUSUAL. Is it I am the one who should be blamed? Or is it just a test to see how far you can still stand even when something comes up in between and shakes your heart and strength? I have friends. They told be to be strong and don't give up. I have kelip-kelip to keep reminding me that in games, there will be winners and losers. I just have to try my best to achieve the best. But, now, still I am so broken. Maybe, too high expectations aren't good. It makes you feel so down.

Enough of speaking about this. I gotta be strong and try to face the reality. Sometimes, reality hurts but you gotta get used to it. Kuat Nurul Fitrilina, Kuat!! ;))))))))))))))))

25 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME.

2011-05-05T01:54:00.001+05:30

Hey there. Just came back from home, after a tiring day, discussing about tomorrow's presentations and completing the log book. It's been a while since the log book is CLEAN without any writings. I am so sorry, I am just so lazy to complete them all. You know what, just now I just browsed through my facebook's notes then I suddenly found a post. It was about ~~25 random things~~ about myself. Somebody tagged me at that time, and I was so hardworking at that instance to complete the tagging. I read the 25 things back again, and somehow, most of them are actually true till today. Most of them.:) Have a look, and do comment and compare. :D

1)ppl called me f3.family call me nurul.few ppl call me lina.n one or two call me lin.:)
2)i'm d eldest in my fmily but i dont look like a big sista.my sis is more matured than me.ppl say that.i admit dat.
3)cry even it's a small matter..x bley nk ubah.
4)I love to smile.it gives me confidence.

senyum jum! :)

5)hard to make proper decision.when it comes to serious rltionshp.( but now things have changed. :) I know what I want~ :D)
6)choc-addicted!!

sapa tak suka choc angkat hidung tinggi tinggi!

7)love to dream.kind of day dreaming.success start wit dreaming ayte.hee
8)wish to go to Paris one day.ieffel tower.=p

Maybe I'll reach there. With you. Yeah you:)

9)suka tidoq jugk.haha
10)x fussy pasal mknn.mkn je apa org bg.slagi perut bole trima n halal.
11)Sgt suka dpt kwn bru.=)
12)sensitif tp cepat ok blik
13)suka create poem tp sndri baca je.:) tp suka baca poem org

Poem. :)

14)penah blakon jd queen.igt smpai skarang.;p.
15)alwez lost when it comes to chess match wit ma sistas.they r superb.

I'm so not good in chess compared to them.:P

16)suka cerita semua kat mak.most of d time.

17)tringin nak blaja guitar n org dedicatedkan lgu to me.

Play me a song. I want you, only you. :)

18)suka perasan comel.kwn2 terdekat dah lali.ahaha
19)shopaholic when it comes to shoes.

Syurga kasut. Haha

20)pernah blaja aikido.tp da x igt sgt.hehe.
21)kelam kabut.tp slalu suruh org chill.=D
22)suka lelaki tinggi.smart.cool.(rasa selamat bila jln sblh dy.haha)
23)paling suka lagu BETTER IN TIME smpai sekarang.
24)used to hv crush on my own teacher.masa form 2.x taw apa cerita dye skarang.;p
25)sgt bersemgt bila ada org boost me up. x kesah la sapa.sapa2 pn bole.mmg akan berkesan.:)

Well, it looks so funny when you read this. But, just bear in mind that most of them are facts. Haha.

Anyway, here is one song that I keep listening just now.

Title: We'll Be A Dream

By: We The Kings ft. Demi Lovato

Mood: Dreamland maybe?:P

Lyrics:

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours at anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out, we'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights
We made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big
We're so young then
We were too crazy in love

When the lights go out, we'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world

Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Woah, woah, woah...
Woah, woah, oh...

CHOCOLATE

cough please stop.

untuk kamu:)

pictures:)

Don't Quit. Semangat3!! =)

two years.

You know why~

I care.

day 1

birthday mak.

mistakes

I Should Have Known

bye bye commed sayang :")

Don 2

rice cooker, I do love you! :)

weekend likes weekday

tq!

"I Do"

new year+ poem

update. not much

#Wishlist Number 3

A hard day.

#Wishlist Number 2

Nothing much, just a quote.:)

If I text you, it's because I miss you. If I'm not texting you, it just means I want you to miss me too. If we aren't texting each other, maybe we should just call & simply say "I love you".- Triston Causey

:(

Salaah. :)

edited.

enola.

#Wishlist Number 1

:(

how the feeling becomes when it is mixed up? :S

What?

entitled.

study.

this is today's thought.

bad day

sorry

hi, weekend.

bEacH

sarcastism.

:(

Love u!

Audry, be good with papa. :)

someone like you~ *unrelated*

blood-stained vomitus? duh, no la. =)

=.=

Ticket!

Unknown.

Percaya padaku=)

End posting.

Forgive me.

Pantai or best known as Beach

Simple.

Nobody dies of hard work. :)

Boxes are all safe!

Saya sayang sampai saya nangis.

Hai Melaka;))))

Home sweet home

Leaving On A Jetplane- Aerosmith

manipal, fit sayang kamu:)

Happy Birthday, Nira.

Hye boxes!

Exam mode.

Mixed Feelings.

Kisah Teladan. Teehee..~

August.

Jaime Paris~~

sorry:(

Ibu rindu awak cekelat.:)

Ramadhan, welcome home dear;)

What are words.

Aku.

Manipal

sabar:)

Bola itu football. :)

Surgery

Bye Bye Karkala

Drama manusia

Andry

If I text you, it's because I miss you. If I'm not texting you, it just means I want you to miss me too. If we aren't texting each other, maybe we should just call & simply say "I love you".
- Triston Causey

someone like you~ unrelated