Random thoughts at 1.46am

OMG . Yes, I am right about my previous post. My eyes are still wide awake. Darn it. Can't sleep even I have lot of sips of milk! :( Tomorrow I have class anyway. >.<

By the way, I want to summarize what I feel right now. Right now, at this moment. Yeah, you know when you are trying so hard to get sleepy then your brain will be suddenly active, then thinking about so many things, out of nowhere and all of a sudden.

• I am so happy, feel like smiling non stop even now, and till in my dreams tonight, yeahhh no lying, I'm still curving a smile on my face anyway! :) Because because, I've seen you back after about a week we didn't bump into each others. :*

• I miss my old gang in KTT, known as "Clique8". Emm, the name created by us, not anybody. Hahaha. and it consists of 8 of us including, Nad, Arisya, Mirah, Aimie, Syikin, Dayah and Tiah! :) I just miss you guys a lot. A lot. Hope we can see each other one fine day aminnn :)

• I feel like travelling to different parts of world for example, Europe, whole Asia especially Korea and Japan and so many places! With you, and no one else, just both of us, appreciate the beauty of world, taking pictures together, having fun together, away from the busy days. :")

• And I guess I gotta stop now and make my way to the bed. It's very late already. It's 1.45am in the morning. Good night and good morning folks. :) whoever is reading. 

Allah is the best planner after all.

Yes, I do have my own plans, in sequences and prioritize what's important first, followed with the 'can wait' plans. We may have planned in such a way that A must happen, then B, then we want C to take place, whatsoever. But, the truth is, we can never so sure that all the dreams and long listed plans may come true as what we wish, isn't it? Because, of this reason. ;)






And this. :)

And so, make plans well, but just don't lose hope. Doa is the best thing. Try and do what you can do, but apart from that, please have faith that He is the best planner after all. ;)

So, what I need to do now? Or what you should do now with the plans?

These: (^_^)

Yes. This is what I will try to do, what I can do :)

Good night, and Assalamualaikum. :)

*listening to: Milik Siapakah Gadis Ini - Jinbara ft. Fiq.

JPJ Part 2

Somebody is waiting for this post. Yeah, somebody. You know who you are.

Well, first and foremost, salaam I bid to all of you. Kinda nervous is it? Hee.

The story goes like this:

A little girl, err, not so little, a big big girl, went to a driving school to sit for her JPJ test, and it was 7.00am in the morning, the same time, MMMC students who are posted to Muar began their journey there. Waiting and waiting, the van came at around 715 am, and finally around 830am, the van reached the school. She made her way to the registration counter, and was given a card written 40 indicating that her turn would be 40th out of around 50 people. That girl with her two other junior friends around 18 years old made their way to the hill, parking and three corner sites, quite a walking distance from the main building. Her heart rate was very high, with a palpitation she noticed. Then the story continued..


Bla.. bla.. bla..So, the conclusion is..

ALHAMDULILLAH, I PASSED MY JPJ DRIVING TEST! AFTER SO LONG! :)

And now, what I need to do is that, go to the JPJ and get the P license.

Seriously, it's been such a long time I've waited for this moment to come. I started to get involved in this license thingy when I went out from UTP, but because of time barrier, I buried my wish to take the license. Then here in Melaka, I had to listen to the KPP ( used to call ceramah memandu) again for second time, quite bored actually, but I just tried to be patient, to obtain something we want is never so easy. That's how the story goes. What I can say now is alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, thank you to those who keep supporting me till now. I really appreciate it. :)

Maybe, later, JPJ part 3 will come if in case I remember, and during that time, I maybe take the picture of the license. and if in case I forget, sorry! 2Semangat kan. Hehe, but yeah I am really happy right now. Bersyukur sangat. :) Terasa bahagia sbentar, walaupun tak semua orang faham kan. ;)

Anyway, no motif of putting these pictures, just I am so grateful. :") Rasa macam nak nangis. :)


#np : Somebody That I Used To Know- Gotye

bubbles

I looked at it with a hopeless smile. I kinda miss it, but it didn't want me. at all. I knew, maybe at some points they were all my faults even I didn't know what are they. To buy a new one, I didn't have enough savings, maybe next time. If and only if I have the chance to buy. :p. There are still lots more things I need to do, for example, the JPJ thingy. It would be this Wednesday. Nervous? Can't agree more, that's what lingers in my mind so far, it's not that I don't want to think positive, it's just that I have history back then when it comes to pra- test, if at all you remember. What I will do now, I'll just try my best, later. ( one of my 2012 wishlist : obtain car license) I pray to You, Ya Allah, Ya Mujib, hopefully that all will go well as I wish, I successfully pass in the test, and if let's say, You want to test me, I will accept this with open heart.

To be real honest, I have left driving for about a month, hopefully I still remember all the steps, with regards to parking, hill, three corners, and even route A and B, not to forget C ( even cikgu said, they seldom brought us there). My mind is pre- occupied with so many things recently. So many, to mention it in here, I don't think so. Let it bury in my mind and disappear like the bubbles that come with the waves at the beach. Moga Engkau permudahkan segala urusanku. Amin.

Today, I have something to share, not share but, it's more of, to just mention, it passed by in my mind. Been thinking that it's been such a while I left poetry, maybe I should have started when I have time. A left- handed person like me, used to be labelled as the one that is creative sorts of things. But, to me, I am none of that, I am bad at drawing, singing, and even dancing. I am a little bit have interest in mathematics, but I don't think it is classified as art- thing. Whatever. And, today's VARK questionnaire told me something. I am an AURAL- person. I prefer listening compared to V- Visual, R- Reading, Writing, and K- Kinesthatic. Go and try to do it yourself. :)

Life's like a bubble,
It is there for sometimes,
but it will disappear when you notice,
Varying sizes but with single shape, fragile but round
Looking at it, with a transparent covering,
Unleash what are hidden,
Actualize what are unreal,
If it goes into the air, it looks beautiful and shiny,
Letting me smile with joy for a while,
But once it reaches the top, it's gone,
Like nobody can trace it,
Gone. That way.

unsettled

There are few things left unsettled which include:

• the two-topics a day, I didn't even have the chance to do it. Actually, I did have the chance but I wasted it. Come on, make it real, girl!
• to not to sleep after Subuh, this is the hardest part, yeah dugaan- dugaan, only those who are very istiqamah can do that. I've to start to do it, first time, might be a little bit trouble, but a continuous doing is gonna make it as routine, insyaAllah:)
• to finish off the novel that I borrowed from Syikin that day, entitled ' Denyut Kasih Medik'. I just realised that I haven't finished reading the novel during the cleaning process of my room that day. Gotta make a move. One page one day. 
• To start playing and exercising during the evening, because I have developed free fat storage beneath the abdominal part. Demit. 
• To make a calculation on my semester budget and spending, because I have my mission okay, haha, let it be a secret for now;)
• that's it. stop scrolling. There's nothing else more left behind, and if it does have something, I wouldn't be mentioning here, kbai! :)

landscape. cycling. ice-blended.

Yesterday's evening event: Cycling around the Taman Desa Baru and MMMC. No pictures of the bike, but yeah I got a chance to capture the moments Syikin and I played in the playground. Love it. :).

ckin;)

With the ice-blended:)

Should do it often later, insyaAllah. It was so calm, watching how people spent their evenings. Some were jogging, some were gardening and others were talking and sitting at their own landscapes. Yeah LANDSCAPE. Speaking about landscape makes me so excited to tell you guys. I love to have landscape. If one day I have my own house, I wish to garden beautiful flowers and have my own landscape too. I can spend my tiring day there, watching over the flowers, feeding the fish in the man-built pond, and talking to my loved one there;). <3<3..

It's true:)

 

 

 

 

 

malacca zoo

mata letih, batuk masih macam tu, cuma kurang sikit lepas makan ice cream tadi (hah??);p, dan pening-pening lalat tiba-tiba. 

Yeah, that's my today's introduction. Well, I just came back from Malacca Zoo with my usrah-mates, just chillin out with the 'friends' there anyway. Hihi.. We reached there around 430 pm in the evening. With the Rm10 entrance fee, we got in hurry. Yeah, I was so energetic since it's been such a long time I last visited the zoo. Feeling excited to meet up the friends, I almost forgot to take some pictures as the memories, but my friend did. I was not into the mood to take the pictures, that time, I was more of to talk and watch over the creatures. So cute looking at them blinking and staring at you at the same time you know.

It is such a big zoo, yeah and the animals there looked so chubby not like at National Zoo, as Epah has mentioned to me. Tigers, monkeys( ehem, reminds me of you. haha), birds( many kinds of birds to be mentioned), snakes, mammalians and many more. All are there and still there. ;) I really enjoyed my day today but however, when we walked again and again maybe about 2 kilometres I think, I got tired. As usual, I coughed a lot and now it came with headache too. Maybe because of the ice-cream I am not so sure. :( When I reached the giraffe areas, I was unable to greet them, since it was already 610pm and the zoo was about to close already.

Inilah awak. remember?;p

anak dengan abah dy. :))

ketua babun?:D

Tah apa la dy tengok ni;P

We 'tadabur' a bit about one surah regarding the animals, then we headed back home. On the way to the car, there was one makcik selling food stuffs stopped us and she offered some free food to us. So kind of her, for giving us the food for free, alhamdulillah:) Moga rezeki mak cik bertambah yea:D

When reaching my room,I checked my facebook inbox and suddenly I looked over the one new message. Upon all tiredness and headache I have, they all seem to be gone for a while. I smiled alone( lantak la nak senyum sensorang pun;p) looking at the comics. Yeah, we share the same dreams alhamdulillah:) Now I get my spirit back. 2 more years to struggle for this M.B.B.S then we'll try to reach out our dreams insyaAllah andai umur panjang:). Semangat!Semangat! Semangat!! And now I have printed the dreams out and paste it in my room at one corner to remind me of good things ahead. ;). Best of luck to us:)

And by the way, just keep quite and don't say anything about this picture. Hee. Bukan syok sendiri, it is just that I want to compare my face with the pimples and to take care of it, and to reduce the production of pimples next time. Please be manageable pimples!! XD

Dilarang comment gambar ni. haha. saya taw saya huduh;D

Before the journey begins:D

new year+ poem

Salam. HAPPY NEW YEAR people! I hope it's not too late to wish! =))) Sorry, not in the mood to blog for the past few days as I busy did something else. Well, just nak berlagak for a while, I passed my computer test! * yeah, the one that you needed to sit in the steps to obtain the driving license* Well, one thing I wanna say, alhamdulillah. =).. Eventhough I did all of that alone by myself, I managed to undergo that. *mula-mula cuak giler kot sebab sorang-sorang..huuu*..

Okay, fine. New year has come. 2011. eh, my bad, it is 2012 ALREADY LA GIRL! And this year, if "long live" I am gonna reach the age of 23. Phewww! About to reach middle of twenties. Feeling matured enough? Well, you judge it by yourself. ;).. Okay, the intro is in English but, the rest of the entry for this time will be in Malay. Yeah, I miss blogging in Malay. ;D

Ha, hello hello. Faham lagi kan? Ada lagi kan korang ni kan baca blog aku? Hihi.. Thanks sebab masih lagi setia dekat Chocolate, walaupun Cekelat ni takdela berinformasi mana pun. Hanyalah lebih kepada aku yang mengarut dekat sini. Lebih kepada luahan perasaan, yang aku tak mampu nak luahkan dekat orang lain, sebab kadang-kadang apa yang aku nak cakap susah nak digambarkan dengan kata-kata.. Hee, sorry konfius sekejap.. :).

Tick tock tick tock sekarang dah pukul 9.00 malam waktu Malaysia. Apa yang aku buat? Aku masih lagi stuck depan lappy mengupdate cekelat., kinda miss him somehow. :").. Hmm, berbalik kepada isu tahun baru, ramai yang menjadikan tahun baru sebagai titik permulaan pada perubahan ataupun titik pecutan untuk mencapai azam masing- masing. Macam orang lain, aku juga punya azam yang tersusun dalam kotak hati, dari sesimple azam kepada sekompleks azam.. Tak semua orang tau azam aku eyh.. sapa yang dah baca previous blog aku, dia tau la 3 azam aku tahun ni, tapi untuk the rest hanya aku, dia dan DIA je yang tau.. Hee.. Mystery enough huh? Well just let it be.. ;)) Berdoalah supaya azam dan harapan aku bakal menjadi kenyataan insyaAllah ameen. ;).. Aku tak nak cerita azam aku yang the rest dengan korang bukan sebab apa, sebab yang utama sebab yela azam tu bisa pudar kan, awal memang la semangat nak buat semua tu tapi by the end of the day, kita lupa dan leka dan kemudian azam tu pun hilang ditelan masa. Aku tak nak macam tu. Aku nak azam aku kekal sampai semuanya tercapai. Azam dan harapan. Aku tahu bukan senang aku nak capai kalau takde usaha yang kuat, tapi sekurang kurangnya aku mencuba. insyaAllah dengan izinNya semuanya boleh! :D Semangat! Semangat! Semangat! Hihihih..

Sekarang macam yang semua sedia maklum, aku tengah posting Community Medicine, jadi kena lah aku pergi Klinik Kesihatan terdekat, tak payah pi hospital dah. tapi aku rasa commed lagi best sebab lepak giler kot untuk yang malas macam aku. hihi. bleh main dengan budak-budak comel, ukur panjang, berat, head circumference, chest circumference baby baby tu. Hee. =)*sori la takde gamba nak tunjuk sebab aku tak amik pun. sebab biar lah kenangan tu aku simpan terus dalam hati, tade gambar pun takpe. :) Teehee,, sweet plak bunyi nya padahal tak sempat nak ambil gambar. :p. Selain daripada tu, kena jugak take care dekat ibu ibu mengandung nie, kena jaga diorang baik baik, bukan senang nak jaga sorang lagi dalam perut tu, hee.. :) kena dengar la apa nurse nasihat kat pregnant mother, selain daripada itu, kena jugak take note blood pressure, weight, BMI of these mothers, yela nak rule out high risk cases, sebab bila dapat tahu awal, dapat lah langkah pencegahan awal dapat dilakukan. :). Bila tengok ibu ibu ni pregnant, teringat la mak aku dulu pernah macam ni jugak mengandungkan aku. so, appreciate la mak anda sekalian yea. :). And dalam masa yang sama, aku jadi takut pun ada. Pheww. takut oww, sebab nanti aku pun akan jadi cmtu gak, korang pun sama la. kena jadi mak macam tu, kena jaga baby dalam perut untuk 9 bulan, sanggup ke korang? tak sanggup pun kena la jaga, amanah Allah kan.:) Best kot tengok mak mak tu, hee.. semangat je cerita berapa kali baby tendang, semangat cerita persiapan( untuk yang peramah la nak cerita. hihi). Selain daripada tu, aku dan kawan kawan aku yang lain pergi jugak 'home visit'. Pergi check mak dan anak lepas bersalin, well known as post-natal cases. tengok la kot kot la baby tu ada jaundice, ke mak tu pun kena tengok jugak kalau kalau ada tanda-tanda varicose vein ke, post partum haemorrhage ke. macam macam bleh jadi ow. Itulah kisah pasal commed.

Lagi satu hal, audry masih tak okay macam dulu. penat dah nak sedih. tak jadi okay jugak. entah bila la aku bleh hantar repair. :(.

oh guys, sekarang ni aku follow " how i met your mother' tapi baru 3rd episode season 1. Hehe. yela kan, bosan tak tau nak buat apa tiap malam. nak study malas,biasala commed. hee. :).

rasanya tu je kot. penat dah. mungkin nanti aku blog lagi. mungkin esok. entah. kalau umur panjang insyaAllah.

Lagu background:

*It Girl, Jason Derulo

*The One That Got Away, Katy Pery

*Smile, Avril Lavigne

*Quiet Hearts, Amy Stroup

*Wish You Were Here, Avril Lavigne.

*I Like It Like That

*Percaya Padaku, Ungu.



That solemn night,
Where blinking stars seem to be gone and the moon appears restless
The cold feet shivers at the corner of empty room
The half-closed eyes force to open endlessly
Mind has gone nowhere, trying to locate the heart
Don't blame own self nor others
It's the fate that remains unchanged over time
Stuck in the middle of journey
With failure and difficulties step in, we wonder
We know but we take things for granted
We understand but we avoid the truth
We learn but we skip the wisdom that sets in
Please change and make a move
Life is like a moving wheel
On top or at the bottom can't be escaped
Knowing about guided sequences
Shall survive us till the end.

Poem setelah sekian lama. :) Untuk kamu. :) Juga untuk kamu-kamu. :)

#Wishlist Number 3

#3 2012 WISHLIST: TO SAVE MONEY! I'VE GOT PLANS ANYWAYYYYY, STOP SPENDING TOO MUCH FOR THE UNNECESSARY THINGS! =D

-not my photos. I just googled. =)))

#Wishlist Number 2

#2 2012 WISHLIST: TO LEARN AS MANY DELICIOUS MEALS AS POSSIBLE, ESPECIALLY THOSE THAT YOU LIKE MOST. *you know who you are* ;P

#Wishlist Number 1

Almost in the middle of December. Yeahhh can't wait for January to show up. Not because I want to end this year as fast as possible, but because I want to improve many things in life and fulfill my wish lists in a good way of course. From January to December 2011, many many things happened. How I get through many things including bad, good journey and how I survived.

I still remembered about 2010. Tears were my best friend during the time. From the beginning of year till the end of that year. Yeah, good things also happened but being masked by things that hurt. But, I learnt a lot that time, about true love, friendship, my heart desire, and family. Then 2011 showed up. Hello to 2011. Alhamdulillah, my heart became stronger than before, and some parts of my life chapters went well as what I wished and prayed. :). Thanks to THE ONE UP THERE who strengthened myself, so that I can stand well until today.

From now on till 2011 closes the curtain, I will write out about my wishes for next year, remind me if in case I forget and please pray for me that everything goes well. =). The wishes may not always be in order, since I will just write the wish that I remember first. :). Renew your intention people, and be ready for the upcoming challenges of life in front.

NUMBER ONE: SUCCESSFULLY OBTAIN CAR DRIVING LICENSE. 

• Note: I have registered my name for the driving class. Now I am searching for good and free weekend to start off. Good luck, Fit! =)