Showing posts with label rindu. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rindu. Show all posts

Thursday, August 29, 2013

My endless love


Now I know the feeling.
True to what they said.
Once your status has changed, your heart will be as soft and sensitive as cotton.
It's great knowing the fact that you gonna have your own family tree very soon, but my heart aches even worse when knowing that this family tree will soon be changed with 2 extra members.
Yes, it's good n simply best having extra members but afterwards,
 u can no longer act like a child,
doing things like nobody cares,
 because there is someone you should take care of.

To mak, abah and my siblings, for whatever happen after this, I hope we can still have this family picture like this again like always. :)


 from, Me, who misses you guys a lot.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Random thoughts at 1.46am

OMG . Yes, I am right about my previous post. My eyes are still wide awake. Darn it. Can't sleep even I have lot of sips of milk! :( Tomorrow I have class anyway. >.<

By the way, I want to summarize what I feel right now. Right now, at this moment. Yeah, you know when you are trying so hard to get sleepy then your brain will be suddenly active, then thinking about so many things, out of nowhere and all of a sudden.


  • I am so happy, feel like smiling non stop even now, and till in my dreams tonight, yeahhh no lying, I'm still curving a smile on my face anyway! :) Because because, I've seen you back after about a week we didn't bump into each others. :*


  • I miss my old gang in KTT, known as "Clique8". Emm, the name created by us, not anybody. Hahaha. and it consists of 8 of us including, Nad, Arisya, Mirah, Aimie, Syikin, Dayah and Tiah! :) I just miss you guys a lot. A lot. Hope we can see each other one fine day aminnn :)


  • I feel like travelling to different parts of world for example, Europe, whole Asia especially Korea and Japan and so many places! With you, and no one else, just both of us, appreciate the beauty of world, taking pictures together, having fun together, away from the busy days. :")



  • And I guess I gotta stop now and make my way to the bed. It's very late already. It's 1.45am in the morning. Good night and good morning folks. :) whoever is reading. 

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Monday, September 3, 2012

Monday, July 2, 2012

Good bye Games.

There it goes. Today, I summarized all the games that I have participated for the Manipal Unity Cup under the team FIRE, 'as hell'. ( I just added up the 'as hell' part.;p) Almost all the games for female I participated, hahaha, tak malu kan? Hmm, but that's just me. I just love sports even, I am not that good in playing all those games like:

  • netball
  • basketball
  • handball
  • volleyball
Yes, not good, not good. Seriously, among all the games, I just don't have one particular game that I mastered. But, you know what, I LOVE playing volleyball, sangat sangat. :") But for today, I just played 3/4 of the first set. Okay la kan, dapat jugak melepaskan rindu. I just hope that, one day, I can play volleyball again, not for the match, but just random games like that. :)

And for the updates, tomorrow, I will be starting my new posting which is OPHTHALMOLOGY, the study of eyes, big eyes, small eyes, sepet sepet eyes like you know who you are, and scary scary eyes. I just hope everything just goes well. 

And today, the first letter was delivered. First one. It's been a while, but yes, this was the first letter. Nak kumpul banyak- banyak, buat kenangan. <3.

If I miss them, this is the corner. Both the pictures and the plastic tree <3



Tuesday, March 20, 2012

missing a lot of things.

salam. berjumpa lagi. truth is I miss taking so much photos. I miss a lot of things. I miss playing sports, I miss to lepak-lepak with my friends somewhere spending time together, and the epic is, I miss INDIA, yessss I miss India! :).. I miss everything about India including:
  • I miss to play basketball at Sharada court.
  • I miss to jog at Endpoint or Anath Nagar.
  • I miss to play badminton at MARENA.
  • I miss to drink fruit juices especially Chiku after playing basketball.
  • I miss to scoot around with my beloved Maya, life was so easy when I had scooter back then, even I didn't have license.
  • I miss Nandini, because so much memories there.
  • I miss Papa Raju's cook( my cooker there)
  • I miss MAHE library, no doubt.
Yeah, banyak kan, benda yang saya rindu tentang India. Life is like this, when you were there, you didn't appreciate the place, you took it for granted, but when you are now studying somewhere else, even at your own homeplace, you miss the place in which once before, you hated it so much. :'(

Anyway, it happens again. On and off thing. Haiihh, it hurts my eyes a lot seeing it. Geram + sedih. :(.

Goodbye for now. Goodbye. Goodbye.

Friday, March 16, 2012

lame.

okay. I have like half an hour to blog. Noted. Hehe. Yeah, gotta divide time wisely now. Tak boleh main- main dah kan. today is friday which means tomorrow is a holiday which means I am free to wake up late which means I just forget that I have driving class which again makes me realize that I can't wake up late! Argh lame! Demit. Huhhhh takpe.. Orang cakap, kalau bangun awal, rezeki senang nak masuk. and truth is I am not sure about the possibility of it to be correct. Haha! Biasa lah, ayat- ayat orang tua. ;)

one thing I just realized. I can't stay in my room alone. I mean like, I really don't like staying in a room alone without a roommate. yeah, tak biasa. :(. rasa sunyi sangat. because even in my house I stay in a room with my other two little sisters, except that if I wanted privacy then they will understand then they will automatically went out from the room for a while. Then when I was in a boarding school, I stayed in a room with the other three roommates and again in KTT, I stayed with my friend Dayah. To prove that I really prefer to stay with somebody else in a room, then again in Manipal, I stayed in the master bedroom with Izzati. See? now I am all alone. Even during the night if I am gonna sleep, I have to switch the lamp on because I am scared of sleeping alone. :(. Missing my little sisters suddenly. T_T


Okay dahhh enough. Now I want to have my dinner. Mee Sedap. Instant again. Sorry. >.<. Hee, happy dinner!


P/s: Jersey batch dah dapat. Yeay!! ;)

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

sarcastism.


Well, salam and hello all! :)) Can see the smiling face next to what I have written? Yeah, it is kinda fake actually. :(. I just finished my long case end posting examination early morning today. Not much to comment, yeah Dr. Sachi, as the name suggest, he is kinda sarcastic to what he says and to what he acts. Anyway, he's a lot better than one other Surgery lecturer( name cannot be mentioned) who is labelled to be the most SCARIEST doctor on Earth. Yelling and chasing the students out of the class is just sooo him. I am so gonna face him very soon, well not so soon because surgery is my last posting. Can you imagine the expectations he is going to have on us since we are the last groups? Life is tough man. :(. Being a medical student is not as honeymoon as other courses. A lot of things to be learnt, to be read, to be practised and to be memorised.

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. Layman proverb that we use but sometimes we take that for granted, aren't we? We think we've done well but actually a lot more to be gained without simply sitting on a comfort chair while youtubing or facebooking. I am talking about myself. Maybe the way Dr. Sachi got mad with us just was kinda over-the-limit, since the questions he asked ALL were about the management but we know NOTHING about that because we think that managements are supposed to be covered by the seniors, not the freshie/ juniors/ new learners like us. Yeah, he was not supposed to get mad like that, but maybe at the positive side, it was our fault too, for NOT trying to read about the management thoroughly. It's like a lesson to me. Don't stop reading. Because new knowledge is not only by seeing or practising but it also comes with reading, reading and reading non-stop. Theory, something that we need to polish more, because without it, we can't afford to perform the examinations if we don't have any idea about the theory overlying the diseases. Okay. Fit, please, learn a lesson.:)) . Obstetrician in wish list, remember?:) The next posting is MEDICINE and hopefully I will try to improve on this. Good luck! :)

Next chapter: It's only one day and I miss them already. :(. Dear loves, please pray for my success. Love u all a lot. :).



tiga gadis yang tak berapa nak ayu. hihi

dua jejaka mata sepet.:D*anak abah la ni mata sepet*;p

ma, abah,adik aliff yang nak boot baru utk birthday*thinking about jpa if I were to give him the gift. :O

I keep on laughing because of these tiga budak gila gila .

adam, muka nak edit aje, nak amekau kak own tak edit hahahhaah.

I love them. so mucho much mucho. ( the pot belly is to be included if I meant the first sentence. )

Next next chapter: I've been bullied. By a big rounded like, pot belly creature. =p.. Boo!! Whatever it is, always and always, I would like to say "warong kap"..(^_^)

I don't mind if u have pot belly. Ily as always. *tutup muka malu*=p

Monday, October 17, 2011

Ticket!

I miss home. I suddenly do.

haihhhh.

Have to wait for 'Hari Raya Haji' to get back home..

Ticket dah beli! Million thanks to Kak Aishah.. =).

Enough movie for the day.

"AKU MASIH DARA".

Nice movie, good plot and useful lessons..

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Leaving On A Jetplane- Aerosmith

Leaving On a Jetplane. Aerosmith version is far way better. Suits well with the situation now, yeah the very last night in Manipal. Sedih? Maybe a little. No, not a little, a lot actually. =.=.. Too many things happened in a two and a half year duration. Some people come and some people go, some people stay and some people make a step behind. Well, that's life, unpredictable and so great, thinking that Alhamdulillah I manage to spend exact two and half year here with good things happened. :)

To my besties who are still here, keep on fighting till the last moment you guys at manipal. Be strong and appreciate manipal as maximum as you can. we'll be missing you. Thank you for everything. Thanks. :)

I don't want to talk much, as I am scared of tears. :'(. Good- bye for now.

Friday, August 19, 2011

manipal, fit sayang kamu:)

Salam. Hari ini memandangkan adalah hari terakhir saya di Manipal officially, ( actually bertolak dari Manipal ke Ooty pada 20/8/2011)saya punya entri kali pun dalam bahasa Melayu.. Sedap sikit nak menceritakan tentang kenangan, kerinduan dan sayang dalam bahasa ibunda kita. :)

M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L M A N I P A L

Bersama boss dan akka nandini.




Saya masih ingat dengan jelas pada hari pertama saya menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Manipal. Tarikh yang sebetulnya saya tidak pasti tapi yang pasti pada bulan March 2009. Pada malam itu, malam pertama saya di Sonia Hostel, saya cuba berkali-kali untuk menghubungi ibu yang memang jauh di mata, pertama kali saya menjejakkan kaki di bumi asing yang memang jauh sekali segalanya dari bumi Malaysia. Cuba dan terus mencuba, tapi panggilan masih gagal kerana nombor Airtel tidak diaktifkan lagi secara rasmi. Mungkin 24 hours notice diperlukan. Tiba- tiba tanpa sedar, ada juraian air mata mengalir dari pipi perlahan-lahan. "Mak, macamana own nak survive dekat sini? Semua tempe-tempe( nama gelaran untuk orang tempatan di India) macam scary je own tengok. Sonia Hostel ni pun dah macam berhantu," saya berbisik dalam hati kecil. Tapi saya gagahkan diri dengan kekuatan untuk cuba lelapkan mata pada malam itu dengan harapan bukanya mata esok, saya dapat mendengar suara emak dari hujung talian menandakan bahawa akaun Airtel sudah diaktifkan. Diharapnya begitu.

Hari berganti hari, bulan berganti bulan, suara ceria mak memang sudah dapat didengar tiap hari( sebab saya homesick jugak mula-mula sampai sini.. Hee.. Gaya macam tak pernah duduk hostel je kan.. teeheee). Kehidupan saya di India semakin lancar dan proses adaptasi berlalu dengan sangat pantas. Sonia Hostel yang dulunya saya label sebagai tempat berhantu kini menjadi tempat yang saya sayang. Lokasinya yang dekat dengan Library, foodcourt dan Interact memang sangat strategik. Tempe- tempe yang suatu masa dulu saya takut kini ada yang baik dan layanan yang diberikan juga baik  contohnya macam Akka Sonia dan Lecturers. ( sebenarnya, tempe yang layan kita macam sampah memang bersepah tapi tak payah lah disebut disini. Biar kenangan yang dibawa balik adalah kenangan terindah. :). Masih dalam semester pertama dalam Tahun Pertama, saya agak main-main sebenarnya. Al- maklumlah baru sampai di tempat orang, proses adaptasi masih berterusaan berlaku dan kemalasan kian memuncak, kemalasan study untuk lebih spesifik. Jadi, saya takdelah score hebat sangat dalam Block 1 dan Block 2 exams dulu. Hee..

Inilah Maya :)
Semester 2 pun tiba, untuk Tahun Pertama. Dari Sonia Hostel, semua sudah berpindah ke rumah termasuklah saya sendiri. Jadi, apartment yang menjadi pilihan adalah Ajay Arcade, nun jauh di pedalaman berbanding dengan apartment mewah yang lain. Ajay Arcade bukanlah apartment mewah, hanyalah apartment biasa, yang security guard yang proper pun tak ada.. Lifnya macam zaman Paleolitik, ada gril macam penjara. Heee... :D. Tapi alhamdulillah, sewa bulanannya tidaklah mahal, sekadar Rs8,500 sebulan untuk satu rumah. :) Sebelum terlupa untuk mention, saya juga ada alat pengangkutan sendiri yang dibeli di sini untuk memudahkan saya bergerak ke sana ke mari, iaitu sebuah scooter yang berwarna ungu atau purple, diberi nama indah iaitu Maya. Maya, sebuah nova scooter, yang dibeli dengan harga Rs15,000 daripada workshop memang comel. Sejauh-jauh Kapu Beach dan Malpe Beach pun dah dia sampai. Cool kan dia? :), Sesungguhnya dengan adanya kenderaan sendiri memang la menyebabkan saya suka merempit ke sana ke mari.. Nasib baik mak dengan abah bagi saya bawak scooter di sini sedangkan saya memang tiada lesen di Malaysia, dan even di Malaysia, saya nak pergi kedai beli aiskrim naik basikal ikut jalan besar pun mak tak bagi. :p.. Tekejut jugak bila niat untuk membeli scooter tidak dibantah oleh mak. :p. Mungkin mak dah percaya anak dia nie boleh jaga diri dengan baik dah kot, kata dah besar kan?;p
Itu belum diceritakan kenangan semasa study week untuk universiti exam first and second year. A group of four. :) Kenangan yang tak akan saya lupa walaupun kini ada benda berubah, banyak jugak actually, good and not so good things. =.=.. Takpelah, ini lah perjalanan hidup. :). Rugi saya tak ambil gambar banyak-banyak masa study week.. patutnya tengok muka berkerut sorang-sorang menghafal dan cuba memahami bertimbun timbun muka surat daripada bertimbun timbun buku. Medical student kan, kena la usaha lebih. ;). Heee...

GOLDEN TEMPLE
Kenangan travel selepas tamat First Year pun antara kenangan yang lekat dalam hati juga.. Walaupun ada benda yang sedih dan mengecewakan terjadi, namun, di sebalik itu, kenangan yang boleh membuat saya tersenyum pun saya tak akan lupa. Sampai bila- bila. ;-) Macam-macam tempat kami bertiga belas berjalan. New Delhi, Mumbai, Jaisalmer, Agra, Shimla, Manali dan sebagainya. India! :)
JAISALMER


Kenangan di Manipal pun banyak. Manipal banyak mengajar saya macam- macam benda. Kadang-kadang benda itu tak dapat kita rasa dan belajar di tempat- tempat lain walaupun di tanah tumpah kita sendiri. Mungkin suatu hari saya akan kembali ke sini, cuba mengimbau kembali kenangan lama yang saya yakin masih lagi segar dalam ingatan. Dan mungkin saat itu segalanya telah berubah. Saya, dia, dan kamu- kamu semua. Kita. :). Kita yang mungkin sudah terlalu matang kalau dibandingkan kita pada tahun 2009 yang dahulu. Sebelum saya akhiri entri kali ini, saya nak mengucapkan banyak-banyak terima kasih kepada semua ahli-ahli Manipal yang banyak membantu saya dan memberi pengajaran kepada saya bermula daripada sesimple pak cik lap tingkap di library yang tekun dan gigih mengelap kepada sebesar besar Associated Professor of Manipal University, Dr. K Ramnarayan. :)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

What are words.

Salaam. Rainy day today, is it? Yeah, well since I love raining, it does give me comfort and joy. I can play in the rain, cry in the rain so that nobody can see and get wet in the rain because I have to travel from food court to reach Ajay Arcade without raincoat. =.=. Serves me right. Pemalas sangat nak pakai raincoat. Teeheee. ;)).. Watching over the rain makes me smile somehow even before that my heart had this kind of so called crushing pain. Have you heard about it? Let me tell you. It's one kind of a pain in which it hurts you so much without reasons. It is actually more of disappointment and sadness when you think it isn't worth to have this pain because you have to remember that everything happens for a reason. Yeah, I repeat, everything happens for a reason, why I didn't come to class this morning, why A happened and why B occurred. All in sequences I would say. Perfect timing.

Why should I over-disappointed about something that have been explained why A did that, why B said that? It's because I unfortunately own this fragile little heart that simply hurts when things went wrong even they were only simple things. so SIMPLE that I should just let it go. :(

But fortunately I am not that kind who extend the sadness over a long period of time. Now I am okay, not totally but okay. :)

Peace!

:(
Mak, abah, all of sudden I miss you both. I miss you both a lot :(

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Smile. Smile.

Just woke up. I hate sleeping at the evening. Actually, I have no intention to sleep, but you know, when you face or study while you are landing on the bed, definitely you'll be going into the dreamland. Kan?:) By the way, all of a sudden, I was kind of missing something. Missing something that has gone which will never come back. Missing something that once I lost it, even I aren't supposed to pray that everything goes back to normal. That is life anyway. Believe me, somehow, you gonna get used to it.

She's cute, isn't she? Suka dye. Cantik. :) Nak cantik macam dye. Hehe.
Just want to express something. Haha. Actually, as you all know, I am in the psychiatry posting now. There are so many lecturers that come in and out to teach us. One lecturer that touches my heart, named as Dr. Sameer. He's kinda cute. I love the way he talk to the patient. So cool and you feel like want to smile till you can't smile due to excessive smiling. You got what I mean? Lol. Just so you know, tomorrow will be the last day of posting in Psychiatry. Then my turn is Commed. Community Medicine. Again, I'll be so free, going to the different sites and will be back home before 4. This is what Fara said. hee. :) Anyhow, leaving Psychiatry posting and going to the other posting is quite sad. But, that is life. From one chapter to another. Oh, if you guys remember about the patient I told so long back named Vidya( I am not sure if I ever tell u all or not.) who has depressive disorder. She will be discharged tonight. I could see her smile when I went to the ward this evening. :) Get well soon, Vidya! NO STRESS, JUST CHILLAX.! This is reminder for me too n maybe for you all too.:)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

You know you are a human, and please do know that Allah loves you. :)

Do you like even bother? You don't, do you?
Mukaddimah of the day.:)

Hey, actually, I feel like writing today, something about the thing that even I don't know how to express, so hard to explain, very COMPLICATED. Sometimes, you know, little things happened and you are too carried away with the fun and joy that surround you, and you lost in the middle, even you know this will bring you to the destruction, and resentfulness at the end of the day. But, you know what, there is still a room for a change. Repenting of what you have done in the past is a good thing to have, because you are still given the chance to revert back to normal. Allah s.w.t loves to forgive His slave, because humans tend to do mistakes, and humans aren't perfect. Reflect back to what we have done, do we realise that, sometimes when we are too happy and too excited about things that bring a lot of joy to us, we tend to forget about Him, totally put Him aside. But, when we are lost in life, we feel sad, and at that time, He comes into our mind. Oh, how cruel is that. But whatever it is, He never leaves us, He is always there, He is there to listen to our prayer. He's the GREATEST.


I'm not a good girl, really. Sometimes, I do something that I know it is not good but, because I am a human, I keep doing the same mistakes. But, at the end of the day, I regret about it too much. :'(
But, at some point I know HE is always there for me, to listen to my prayers. I just gotta regret of what I done, and pray to Him, for the things that I've done. Pray that I will never repeat the same mistakes again. There is still room for a people to change.
One friend of mine said, " Kita diuji dengan macam-macam dugaan, kita digoda dengan macam-macam benda sebab Allah masih sayangkan kita, supaya kita sedar yang apa kita buat ni salah and try berubah and ambil iktibar daripada itu. Learning from a painful way is the best lesson." Thanks. =) But, once you know you've made a mistake, just stop from repeating the same mistakes over again, and try to avoid the same thing. Enough speaking about serious thingy. :) Just now, I skyped with both my parents and my siblings. I was so happy seeing their faces. Oh, miss 'em like so much. :(



Hey, guess what. :) they are my parents, same tak same tak? hehehe. ;)) Most of my friends said that, I look like my mak more, but some said, I am like my abah.. As a conclusion, I am like both of them. Wee~
Okay, that's all for now.

Quote of the day: You never know you love something when it is already gone. ;)




Monday, November 23, 2009

Rizal.

I miss my old friend.
I really do.
An old friend who I've not known who he is till now.
A friend who suffers from leukimia and I wonder how he is now.
A friend who suddenly appeared in my life a long time ago and suddenly he went away.
A friend who is no longer Malaysian cause he moved to Russia those old days.
A friend who makes me remind me of him when I listen to these songs.
[Larut(Dewa), Pupus, My Heart,Kau Ilhamku and some more]
A friend who made me stronger than I was before.
And he is really my friend.
RIZAL.
Wherever you are now, I just want you to know, I miss you and your story.
I try to reach u through our friend but I lost her number anyway to get to know about you again.
And these date: 22/1/2007 gave a lot of memories between two of us.
I hope you will be as strong as a hard stone to face your truth in life which might turns u a lot.
And as if you know,
Fitrilina sayang kamu.T__T

Thursday, October 15, 2009

wajar x?

Hidup? Macam ni lah. Macam biasa.Ke kelas dan balik study.
Exam block dah tak lama dah.
Aku masih macam ni. Tak betul-betul utilise masa dengan semaximumnya.
*Sigh*....Tapi apakan daya memang salah aku sendiri kot.
Tak boleh nak salahkan sesiapa.
Ohh...Current new events. Akan ke JASSI weekend nih.
At last, dapat jugak.
InsyaAllah ada rezeki aku p.
Tapi at the moment, I am just soo guilty.
Sebab at the same weekend, bebudak Devangere nak datang.
T___T..
Waaa.....Mahu spend time dengan mereka.
Tapi mahu juga belajar tentang bagaimana nak handle kehidupan sebagai seorang doktor suatu masa nanti secara Islamicnya.
Itu juga penting.
Tapi aku tekad pada hati.
Aku pilih yang kedua.
Tapi kawan2, bukan bermakna kalian diketepikan!
Aku sayang kalian!
=)..
Moga kita dapat jumpa lagi di lain waktu andai nanti tidak berkesempatan.
Doakan yea.:)
Ada satu cherita lagi.
Tadi tak semena-mena air mata gugur.
Hahaha.
Ada rasa malu di situ.
kui2.Cheritanya begini:
Beberapa hari lepas aku ada laa buat status FB.
"Fitrilina Mustapa kerinduan pada anak2.ipin,ilang,entoi,ummey,itam."
Itulah status aku.
Tiba-tiba lepas gap kelas kul 2, aku check email.
Ina, adikku comment.
Dia cakap ada 2 ekor anak2 aku mak teh bawak balik rumah.
Terus tepon mak, tanya.
Dan aku nangis sebab itu.
Masih berfikir wajarkah?T__T

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Sebulan tu tak lama.

I'm counting days.
Tinggal semalam je lagi aku nak tidoq kat rumah.
hmm...sigh...sigh..sigh....
sebulan cuti.memang sangat sekejap.
aku harap aku balik ni berbekalkan semangat yang berkobar-kobar untuk masuk BLOCK 3..
pastu amek University Exam.
Semangat fitri.Semangat!!!
Fighting!!
:D..
Aku akan rindu balik muka-muka ni very soon.



+my sweethearts++Adik Ina+


mereka bertiga.
+Adik Wawa+
+Adik Aliff++Adik Adam+

Sekarang ni...aku tengah cuba mengumpul semangat.
Good Luck NURUL FITRILINA.

Friday, July 31, 2009

P.A.C.K.I.N.G.

Wow.To my surprise, the exams finally ended.Finally..

COOL.

How's the feeling? How I felt?
  • Am I happy cause the one-month-holiday will start tomorrow?
  • or am I disappointed because of the Biochemistry OSPE last paper was soo shit? hmm..
  • Am I excited to go back to Malaysia again?
Yeah.To be honest, I do feel all the feelings.
I feel the first one.
The second follows.
Then, goes the third.

Ohhoo..People.
Can't wait to go back home.
I miss everyone.
I miss the environment of Malaysia.
Not India ok.Not India for sure.^^

Looking back right and left me now.
Ohhooo.
Still lot more stuff to be done!

P.A.C.K.I.N.G!!

Just now, Fara came to my room with the hope she can put the henna on me and hers to.
Henna.Or simply called "inai".
She surfed the net to find the new pattern.
And finally.
She found it.

"Fara::Fitri, meh aku try kat ko.Try kat diri sendiri tak jadi la."
"Fitri::Boleyh2.Tapi tangan kanan yeah.Tangan kiri nak kemas lagi.Hee"

Then she held my hand, used her strength and ability to follow the pattern.
Exactly like in the net.
It was nice.
I saw it.While she kept putting the henna on me with her nice design.
Suddenly, because I was too tired, I slept.I slept while she made the design on me.
Then I thought of something.
It was like in the dream.
Spontaniously, I stratched my hand.
Just exactly on the design.
Ohhhoooo.
Pity fara! =)...*wink3*
I spoiled it.
Ngee...Sorry dear.It was an accident.
^_^

Okayh.Tink I should stop now.Things are waiting for me to arrange them nicely and pack them as soon as possible.The bus will move at 7am tomorrow to Bangalore.:)
I won't sleep tonite.
InsyaAllah.




Sunday, June 21, 2009

ABAH.ABAH.ABAH.



HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO my beloved ABAH.
Thanks abah.Thanks trillion kat ABAH atas segalanya.
I'm proud to be your daughter.
=)
Own syg ABAH sangat..
Own rindu ABAH jugak.
Own nak ABAH happy.
Own nak ABAH bangga dengan Own.
Kalaulah boleh Own balas balik semua jasa ABAH.
Tapi Own taw Own tak mampu nak balas semuanya.
Tapi..
Own boleh buat ABAH bangga dengan Own.
Own akan cuba.
Akan terus cuba.
Thanks lagi kat ABAH.
Atas apa yang ABAH buat dari Own kecik sampai sekarang & sampai bila2 pn.
ABAH tak pernah merungut.
ABAH tak pernah kata "tak".
ABAH cuba jugak buat apa yang Own minta.
Walaupun Own taw kadang2 melampau.:)
Ngee...Sorry.=p
ABAH tak pernah merungut.
Dengan kami 5 beradik.
ABAH nak taw dak..
Own bangga sgt dengan ABAH.
Bangga jadi anak ABAH.
Walaupun malam2 ABAH balik lambat dari berniaga,
ABAH betul tak pernah merungut.
Own terharu kat ABAH.
Walaupun dah 12.00malam kadang-kadang tu,
ABAH tetap pack barang2 ABAH nak berniaga esok.
Bawang,cabai,perkakas2 len.
Kadang-kadang bila Own free, abah mintak tolong Own.
Tapi kadang-kadang Own geram gak kat abah.
Sebab ABAH mintak tolong time Own tengok cerita best.
Teruknya Own kan...Maaf ABAH.Maaf.Maaf.
Betapa time tu Own tak fikir apa yang ABAH dah buat.
Semua pengorbanan ABAH Own tak fikir time tu.
Own taw.Own menyesal.
Bila pagi2 abah tak keluaq berniaga,
ABAH p umah tok.
ABAH pack lagi barang.Mana yang tak settle.
Dan lagi.ABAH tetap tak merungut.
ABAH penat.Own taw.Tapi ABAH tak pernah kata tak.
ABAH. ABAH.
Kadang-kadang,Own dengan adik2 ada buat ABAH marah.
Kami NAKAL sangat.
Maaf ABAH.
Maaf.
=).
Tapi Own dengan adik2 janji.
Janji dengan satu benda.
InsyaAllah,kami akan buat ABAH dengan MAK bangga.
Satu hari nanti.
Amin.
Akhir kata, moga ABAH dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Moga ABAH bahagia dan happy selalu.
I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCCCHHH!! -_-

P/S: Nantikan kepulangan Own nanti.Jaga elok2 pokok durian yang baru berbunga kat blakang rumah.Own balik Own nak makan taw! hee....Sayang ABAH.Sayang MAK.and Adik2ku.MUAHH.:)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Lemahnya~

Haha.What a nice promise ryte dat day before?
Confidently said I'll stop blogging for a while.
But I can't.Hee.
Cz blogging is one of d way I tell wut I feel as if no one wuz there to listen.
Yeap.Wut I wanted to update this time is dat,
LAST NITE, I skyped with my 2 lil sis (Ina and Wawa) and 1 lil bro(Adam).
Aliff wuz not there at that time.He wuz already in d dreamland I guessed.=).

Ina: "Adik,bangun.Kak Own nak skype nih dgn adik.
Aliff: (smbil genyeh2 matanya yang sepet) "Ha? Adik ngantuk.X larat nak bangun."
(tidoq semula)
Ina: "Kak Own,adik x mau bngun dah."

Dat wuz how everything began.Skyping with my siblings wuz d one I waited this all while!
I miss them a lot. But since I wuz bz, and they too...we couldn't make it till suddenly the buzzed me last nite.
Wawa juz came bax from SAMURA since she wuz having 2 weeks holidays.
Adam wuz in d house.Just reached 14years old.Didn't have the chance to go to hostel yet.
Ina jz finished her Matriculation Programme and still waiting for d offer.
ALiff? He's just 11 years old.My very little brother.:)

We wuz chit-chatting,talking about crazy new stuffs,doin crazy actions and took d picture of it.
And then suddenly they said something that really touched me.

Ina,Wawa,Adam: "Kak Own, napa gmbaq latest nmpk cm kurus? X makan ka? Makan la..Ma dgn abah suruh makan.=)

diz wuz d pic~

Me: "huh? kak own makan la..cuma kadang2 x makan sbb x smpt..:)..dgn malas nak turun.
The very FIRST thing that made me touched.
Fine.Then, we talked again and again..
I kept capturing their pictures through the skype.


Their instant actions.weee~=)
From left: Wawa,Adam,Ina.(Aliff wuz not here.)


Their actions that I keep missing till now,
Their voices.
I tried to reminisce d past and still I could hold my tears from being secreted.
I didn't want they saw obviously how I missed them.
Suddenly, I saw they wrote something on a white paper.
They were writing and I kept wondering what was it.
I asked them but they remained silent.
Still..I wuz eagered to know.
After everything was done,
Ina took the paper and put it in front of the web camera
so that I could see better what was that.
I frowned and tried to see it.
It wasn't that clear and she still tried to make it clear for me to see.

oookkkaaaaayyyhhh.
I obviously could see what was written there.
Touched.For the SECOND TIME.Sebak.Terharu.
And to be frank, I could not stand again holding my tears from running down.
Here was what they wrote to me.
Looked simple but it means a lot to me.A lot.


Here it is.They wrote this to me.T.T


I cried.a very LIGHT cry.
Segaaannnn jerrrr....=)
Adam started laughing at me.
Wawa too.
Then followed by Ina.
Suddenly, they said something.

Them: "Kak Own, kami amek pic kak own nangis.Nak tunjuk kat ma dgn abah esok.
Hahhaahaha..(evil laugh from them)
Me: "Appaaaa???? X mo! X mo! malu la...X macho la nanti...wahaha~.SANGAT segan.

It's not because I feel soo "SEGAN" or wut so eva wit ma parents,
I juz don't want them to predict on something.
Something like
  • I am not okay here.
  • I missed them to much till I can't focus on the study.
  • Or, I'm having a kinda big problem to be settled now.
Ma,abah...Honestly it's not that.
Yes, I admit I do miss you guys a lot.
I admit I'm having a problem now.
But still...I can focus on my study..
Don't have to worry to much on me.
I'm still d little Nurul that you know before who is not-so-matured girl
but she can handle everything very well with the help of your supports.
Just have d faith on me..
Pray for my success and surely I'll be ok.
-_-


Hurm...=)..
That was the story.
We ended up the video call when I suddenly remembered that I hadn't prepare
even a thing for the SDL which is done today.
Then, I had to stop the video call.even my heart asked me not to do so.
I had to stop.
=).
Below are the last dialogues with them,

Me: Wawa, fighting2 for your spm.nanti kita skype lagi bila kamu nak balik Samura dah.

Ina,berchenta, berchenta gak.Jangan dok malas2 kat rumah.=)

Adam, jangan lawan cakap ma n abah.Nanti jadi batu kot.(mana dapat teori ni pun aku x taw.=p)


What a nice Kakak kan am I who keep advising my little sistas and bros.Wahaha~.^_^
Tink that's all for now.
To what I promised before,not to blog for the moment,I wish to take back.
Ada orang tak bagi.=)
Plus, I need something to listen to what I'm 'mengaruting'.
(-_0)
Da~~





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