Incompetent doctor? :(

Assalamualaikum, readers.

Hi. It's 1932 and I should have bathe myself right now, to go to library but well yeah, just wait a while. Today, I feel a bit disappointed, to what comments lecturers have put up during meeting about performances of our groups.

Professor Uduman Ali:" What have you been studying? You should know most of things in medicine now. I thought you guys are only lacking of knowledge and skills in neurology (toughest area in medicine) but it surprised me and it seems that all field of medicines you are all lacking off. You are 10th semester already (final semester before we become a doctor), you SHOULD KNOW everything, just on the tip of your tongue! "

The talk continues by Prof Uduman: "Yesterday, we had a meeting, and this issue has been brought up by Prof Lakshmi. She said none of you are competent for the final exam! Even your semester-in-change ( we know who, and it is Dr. Kolitha)  was also annoyed."

That was it. That was right after my presentation this morning regarding one Neurology case about one pakcik who has this cerebellar disorder presented with only complaints of vertigo. After the presentations, Dr Uduman asked us questions which we supposed to know but we stumbled in answering it, and not properly confident with the answer even the answer was correct.

At that point of time, I felt like going to a place to hide, where nobody could find me, I felt so disappointed and I didn't know what to do. Yeah, we've learnt all of that, but we forgot. We always forget things we should remember. It's not that we don't know a thing, it's just that we don't remember. Prompting to answer without any level of confidence really disappoints me and I know it disappoints our lecturers too :(

From that moment on, I promise myself to work my tail off, study hard and try to revise back the things I've learnt. We've come across about those things previously, and by re-reading and studying won't so much difficult, as it will stay longer in our brain as yeah we've been exposed to that kinda topics.

I know it is our responsibilities to study hard and hard and hard and I know we really should be blamed for that incompetency and lack of skills. We should practise more and more.

I really want to be A MUSLIMAH, AWESOME, SMART, INTELLIGENT, ELEGANT FUTURE DOCTOR,  yes that is my aim and goal.

O' Allah please help me in achieving that aim, remind me if I lost and forget the things I shouldn't. ;)

Lee Min Ho vs. Apley

Today is my sleeping day for me. I opened and read half a page of Orthopaedic textbook Apley's then, suddenly my eyelids got so heavy till it spontaneously closed. Then I woke up again, maybe of a bad dream in a middle of the day. Again, the same routine, I read a line, then I felt as if I was floating, the transition between awakening and sleepiness. Then there I was, sleeping yet, again!

Go to hell all those aims, konon- konon nak habiskan la at least one topic, blah la fit!

And one thing I have succeeded today: I managed to watch 2 episodes of City Hunter today! Mihmihmih~ Well, who can stand this handsome, awesome, cool guy, Lee Min Ho, he's so smart! Oh, City Hunter is one of the Korean series actually, action with a little bit of romance kinda type.

Awwwww~ Look at the smile :)))

What a life really.

Today was a tiring day for me. Yeah I know what you gonna say.

"You didn't have afternoon class, how come you said today was a tiring day for you?"

Hee. Yes, it is. I didn't have afternoon class but still I was way too tired till I slept for almost 3 hours this afternoon! I wonder how I am going to sleep tonight =.= It was tiring when you had to stand about 3 hours in the OT (operation theatre) watching for the operation going on, actually it is more tiring to watch and only observe compared to perform the operation itself you know. >.< but this is what medical student has to do. To OBSERVE. To make thing worst, I didn't actually take my breakfast as initially, I decided to fast today. But, then I was suddenly in a red- flag state, you knew why. So, that was even worse! The symptoms that I usually have in the earlier 1-2 days of period is back pain and there it was, the BACK PAIN, worsen on standing for a long time!

Can you imagine the feeling? You stomach was growling, asking for food, while at the same time you had to bear with the back pain. Ughhh. It hurts you know. Haihhh merungut je kan! Hehe. But, that's how I am going to face about another 1 year when I will be a Housemanship officer (HO) later. Have to try to bear with it. Fighting! ;)

Now, I am so wide awake. Guess I should have struggling from today onwards as end of posting orthopaedic examination is approaching. For God sake, for the last 2 weeks, I was just playing all around, didn't even finish reading even a page! So lazy girl indeed.

So, TODAY I HAVE TO START STUDYING!!!!!!!!

REALLY HAVE TOO! :)))

so, Fighting to me and to you too, and BEST OF LUCK for your block test tomorrow. :)

commed

Salam. Exam is around the corner. I woke up around 10 am today, not very early, because I aimed to wake up around 8 to continue studying. :( I haven't even finished the epidemiological study yet. Hmm, just thinking when will I finish this topic off.

I just came back from having my lunch, I guess, I can't take a nap now, since I woke up late today. Never mind, good luck fitrilina! Go and continue studying! :)

restless when I blanked and blurred.

I had a thought block this morning, I didn't know how it happened, it just did. It started when we were trying to do the dispersion exercises given by the lecturer. We had to find the answer for standard deviation, variance, standard error etc. which we have already learned during the school days and also A - level. It was fun, because, it involved so much calculations and I really love it.

Back to the point, about how I got this thought block. It started when Zaty asked me on how to calculate the variance. I explained to her the formula, and I have done it and got the answer. To make things easier, you have to know the mean value and saved it somewhere in the calculator either as A, B, C, etc values, so you didn't have to put the value many times. Then she asked me on how to insert the value either as A, B or C. When I was about to tell her, I suddenly blanked, like REALLY REALLY BLANKED. I felt so idiotic that time because it's not that I didn't know, it just that I forgot to do it during that particular time, even when Zaty asked I've already have the answer in my answer sheet. The way I inserted the value was done and triggered by my subconscious mind, and if I tried to recall one by one on how I did it, I just couldn't do it. I stucked for a while, just watching over the paper.

I am kinda person who will be so unmotivated if something I know it very well just slip from my mind like that, like that that eventhough before that, I am so mastered to do it. To continue the next question, I was so not into it. My mind was really working that time, trying to recall but I couldn't. When I got back to my room, I called my sister, Farina to teach me, yeah she did thought me but it was not the way I usually did to enter the value as it was quite complicated for me. Then I called my other sister, Najwa and Alhamdullilah, she really did it the way I did it. I got back the way! No more thought block! Immediately, I rushed to Zaty's room and told her the correct way about it. You know what, when I have already known the answer to my missing memories, I was so so so relieved and happy. :)

From here, the conclusion I can make is that, yeah I am the one who is so eager to know something that I used to know that I forget it just like that. I don'tknow about others, but that's how I feel. And if I couldn't find the answer, I will be restless and can't do anything else which I suppose to do. Just thinking, whether is a good thing or not? Haishhhh T_T

elective per say

Salam. A great opening, now and back then. It's already late,actually, but since I have slept for about 1 hour around 730pm, and now I just couldn't close my eyes for more, feeling fresh and good. If the class is on now, I am willingly to go. :p. Today, not much is there to be talked about, I don't have any idea, just thought about doing 'elective' later after final 4th year examination known as P2S1 examination. Owh, before I begin, I would like to tell, what elective means. 

Elective is the term used by us, MMMC student in which it defines as the compulsory hospital attends that you need to accomplish during the three-weeks holidays after P2S1 examination. It is kinda cool actually, where ever you want to go, and which department you prefer. Yeah, I knew that this topic has started to arise among my batchmates, and most of them prefer to do outside of Malaysia like Australia, Japan, Korea and the lists go on, but for moderate student like me, I can't afford to go there, even yeah I did have the thought to go somewhere else apart from Malaysia, but never mind, being in Malaysia to do elective is preferable, cost-saving, and practical since we are going to serve for government of Malaysia, so why choose overseas right?:)
 
And plus, going for elective as the same place as you is what I hoped for such a long time, if and only if everything is just possible without difficulties regardless the departments which we gonna take, it depends of him and depends on me too. I've been thinking to try out the surgery or medicine department since these are the busiest departments of all, and I could learn a lot during the time. It is just a thought, maybe I might change it as the time comes. So far, the hospital in mind is hospital Sultanah Bahiyah, Alor Star, Kedah, but well, again these are all the thoughts. ;)


Other arising matter is that, tomorrow there will be blood donation campaign at my college, MMMC. I've been thinking about donating my blood, owh yeah, my blood type is B+ :). If I manage to donate blood this time, this gonna be the third time I successfully donated blood so far, two times in Manipal, back then. Since I am Malaysian, why not I try to donate for my own country right?:) yeah, will see again because at the same time, I am thinking to fast tomorrow, not the compulsory one, but just an optional or best termed as 'puasa sunat'. :) I just planned, but everything depends on Him up there, He have fated things to be in the correct way, hopefully, things will go smoother tomorrow, errmmm by tomorrow I mean today since it passed 12midnight already. :) 


Okay, gotta sleep now. Ttlyl. Salam.


P/S: Wiggy, wiggy, wiggy, thanks! You know what I mean ;)

just found this picture of Mak and Ecah when she was about 1 year old maybe. I miss her talkativeness. ;)

jum berusaha :)

Salam. Hello, cekelat. Hmm, results aku dah banyak la aku taw. Tapi ada lagi la yang tak dapat. Those results are as followed:

Medicine: 47
Surgery: 48
ONG: 52
Opthalmology: 58
ENT: nil
Community Medicine: nil

Hmm. highlight sikit markah yang teruk tu. :( Haihhh dah la subjects yang penting, leh plak aku failed segala. Apa nak jadi ni fitri. Dah lama kot aku tak failed, camana la boleh pecah record ni. Dulu masa dekat Manipal, sesusah mana pun exam alhamdullilah, lulus jugak la walaupun nyawa nyawa ikan kembung. Tapi kali ni dah dua subjects dah aku 'successfully' failed. :( Sedihhh oo tak tipu.. Bila nak bagitaw kat mak dengan abah tu rasa down sangat, rasa guilty habis, sebab kesian dekat mak dan abah sebab results aku teruk. Salah sendiri la, sebab sapa suruh main2 masak 6th sem, sepatutnya kena la pulun habis kan. takpela, benda dah nak jadi. mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. Mungkin Allah nak aku berusaha kuat lagi sebab dah nak jadi doctor betul dah pun, tak leh dah nak main- main. Dah dalam clinical years, life would be a lot more tougher, well said. Tak boleh lah nak bersuka ria, bergelak ketawa macam aku student art ke sastera ke, kena bersungguh sungguh because my profession is totally different. I deal with the people's life. Sanggup ke aku tengok family patient aku sedih bila aku tak dapat nak jadi doctor yang baik kepada patient and treat the patient well? Yelaa.. Kalau ilmu tak cukup, practice pun tak cukup, macamamna nak come out with correct diagnosis and treatment?? Nurul Fitrilina, just sit back and think. Stop playing around. Life will be tougher now and in future. Be serious and matured with professional act. *nasihat untuk diri sendiri ni* :p

Ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangat aku, dia dan semua sahabat-sahabat aku untuk meneruskan perjuangan ini. Semoga perjuangan yang suci ini diberkati hingga ke akhirnya. Amin. =)

Semester 7- the beginning

Semester 7. Hello and Salam everybody. Yeah, yeah, it's true, I'm back to school, back to med skul, study and busy stuffs and all. No more holidays, enough for one week okay, don't ask for more. :).
Sorry for not updating cekelat during the holidays, because I was so busy and lazy to update, even I had the internet connection all 24-7.. Sorry! :D. Yeah, being at home was so great, meeting up with your parents, siblings and family and not to forget with him, not to say that I didn't have the chance to meet him in college, but I can only go out with Mr. Bam over the holidays only. Yeap, sabar- sabar, insyaALLAH everything will be just fine! :)

Actually, I have tonnes of stories to be told regarding the holidays but so lazy to type at the moment, hee, maybe I will story to you guys again on the next or next next post, just wait and see :). Speaking about Semester 7, now I am officially a FOURTH year med student. 3 years have passed, never have the thought that I have made it and crossed two big exams before reaching at this level. Alhamdulillah. It's just that, I just need to keep my spirit up high and continue studying, praying and hoping that the last two years will be just smooth before I will become a real DOCTOR. Amin. ;). Ups and downs have been faced, sweetest and saddest moments also there. Yeap, fourth year, life would be a lot more busier and stressful, but whatever it is, just remember that, I have to continue this battle till the end. Just pray to HIM that everything will be fine :) Regarding the love story of my life, let it be secret. InsyaAllah, another 2 years, all this patience will be repaid. Amin. :) Owh, my first posting for this semester is Community Medicine. Since I don't have class this evening, I just do nothing but cleaning and tiding up my room ;) . Love the smell of the flowers all over my room! Thanks for the flowers!! =))).. Will upload my room photo later. Not yet finished cleaning. Tehhee rest for a while :D.

Anyway, for Community medicine, we need to do some kind of research for this semester, lots of statistics to be learned, and even we gotta to use our dusty calculator because there are lots of calculations to be made. yeay, I kinda miss Mathematics so much! :)))) Hope the research won't be so hard, I hope I can find easy, simple, but knowledgable research for the use of all ;) Help me, help me for the research topic! Hee.

Okay, gotta stop now. Will update Cekelat later ;) Salam.

GARFIELD ENT.

Halo. tak lama I nak cakap- cakap nie. Please lemmi talk about 5 minutes only , before I continue facing the bookssss urghhhhhh ::(((. You know what. I tengah bosan gila, I dok study ENT then bosan, bosan nya ENT, sebab I tak pergi hospital meet patients lagi untuk subject ni, memang la bosan kan. >.<. I bosan, tapi nak kacau boyfie I dia pun mesti tengah study kuat- kuat sekarang. :) So, I kacau la Cekelat ni kan, yeah yeah, you know what? suddenly I miss poeming. Serius weyh, I tak tipu, tetiba rindu nak berkarya. :) Tapi mesti sekarang kekreatifan dah tak macam dulu, sekarang dah tumpul dah, ni semua sebab buku medik tebal- tebal I kena baca, itu lagi penting dari berjiwang berpuisi melayan perasaan. Hik hik hik. :D

Okay, 2 minutes gone! T_T. Tadi, I dah settled pun satu subjek sessional examination which was MEDICINE. Dafuq, memang susah gile nak mati la kan, not as what we expected. Banyak keluar soalan soalan pharmac, padahal mana lah kitorang nak ingat, lupa habis kot, tak lekat dah dalam hippocampus ni ha, betul tak tipu. Kalau dia tanya pathogenesis disease boleh la nak happily cerita, ini tanya adverse effects drug, memang la tak dapat la nak korek otak sebab dah volatile dah pun. Sedih oo tak tipu, tapi takpelah nak buat camana, nama pun exam, harap lah nak senang. :)

another 2 minutes gone. Okay, takpelah nanti bila I ada masa, I update la poem terbaru, yeah mungkin nanti. Bila sumber ilham tiba;)) I kena pergi sambung study ENT. Takpe, jangan bosan2 nak balik dah , tak lama dah pun. Teruskan bersemangat okay, Fitrilina! Chayok! ;))

kucing ini I jumpa masa study dekat library tempoh hari. Comel bukan? Macam apa? Cuba teka ;)))

Macam Garfield! Dy mok mok bam bam macam Garfield. :D:D

Caffeine.

Damn it. I just woke up. And again I peeped outside through my window, it is raining. Still. Yeaah not my fault I had this excessive sleep. :p. But, I should not waste my time now. I should geared up back again. Gotta make some coffee and clear my room a bit.

You know what, lately I am a caffeinated girl, the one who is caffeine-addict. I don't know what is the reason, but everytime I have a cup of nescafe usually, I will feel energetic as ever. Actually , the reason is the caffeine la kan. Hahaha. Okay, chiow, a long listed learning objectives should be covered. :)

Selamat study to those who is reading this, and currently a student like me, no matter what course you are in now. Best of luck:)

belajarlah sampai ke negeri China( note: Bukan Paris okehhh;p)

I care.

Surgery 3rd day.

Hectic life, I would say, but yeah quite interesting. But, since I am still new, I am unable to take history for surgery so well and come out with cool yet correct provisional and differential diagnosis. I am still in the phase of learning. But, seeing others come out with cool diagnosis makes me so eager to learn about surgery and be smart like them too. I did have discussion with senior last night from Batch 21, Mr. Adrian, and he's quite cool. They way he explained was kinda understandable for me. (Forget to tell you, everyday I will take history with other two my group members, Marveena and Fara.). As I have stated in the previous post, maybe previous-previous post, about the one particular lecturer, he never took class with us in Muar. I am so nervous waiting for that moment to come because unlike other lecturers, he really didn't like students to write the history while history taking is done, instead he prefers us to just memorize and remember in the mind all those staffs in the fully-occupied mind, starting from the patient's profile and up to diagnosis of the case. Can you imagine that? -.-. Quite scary you know. T_T.
Well, tomorrow we have PAL(peer-assisted learning) presentation in the evening from 2 pm till 5 pm. The case we've taken for this week is gastric carcinoma, but actually the patient wasn't really cooperative and she also didn't know how to speak Malay, yeah she's a Chinese, old lady. I could understand that. But however, thanks to Adrian again , because he struggled to help us taking the history with the examination even the only finding was pallor. >.<. Janganlah 'dia' mengamuk esok. Seram sejuk kot. :(

And just to make you guys jealous( if you do la kan.:p), tomorrow night, I will be going back homeee!!! Hee, but m gonna skip the friday class, including the surgery workshop with 'him'. And that things also make me chill to the bone, thinking about what gonna be his response when he found out that almost all group D1 and D2 have gone back. T_T.

Next story: I read about the trend in twitter and they keep talking about a poor small child named Ahmad Raif Nufail who is suffering from brain damage due to the nerve infection kinda thing, I don't know what specific infection that he has. To read more about this, visit this blog. I found on while googling. Nisa Kay. Let's pray for this brother, insyaAllah everything will be fine, Amin.

Next to next, I hope that, I can manage each and every problems in mind in a positive way. I don't know why but there are several things that haunt my mind lately. So, to me, bersabarlah dengan apa yang berlaku. Positive thinking is never a waste. You can make yourself smile again and others too. That's all for today. Jaga diri.

It's for you. Play hard if you think you have recovered. Stop playing if you get hurt back. Take care, dear:)

A hard day.

I just finished my medicine clinical end posting exam, not the MCQs and MEQs part yet, with Dr. Lakshmi. She's cool, pretty great and one of the best doctors. But, I screwed up the exams this morning. ::(. I've never 'about to burst' but this time around, it happened. It wasn't a hard case, just a patient came with breathlessness which I correctly pointed out the diagnosis as acute exacerbation of bronchial asthma. But then, still, there were many things that she didn't satisfy. I didn't know why. Maybe I left some findings that I supposed to know. Luckily the patient was cooperative, and answered all my questions very well. Because I kept everything in my heart, just listened to her rising her voice, at the end of the examination, my voice started to slow down and change a bit when I answered her question about investigations. I could answer but because of the voice, it looked all unclear. Then, I tried to convince myself just to hold on and be strong because the exam was about to end already. Be grateful that the patient was cooperative enough, compared to other patients who were usually looked down to medical students. That is it. That's my day today. I wanted to share it with my parents to but I couldn't tell them since I didn't want them to feel pity for me. Maybe I shouldn't blame Dr. Lakshmi for that. Maybe it was my fault too. Be strong fit, be strong. :")

study.

5 OUT OF 15. :(. Kinda sad, hope that I could do better than that. 

Maybe it's not my luck. Just keep on fighting and struggling.

Talking to the patient and his wife taught me a lot about how they believe and put all trusts to the doctors.

I'm only a medical student, not yet a doctor, but still they kinda put a lot of hope when I was taking the history.

"Pak cik, mak cik, jangan risau. Kami akan cuba buat yang terbaik."

Semangat, semangat, semangat! =)

P/s: Kami here refers to all medical students in the world. Especially YOU. =)

sarcastism.

Well, salam and hello all! :)) Can see the smiling face next to what I have written? Yeah, it is kinda fake actually. :(. I just finished my long case end posting examination early morning today. Not much to comment, yeah Dr. Sachi, as the name suggest, he is kinda sarcastic to what he says and to what he acts. Anyway, he's a lot better than one other Surgery lecturer( name cannot be mentioned) who is labelled to be the most SCARIEST doctor on Earth. Yelling and chasing the students out of the class is just sooo him. I am so gonna face him very soon, well not so soon because surgery is my last posting. Can you imagine the expectations he is going to have on us since we are the last groups? Life is tough man. :(. Being a medical student is not as honeymoon as other courses. A lot of things to be learnt, to be read, to be practised and to be memorised.

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT. Layman proverb that we use but sometimes we take that for granted, aren't we? We think we've done well but actually a lot more to be gained without simply sitting on a comfort chair while youtubing or facebooking. I am talking about myself. Maybe the way Dr. Sachi got mad with us just was kinda over-the-limit, since the questions he asked ALL were about the management but we know NOTHING about that because we think that managements are supposed to be covered by the seniors, not the freshie/ juniors/ new learners like us. Yeah, he was not supposed to get mad like that, but maybe at the positive side, it was our fault too, for NOT trying to read about the management thoroughly. It's like a lesson to me. Don't stop reading. Because new knowledge is not only by seeing or practising but it also comes with reading, reading and reading non-stop. Theory, something that we need to polish more, because without it, we can't afford to perform the examinations if we don't have any idea about the theory overlying the diseases. Okay. Fit, please, learn a lesson.:)) . Obstetrician in wish list, remember?:) The next posting is MEDICINE and hopefully I will try to improve on this. Good luck! :)

Next chapter: It's only one day and I miss them already. :(. Dear loves, please pray for my success. Love u all a lot. :).

tiga gadis yang tak berapa nak ayu. hihi

dua jejaka mata sepet.:D*anak abah la ni mata sepet*;p

ma, abah,adik aliff yang nak boot baru utk birthday*thinking about jpa if I were to give him the gift. :O

I keep on laughing because of these tiga budak gila gila .

adam, muka nak edit aje, nak amekau kak own tak edit hahahhaah.

I love them. so mucho much mucho. ( the pot belly is to be included if I meant the first sentence. )

Next next chapter: I've been bullied. By a big rounded like, pot belly creature. =p.. Boo!! Whatever it is, always and always, I would like to say "warong kap"..(^_^)

I don't mind if u have pot belly. Ily as always. *tutup muka malu*=p

Hujan. Kirimkan pesanan kepada dia. :)

Salaam. Today again, there is raining, maybe a slight rain with a little thunder even till now. I can hear the sound of the 'awful' creature, Frog( as for me la kan. hihi) singing a terrible song. =.=. I don't know why the hell I am so cannot go with this greenly thing. I am sorry, I know it's not your fault, but till now, I can't open my heart to welcome you. T.T. well, move on to the topic of rain. Well, I'd love to say that I love rain! so much! Like I don't know how to explain but I love it so much!! :D:D I know some people may say that, yeah rain is not good because some people tend to fall sick when they are exposed to the rain, or some might have cold or fever, but truth is, all of these do not applicable to myself. Alhamdullilah, till today, my immune system is quite impressive. I can stand with this for so long, I mean the rain part. I don't mind exposing myself to the raindrops because the chance that I might get the cold is very much less compared to the others. Bukan nak riak ke apa, tapi kebenaran, even I don't know why.

Even when I was in primary school, I only skipped class for 3 days for the whole year, because of only 3-day-slight-mild-fever. Cool kan? :) hee. But, that time I was so jealous to those who could bunk class, using the reasons that they weren't feeling well. I obviously couldn't use the reason because I RARELY sick. But now, having this advantage really makes me feel kinda grateful sometimes. I don't have to buy medicines so much, like others do. Pity them huh. =.=. Spending sometimes about RM30 per day because of the drugs are so expensive in which you can use the money to buy something else apart from the medicines if you don't fall sick.

I love watching the rain. It touches the heart sometimes, I don't know why:)

Again, RAIN. I love playing in the rain. Getting yourself wet, and play something under the heavy rain is really satisfying. :) I know some groups of people tend to label people who love to play in the rain as crazy but I really don't mind. hihi. If those times when I was young, I used to go out from my room everytime I listened to the sounds of raindrops on the roof. It's time to play!! And yeah, mom always care about us. =.=. If my mom caught me playing in the rain, I gotta listen to her talks the whole day. Hee. sayang mak! ;)

masa first year:). nanti jadi monster ni la balik, dengan baju hujan dan bawak payung ke sana sini:)

By the way, even today, at the age of 21, I have the thought to play in the rain again. The last I remembered I played in the rain was during last year, heavy monsoon season and we played football that time. I miss those memories so much:(

Don't worry of being sick. Ubat kan ada. Main je hujan. Haha.

Bagi saya ni free, saya kahwin dengan sapa-sapa la. Haha~

That's the story about rain. Now it comes to the story about phone, yeah whatever you want to refer it to like hand phone, mobile phone or ring ring. :) Let's make thing simpler, I have my own NOKIA express music 5730 now, which I bought on August 2009. But now, I don't know why I think I want to buy new one. ANDROID kinda type. First and foremost, I preferred HTC brand more. But then, since the price is too expensive which I am not so affordable to buy HTC, I bury my intention deep down the ground. ( Actually, if I want to but it, there's no problem at all. but in Malacca I may have to eat Maggi for dinner. Haha.:P) So, from HTC I revert to SAMSUNG Galaxy SL. Hee. Still thinking about it, and maybe I am gonna buy it. InsyaAllah. :) I asked the opinions from different people, my parents, him, and my friends and they mostly say "It's up to you" which I interpret it as, "Yeah, you should buy it one. Hihi".
Today, we won netball over batch 27. Congratz, teammates. :) Hopefully we will meet Batch 26 again for the final , and this time we gonna show you guys our real 'we'. Teeheee~ :D.

That's all from now. I will have end posting exam this Tuesday at Karkala before move to the next posting, OBG which I can't wait the most. ( I am so thrilled to see the process of delivery with my own eyes. LIVE. ). Wish me luck.

will b back, dear love

Salam.

Maybe, tonight would be the last night I update this lovely blog named Chocolate. The exam is coming, less than 2 weeks I can say. Nervous, mixed-up feelings, but what can I do, just hoping for the best after the struggle.

Here are some of my boosters.

.going back to Malaysia
.continue reading the novels that I stopped reading so long before due to the medical books which are too way thicker than the novel. =.=
.trying to learn something new.
.traveling to new places.
.etc.

Can't think at the moments . Guys, wish me luck for the exams.

GOOD LUCK to you, too.



Love,

Fit.

cracker head

I am confused and I can't focus.:(
Haihh, the study week begins. too tired to absorb. My mind need some rest, but my body says NO. Too much to be read and covered, yet too little time are left.
Btw,
YESTERDAY, 15/0/2011 was my mother's birthday. Happy birthday, ma. I love you so much.:)

Moga diberkati umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.(^_^)

Sesi pembelajaran bermula. Mari berusaha!
:)

suture, breast examination. down!

Hye, SALAM.

I hate examss. I freakin hate examss. susah la, susah la exam . And tell me, was it worth I stayed up till subuh, but I couldn't answer much and screwed off my clinical skill labs? Mr. Raghuveer, you were too mean. :( and why the most easiest thing like sutures still I couldn't perform well???
Questions over questions.
This is only a BLOCK EXAM. I wonder what will happen to us later, during the study break for UNIVERSITY exam, maybe will be like panda or may turn into a monster? :/

But, whatever it is, just be POSITIVE. Try to think POSITIVE even you can't.



Suturing, next time I'll complete u within a minute! huh!

Let's Struggle Together.

What I suppose to do now?
Study.
Pardon me?
Study.
Again please.
STUDY. Yeah, study for the pharmacology practical paper tomorrow.

And, things to be updated. I kinda getting better.
As the day goes by.
Cz I'm a strong-strong girl. even stronger than CatWoman maybe.

Ahaha. Okay, that's it.

(^_^)

heyhoo

Hye. MSP was over. A week ago, thank God it really went well. Alhamdullilah.

And now, either I like it or not, I gotta focus on my study. There is no more excuses in which I can use to avoid studyinggggg... no more okehhh. Adoi, when I think about unis, the heart beats even faster. Sumpah, it is soooo scary u know. As what seniors said, 2nd year exam is 3-times harder than 1st year one and even, you life would be 3-times miserable than the first year. haiihhhhh. I just hope everything went well.
Here are some photos during MSP. =).