Salaah. :)

It's too much. Way too much. I just finished less than 50% of CVS while RS remains untouched. Test is just tomorrow. T_T. Now, my head is full already, have to write something to relax it before another trigger. Yeah, medicine. Don't mumble. It's your choice. Be grateful to Him for giving you the chance to study and to learn about all these stuffs. Not everybody is lucky.

Actually, there's something that pop up my mind since this morning, about how sick people perform their prayers. Based on the study I've read, 90% of Muslims( particularly in Malaysia) stop praying while they are sick. Quite a sad fact, right. We always get reminded that, Islam is easy, if you can follow. Islam never burden the slaves. But, why we use the excuse 'sick' to stop praying? It supposed to be this way: The more sicker you are, the more closer we are to the Highness. Kan? Hurm. Anyway, why this thing become the main topic is because I just read about this in the hospital itself. One of the writers said that, those who couldn't perform the prayer while standing can perform the salaah while sitting on the bed, or even if things are even worse, the patients can perform the prayers while lying down on the bed. Ya Allah. :"). It's not a problem at all for those who are admitted in hospital for chronic, acute or untreatable diseases to perform the salaah.

So think about it people. To those medical students out there, or doctors, use this chance to advise the patients to continue praying even if they are sick . It's our duties. Remember, Islam is the way of life, and it is simple if we really understand about it.

That's all for now. Gotta finish what's left. Davidson, MacLeod is waiting for me. Till then, goodbye and salaam. =)

Let's Struggle Together.

What I suppose to do now?
Study.
Pardon me?
Study.
Again please.
STUDY. Yeah, study for the pharmacology practical paper tomorrow.

And, things to be updated. I kinda getting better.
As the day goes by.
Cz I'm a strong-strong girl. even stronger than CatWoman maybe.

Ahaha. Okay, that's it.

(^_^)

I can only see you from far.

Looking you from the far doesn't really help.

I wish to help.

I wish to offer my hand at least to reduce the big things you have in mind.

Because, I can see something wrong is going on, like as if you are facing some kind of problems, I

don't know whether it's a personal matter, or the opposite.

Hmm, maybe, I just can say it here, as I don't have the chance to talk to you.

Be cool of whatever happen. Sometimes, undesirable things happen to let us know that life isn't

easy and we just have to continue struggling. To whomever read the post, please pass the

message to the name-cannot-be-mentioned-person, yeah, if let's say you can guess. :) I can't

directly tell the creature, because I don't want to, I maybe might disturb the life of that creature,

as I know I am nobody to this X person.:D.

Why these people exist?

When there was one time when they asked me whether I was okay or not what could I say anymore? I replied back, YES, I'm okay. But, that were all lies. I had to lie, I masked myself by all of these. To be honest and take everything for what has happened to me never made things returned to the way it was. Things happened and that's it. You can't spin the time back to the past, you can't pretend that things went well, you can't shut up and forget everything, and oh, maybe you can for the last fact but it really needs time, right? For how long? A week? A month? or a year? I wonder. I may hide my mixed-up feelings, I may remain silent, but can I stand all of these all alone? It ended for so long ago. But, it kept haunted me. I question and I wonder why. I wish to diminish the mixed feeling away but I don't have the strength. I'm not that kind of person that can simply let go off thing for a week or a month. It really takes ages! T.T.


"It is over. Leave it."
"Get rid of it. Write a new diary."
"It's the time for the start of something new."
"Something happens for a reason."
"Be cool."

Hmm, be cool. Love that anyway. Be cool and pretend as if u are the happiest person in the world. To talk is simple, but to reach it is just too hard and undecided. Some people say to me, people may come and go in your life. Be ready with it. Experience lies behind it. I nodded but then now I should think twice before nodding so long before. I don't agree. Then, one fact is clear if the above statement is true. Hey, come, come, then you may leave. No mark will be left here! Huh. Easy. But, it's not! It does hurt. And.... Really hurts. By the way, we are humans, we are not dogs that keep running here and there without even a slight care to others around. I use dogs. Sorry for that. Can't think of other animal.

Get back to the topic. Let's be clear. Maybe, I can't forget the things that have already happened. But, there is the rule of karma right? People did bad, and they will get something bad , somewhere and someday. I'm not praying for their destruction or what, this karma thing is to let them regret of what they did. Never leave mark on the people simply like that and go hiding somewhere without any trace, or don't talk sweets sometimes like you are the greatest prince or princess. Cause, somehow, your words might hurt others someday when you wish to disappear and keep things hanging.

And for this moment, only one thing I can think of. HIM. He's the one, up there. HE always listen to your prayers. Pray something good, something that will relieve you somehow even a little but at least you have the improvement right? Be strong and keep standing on your feet. Remember one simple thing. Someday, somehow, there will be people who come to your life unexpectedly or without intention and will make you happy and wash out all the bursts for the rest of your life.

WE NEVER REALLY KNOW, RIGHT? :)

This message is for my little sister, Ina who's having her hard time now.=D

Dear, keep smiling and be cool. Live your life to the fullest. Things might happened but not as what we expected but these will strengthen you. Keep praying to HIM. Just remember whatever happened was just like the deep ocean where you have to cross to reach the other side of sea. :D. Cool huh? Remember what I keep telling you before. Someday, the bright will come together with the greatest prince ever, right?:) And by the way, there is no harm in dreaming. Lalalalalala~. P/s, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)

And to all, thanks for reading. Suddenly I feel like writing. Good night. Sweet dream will never be! :p

i am a medical student.so be strong!

Being a medical student teaches me a lot.

• Settle things earlier than dateline because each day there will be lot of things added up.
• To keep strong even sometimes you can't score the exams even you study so hard the night before.
• Be confident of what you did without questioning what might be the circumstances afterwards.
• Put all your love life aside cause you don't have so much time to think about those stuff plus, no one will understand the 'busyness' of medical student.
• tears are my best friend these few days.
• closer to Him cause He will always be there to listen to your prayers.
• Make me smiling everyday trying to chill myself though I know lots of things to be finished off.

Love,
fi3chocolate.

sometimes vs often

Sometimes...
When you did good things but it ended up with failure..
You feel like hope is gone,
You feel like you deserve something better..
You feel like the life is so unfair..

Sometimes..
when you are at the floor..
You don't have the gut to look up..
To reach the wall even you know you can't touch the roof..

Sometimes..
You see people smiling,
cause they get what they wish,
cause they hold the victory in satisfaction..
Cause they manage to reach the top..

Often,
You stop in the middle of the journey..
You step back and think..
wonder and question..
"Can I be the one?"