Showing posts with label lesson. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lesson. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Can I be like that?

I don't know why, today I feel so sad. Ermm not kind of so so sad, it's more of I am disappointed with so many things. Trying to do the best you can in certain things, but it ended up that, you were not being appreciated of what you did, it really hurts you know. You study almost every night, thinking that you want to master the topics, but end up you are being accused for not studying and not doing well in performance. It hurts. You don't know where to turn to. Being in front of all of them, and being scolded with harsh words and was labelled as 'stupid questions you've asked' 'irrelevant questions', 'haphazard history' were not a nice things you know. In fact, before I presented, I did have the aim to impress him, to try to show that I am studying, but ended up I spoiled everything. He didn't satisfy with my performance. He said that I did badly in Psychiatry, I should brush up my Psychiatry, and if only he knew that I spent most of my nights ( every night I shall say) just to open a psychiatry book to study. I rarely have the interest that much actually. Not everybody has the interest in Psychiatry. It hurts me in a way. Tonight, because of that, I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like open a book. I just want to rebel, really want to rebel even only I am the only one knowing that I am rebelling right now. Actually, this was just a small part of many things I am going to face later, I think even worse than this. That's why, I held my tears from falling, eventhough during my way back from hospital to my room, I was really about to burst anytime if anybody provoked me. I held it tight, even in my room all alone, I forced myself not to think about what has happened, and what has hurt me.. Let's just think it on a bright side. Let the mistakes become my good teacher. I will try not to repeat the mistakes and try to improve for the next time. There's always next time right? I promise myself to rewrite what mistakes I've made and I'm going to repeat it again and again. Let this be a lesson to me. I really want to be a very good doctor later, not just a doctor on the name, but a really real doctor who can do work very well, who can be a good listener to the patients. I don't want to be mechanical doctor, I want to be a doctor with a good soul and experience.

On the other hand, the things that made me sad today, hmm, I guess about me going or not going back. Mak keep telling me to just go back even the things about the car is not settled yet, because she said so many things she needs to do; to service the car, to repair the damaged part of car, the damaged paint, to refill the gas for aircond. So many things. I know. But, going back more than one time, oh I can't really afford that even I really wish to do so. It's so expensive to go back you know :( I really don't want to burden them this time, I just want to use my scholarship for my expenses, that's all. I hope everything will be just fine. Just fine.

Good thing for today: I learnt something in usrah today, about Firaun's wife, Asiah. She was very loyal and really have strong faith in Allah till she didn't care to be suffering and died just to protect and keep believing in Allah. She should be a good model to Muslimah. Can we be like her? Can we? Just think and muhasabah. 

Sunday, April 1, 2012

chill la!

Just realized something today.

I really couldn't tolerate if people talk with the harsh voices to me, I really couldn't.

I had pra-test today. That was an annoyed moment, I felt like bursting out the fire. The hill and the parking went well even I made a slight mistakes during the 3-corner part. But, when it came to the road which before this I could do well, better than hill, parking and 3-corner, the irritating moments began. I was the first to go with this pakcik. The only pakcik that has the license to do the pra-test, so I can't change to other person if I wish to do so later if in case I FAILED again.

I knew that he is the teacher in that particular driving school, although he didn't teach me, but then can't you behave and say something good without hurting others?
Previously, I could do well on the road, I really can ( bukan nak membangga diri or what) tapi that's it. But then, when it came to the test, at first when he was in a perfect silence, I could do every single steps without missing, but then when I reached the first traffic light and when my engine's car first stopped, he started yelling! He yelled at me and I really couldn't tolerate that!!! I felt so pissed off, but hmm, that was it.

I held my feelings, till I felt cracked inside, and when I reached the place back, then suddenly mo routine driving teacher came and asked me, "Macamana? Okay kan?" He said that with a smile in his face. Then only, my tears came out, running down my fast very fast, unable to control anymore. It hurts, and he was really mean. The mean teacher called me, then said something about how reckless I was on the road, I couldn't control the gear, I made the car stopped in the middle of the journey 4 times and bla bla although before this I was confident on the road, even not fully at least. I still teared that time, and I knew that he noticed it. I just nodded and didn't say a word. Then I walked out the room without saying thank you to him. I was so pissed off, really. I knew I was mean for not saying thank you, but which  one was more me, me not saying thank you, or he shouted at me so much till I couldn't concentrate and focus from the beginning of the journey to the end?

Maybe, I was a bit mengada- ngada, but I still couldn't accept the harsh yellings by him. Before this, maybe I could but that was the maximum point I think. My next pre-test would be this Tuesday. I didn't book for the practice before the pre- test. Lantak la. Fine if you want to fail me again, because I knew you have marked my face as 'budak loser tak pandai bawak kereta.' Label la, aku dah tak kisah. Bukan salah aku. Mungkin lepas ni, aku just try je buat, pekakkan apa yang dia cakap, sebab aku dah malas layan orang yang high voice ni. Seriously. Bukan nak cakap orang Melaka kasar, tak semua, tapi this time, it proves that most of citizens of Malacca acted like that, I noticed. Maaf pada orang Melaka yang lain.

After telling it to my mom, I was a bit calm. She said, it's okay, just try the best after this, and if possible try to change other cikgu. Hihi. Mak comel sangat. If only I can do it, but I can't. He is the only one who in-charge. Takpela, sabar jela, kalau Allah nak bagi aku lulus, lulus la, and kalau Allah dah tetapkan aku fail jugak, aku terima.

*Actually, aku super sedih super koyak ni, banyak sebab sebenarnya. Sebab high voice is the trigger. Sebab lain, sebab penat menunggu, penat booking since November 2011, penat lagi sebab before this aku penah amik half way tapi tak sempat habiskan. If let's say, I pass this Tuesday, I have the thought to go back home later, but if I can't make it, and he fail me again, I might stay here again, struggling to get the license again. Routine. Penat. Hmm.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

moulds. you! :D

It's already 12.20 in the midnight. Okay, now again, I wasted my night. and this is because of that damn moulds stucked on my white-white walls. Actually, I did realized about the presence of that moulds back then, when I came back to my room after one week of holidays. And that moulds were there because of the cold temperature of my room due to the aircond which was still turned on after I left my room. The humidity of the room plus, the absence of sunlight into my room triggered the moulds to form their colonies. Okay, you are too bad, moulds! :S. I have tried so hard to remove it by using 'kain buruk' but then it was just hopeless, they just remained there. Then, I suddenly thought about using an eraser to remove the moulds, yeah I know it sounds pretty weird, but that's how I got the idea at the very first place. I tried to rub the eraser against the wall, and it seemed to be working! Told ya, my idea wasn't that bad after all. The view is better than before, even not all of the moulds that I can get rid of. Just let the remaining moulds remain there, and I'm gonna chase you out from my room very soon! Padan muka!

By the way, I have browsed a little bit from mr google to find out ways on how to get rid of the moulds from the walls. And these are the few suggestions:

this is the simplest way. okay, not bad, can try this one.
    I don't have this. So, this is thrown away from the list of suggestions.
and this one. Nah. Seems too much to wear like this, not gonna get infected, am I?
this is what will be if I just left the moulds to become populated and produce their offsprings!
Okay, and actually it turns out to be like this. I just use this: ERASER! or in layman term is 'pemadan' or rubber or getah pemadam? Whatever. The most important thing is that, it works!;))

never mind. I can suggest this to others. :) spare lots of erasers okay! :) you might never know when you gonna use them, hahahaah.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Baby?

It seems that this ground floor will be filled up by new juniors. Yeah, tak la sunyi sangat time weekend kan. Hee:) What I mean by junior, is yeah our junior, Batch 25, they are actually the same batch as us, but, the are in the different batch. Welcome to the house of MMMC. Just come here, and feel it by yourselves. Don't trust everything seniors said, because sometimes they just overrated. :p.

By the way, today, it didn't seem smooth like yesterday. Quite disappointed with myself actually, because I expected I could become at least better than yesterday already:( Never mind, I just try for the best. T_T

I watched HOUSE again today. Yeah, kinda my routine these days, all because of Lina's fault for giving me the series, up to seventh season. Hihi, sorry Lina, it is actually my fault for finding you up to 4th floor just to get the series. :). Every episode seems to give me a lot of lesson, maybe, and for the episode 13 season 5 today, it was about how a busy doctor, a administrator of Princeton Hospital managed herself with busy life and her adopted small little baby at the same time. It is actually quite difficult, it needs a lot of patience and courage to bear through all those difficulties, messed life, and smelly house because the baby will keep on pooping. If you know what I mean. ;) Pampers here and there, crying is child's best friend, and plus, you gonna have to wake up early in the morning if in case the baby cries all of a sudden and you just have to prepare for the baby's milk. Sounds horrible and messy right? But, that's how I am going to face later in life. Because I know, being a doctor isn't like any other profession in which you have plenty of times with your family, lots of holidays to spend together, just list all the places you wish to go and furthermore, doctor doesn't work like an office hour, and if it does, you have to work the whole office hours plus the additional hours( additional hours here mean on-call). Ohhh, just have to prepare my mind, mentally and physically to accept this fact of torturing life which I'm surely gonna face.

But hey, who said that it is so bad? Who said that being doctor is too bad? You don't have time with your family? Yeah maybe that's definitely true, but in a positive side to think about it is that, the less hour you spend with your family, the more you gonna miss your family much, and it strengthens the relationship you know. Because some say that, if you are in a distance away from your loved ones( distance here can be in time, in kilometres and whatsoever that comes in your mind at this time), your love gonna get bloomed and it gives you the chance to miss them, doesn't it seem cute and sweet? :) *I'm actually trying to convince myself here, okay, ;p*

But, just come hell or high water, just come the torturing life or annoying cries of the babies, I wouldn't mind, because I know when I am in that position myself, having to take care of my husband and my babies, things will gonna change. Having babies and family is just a wonderful thing in life, yeah I know I do not experience it myself yet, but I have had the examples from my root family: my abah, mak and sisters with brothers. It's actually pretty sweet and cool you know, when the gathering time comes after so long everyone had busy life before, that gathering time is the time in which you know that, you love them a lot and you will appreciate the time a lot. :)

So, to my future hubby, just don't worry. We will try to make it as best as we can okay, just have faith in each other. Maybe, life will be a little bit tougher at the beginning, but we just have to cross the hurdles, and just remember good things that awaits us in future. insyaAllah, we have faith in Him too, Amin:)


Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Ujian Dan Dugaan Tanda Allah Sayang. :")

FAHAMI UJIAN SAKIT

Nikmat kesihatan dan kelapangan adalah dua perkara yang seringkali dilupakan dan diabaikan, kecuali apabila telah datang waktu sakit dan waktu sibuk. Perkara ini telah disebut oleh Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam dalam sebuah hadis riwayat Ibnu ‘Abbas Radhiallahu ‘anhuma:



Maksudnya: Ada dua (jenis) nikmat yang kebanyakkan orang terlalai olehnya, iaitu kesihatan dan waktu lapang (senggang).

(Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari)



Sepatutnya manusia apabila memperolehi nikmat kesihatan dan kesenangan duniawi (kelapangan) akan merasa syukur dan puas, kerana merasakan sebahagian daripada keperluannya sudah mencukupi. Ini dikuatkan oleh hadis Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam yang diriwayatkan oleh Abu ad-Darda’:



Maksudnya: Sesiapa (di antara kamu) pada waktu pagi (berada) dalam keadaan sihat tubuh badannya dan aman jiwanya, mempunyai makanan pada hari itu, maka seolah-olah bagaikan dunia telah menjadi milik baginya.

Ibnu Hibban (Hadis riwayat)





Sakit Dan Jenisnya



Sesiapa jua, tanpa pengecualian, pernah sakit dan pasti suatu waktu akan menghadapi sakit. Samada seseorang itu menderita sesuatu penyakit akibat sebab-sebab tertentu ataupun ditimpa sakit secara mengejut atau tiba-tiba sahaja tanpa sebab yang jelas. Manakala orang-orang yang tidak pernah menghadapi sakit adalah suatu perkara luar biasa.



Tahap atau jenis penyakit itu juga berperingkat, sebahagiannya menghidap penyakit yang ringan saja dan sebahagiannya pula menghidap penyakit yang serius. Manakala proses sembuh juga berbeza, sesetengah pesakit ada kalanya sembuh dengan cepat, ada pula yang lambat atau tiada sembuh langsung.



Terdapat ayat-ayat dalam al-Qur’an yang menyebutkan mengenai sakit dan penyakit, antaranya firman Allah Ta‘ala:





Tafsirnya: Maka sesiapa di antara kamu sakit, atau terdapat sesuatu yang menyakiti di kepalanya (lalu ia mencukur rambutnya), hendaklah ia membayar fidyah iaitu berpuasa, atau bersedekah, atau menyembelih Dam.

(Surah al-Baqarah: ayat 196)



Tafsirnya: Dan (ingatkanlah peristiwa) hamba Kami: Nabi Ayyub, ketika dia berdoa merayu kepada Tuhannya dengan berkata: “Sesungguhnya aku diganggu oleh Syaitan dengan (hasutannya dan semasa aku ditimpa) kesusahan dan azab seksa (penyakit).”



(Maka Kami kabulkan permohonannya serta Kami perintahkan kepadanya): “Hentakkanlah (bumi) dengan kakimu”, (setelah dia melakukannya maka terpancarlah air, lalu Kami berfirman kepadanya): “Ini ialah air sejuk untuk mandi dan untuk minum (bagi menyembuhkan penyakitmu zahir dan batin).”

(Surah Shaad: ayat 41-42)



Tafsirnya: Dalam hati mereka (golongan yang munafik itu) terdapat penyakit (syak dan hasad dengki), maka Allah tambahkan lagi penyakit itu kepada mereka.

(Surah al-Baqarah: ayat 10)



Maka berdasarkan ayat-ayat di atas, antara jenis penyakit itu adalah penyakit jasmani dan rohani. Adapun penyakit jasmani (zahir) ialah penyakit yang dihidapi oleh manusia pada tubuh badannya seperti demam, sakit kepala, sakit perut dan sebagainya. Manakala penyakit rohani (batin) ialah penyakit dalaman yang berkaitan dengan roh atau jiwa seperti penyakit hati yang membawa kepada maksiat seperti hasad dengki, cemburu, tamak dan lain-lain.



Di samping itu, seseorang itu juga tidak terkecuali daripada mengalami perasaan duka nestapa, dukacita, gundah gulana, kesedihan, was-was dan lain-lain yang berkaitan dengan perasaan.



1. Sakit Merupakan Salah Satu Bentuk Ujian


Sesetengah individu mungkin menyempitkan skop ujian dan dugaan itu sebagai perkara-perkara yang negatif dan yang menyedihkan sahaja. Lalu dia hanya mengkategorikan ujian itu seperti ditimpa penyakit, kesusahan, kesedihan, kemiskinan, kematian, kemalangan, kesempitan, kegagalan dan seumpamanya. Sebenarnya tidak demikian. Ujian itu meliputi semua aspek kehidupan sama ada sesuatu yang baik atau sebaliknya seperti kesihatan atau kesakitan, kebaikan atau keburukan, kegembiraan atau kesedihan, kejayaan atau kegagalan, kemiskinan atau kekayaan.



Allah Ta‘ala dalam firmanNya telah menyatakan bahawa ujian, cubaan dan dugaan itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk:

Tafsirnya: Dan kami menguji kamu dengan kesusahan dan kesenangan sebagai cubaan; dan kepada Kamilah kamu semua akan dikembalikan.

(Surah al-Anbiya’: ayat 35)



Firman Nya lagi:
Tafsirnya: Demi sesungguhnya! Kami akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit perasaan takut (kepada musuh) dan (dengan merasai) kelaparan, dan (dengan berlakunya) kekurangan dari harta benda dan jiwa serta hasil tanaman. Dan berilah khabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar.

(Surah al-Baqarah: ayat 155)


2. Sebagai Kaffarah (Penebus Dosa)
Allah Ta‘ala menjadikan cubaan dan ujian di dunia ini, samada dalam bentuk sakit, dukacita, kesedihan atau selainnya adalah salah satu cara untuk menghapuskan dosa seseorang itu. Adapun setelah menerima pembalasan di dunia, maka pembalasan itu adalah kaffarah, iaitu penebus bagi dosa tersebut. Terdapat banyak hadis yang menyatakan perkara ini dan antaranya ialah:
  • Daripada Abu Hurairah Radhiallahu ‘anhu mengatakan apabila diturunkan ayat 123 dari Surah an-Nisaa’ di atas, kami (orang-orang Islam) merasa sangat sedih. Lalu Baginda Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam pun bersabda:
Maksudnya: Bersederhanalah (jangan terlalu berlebih-lebihan atau terlalu lalai) dan berusahalah melakukan (perkara) yang benar. Maka pada setiap musibah yang menimpa seorang muslim merupakan suatu kaffarah. Sekalipun (musibah itu berupa) bencana yang menimpanya atau duri yang menyucuknya.
(Hadis riwayat Muslim)
Antara bentuk musibah yang dimaksudkan dalam hadis di atas adalah seperti seseorang terjatuh atau terhantuk kakinya yang menyebabkan jari-jari kakinya sakit atau cedera.
  • Hadis yang diriwayatkan daripada Abu Hurairah Radhiallahu ‘anhu bahawa Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda:
Maksudnya: “Seorang muslim itu tidak ditimpa sesesuatu dari keletihan, penyakit, masalah (kebingungan), kesedihan (kerana kehilangan sesuatu), kesengsaraan dan duka cita sehinggakan (kepada) duri yang menusuknya (menyakitinya), kecuali Allah menghapuskan (mengampunkan) dengan semua itu daripada dosa-dosanya.”
(Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari)
  • Dalam hadis yang lain pula:
Maksudnya: “Sesungguhnya seorang mukmin itu jika ditimpa penyakit, kemudian disembuhkan oleh Allah daripadanya (penyakit tersebut), maka ia (penyakit itu) menjadi kaffarah bagi dosa-dosanya yang telah lalu dan menjadi peringatan baginya untuk masa depannya. Sedang seorang munafik, apabila dia sakit lalu disembuhkan, maka dia seperti unta yang ditambat oleh pemiliknya, lalu mereka melepaskannya. Dia (orang munafik itu) tidak tahu mengapa dia ditambat dan dia tidak tahu mengapa dia dilepaskan.”
(Hadis riwayat Abu Daud)
Maka seorang mukmin apabila sembuh dari sakitnya, akan menjadikan sakitnya itu sebagai peringatan dan dia mengetahui bahawa penyakitnya itu adalah akibat atau balasan dari dosa-dosanya yang telah lalu. Kemudian dia menjadikannya sebagai iktibar dan pengajaran. Dia tidak akan mengulangi perbuatan dosa yang telah dilakukannya. Maka ujian sakit itu seterusnya menghapuskan dosanya sebagai kaffarah.
Berlainan orang munafik, apabila ditimpa penyakit dia tidak menjadikannya sebagai peringatan dan dia tidak pula bertaubat. Bahkan sakitnya itu tidak memberi faedah pada dirinya samada di masa yang lalu atau masa yang akan datang.
3. Diberikan Ganjaran
Para Rasul dan Nabi adalah ma‘shum (terpelihara daripada melakukan segala jenis dosa). Maka antara sebab mereka ditimpa dengan ujian sakit bukanlah sebagai balasan dari dosa yang dilakukan, akan tetapi untuk meninggikan lagi martabat dan kedudukan mereka.
Imam an-Nawawi Rahimahullah seterusnya menerangkan bahawa ulama berkata: “Hikmah para nabi lebih berat ditimpa dugaan, kemudian mereka yang di bawah taraf para nabi dan seterusnya mereka yang di bawahnya lagi, adalah kerana mereka telah dikhususkan dengan kesabaran yang sempurna, ketelusan penyerahan diri kepada Allah dan dengan pengetahuan bahawa semua itu adalah nikmat daripada Allah Ta‘ala untuk disempurnakan bagi mereka kebaikan yang selayaknya, menggandakan bagi mereka ganjaran pahala dan (bagi mereka) menzahirkan kesabaran dan keredhaan mereka.”
Adapun bagi seorang mukmin, perkara yang sama juga boleh dicapai. Ini berdasarkan beberapa hadis Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam antaranya ialah:
  • Hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh ‘Aisyah Radhiallahu ‘anha Baginda Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda:

Maksudnya: “Tiadalah seseorang mukmin yang tertusuk duri atau lebih dari itu melainkan Allah mengangkat satu darjat (dengan tertusuk duri itu) atau menghapuskan daripadanya satu kesalahan.”
(Hadis riwayat Muslim)
  • Dalam sebuah hadis qudsi daripada Abu Hurairah Radhiallahu ‘ahnu yang dimarfu‘kan kepada Baginda Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam:
Maksudnya: “Allah Azza wajalla berfirman: “Sesiapa yang Aku hilangkan kedua matanya lalu dia sabar dan mengharapkan pahala, nescaya Aku tidak suka baginya pahala selain syurga.
(Hadis riwayat at-Tirmidzi)
  • Dalam satu riwayat daripada Abu Hurairah Radhiallahu ‘anhu bahawa seorang perempuan telah mengadu kepada Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam mengenai penyakit yang dideritainya. Menurut hadis tersebut, perempuan itu akhirnya memilih untuk bersabar sahaja dengan keadaanya agar dia memperolehi ganjaran yang lebih besar dengan bersabar. Perempuan itu berkata:
Maksudnya: “Wahai Rasulullah! Berdoalah kepada Allah agar menyembuhkanku.”
Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘alaihi wasallam bersabda: “Jika engkau mahu, aku akan berdoa kepada Allah bagimu, maka Allah akan menyembuhkanmu. Dan jika engkau mahu, maka bersabarlah dan (semoga) tiada hisab ke atasmu.”
Perempuan itu pun berkata: “Pasti aku akan (memilih untuk) bersabar dan (semoga) tiada hisab ke atasku.”
(Hadis riwayat Ibnu Hibban)
Penutup
Berdasarkan penjelasan di atas, dapat disimpulkan bahawa sakit atau penyakit, termasuk musibah yang lain, bagi para nabi merupakan ujian-ujian yang akan menambah atau mengangkat martabat mereka. Namun bagi yang selain mereka itu, ia merupakan salah satu bentuk ujian atau sebagai balasan terhadap dosa yang dilakukan di dunia. Maka jika ia dihadapi dengan sabar dan redha, pahala dan ganjaran yang lebih baik daripada Allah Subhanahu wa Ta‘ala akan mereka terima. Kesalahan atau dosa-dosa yang dilakukannya itu akan terhapus, malahan akan mengangkat martabat mereka. Di samping itu juga, ujian dan cubaan yang dihadapi itu adalah sebagai iktibar dan peringatan.
Adapun penyakit rohani yang membawa kepada maksiat dan dosa seperti syak wasangka, hasad dengki, tamak haloba, cemburu dan selainnya, ianya tidak akan membawa apa-apa kelebihan dan ganjaran melainkan kerugian dan dosa jua.

Monday, January 30, 2012

C u again

Good night, world.

See u again if I am still breathing tomorrow morning.

I am sorry for the wrongdoings I've ever done.

Sleep tight! ;)

Owh, moral of the day: Kematian ada di mana- mana. Bila ajal kita sampai, tidak ada benda dapat menghalang. Itulah kuasa Allah swt. Takziah buat sahabat, Redzwan Abdullah@ Sam@ Redz dan keluarga atas pemergian ayahanda tercinta.Tabahlah kerana Allah lebih menyayangi allahyarham.  Moga rohnya ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman. Amin. 

Salam.

*mood: batuk tak lega-lega cuak plak kalau ada pathology apa-apa*

Saturday, January 14, 2012

I Should Have Known

Salam Sabtu.. Sabtu eyh? :) Well, yeah, it's 9.37am in the morning in the beloved Malaysia. And truth is I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. :P. Yeah I know it is kinda late for an anak dara like me, but who cares since it's WEEKEND!! Tidur la sepuasnya kan.. *hands up if you agree..*;p.

What topic to be told today? Or maybe to be discussed? It's about Palestine. Yeah Palestine, the story that we keep on uttering and sympathizing to them because of the things that happened to their country. Actually the things that are still happening.

Last night, I had this so- called 'Sister Gathering' here in Melaka, not far actually, at the area of Bukit Beruang with my usrah-mate with their friends whom I just get to know them last night. :). At first we cooked, talked, laughed and spent time together. It was so much fun since I love doing things with people like cooking because I love teasing and sometimes people love to tease me like Ariffah did. ;p.. And then the programme continued and we ate around 930pm after the dulang- dinner.

Then, came the tazkirah given by the one of the student from University of Newcastles, Australia and she's not Australian, she's Malaysian la. A girl one year younger than me.:). She talked and talked and suddenly it came to the story of Palestine. She asked all of us, "What do you girls know about Palestine?" My reaction was like, blinking three to four times, watching each others, trying to make the gyrus to work. Pity gyrus, because I actually, don't really have the knowledge of what is really the reason for the chaos happened in Palestine. Kesian kan:(. Padahal it is one of the story we keep on talking. We pitied them, sometimes some of us cried watching over the videos showing the suffering of Ummah there but, do we know the reasons for the chaos? Hmm. And 'we' here includes me myself. I know about the story but I don't dig, I don't find although I know it's one of my things to do( finding about what happened to Palestine) because we are Muslims and those that are suffering are our brothers and sisters. :"(.

Yeah maybe I have to start dig and dig and dig. I might not help much but at least I know what is happening to them. With the knowledge maybe something can be done, we never know. Wallahualam. Selamat mencari tentang Palestine. :)

Friday, January 6, 2012

weekend likes weekday

Salaam.

Weekend is back again. Hello, weekend. :). But, lists of things should be done this weekend, like a lot. Hopefully I can manage all of that very well within the expected duration. One thing for sure before get started, "JANGAN MERUNGUT!" (",). Before you can happily go back home, please and so many please, use your time wisely, fit. These things in mind:

  • finish up about 100-pages commed portfolio. not much actually, I just have to copy and paste. That's all. =.=
this much okay. banyak kot. T_T

  • study for the commed end posting. Too much slides till I vomit! Duhhhh.
  • pre-study for surgery posting. As what I can say, from heavenly commed to hell surgery? T_T. But no worries! I want to focus surgery as maximum as possible since sessional is just around the corner! =)
  • Weekend equals to driving license class. Have to stand this for quite a long weekends afterwards. Takpe, good luck! (^_^)
  • Yeah Don 2!! insyaAllah if it is fated that I am going to meet up the beloved SRK this weekend. Depends on time and availability. *finger-crossing*
  • Counting days. :)
*lesson of the day: whatever you do, just remember that everything starts with your Niat. Niat as in your intention. Allah s.w.t will grant your wish the way you Niat. If you niat for A, then A happens. If you niat for B, then B sets in. It is the matter of what Niat you have made and whether it suits enough and whether it can give you something in future, some good things. InsyaALLAH.


Salam for now. :)

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Kisah Teladan. Teehee..~

Pada zaman pemerintahan Saidina Umar Al-Khattab r.a., terdapat sepasang suami isteri yang selalu bertengkar dan bergaduh. Si isteri tidak henti-henti membebel. Sedang memasak pun dia membebel, sedang membasuh pun dia membebel, sedang tidur pun kalau boleh dia nak juga membebel.

Si suami tidak tahan dengan perangai isterinya yang sangat suka membebel. Dia pun marah balik isterinya kerana membebel. Si isteri pula menjawab. Si suami mula meninggikan suara.

Dari situlah mereka bertengkar dan bergaduh saban hari. Lama kelamaan si suami merasakan yang isterinya sudah melampau. Memandangkan keadaan rumahtangga mereka semakin parah, si suami pun mengambil inisiatif untuk pergi berjumpa dengan Saidina Umar untuk mengadu kelakuan isterinya.

Sebaik sahaja tiba di rumah Saidina Umar, si suami terdengar isteri Saidina Umar sedang membebel di dalam rumah. Tetapi tidak terdengar pula suara Saidina Umar membalas. Mendapati isteri Saidina Umar pun begitu, si suami tidak jadi hendak mengadukan hal isterinya. Katanya dalam hati, kalau isteri Khalifah pun begitu, apatah lagi isteriku.

Ketika dia berpaling hendak pergi, tiba-tiba Saidina Umar memanggilnya dan bertanya, "Apa hajat kamu datang ke mari?"

Si suami tadi menjawab,
"Aku datang hendak mengadu hal isteri aku, tapi aku lihat isterimu pun berkelakuan demikian terhadapmu."

Saidina Umar tersenyum lalu berkata, "Tidak patut kalau aku tidak sabar dengan kerenahnya. Bukankah dia telah memasak makanan untukku, membasuh pakaianku, bersabung nyawa melahirkan zuriat untukku, menjaga anak-anakku dan dia tempat aku mendapat hajatku? Sabarlah, sesungguhnya keadaannya itu tidak lama (nanti akan baik sendiri)."

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

sabar:)

Kerana aku adalah hamba Allah,
Aku tidak sempurna, aku kadang-kadang terkhilaf,
Hati tak senantiasa mulus,
Sering mencari kesalahan orang lain walhal diri masih lagi tidak sempurna,
Aku tahu mungkin ada masa aku terlupa kerana indahnya dunia,
Mungkin juga aku kalah dengan dugaan yang mahu aku bangkit dan tetap dengan pendirian,
Mungkin juga aku terlalu memberi peluang pada si penggoda anak Adam,
Ya Allah, andai aku lalai, ingatkan aku. 
Andai aku alpa, sedarkan aku. 

p/s: ingatan untuk diri sendiri dan orang lain.
yang terus menerus mahu mencari kesalahan orang lain, sedangkan kita masih leka kita mungkin ada kesalahan yang jauh lebih teruk daripada orang yang kita perkatakan. Biar Tuhan yang membalas andai hati terluka pada perbuatan orang lain. Jangan berdendam, sesungguhnya sabar itu lebih baik. :)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Drama manusia

Salam. One topic, about the matters of fact, why people love to stalk your life, judge you and tell others about the story of
yours which is NOT TRUE at all? I don't know what's on these people's mind. Talking behind someone's back is actually
what we love to do. I said WE cause sometimes I do the same. But, one thing I am so not okay is, when you talk about
someone's behind his/her back but after that you tend to tell others about that particular someone which is CLEARLY not
true whom you know that these 'others' may reveal the story to the subject back..  Can you imagine how this subject's
feeling would be when others talk about him/her about something that is not true at all. Yeah, maybe it sounds a little
complicated, but this is what I really mean. If I was the subject, I may feel sad either. :'(. Tak nak cakap banyak. People and their dramas. They may look innocent by their innocent looks, but don't be too comfort for that. :)


p/s: New name for my baby. Audry. Welcome to the world, Audry! <3<3<3
Minah di sebelah kiri suka berdrama gak. Tapi bdrama comel. :) Rindu wawa. :( She will be registering to new school, INTEC next week. Good luck dear sis! (^_^)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I'm a misguided ghost.

Title: Misguided Ghosts
By: Paramore.
P/S: The lyrics tell everything. =)
I am going away for a while
But I'll be back don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
And it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles

Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify

Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away

And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

hoi.

I thought you are not like others.
But, OBVIOUSLY,
you are not much difference with them. :)
*dissapointment*

Monday, November 30, 2009

i am a medical student.so be strong!

Being a medical student teaches me a lot.
  • Settle things earlier than dateline because each day there will be lot of things added up.
  • To keep strong even sometimes you can't score the exams even you study so hard the night before.
  • Be confident of what you did without questioning what might be the circumstances afterwards.
  • Put all your love life aside cause you don't have so much time to think about those stuff plus, no one will understand the 'busyness' of medical student.
  • tears are my best friend these few days.
  • closer to Him cause He will always be there to listen to your prayers.
  • Make me smiling everyday trying to chill myself though I know lots of things to be finished off.

Love,
fi3chocolate.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

kuat.

Kuat.
Kuat.
Dan kuat lagi.
Allah uji orang yang Dia sayang.
Everything happens for a reason.
Moga ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini.
T.T

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Friends.Thanks.:)

Salam ppl.
Nothing much to be updated.
Nothing much happened lately.
But still I've got new pictures of us.
My girlfriends.My soul.My heart.My everything.(jiwang plak tetiba.*lol*!)
Hurm..talking about friends, what is a friend? Sahabat.Teman.Rakan.Taulan.

A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift.
A frien
d is someone we treasure for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in a better and happier place.

That is basically what friend is..
But, to be purely honest,
those that I have already listed out are juz part of explaination of what friend is.
Still, we have a lot of definition and trust of what friend is.
All those started since we were young..

When we played toys together,
When we played 'masak-masak' together using those fake kitchen and then my father or yours came and shouted at us to go back home cz it was already late...
When u asked me to accompany you to the shop, buying stuff for you mom..
When I cried and you came trying to please me again..

Hmm..that was a friend when we were young and yet, probably we didn't even understand why we need those friends...

The same things again continued when we were at high school...at d hostel specifically
What are friends?

when we studied together to gain success and victory...
when you fell in love on someone but he didn't appreciate then I came to heal u again..
when I had fever and you kept accompanying me day and night...
when suddenly I missed my family and you came, dragging me out of those feeling...

That was the time I started appreciating what is friend for..
Not to be taken for granted...Not to be consoled just when you are sad..

With that, I would like to THANK to all my friends for being by my side.
Sometimes, we might tend to forget to ask our friends how are the doing...
but it doesn't mean we are forgetting them.
Mind might forget but memory remains.
=)...
My ex classmate in MRSM LANGKAWI.-503-

My housmate a.k.a my lalinks.=)


The fabulous 8 cliques.-_-
My classmates in KTT during our A level programme.-_-

*p/s: Those who don't have your photo here doesn't mean u r being neglected.
hee...-_-..Sowe tak dapat cari suma gmbar...=)..still no matter what happen, U guys are always in my heart.-_-


Friday, May 29, 2009

Kal Ho Na Ho-_-

At last.I managed to finish watching dat movie.

"KAL HO NA HO"

"TOMORROW MIGHT NEVER BE".

Actually, I've already watched d movie.With my two little sisters.

But I was so long time ago.

Already forgot d storyline.D ending.and even d character's names.

(but at least I remember that my favourite Hero wuz there.=))

Shah Rukh Khan.in short SRK.

Damn in love with him.-_-

D storyline wuz kinda interesting.

But with a sad ending I should say.T_T

The hero and heroin were not together after all.

Since my-hero-to-b(perasan!=p)

a.k.a SRK wuz dead cz of havin some kind of heart complication.

I've wasted my tears this time.*lol*!!=D

Since I watched d movie alone.

Not during d old time when I wuz surrounded by those EGOISTIC kind of feeling in me.-_-

Frankly speaking, for me, this movie gave a lot of lessons.

At least I learnt something kn? =p

  • The love between a mother and a daughter
  • How we should live our live to the fullest
and grateful to Him for giving us the chance to live

in this beautiful world.
  • How I wish someone love me as wut srk did..It wuz just sooo cute of him!=D
Dat's it I could point out.

There might be other lessons.

But overall I give 5 cute little stars to this movie.

GO2 SRK!

(+_+)

Monday, October 20, 2008

.sweet.memory.will.always.b.in.ma.mind.n heart.:)

Sudah lama kan aku tak mengarang neh..hurm..bukan apa...bz mcm2...dgn a2 yg akan start dis coming 22th...takut la.tp harap2 suma ok lah.taderhal.as long as keep on study k gal.guess wut? since ari khamis aritu, ktt x de air...waaa!!!! sedeyh oo....nak mandi pon tabley.basuh bju lg la tabley....ini sumer sbb paip utama pecah.so yang menjadi mangsa utk sapa2 yang duduk di area sepang.hurm.n kolej kami inilah yang menjadi salah satu mangsanya...h0h0.oryte,tapelah.maybe itu dugaan kot.supaya lebih MENGHARGAI AIR....hurm, before that, nak crita something.yeah.since couple of months ago, hubngan aku n ousmtes aku dgn seorng ousmate ni tidak berapa baek.bcoz of some reasons.dy la..menjauhkan diri dari kitorng.tp evything turned back to normal.bcoz of dare confrontation.it was a good things to do ever since things get bax to normal.sumpah! aku suka gila keadaan mcm sekarang.da x de bad feeling lg.suma okayh.orayte la kn..since exam pon da dkt.baek kita saling memaafi antara satu sama lain.:)..n ada la gak benda laen yg didiscusskan. seriously aku sudah happy balik.sayang korang sumer.percayalah!! walaupun maybe lepas ni kita akan bawak haluan masing2...to b wut we want to b.it's good but a bit hard.to accept d fact to let u guys go.but bcz i love u guys really damn much, i will let u guys go.for our own sake n future..aite? heee~muah3...then the 8 sweet gang da ok blik.heee~ love d moment.love d moment of HARI RAYA CELBR8TION in ktt...sgat suker...things get bax to normal.berasa gembira bangat...:D..guys..sumpah.aku sayang giler korang.x penah aku rasa cmnih taw.korng memang antara penguat semangat aku..sedeh sama2.nangish sama2.hepy sama2..really a sweet memory to me.:)..yeah..mungkin sometime aku ni a bit annoying or a bit malas in kemas2 barang2...haha.( pecah rahsia..:P)tp pecayalah sesungguhny...aku akan cuba berubah.heee...aku akan cuba.sbb pe?sbb aku sayang korng.semalas malas aku, aku still rajin gak tw..tp rajin aku tu datang sebulan la kot.tu pun ckup bertuah.itulah fi3.tp fi3 ni akan cuba berubah.betul3...(+__+)..seperkara lagi...walaupun aku ni suka sangat nyanyi2 time aku dgr mp3 time study ke time aku buat ape pn...walaupun itu sedikit menggangu korng dgn suara 'lunak' aku neh, tabiat ni SORRY bangat! x dapat nak ubah~ da memang fi3 suka nyanyi kot.walaupon suara saling x tumpah mcm katak!! ( haha.mengaku gak akhirnya)..heee~~..itu sahaja aku mahu mengarut.as a conclusion, memang BETUL lagi TEPAT lagi PRECISE lagi ACCURATE aku memang SAYANG korang sumer!! muahh...-love,fi3-


::these are the sweet 8 gal.:)..love ya!!:D


day.fi3.ckin.(+__+)

ada org ckp comel.ahakss..:D..(perasaan mode.)

perasaan macho tp x jadi pon.haha

damn luv dis pics.bukan senang nak amek gamaq dgn mr zaini.ekeke~love physics sir..:)


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