My day.

Salam, dear readers.

Just I realised about one fact.

The more nearer the exam is, the more frequent I update my blog

Anyway that's the fact. I don't know why but it seems that, when I wrote something or for this case, when I blogged, I feel more happy, and enjoy my days, if in case I've lots of works to do actually. As what I've been saying, exam IS really around the corner. Less than 30 days +/-. I don't actually know how to interpret my pace of studying at these moments but it seems a bit too slow. Because too much of exams, too much of block tests made me unable to focus to other subjects apart from my specific subjects for posting. Just, for now, I hope the things I've read for the current posting will still be remembered during my final BIG EXAM which is P2S1.

Speaking about exams, now I know what is my weakness, it is actually the CLINICAL part of the study, in which it is so important, for us, us a doctor, because CLINICAL helps you to reach to a diagnosis, try to think about the appropriate investigations and plans of management. That's I've lack, to be specific, the part to come to a diagnosis and the part to find the important clinical findings in the patients. :( This is the thing I've to improve. I really need my friends' help so that, I didn't lack behind. I want to master in clinical examination, be confident of my findings, and try not to miss small little findings, which is very easy to pick up.

Ya Allah, help me, in improving my clinical skills, help me to find this CLINICAL stuffs because this is so important, crucial for me to be a very good doctor in the future.

The day after, I've psychiatry sessional examination. I don't even start yet, about to actually. Hopefully, Allah ease my way. :)

On the other note, today, we really had a great, enjoyable day with usrahmates. We did activities, not a routine, lame one, but a nice, superb, awesome, adventurous kinda activity, which I enjoyed the most, not only me, almost all of us. :) Being together with the same missions, did the same activity with Muslim sisters, were really good things to do :). Actually, suddenly one thought came popped up my mind. How I am so lucky to be chosen among all others to be in this road, the road to be a better Muslim, the road to reach Ustaziatul Alam, the mission we all Muslims aim for. :) Thank you, Allah for this opportunity, I am so grateful for this chance. :)

I will try the best that I can to strengthen my basics, which I knew I still have so many holes, and not yet strong :(  

I Should Have Known

Salam Sabtu.. Sabtu eyh? :) Well, yeah, it's 9.37am in the morning in the beloved Malaysia. And truth is I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. :P. Yeah I know it is kinda late for an anak dara like me, but who cares since it's WEEKEND!! Tidur la sepuasnya kan.. *hands up if you agree..*;p.

What topic to be told today? Or maybe to be discussed? It's about Palestine. Yeah Palestine, the story that we keep on uttering and sympathizing to them because of the things that happened to their country. Actually the things that are still happening.

Last night, I had this so- called 'Sister Gathering' here in Melaka, not far actually, at the area of Bukit Beruang with my usrah-mate with their friends whom I just get to know them last night. :). At first we cooked, talked, laughed and spent time together. It was so much fun since I love doing things with people like cooking because I love teasing and sometimes people love to tease me like Ariffah did. ;p.. And then the programme continued and we ate around 930pm after the dulang- dinner.

Then, came the tazkirah given by the one of the student from University of Newcastles, Australia and she's not Australian, she's Malaysian la. A girl one year younger than me.:). She talked and talked and suddenly it came to the story of Palestine. She asked all of us, "What do you girls know about Palestine?" My reaction was like, blinking three to four times, watching each others, trying to make the gyrus to work. Pity gyrus, because I actually, don't really have the knowledge of what is really the reason for the chaos happened in Palestine. Kesian kan:(. Padahal it is one of the story we keep on talking. We pitied them, sometimes some of us cried watching over the videos showing the suffering of Ummah there but, do we know the reasons for the chaos? Hmm. And 'we' here includes me myself. I know about the story but I don't dig, I don't find although I know it's one of my things to do( finding about what happened to Palestine) because we are Muslims and those that are suffering are our brothers and sisters. :"(.

Yeah maybe I have to start dig and dig and dig. I might not help much but at least I know what is happening to them. With the knowledge maybe something can be done, we never know. Wallahualam. Selamat mencari tentang Palestine. :)

Simple.

Maybe at this moment,

we have to pretend that we don't know each other.

It surely will hurt, but that's how things go.

Hopefully we are strong enough to face this.

BERSEMANGAT! (^__^)

Janji Allah itu benar.

Hello. Hola. Salam, sunshines. :) Well, meet again. Nothing much to talk and babble, just something about things I have learned today during Usrah.

• Whatever we do, like studying, just remember that no matter how hard you struggle to pass the exam, no matter how focus you are to gain the knowledge, always remember that you still have to put Him in the very first place. Never forget about Allah s.w.t who always listen to your prayers. To absorb well in the process of knowledge collection, the clean and clear heart is very crucial. :)
• Islam is very simple, it doesn't complicate the slaves. use the opportunity to appreciate and perform what you are asked to, as long as you are still breathing in this world. Once your heart stops beating and your brain stops functioning, nothing can be undo. 
• "Janji Allah itu benar."(^_^)

Second of all, my baby is about to be delivered. Still thinking about its name and its twin's name. Haha. :D:D. Hopefully, I will get it as soon as possible. So can't wait to meet it. ;)

Third of all, I just realized something during the group discussion just now. We have to submit the case-sheet which we never start doing it. And plus end posting exam is just around the corner. Takut. =.=

Jadi Kuat Macam Badang ?

Salam. What's up people? Fine? Doing good? Or something happens in between? :S By the way, whatever it is, just live your life to the fullest because we only get the chance one, don't regret if time passes and you've done nothing good to yourself or others. :( Chillax:) Anyway, have I told you guys that now I have posted to Karkala? Well, it is 45 minutes away from Manipal, quite a long journey right? Takpe, people used to say that, the more distances you take to reach to a good place, the more rewards you get. Rewards macam pahala la. :) One word about Karkala so far. NOT BAD. Not bad in what way? Hmm, that makes me think twice to elaborate. Actually, there were many things happened for the past two days, things which were categorized as not so good. *Sigh* One of them was, we were scolded by lecturers in Karkala saying that we learnt nothing in Udupi and they weren't satisfied to our presentations. Pity us kan? :( But, actually, that was the thing we've been taught in Udupi. These lecturers expect too much from us. I'm sorry, we promise that we'll try our best to satisfy you guys okay. :) Please have faith in us. T___T


Second of all, I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home.

Third of all, I lost one of my best friend, because of something that I can't control. My heart desire. I can't control, if only you know, and I can't choose if only you know. Then, goodbye from me, if that is what you really want and if that is what's the best for you. Take good care of yourself.

Fourth of all, I am thinking about buying ticket to go back to Malaysia, either MAS or Air Asia? T__T. Oh my my, I really don't have any idea about this. Should I buy the expensive one because after all, I can claim the ticket's price. Hopefully, I got the answer a.s.a.p.

Last but not least, last night I suddenly thought of something, something about my future career. When I was about to sleep last night, I suddenly had this thought:

"Lagi 3 tahun, saya akan jadi doktor. Bukan doktor haiwan ke doktor tumbuh tumbuhan, tapi doktor kepada manusia. Manusia yang ada perasaan yang boleh cerita dia sakit ke tak. Saya kena cuba treat manusia setakat mana termampu. "

What I thought was, am I able to perform this duty very well? Am I ready to be scolded when things go wrong during the duty-performing? Do I have the gut to treat people, and diagnose them and comfort them if I have to? Ya Allah, this isn't the easy decision. I've come this far, and I've to continue and have the faith in myself and most importantly, I have to believe in you, Ya Allah, whatever happens is under Your control, not mine or not others. I don't know the future obviously, but I hope I can do the best. Yakin pada diri, yakin dengan hati, gunakan ilmu yang ada untuk mengubati orang yang memerlukan dengan izinNya.

Sometimes, I feel so weak, thinking that am I that good to have the chance to be a doctor, or it is actually just a coincidence of all? But, deep down my heart, there is one voice that keep telling me this:
Nurul Fitrilina, awak boleh buat sebab tu DIA bagi peluang dekat awak untuk jadi doktor suatu hari nanti. DIA yakin awak ada kebolehan untuk selamatkan orang yang memerlukan bantuan awak dengan izinNya. Jadi, awak kena kuat supaya orang yang mencari awak nanti pun kuat macam awak."

And truth is, this voice which keeps me stronger at this point of time. Ya Allah, please help me to face all of these obstacles so that I will be stronger as the day passes. :)

two people with two different qualites.

Hey salaam.:)

Now I am thinking to talk about one topic, not much, just ONE. About people who love to matter about others' own businesses but neglect about theirs. They pretend to be just so good in front others but, actually, they are the thorns in the beautiful flowers. Pity them, huh? I am not pointing to anybody, I'm just saying this in general. I know, sometimes, I did the same as these people did, talked something behind, but at least, I kept this between me and friends, not involving others. One more thing about these people, they are acting too way good, pretending that they are soooo innocent but truth is they don't. Maybe they may look proper, sweet or decent, innocent, but at the other sides of it, if one is about to reveal, they've got qualities contradict to the listed qualities before. That is one type of person.

The other one type of person is, the one that pretend to be somebody else, but actually they are someone else. You got it, don't you? Okay, to make things simpler, I give you example: You've been asked by your friends to do something that you are not so okay with it like bunk the class together, but because you are the one who like to pretend to be somebody else, you don't matter to bunk class with your friends. Why don't you tell your friends that you are not okay in bunking the class, and you will not skip the class? Is it too hard to admit? Just SAY IT OUT LOUD. You are trying as if you want to take care of the friendship, you are willing to do something you are not okay with it at the very first place. It is so not good.


Last but not least, come into the picture about me back again. hee. I suddenly miss reading novels. :( Rindu sangat nak baca, and been thinking about new novels lately. Anybody got one that is nice, name it to me.:) Thanks guys. ^^

Hey, No More Dreams?T_T

The moon and thousands of stars in the sky,

They get so little, with only a glimpse of shines

Poor thing, not all of us able to see

Because some have blinded eyes

Some have sorrow hearts 

And some have blunt passion.

We love to talk about destiny and fate

As if things happen so perfectly

Life is full of great and superb surprises

But, the truth is masked with lies and more lies

We forget about coincidence and routine

It's a norm when people love to live in fantasy

But, over-fantasy and over-dreaming aren't good

As life is not as lovely as in the dreams

As a destined meeting is not as fate as dream would bring.

People, let's open our eyes widely

Stop dreaming and wishing good things always by your side

Don't ever forget that there are still darkness and gloom in the room

Face the reality and get used to it.:)

*P/s: This is to those who love fantasy and dreams and tend to rely to these two like so much. Please do aware that we are humans, not angels. Not all the dreams come true. This is a reminder for me too. Eiffel Tower or SRK even Ezra Fitz aren't always possible in some ways. It MAY BE POSSIBLE, but trust me self, most of the time, it isn't. :)

I can only see you from far.

Looking you from the far doesn't really help.

I wish to help.

I wish to offer my hand at least to reduce the big things you have in mind.

Because, I can see something wrong is going on, like as if you are facing some kind of problems, I

don't know whether it's a personal matter, or the opposite.

Hmm, maybe, I just can say it here, as I don't have the chance to talk to you.

Be cool of whatever happen. Sometimes, undesirable things happen to let us know that life isn't

easy and we just have to continue struggling. To whomever read the post, please pass the

message to the name-cannot-be-mentioned-person, yeah, if let's say you can guess. :) I can't

directly tell the creature, because I don't want to, I maybe might disturb the life of that creature,

as I know I am nobody to this X person.:D.

People aren't all perfect.

I don't understand one thing.
Why people talk about others, when they themselves aren't perfect?
Advice is so well good, and plus it is RECOMMENDED to make some people realise of what they've done wrong to make it right back again.
:). That is what we want. But, the QUESTION here which I want to ask:

Why there are some people who said bad things extremely about others for others' mistakes, without even have thought in mind that, people aren't perfect and change to be better isn't a sin?
They talked like as if, they are soooooo welll perfect.
Hmmm.. People, people.
I don't want to say anything more:
One thing I want to stress here.

"People make mistakes and we are responsible to correct them and guide them to the proper way, but, please, to those who intend to correct others, don't simply throw bad words to others continuously without bearing in mind you yourself are not perfect.:)

Wallahualam.

Respect others, too.:)

There are some people who have their own dreams, there are also some people who wish for something that is obviously impossible or by no chance, it would come true. Whatever it is, just keep in mind, don't let down others' wishes. Don't simply show the boredom look or uninterested smile. Please respect others, too. :) I don't want to point to anybody, there's no use of blaming others. We are all grown-up people, we have a great brain to think and to judge. Apart from a useful brain, we all have a HEART: sometimes sensitive to something. Again, I would like to stress over here, don't simply hurt others' heart,because we never know someday, ours will be hurt, too. A delicate heart, by any means, is easy to break even with a short simple WORD. A word that signifies thousands of meaning. Okay, to think positively, maybe it is accidentally spoken, without any intention that lies behind. But, if you realise the spoken word has already hurt certain people, is it so damn difficult to utter the word, SORRY? Is it too hard anyway? People, people. Be sensitive to our environment. We all live in a big community, and care for others is one of the prior thing to be looked at. Alhamdullillah, at least, my heart is in a recovering process now, because I'm one of the victims, for this moment. Ignorance is better now. Wallahualam~

The battle begins.

Kringgg!!!
It's ringing..It's ringing...Already 5.30am.
Class? No class.Study? For sure..Hmm..Solat Subuh first.
Then suddenly a plan comes into my mind.
Continue sleeping till 8?
Naaaaa!! Stop those nonsense.lol!.Focus fitri.
Study!.:p..
Will be the busiest week soon.with d block exam.
Those three subjects are waiting.
PHYSIOLOGY::BIOCHEMISTRY::ANATOMY::
Yeah, guys.I'll conquer u all.We'll see.We'll see.:D.

Then I'll move forward to the next agenda.
Will be going bax to Malaysia very soon.
=).
That's what I've waited for all this time.
Fitri.Chillin.
Study first.
Exam first.
Will have anatomy spotters tomorrw.
Nak sign out ni.Nak sign out nih.
Wish me luck.

Ohh..Special advice to Aidil Firdaus.
Allah loves him more.
Gather your strength back..
Get ready for the journey of life after this.
Best of luck.^_^

To my friends out there.
My 24's batch friend.
Best of luck examssss.
Fighting! =)

Adakalanya..

Adakalanya...
Aku lemah....
berlindung di balik perjalanan hidup...
Berharap adanya sinar yang datang...
Berdoa mendung yang meliputi hari-hariku bakal berlalu....
Namun...aku hanya mampu berdoa...
Pada Dia yang mendengar..Pada Dia yang memahami...

Adakalanya..
Mata salah memandang...
Lidah salah mentafsir....
Telinga salah mendengar...
Itulah hakiki yang pasti...
Yang tetap ada pada aku si insan biasa..
Meniti atas kehidupan dunia yang sementara...
Berbekalkan kekuatan yang bersisa...

Adakalanya...
Aku terlalu menuruti rasa hati...
Mengharap ada belas kasihan yang masih berbaki..
Namun aku dibiarkan sendiri lagi..
Mengumpul kekuatan dan semangat...
Berharap aku akan terus berdiri..
Seperti aku yang dulu...

Ya Tuhan...
Engkau yang maha mendengar..
Tenangkanlah aku...
Kuatkanlah aku..
Untuk terus berpijak di dunia sementara ini..
Untuk terus berjuang dan berjuang..
Tanpa rasa kecewa dan duka...
Ditemani semangat yang terus menyala..
Walau mungkin cahayanya tidak seterang mana...
Aku pasti...Aku yakin...
Aku bakal kuat lagi.

p/s: It is just a simple poem.I did it.I did it by myself.Moga memberi pengajaran.Fighting!^_^

I'm boosted up.:)

Today? I juz finished my Physiology class test.
Then suddenly, I was told by Zaty that we were asked to meet Dr Maya Roche because she wanted to talk on something.Just 4 of us.
-Pau,Fara,Zaty and me.-
Hmm..what else if it is not about the Block One exam results...
She maybe wanted to keep motivating us and boosted us up.
That is what I want and what I need.
Seriously,

• I LOVE MOTIVATIONS!
• I LOVE ADVICES!
• I LOVE TO HAVE A BOOSTER TO BOOST ME UP.:)

Ok.Then, before that we went to Mr Venu's cabin to get his signature for HISTO practical.
For the first time, he didn't comment to much on the drawing and he just signed my record book.
ngeeee....so happy.I could make it this time.lalala...=)-This is the mucous salivary gland ok.:).The example of this is sublingual gland-
(waahhhh! sy igt.terharu.:P)

Suddenly, I asked him something...
"Sir, do we need to draw the adipose cells?"
when suddenly my stomach made such a clear and loud sound!!
Ya Allah.So embrassing.=((..waaahaha~
And to be clear, the reason was because I was indeed HUNGRY at d moment and my lovely stomach could not stand even a second. Thank God he didn't say anything.
He just smiled.sarcastically.I guess.
oh.wateva.=).

When everything settled,we went to Dr Maya's cabin.She kept motivating us as what I guessed before. She was admitted in the hospital for some reason and we didn't even realise it! Haha.
What a cruel Mentee am I..Hee..I am sorry Maam.I'm sure next time I'll be alert of all this.:) She boosted us up, kept repeating that we have to struggle for all the blocks and don't take the block exam for granted cz it will help us in future especially in University Exam later.
One sentence that I learnt from her today.

" STUDY HARD TO GAIN KNOWLEDGE AND NOT JUST TO PASS THE EXAM."

Thanks maam.I'll remember this.:).
Then we moved our way to the foodcourt because my stomach needed to be filled with food so that it won't make any strange sound nemore.wahhaa.:p...
tink that's all for now.
=p.

-nothing much-

Today,I've got nothing to say.I just clueless.I refer this to someone,simply called as A.It's not that I get mad at A or wut soeva.It's just I'm so disappointed at A.How could A do this to me cz I definitely thought what A said wuz wut that came from d truly heart.But obviously, I'm wrong.Things might never go smoothly as what we expect I guess.Im not totally point to A but for d moment I just can't believe all this.What A said and what A act totally opposite to what the reaction A gave bcoz I expect something good from A's heart.So, one thing that I'm very sure, I will eliminate A slowly cz I have d result.For the sake of ppl around us,it's better to just end up like this.I'll not plead,I'll just remain silence.I will do.If A read this post, I will not say to u in front cz I'll never do.I just hope someday u realised what u have done and at the moment,I'll never turn back again and there's no need to regret.:).Cause I've already experienced this for quite a number, so I'm not so affected by this.Syikin knows well ryte dear? =).And what I can say to ppl out there who read this post, PLEASE be SERIOUS of what u did. You might think it's just a small simple thing but maybe for someone else,it matters a lot. Think and think.


To A: I'm well ok if you told me earlier cz I can prepare well for the consequences.But since you don't face to face and tell me what u suppose to tell, I assume that you don't have d strength and that makes me more disappointed towards you but nvrmnd.Just a reminder to u.Don't try to do this to other ppl after this.I beg, I hope and I wish.

Yours truly and sincerely,

-fi3chocolate-