Hari Abah Sedunia. :)

Happy Father's Day, abah. :)

I will always love u. :)

You know why~

I'm home. Hihi. Yeahh finally, reached here around 5 in the morning. Guess what? It was a sweet moment, only He knew why. ;))))

 Bai Bai Bai. =)

new year+ poem

Salam. HAPPY NEW YEAR people! I hope it's not too late to wish! =))) Sorry, not in the mood to blog for the past few days as I busy did something else. Well, just nak berlagak for a while, I passed my computer test! * yeah, the one that you needed to sit in the steps to obtain the driving license* Well, one thing I wanna say, alhamdulillah. =).. Eventhough I did all of that alone by myself, I managed to undergo that. *mula-mula cuak giler kot sebab sorang-sorang..huuu*..

Okay, fine. New year has come. 2011. eh, my bad, it is 2012 ALREADY LA GIRL! And this year, if "long live" I am gonna reach the age of 23. Phewww! About to reach middle of twenties. Feeling matured enough? Well, you judge it by yourself. ;).. Okay, the intro is in English but, the rest of the entry for this time will be in Malay. Yeah, I miss blogging in Malay. ;D

Ha, hello hello. Faham lagi kan? Ada lagi kan korang ni kan baca blog aku? Hihi.. Thanks sebab masih lagi setia dekat Chocolate, walaupun Cekelat ni takdela berinformasi mana pun. Hanyalah lebih kepada aku yang mengarut dekat sini. Lebih kepada luahan perasaan, yang aku tak mampu nak luahkan dekat orang lain, sebab kadang-kadang apa yang aku nak cakap susah nak digambarkan dengan kata-kata.. Hee, sorry konfius sekejap.. :).

Tick tock tick tock sekarang dah pukul 9.00 malam waktu Malaysia. Apa yang aku buat? Aku masih lagi stuck depan lappy mengupdate cekelat., kinda miss him somehow. :").. Hmm, berbalik kepada isu tahun baru, ramai yang menjadikan tahun baru sebagai titik permulaan pada perubahan ataupun titik pecutan untuk mencapai azam masing- masing. Macam orang lain, aku juga punya azam yang tersusun dalam kotak hati, dari sesimple azam kepada sekompleks azam.. Tak semua orang tau azam aku eyh.. sapa yang dah baca previous blog aku, dia tau la 3 azam aku tahun ni, tapi untuk the rest hanya aku, dia dan DIA je yang tau.. Hee.. Mystery enough huh? Well just let it be.. ;)) Berdoalah supaya azam dan harapan aku bakal menjadi kenyataan insyaAllah ameen. ;).. Aku tak nak cerita azam aku yang the rest dengan korang bukan sebab apa, sebab yang utama sebab yela azam tu bisa pudar kan, awal memang la semangat nak buat semua tu tapi by the end of the day, kita lupa dan leka dan kemudian azam tu pun hilang ditelan masa. Aku tak nak macam tu. Aku nak azam aku kekal sampai semuanya tercapai. Azam dan harapan. Aku tahu bukan senang aku nak capai kalau takde usaha yang kuat, tapi sekurang kurangnya aku mencuba. insyaAllah dengan izinNya semuanya boleh! :D Semangat! Semangat! Semangat! Hihihih..

Sekarang macam yang semua sedia maklum, aku tengah posting Community Medicine, jadi kena lah aku pergi Klinik Kesihatan terdekat, tak payah pi hospital dah. tapi aku rasa commed lagi best sebab lepak giler kot untuk yang malas macam aku. hihi. bleh main dengan budak-budak comel, ukur panjang, berat, head circumference, chest circumference baby baby tu. Hee. =)*sori la takde gamba nak tunjuk sebab aku tak amik pun. sebab biar lah kenangan tu aku simpan terus dalam hati, tade gambar pun takpe. :) Teehee,, sweet plak bunyi nya padahal tak sempat nak ambil gambar. :p. Selain daripada tu, kena jugak take care dekat ibu ibu mengandung nie, kena jaga diorang baik baik, bukan senang nak jaga sorang lagi dalam perut tu, hee.. :) kena dengar la apa nurse nasihat kat pregnant mother, selain daripada itu, kena jugak take note blood pressure, weight, BMI of these mothers, yela nak rule out high risk cases, sebab bila dapat tahu awal, dapat lah langkah pencegahan awal dapat dilakukan. :). Bila tengok ibu ibu ni pregnant, teringat la mak aku dulu pernah macam ni jugak mengandungkan aku. so, appreciate la mak anda sekalian yea. :). And dalam masa yang sama, aku jadi takut pun ada. Pheww. takut oww, sebab nanti aku pun akan jadi cmtu gak, korang pun sama la. kena jadi mak macam tu, kena jaga baby dalam perut untuk 9 bulan, sanggup ke korang? tak sanggup pun kena la jaga, amanah Allah kan.:) Best kot tengok mak mak tu, hee.. semangat je cerita berapa kali baby tendang, semangat cerita persiapan( untuk yang peramah la nak cerita. hihi). Selain daripada tu, aku dan kawan kawan aku yang lain pergi jugak 'home visit'. Pergi check mak dan anak lepas bersalin, well known as post-natal cases. tengok la kot kot la baby tu ada jaundice, ke mak tu pun kena tengok jugak kalau kalau ada tanda-tanda varicose vein ke, post partum haemorrhage ke. macam macam bleh jadi ow. Itulah kisah pasal commed.

Lagi satu hal, audry masih tak okay macam dulu. penat dah nak sedih. tak jadi okay jugak. entah bila la aku bleh hantar repair. :(.

oh guys, sekarang ni aku follow " how i met your mother' tapi baru 3rd episode season 1. Hehe. yela kan, bosan tak tau nak buat apa tiap malam. nak study malas,biasala commed. hee. :).

rasanya tu je kot. penat dah. mungkin nanti aku blog lagi. mungkin esok. entah. kalau umur panjang insyaAllah.

Lagu background:

*It Girl, Jason Derulo

*The One That Got Away, Katy Pery

*Smile, Avril Lavigne

*Quiet Hearts, Amy Stroup

*Wish You Were Here, Avril Lavigne.

*I Like It Like That

*Percaya Padaku, Ungu.



That solemn night,
Where blinking stars seem to be gone and the moon appears restless
The cold feet shivers at the corner of empty room
The half-closed eyes force to open endlessly
Mind has gone nowhere, trying to locate the heart
Don't blame own self nor others
It's the fate that remains unchanged over time
Stuck in the middle of journey
With failure and difficulties step in, we wonder
We know but we take things for granted
We understand but we avoid the truth
We learn but we skip the wisdom that sets in
Please change and make a move
Life is like a moving wheel
On top or at the bottom can't be escaped
Knowing about guided sequences
Shall survive us till the end.

Poem setelah sekian lama. :) Untuk kamu. :) Juga untuk kamu-kamu. :)

Forgive me.

Forgive me if once upon a time I caused the bleed in your heart

Forgive me if those days I disappointed you with what I've done

I used to keep reminded that 'people make mistakes'

From no one else but you

I am impressed with your patience from the day one we've known each other

Talking about those mere mistakes,

They are not small, indeed they are quite large

Enough to make a very long scar

But, you are too good to me

You said, you forgave me and offered me a hug if we were close enough by distance

And that was when the tears dropped down my cheeks

How calm you were back then and tried to cheer me up because of my guilt

My dear, this is a promise from a small heart of mine

I'll treat those mistakes as lessons

I'll bury those wrongdoings in the thick soil

Because those mistakes grow us up

Those mistakes are the good teachers to improve the life

From this moment, have my words

I'll take care of your heart like I take care of mine

I'll feed it with loves and cares like a mother cares a baby

I'll never make you bleed anymore like the past hurt you

Past is the past

Present and future are what matter the most

Seeing you happy with a curve of smile on your face enlighten my day

Keep smiling and be strong to face any obstacles in front of you

Because I will always be there for you love

Either during bright or gloomy days of yours

I'll sit right next to your heart and heal it

Just so you know,

WARONG KAP like I don't know how much to explain..

=)))

*Please give this to the right one, the one that owns my heart those days, now and forever. Bersabarlah kerana banyak yang indah bakal tiba insyaAllah.. Amin. :)*

Saya sayang sampai saya nangis.

Napa hati aku terlalu fragile kadang-kadang? Sometimes, I can't even stand to feel brave enough to face the realities, n to make things even worse, I will start crying thinking that life is so unfair. There are three things that makes me cry even I try to hold for a while:

a) Mak dan abah
b) Adik-adik \
c)Dia( you know who you are)

Even it's a happiest things on earth happen, I do cry sometimes because of them. I know one explanation for this.

BECAUSE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH, ONLY ALLAH KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. 

**Maafkan kak own ma, andai kata-kata nurul pernah melukai mak. Nurul terlalu sayang pada mak. Andai Tuhan izinkan, nurul sanggup korbankan nyawa nurul demi mak. :")**

Hey Stalker!

I like you without reasons
I care for you without hoping for anything in return
I only look at you from far doesn't mean I am scared of truth
It is just I don't want them to know, I don't want them to judge me
I just want ONLY YOU to know that I am here for you
Come hell or high water, the feelings will never faded
It is uncontrollable, unchangeable as the seasons are changing
Remember the first thing you gave me, I kept it at one corner safely
I don't want to lose it, I don't want to spoil it
Trying to retain it for the rest of my life
Because I appreciate memories and pasts
Some pasts are easily forgotten but some stay in the hearts,
Like the one I created it with you.

People always remind me that, we don't know the future,yet it can't also be predicted,
But, they also say, we can build the strong base for the future,
We can cover it with beautiful and strong roof,
And place a nice floor on the land,
That's how the future starts.:)

Maybe one day we both grow old,
You may have grayish hair, I may have wrinkled unattractive lines over my face
I may stumble while walking, and you may take the steps forward with stick slowly
We may come to 60, 70, and maybe luckily 80,
But one thing I wish from the day I met you till the last day I may see you,
you still remember my name, and where I once stayed which is in your heart,
You still remember the loves, laughs and the cries we share together
And you still remember I have once( not once but thousand times) uttered to you, "you are special to me."
:)

 

*I mean it. I really do*

Sayang cikgu selamanya.:)

Finally. After struggling for about 2 weeks, The Red Hawk won the battle. Should I say struggling? Because, as per counted, I only got two gold medals for Tug of War and Volleyball out of 5 games that I participated. To be real honest, at the very first place, I was kinda disappointed, why we couldn't make it, although we've tried very hard, trained almost every evening but, the victory is still not ours. :( Even sometimes, I have to thought to retire from playing in any of the games offered. But, as what I encountered and as what he told me, "Menang Kalah adat permainan, it is the spirit that matters, " then I started to realize that, I need the spirit more, not the winning. Congratulations NORTH for the good effort. You guys are rocks.! and to the southern team, don't worry. You guys were great too, especially the ATHLETICS part because just so you know, I am athleticophobia. Hahahah. B). I love the spirits that have been showed by both parties. Love it so much. Sometimes, I feel like crying in a smile, when I saw those spirits . :)

That is it. And now. just want to update. Just finished community medicine posting. and the end posting exam was over! After the exam ended, both F1 and F2 groups together with Dr. Sanjay had a cake, specially made by Ain. Yummy! So delicious. :D. We watched the slide show of the groups together. Actually, at first I was supposed to make the slide show, but then, I passed the job to Sundaraa, as he knew more than me, as I am still learning to use the Cyberlink Power Director thingy.:) What I did, was just providing the appropriate songs to Sundaraa. By the way, when it came to the song entitled "Graduation" by Vitamin C, the air was suddenly turned sad.:( yeah, F1 and F2 gotta separate for a while, since Paediatric and OBG postings are divided into those who go to Karkala and those who go to Udupi. Hey, F2, maybe we'll meet again during the Surgery posting which will be in one months and half time.:) Don't miss me much. :D

Owh, one more thing. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all my teachers from kindergarten, SKKP, SKT, SKHHD, SMKGC, MJSC LANGKAWI, KTT, AND MMMC. Thanks for the knowledge that you guys poured to me without bored. Happy teacher's day to mak too. I still remembered when I was 7, when I couldn't answer math questions, you used to pinch me, and compared me to the best student in class. I was so sad that time:( But, now when I think it back, I think I should thank you for doing that, as now, I am standing the way I am now. ( Even I know, there is so zero relation between math and medicine. hee. :)) You are the best teacher I've ever had. :)

And one last thing I want to tell, I've got new message tone! jeng jeng jeng. :D

I can only see you from far.

Looking you from the far doesn't really help.

I wish to help.

I wish to offer my hand at least to reduce the big things you have in mind.

Because, I can see something wrong is going on, like as if you are facing some kind of problems, I

don't know whether it's a personal matter, or the opposite.

Hmm, maybe, I just can say it here, as I don't have the chance to talk to you.

Be cool of whatever happen. Sometimes, undesirable things happen to let us know that life isn't

easy and we just have to continue struggling. To whomever read the post, please pass the

message to the name-cannot-be-mentioned-person, yeah, if let's say you can guess. :) I can't

directly tell the creature, because I don't want to, I maybe might disturb the life of that creature,

as I know I am nobody to this X person.:D.

I don't want to miss a thing.:)

I don't want to search for it,

I don't want to chase for it,

Neither to hold it tight,

Nor to keep it in my heart.

One little wish, please come when the time has come,

Please appear when you have to appear,

And after all, you are most welcome Mr Right. :)

Pyaar.

L.O.V.E, reminds me of the song by Ashlee Simpson.Love, is a word with thousands of meaning. People use to define love as,

any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment.

To pour the love, to confess the love doesn't need the strong gut. You just have to have the faith, and automatically, the love can be expressed. :). Love is something that is just so special and definitely can make even a heartless person to melt, believe that. :D.Whom to love? Who loves us? Will someone loves us without any returns of something else?

Questions over questions unanswered in my head even now, and not me, but you guys too right?
And actually, we ourselves can give the answer for that. Love, thrown to these people mainly:

• family

• friends

• and the soulmate

p/s: sorry no available photo to be uploaded cz' still haven't found one yet..:)

That's it. Family, friends and soulmate. To be honest, sometimes, I don't really utter the word love to these people everyday. Yes, I do say I love you, but not every second I tell those 3 letters non-stop. Actually, in this thing called love, you don't have to say it frequently, it's enough that you show the love by means of many ways like- the care that you show, the misses that you feel when they are not around, the sincere smile that you draw from you lips enough to make them understand well that you love them. :).

The famous poet, William Shakespeare used to say this quote regarding love:

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

If you love somebody, don't have to say 'I love you' each and every second if you can't make it, it's enough if you show your care and love as the way it should be. :D.

Sekadar Coretan Biasa~

Ingin ku tegaskan di sini, hasil nukilan kali ini tiada kena mengena yang hidup ataupun yang telah tiada. Mungkin, sedikit kata-kata bakal menimbulkan persoalan yang tidak enak, namun, anggaplah ianya sekadar coretan biasa.:)

Kenapa kau tak pernah faham,
Betapa hati ini terlalu merinduimu,
Betapa mata ini ingin menatap wajahmu,
Betapa bibir ini ingin sekali tersenyum lagi.
Namun, kau tak pernah mengerti
Kau anggap aku hanya berpura-pura
Kau anggap ini hanyalah permainan hati
Dan kau percaya bahawa yang berlaku hanyalah suatu kebetulan
Sampai hati engkau~
Dan lagi, aku dibiarkan kosong.

Mungkin aku sudah terbiasa,
Rembesan air mata ini sudah acap kali menjadi teman malam
Walau ingin sekali aku hindari.
Oh, si kaum Adam,
andai kalian mengerti betapa hati ini rapuh,
Betapa lemahnya aku di dalam
Kenapa harus ujian ini diberikan bertubi-tubi?
Sedang aku cuba menggapai saat indah dahulu

Mungkinkah ada dosa yang tidak aku sedari?
Mungkin juakah ujian ini sekadar untuk mematangkan aku?
Aku juga tidak pasti apakah yang tersirat
Cuma, mohonku Ya Tuhan,
Kau berikanlah kekuatan supaya aku terus bertahan,
Pada duri-duri dugaan yang kian hari kian galak menguji
Kerana aku percaya pada sesuatu,
Ada hikmah atas apa yang terjadi.
Itulah tunjang yang membuat aku kembali tegak berdiri,
Walau kadang-kadang kutahu dan agak pasti,
Jambatan kesabaran itu sudah rapuh ditelan masa.
Wallahualam~

Ohh..What a day~~

Salam ppl.Hello.Guess what? I just realised on something.There are too many things I have to cover for next week and the next next week.Yes, I'm going back..Most probably on the 30th of July...Ohhh...Can't wait..Miss everything in Malaysia.lalala...=D..But to reach the time, I have to face too many things in a too little time...Hmmm...There's no use to sigh now.That is what student should do rite..Accept it and just follow the track and sure u'll be fine..:)..(i'm calming myself now.)..Regarding the unsettled things.

• PRACTICAL PHYSIO.
• PRACTICAL HISTO
• VIVA PHYSIO.
• ANATOMY SPOTTERS
• SDL.(the most common thing to do apart from PBL.;p)
• Last but not least, THE BLOCK EXAMS for all three subjects.

Yes! Keep reminding myself to study,finish the things on time and focus.No more daydreaming or what so ever.There's no use of angan2 indah lagi.Just focus and set the aim.=)..I'll make sure I'll score better than previous block.InsyaAllah.So, fi3, put more efforts yeah dear. But I have a confession to be made.I love this block! There are many improvement I found in this block compared to the previous one.Heee....Proud of myself.Lalalala...=p...As what ppl keep reminding me.A quote that I think we are familiar with.

HARI INI LEBIH BAIK DARI SEMALAM.
ESOK LEBIH BAIK DARI HARI INI.

Now I realise the meaning behind the quote..Haaa...At last..heee.....Ohh...Talking about going back, actually the worst part is that, I can't celebrate Raya with my family..:(..Since we are going to start class at 31 AUGUST 2009, we have to be here before the stated date.Yes.The stated date.Remember ppl what dat is that? What? Hari Merdeka? Yesss...Soo true...Hmm...But still one more special day for me.The day when I will soon turn to 20.I repeat..Twenty.ohhooo..What a 'test' for me...Yes..A so-called mature girl surely can face all this...-_-...Ohhooo....Yeah...me getting mature like mature chylomicrons.(what a nice example fi3.tahniah.U applied Biochemistry here.Dr Ullas and Dr Chandrika surely proud of u.=*..lol!)......Getting mature.Proud to hear that.Mak surely proud to hear that.so as my abah.Hmm...my friends too, I guess...Fi3 will never goin to be sooo bllluurrr nemore ppl! hee...=)
Tink that's all for now.Till we meet again.ahaakkss..^_^..

ABAH.ABAH.ABAH.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO my beloved ABAH.
Thanks abah.Thanks trillion kat ABAH atas segalanya.
I'm proud to be your daughter.
=)
Own syg ABAH sangat..
Own rindu ABAH jugak.
Own nak ABAH happy.
Own nak ABAH bangga dengan Own.
Kalaulah boleh Own balas balik semua jasa ABAH.
Tapi Own taw Own tak mampu nak balas semuanya.
Tapi..
Own boleh buat ABAH bangga dengan Own.
Own akan cuba.
Akan terus cuba.
Thanks lagi kat ABAH.
Atas apa yang ABAH buat dari Own kecik sampai sekarang & sampai bila2 pn.
ABAH tak pernah merungut.
ABAH tak pernah kata "tak".
ABAH cuba jugak buat apa yang Own minta.
Walaupun Own taw kadang2 melampau.:)
Ngee...Sorry.=p
ABAH tak pernah merungut.
Dengan kami 5 beradik.
ABAH nak taw dak..
Own bangga sgt dengan ABAH.
Bangga jadi anak ABAH.
Walaupun malam2 ABAH balik lambat dari berniaga,
ABAH betul tak pernah merungut.
Own terharu kat ABAH.
Walaupun dah 12.00malam kadang-kadang tu,
ABAH tetap pack barang2 ABAH nak berniaga esok.
Bawang,cabai,perkakas2 len.
Kadang-kadang bila Own free, abah mintak tolong Own.
Tapi kadang-kadang Own geram gak kat abah.
Sebab ABAH mintak tolong time Own tengok cerita best.
Teruknya Own kan...Maaf ABAH.Maaf.Maaf.
Betapa time tu Own tak fikir apa yang ABAH dah buat.
Semua pengorbanan ABAH Own tak fikir time tu.
Own taw.Own menyesal.
Bila pagi2 abah tak keluaq berniaga,
ABAH p umah tok.
ABAH pack lagi barang.Mana yang tak settle.
Dan lagi.ABAH tetap tak merungut.
ABAH penat.Own taw.Tapi ABAH tak pernah kata tak.
ABAH. ABAH.
Kadang-kadang,Own dengan adik2 ada buat ABAH marah.
Kami NAKAL sangat.
Maaf ABAH.
Maaf.
=).
Tapi Own dengan adik2 janji.
Janji dengan satu benda.
InsyaAllah,kami akan buat ABAH dengan MAK bangga.
Satu hari nanti.
Amin.
Akhir kata, moga ABAH dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Moga ABAH bahagia dan happy selalu.
I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCCCHHH!! -_-

P/S: Nantikan kepulangan Own nanti.Jaga elok2 pokok durian yang baru berbunga kat blakang rumah.Own balik Own nak makan taw! hee....Sayang ABAH.Sayang MAK.and Adik2ku.MUAHH.:)

-life-

On your mark.Ready.Go.

ohhoo.=p..

dun hv notink to b updated.But I juz want to post.

I have new poem.

A poem that helps u to realise that all things are a choice.

I like.I enjoy.And I hope u guys have fun too.

Basically, the title is about LIFE.

Here we go.=)

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

Lemahnya~

Haha.What a nice promise ryte dat day before?
Confidently said I'll stop blogging for a while.
But I can't.Hee.
Cz blogging is one of d way I tell wut I feel as if no one wuz there to listen.
Yeap.Wut I wanted to update this time is dat,
LAST NITE, I skyped with my 2 lil sis (Ina and Wawa) and 1 lil bro(Adam).
Aliff wuz not there at that time.He wuz already in d dreamland I guessed.=).

Ina: "Adik,bangun.Kak Own nak skype nih dgn adik.
Aliff: (smbil genyeh2 matanya yang sepet) "Ha? Adik ngantuk.X larat nak bangun."
(tidoq semula)
Ina: "Kak Own,adik x mau bngun dah."

Dat wuz how everything began.Skyping with my siblings wuz d one I waited this all while!
I miss them a lot. But since I wuz bz, and they too...we couldn't make it till suddenly the buzzed me last nite.
Wawa juz came bax from SAMURA since she wuz having 2 weeks holidays.
Adam wuz in d house.Just reached 14years old.Didn't have the chance to go to hostel yet.
Ina jz finished her Matriculation Programme and still waiting for d offer.
ALiff? He's just 11 years old.My very little brother.:)

We wuz chit-chatting,talking about crazy new stuffs,doin crazy actions and took d picture of it.
And then suddenly they said something that really touched me.

Ina,Wawa,Adam: "Kak Own, napa gmbaq latest nmpk cm kurus? X makan ka? Makan la..Ma dgn abah suruh makan.=)

diz wuz d pic~

Me: "huh? kak own makan la..cuma kadang2 x makan sbb x smpt..:)..dgn malas nak turun.
The very FIRST thing that made me touched.
Fine.Then, we talked again and again..
I kept capturing their pictures through the skype.


Their instant actions.weee~=)
From left: Wawa,Adam,Ina.(Aliff wuz not here.)


Their actions that I keep missing till now,
Their voices.
I tried to reminisce d past and still I could hold my tears from being secreted.
I didn't want they saw obviously how I missed them.
Suddenly, I saw they wrote something on a white paper.
They were writing and I kept wondering what was it.
I asked them but they remained silent.
Still..I wuz eagered to know.
After everything was done,
Ina took the paper and put it in front of the web camera
so that I could see better what was that.
I frowned and tried to see it.
It wasn't that clear and she still tried to make it clear for me to see.

oookkkaaaaayyyhhh.
I obviously could see what was written there.
Touched.For the SECOND TIME.Sebak.Terharu.
And to be frank, I could not stand again holding my tears from running down.
Here was what they wrote to me.
Looked simple but it means a lot to me.A lot.


Here it is.They wrote this to me.T.T


I cried.a very LIGHT cry.
Segaaannnn jerrrr....=)
Adam started laughing at me.
Wawa too.
Then followed by Ina.
Suddenly, they said something.

Them: "Kak Own, kami amek pic kak own nangis.Nak tunjuk kat ma dgn abah esok.
Hahhaahaha..(evil laugh from them)
Me: "Appaaaa???? X mo! X mo! malu la...X macho la nanti...wahaha~.SANGAT segan.

It's not because I feel soo "SEGAN" or wut so eva wit ma parents,
I juz don't want them to predict on something.
Something like

• I am not okay here.
• I missed them to much till I can't focus on the study.
• Or, I'm having a kinda big problem to be settled now.

Ma,abah...Honestly it's not that.
Yes, I admit I do miss you guys a lot.
I admit I'm having a problem now.
But still...I can focus on my study..
Don't have to worry to much on me.
I'm still d little Nurul that you know before who is not-so-matured girl
but she can handle everything very well with the help of your supports.
Just have d faith on me..
Pray for my success and surely I'll be ok.
-_-


Hurm...=)..
That was the story.
We ended up the video call when I suddenly remembered that I hadn't prepare
even a thing for the SDL which is done today.
Then, I had to stop the video call.even my heart asked me not to do so.
I had to stop.
=).
Below are the last dialogues with them,

Me: Wawa, fighting2 for your spm.nanti kita skype lagi bila kamu nak balik Samura dah.

Ina,berchenta, berchenta gak.Jangan dok malas2 kat rumah.=)

Adam, jangan lawan cakap ma n abah.Nanti jadi batu kot.(mana dapat teori ni pun aku x taw.=p)


What a nice Kakak kan am I who keep advising my little sistas and bros.Wahaha~.^_^
Tink that's all for now.
To what I promised before,not to blog for the moment,I wish to take back.
Ada orang tak bagi.=)
Plus, I need something to listen to what I'm 'mengaruting'.
(-_0)
Da~~

=true=

Oh. Lil heart. Stop thinking those stupid problems.it's juz a WASTE keyh~..

Hurm...Already finished 2papers.=STATISTICS & PURE MATHS 3..

What can I say? Stats was not so hard.I could do it well insyaAllah.

But talking bout pure maths 3, yeah.really killing me now. Serious. Dunno y.

What can i do now? hurm.TAWAKAL.dat;'s it..Okeyh~ another 6papers to go

• Chemistry Paper 5
• Physics paper 4
• Chemistry paper 4
• Physics paper 5
• Biology paper 4
• Biology paper 5

Then finish A level. And really hope dat Ican score well in dis A2 exam~>

Bertahan keyh~>.lalala~:) Okeyh~ Stop talking about study. Juz wanna tell ya guys.

I dont noe how to start. Recently i feel kinda lose hope or something. It's not

that I'm giving up. It's about I'm totally sad bcoz of someone.

Not my fault n not his fault either. Yeah. It is really hard to forget d past.

I think so. It's hard to delete all your past memories ayte from ur mind.

Even sometimes we feel like we should start all over again, but the old memory will keep on

haunting us. But i do believe in something. Things will get better.

Becoz i believe in wut he said. N yes. For d second time i believe him.

"I"LL NOT LET PAST MEMORIES HAUNT US AGAIN~I'VE CHANGED!"

that's wut he said to me.after all, i hope it's gonna b true. n TRUE n TRUE=fullstop::

l.o.v.e

Love is patient,

Love is kind,

It does not envy, It does not boast,

It is not proud, It is no rude,

It is not self- seeking, It is not easily angered...

It keeps no records of wrongs....

Love does not delight in evil

But rejoice with the truth...

It always protects, always trusts..

Always hopes, always preverse...


specially dedicated to those ppl i love.:)

LUCKY-Jason Mraz and Colbie Callait.

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

the night of joy+smelly.:)

here it is.not much to say.but have to say.waa! i've been prank by those ppl...yeap..those ppl who

love me.those ppl who cn't live without me.lalala~bercadang n berjaya mem prank kn budak cumel ini.huh? apakah... i was d victim...i'm innocent...okeyh..let's begin d story....tyme dlm 8.30cmtu, ekin siap2 la.aku tnya dy nk g aner.dy ckp nk p umah zaty.okeyh.no big deal.taperla.x expect pape pown. di satu saat yg sunyi saat aku tgh bru membuka bku math, tiba-tiba handphoneku berbunyi.(lagu thunder.by boys like girls).hurm.hati berdetik.sapakh yg menelefon.aku pn tgok la kat screen...hurm.superhero rupanya yang call.. hee...dy dtg ktt!! waa! tkejut sgt aku time tuh...dy ckp da dtg ari ni sptutny.tpi x jd.kna hntr abahny kt airport.okeyh.aku pn siap2 trun mhu jumpa dy.windu bangat! lalalalala...act, ni bkn termasuk dlm prank pn.sje nk citer.cz aku x SANGKA dy nk dtg..mish him like crazy.hehe.pastuh.aku twon n smbang2 dgn dy jap.dy kna cpt cz nk rush g airport laks.aku TERHARU sgt! dy bawak adiah utk aku.cumel...aku dpt 'Hana' dpd dy.nnt sy jga bek2 yea Hana tuh awk! hehe.orait.after say gudbye to him aku pn nek ats blek.mahu continue study.yela.ptg td asyik tito je.x bukak bku lngsung.okeyh.dat's it.aku pn mula la study.then mak aku call.ckp la sat.dy wish gudluk.rindu mak!hee...bila aku mahu duduk d ats kerusi mahu study arisya ckp la.
"fi3, kitorg ada wut bihun kt ko..n kek sket.utk bday ko.sorry la.sbb x prepare apa2."
aku pon membalas blek:
" eyh.taper la.tu pun dah kira okay sgt.thanks la sbb igt"
aku pn siap2 blik la.dgn memakai jeans kesayangan aku.tudung grey n bju kuningku.as if nothing would happen.x kesah pn..tetiba pintu rumah diketuk.okeyh.saper pulak la tuh.aku pn bukakla.ceyh.saspens jer.rupanya geng 7-1-1....
aku pn dibawa mcm puteri ke satu tmpt.iaitu di lorng azmi...ish3...bebudak nih,strategik sngguh tmpt...lalala...pastu nmpak la kelibat shidi, naqi,ayam n jenno.
mereka pun wish happy birthday kat aku.thanks a lot ya guys.then..aku pn dibawak ke tmpt mknn...lapar dah nih...tetiba lak...okeyh...pastu, tetiba tak disangka...shidi pnggil aku..pehal lak nih?? ishk33..saspens jer...hurm...aku pon g la...okeyh.dy nak bg adiah...aku pn nak amek la.tp yang aku plik apsal dy x lps2 adiah dr tngn dia? ckp nak bg hadiah kt aku?huhu..pastu aku amk la adiah tu.and tetiba!! aku rasa something yg skit kt blakang ku! aku rasa cecair di blakang ku..aqeous solution of sth..unknown..OMG!! jgn ckp ni prank!! pndai nyer bebudak nih..mmg prank pon..rupanya2, si naqi n aimi baling muntah buatan kat bju aku!! tidak! aku dah busuk...n bebudak len bling telor kt aku! boley bayang x? telor? wangi ke bushuk? of coz la bushuk bangat!hish!!! orayte...aku pn lari la dri situ....x mo kna lg...then nad pnggil..
"fi3, ktorng x buat dah. Jom la..mau mamam nih!'
aku x caya.takut diorng bling lg muntah busuk tu..pastu tah cmna aku tmakan pujuk gk..aku pn g la blik...n to my suprise, lagi skali aku kna bling dgn bnda tuh.sabar jela..huhu...itulah yg blku kpd aku ari tu.aku bling kat diorng diorng bling muntah bushuk kt aku.kesimpulannya, bju aku mmg kotor gila ah! hishhhh,,,,kna bsuh pulak..tp x per...sabar2..neway..thanks kengkawan! for dat 'lovely' suprise party...really appreciate it...syg korng sumer....esp: 3-2-a1...my rumie dayah, ousmate ekin n sya..tak lupa pd 7-1-1..nad,aimi,miyah,tiah...pada jejaka pilihan thanks gk! 'thanks sgt'..haha..shidi ( actor terbaik), naqi( si pembaling muntah bushuk), jenno n ayam...pada mierul plak.(jaga ko.aku x puas ati dgn ko! sikit pon x kena bju ko!! waa!aku akan bls dndm.hahahha)...thanks jugak pada sapa2 yg igt birthday aku...sayang anda sumer...jangan risau! fi3 akan jd matured x lama lg...:0..lalalala...pd superhero, thanks gak! snggup dtg..heee...fi3 SAYANG bangat anda sumer!!! emmmuaaah!!

08.08.08..:)

Hey...

haha...

08/08/08.... kinda nice date... I love dis date... but nothing special happened today..

I wish i do have some sorts like memories.nice memories today.do i have one? i dun ave.

huhu.ouh.wut so eva.not so important.:)..okeyh.aku sgt bosan ari ni.

kenapakah?aku pun tidak tahu menahu apakah sebabnya.neway, i just learnt about meiosis today.

haha.i do LOVE DIS TOPIC!!! sbb best!

orait...there are 3 things that cause the variation of genetic materials during meiosis.

1) the crossing over during the late prophase 1

2)the independent assortment during the metaphase 1 when the chromosomes are arranged on

the equator.

3)the different genetically gametes of the parents...

that is one part of wut i've learnt today.hurm.beruntungnya aku dilahirkan cmni.

sempurna pancaindera.aku harus bersyukur. Yeappy, bersyukur...

Okies. Horoscope for today::

1)This is a time of great personal change.

Hurm.Ntah lar... I have to change!! really have to..Lately i am so lazy.doin any kind of works.even

to sit for 2hours to study.huh? i dun even can't do that.if doin so i will become sleepy and as a

result i have to drink coffee...coffee..coffee....it's not so good for my health. but wut to do. dat's

the only way for me to keep my eyes fresh.sometime i feel a bit jealous to those people who can

study without feeling sleepy n wutso eva...hu3..but no matter wut, i do have to change!

chaiyok2!!Xp

2)You become tired of your role in life, and you are very sensitive to habits, customs, and social requirements that hide the "real you".

I'm not tired.i enjoyed myself....but then sometimes i do feel like I have to change to something new.

a better one.About hiding the real me, i dunno if actually i do hide myself.ouh.yeah.to certain time n

condition, i hide who am i actually...cz i dun want to create any problems wit those ppl.

Regarding bout da statement above, i think i should have take a deep breath n sit n do find da

solutions to this.:)

3) You feel as though you have been drifting along with the tide and following the crowd for too long, and your inner needs and motivations must assert themselves more strongly.

am i? juz following those ppl? am i? juz accept wuteva they said to me?kinda.hurm.malas nak pk...

but anyhow, i want my freedom back! :(

Okay, have to stop now. preparing to go to giant...

yeah!!! miss those fud...hu3....stock sudey abesh!! Xp