My day.

Salam, dear readers.

Just I realised about one fact.

The more nearer the exam is, the more frequent I update my blog

Anyway that's the fact. I don't know why but it seems that, when I wrote something or for this case, when I blogged, I feel more happy, and enjoy my days, if in case I've lots of works to do actually. As what I've been saying, exam IS really around the corner. Less than 30 days +/-. I don't actually know how to interpret my pace of studying at these moments but it seems a bit too slow. Because too much of exams, too much of block tests made me unable to focus to other subjects apart from my specific subjects for posting. Just, for now, I hope the things I've read for the current posting will still be remembered during my final BIG EXAM which is P2S1.

Speaking about exams, now I know what is my weakness, it is actually the CLINICAL part of the study, in which it is so important, for us, us a doctor, because CLINICAL helps you to reach to a diagnosis, try to think about the appropriate investigations and plans of management. That's I've lack, to be specific, the part to come to a diagnosis and the part to find the important clinical findings in the patients. :( This is the thing I've to improve. I really need my friends' help so that, I didn't lack behind. I want to master in clinical examination, be confident of my findings, and try not to miss small little findings, which is very easy to pick up.

Ya Allah, help me, in improving my clinical skills, help me to find this CLINICAL stuffs because this is so important, crucial for me to be a very good doctor in the future.

The day after, I've psychiatry sessional examination. I don't even start yet, about to actually. Hopefully, Allah ease my way. :)

On the other note, today, we really had a great, enjoyable day with usrahmates. We did activities, not a routine, lame one, but a nice, superb, awesome, adventurous kinda activity, which I enjoyed the most, not only me, almost all of us. :) Being together with the same missions, did the same activity with Muslim sisters, were really good things to do :). Actually, suddenly one thought came popped up my mind. How I am so lucky to be chosen among all others to be in this road, the road to be a better Muslim, the road to reach Ustaziatul Alam, the mission we all Muslims aim for. :) Thank you, Allah for this opportunity, I am so grateful for this chance. :)

I will try the best that I can to strengthen my basics, which I knew I still have so many holes, and not yet strong :(  

Surgery.

2nd day of Surgery Posting. I think about babbling something in Cekelat. It won't take much time, 15 minutes will do. =).

Salam and hello everybody.. Hi, since I've been gone for quite a long time. Can imagine right, an 8 weeks of Medicine posting, continues with the busiest posting which is Surgery which I am facing it now. I know, it's a bit too exaggerating saying that I am damn tired because of surgery since this is only the second day of the battle. A lot more to come. But, truth is yes, I am so so tired, with a bit of feeling unwell physically. I feel feverish, cough with running nose, maybe because lately this is the season of sickness I guess. Even my best friends, Mun and Zaty also had just recovered from those fevers. My turn has come. I don't like this feeling, feeling of unwell making me so lazy to do things, so lethargic most of the time, but however surgery postings requires me to spend a lot of time to study! Yes, a lot, since there are many things being covered. Before you can do well in Surgery I should be good in Anatomy. Even the distance between pubic symphysis and pubic tubercle does matter! ( 1.25cm, hee, nak berlagak jap because this was the only fact I knew when Dr Das Gupta asked us this morning. Hihi). Yes, surely ANATOMY is important, in fact you need to know every single thing because when you are in an operation, surely you don't want to get sued when you wrongly remove the organ, since you are weak in Anatomy right? A fact.

Thinking about this unwell feeling makes me so can't wait to go home, I miss home. Alhamdulillah, I've bought ticket to go back to Kedah which will be on this Monday! Hip Hip Hooray! =)..

Results medicine is not out yet . I am so scared, having so many negative thoughts that I might have failed because I couldn't answer much during the exams, and in fact if I answered some of the questions, I've checked and turned out to be most of them were wrong. Pity me. :( Please, pray for me, at least I pass. :( I don't want to consider to be as in ' Conditional state' in which I need to pass 8/10 in Osce station during the real exam P2S1. I hope and pray that I pass. Amin.

That's all for the now. Just wanna tell you one thing.

"I'm sorry if because of me, you can't focus so much. I'm really sorry, and I will be away for a while, and make sure you focus to the max! :)"

P/s: I'm so addicted to ice-cream and so kempunan!!

Let's have a scoop of ice cream together please one day? :)