Spending the whole day during christmas by watching Dil To Pagal Hai wasn't a good idea at all. Hours that u should spend with studying and facing the books were unsignificant now and please put no REGRET on this because this was your choice Nurul Fitrilina. I look on my table now, see, I'm watching. Tonnes of books waiting to be read, like calling my name each time I glance at them. But, I don't regret anyway, I mean just for today. Cause I learn something new, to cheerish me up again. Hee.... This story is just so sweet and I can't cope with the good-looking of Shah Rukh Khan now, and hoping that I can find someone like him, hurmm, maybe to be my soulmate. Haha. What a high dream. Urghh, I don't care because: I'm a little girl who live in a dream world and keep listing out her new wishes and won't be sad if they don't turn out to be real cause she knows that everything happens for a reason.(: She's the one who will keep waiting for the Raj Kumar ( Prince) to come and bring her away to live happily ever after. Cause she believe in one phrase now:

"Someone....Somewhere.....is made for us."

It is all because of the effect of movie. Hee. But I loike! Hee... Okay, stop talking about movie now fitri and take a step to your studying table. Start revising now or u'll be regret later.^_^

-fi3choc-

star,moon or sky?

I looked at the stars
Wishing I had one too
Hoping I could touch it with my bare hands
But, a dream remains as a dream
It's there but unreachable
It encircles our life but we are too restricted to hold it.

I stared at the moon,
Be there when it needs to be there
Though it does not as strong as a lighted sun,
Though it doesn't as wide as blue ocean,
A moon is still a moon.
Reflect a small shine just to complete the night.

People may come and go in my life
As what they wish as what they expect
As easy as A B C..
But, spirit to keep going won't never fade
I might put my hands down
I might show the white flag to you
But the heart within this fellow stops me in the middle.

Don't be like a carrot
getting soft and lost when you are tested,
Don't be like egg too
Getting hard and heartless when you are held by obstacles
Be like a coffee bean,
You change the water,
You add the taste,
You fill it with flavour,
Yet, you are ready if you are stopped in the middle.

And again, I glanced at the sky,
Hoping that there is no more cloudy look
Tomorrow and the days after,
Praying that the blue remains the blue and not grey,
And wishing that I still can see the beauty when I open my eyes the next day.
God, I cross my hands,
With a sincere heart and appealing mood
Listen to my prayers this time
And I know you will.
:)

Even I don't understand

Recent mood: urgghh TINGTONG and I don't really like this one. Still in the way to find all those possible reasons for this.And one most prominent reason is because of the UNIS exams which is just around the corner. 52 days, still counting and even that, causes my heart to beat even faster.Tachycardia again.Feeling down and giving up on things at this point of time aren't good ideas. Struggling is the thing that I should do so long before and keep doing that every second. Ya ALLAH, GIVE ME STRONG SPIRIT TO FACE ALL THIS. Prayers that keep me awake everytime. Prayers won't cost even a rupee. Remember that, Nurul Fitrilina. Keep praying to HIM and surely He'll listen.:). Cracking my head, trying to search the second reason for the TINGTONG-recent-mood got me a clue. Personal and personal matters throughout, circulating my head like CSF that keep circulating just to protect the precious brain. (Anatomy a little, opps sorry.=>) Friends and confusing stories, urggh the correct word is the fake confusing story that bugging me all this while. Trying to take care of all's heart but even then, I'm the one who hurts the most, but still trying to chill as what I do now, I guess. People who easily forget me when they are happy really hurts me a lot.:(. Fitri, come on. Grow up. They will find you when they are in trouble but leave u when they are shining again. It's the fact of life dear.:). This is it. I don't give a damn.:(

yeah.

duhhh.
time passes by!
MOVE fi3 MOVE!

Momentogether.

hey dude.how's everything ppl? hee.hope all go fine i guess.ohh,i just finished watching movie.hmm, a scary one.and now, i'm facing this acer lappy cause i miss blogging already.hee.sorry chocolate for not treating u well these past few weeks.I'm INDEED busy with lots of stuff including the study, personal matters,friends and world's matter.:p. And now i can imitate a sound of relief cause everything seems perfectly DONE, except the study.cause it keeps haunting my life each and every second.uff, it isn't 'haunting' me but it's more to encircle my life.that is why we are all called student.(:.apart from this, we just finished a great,superb event called LEGENDA which was held here in Manipal at KMC Green. Malaysian students from all over India came to Manipal. and honestly, I love that! I miss those ppl and they finally came.Talking, chit-chatting and spending time together with these ppl really made me satisfied and enlightens me again.Ohh,how I miss them.

Arisya, Amirah, Shahidi, etc.

How I miss this people only He knows well.
Thanks guys for coming. Later in time, we might be visiting u guys when we do have leisure time in future i guess.Wait for our reappearance later dear friends! muahhx.X0X0..
To those whose name is not listed but u were also there during Legenda, I love you guys too.
And to those who couldn't find any ways to reach Manipal, it's okehh bebeh. But just so u know, I really hope soon, u can come and have a visit here and u won't regret it even I know Manipal is hot and there is no shopping mall here.:P.But the food here is so damn marvellous. :))).

Ohh, off now.My eyes get tired and my hands need to rest a little cause my fun day has ended and here the days of struggling may begin tomorrow. Best of luck to all.Thanks.(:

i am a medical student.so be strong!

Being a medical student teaches me a lot.

• Settle things earlier than dateline because each day there will be lot of things added up.
• To keep strong even sometimes you can't score the exams even you study so hard the night before.
• Be confident of what you did without questioning what might be the circumstances afterwards.
• Put all your love life aside cause you don't have so much time to think about those stuff plus, no one will understand the 'busyness' of medical student.
• tears are my best friend these few days.
• closer to Him cause He will always be there to listen to your prayers.
• Make me smiling everyday trying to chill myself though I know lots of things to be finished off.

Love,
fi3chocolate.

Rizal.

I miss my old friend.
I really do.
An old friend who I've not known who he is till now.
A friend who suffers from leukimia and I wonder how he is now.
A friend who suddenly appeared in my life a long time ago and suddenly he went away.
A friend who is no longer Malaysian cause he moved to Russia those old days.
A friend who makes me remind me of him when I listen to these songs.
[Larut(Dewa), Pupus, My Heart,Kau Ilhamku and some more]
A friend who made me stronger than I was before.
And he is really my friend.
RIZAL.
Wherever you are now, I just want you to know, I miss you and your story.
I try to reach u through our friend but I lost her number anyway to get to know about you again.
And these date: 22/1/2007 gave a lot of memories between two of us.
I hope you will be as strong as a hard stone to face your truth in life which might turns u a lot.
And as if you know,
Fitrilina sayang kamu.T__T

simply let it go.

Suddenly, it haunts me. I try to ignore it, but it keeps bugging me all the night. Suddenly, I reminisced the past memories which made me smile a long time ago with a sweetest smile ever. But, why am I keep thinking those little things when you don't even care how I feel? Do you deserve all this? Do you suppose to see what you shouldn't? Do you think what I might think when you did this to me? I wonder and wonder. It is all masked by a fake care that u seems to say every time you try to make me believe you. Will I enter your trap again? Will I just allow myself to be caught again? Am I willing to face what people might say later? Am I willing to hurt people again like I did those days before? I question but I don't even see the answer or the clues for the answer. People say the history is just a history. Just let it be and don't make it change your life in future. That is it. Enough is enough. The bruises will always be there.

<3

It's just soo gloomy.
Can't it go for a while?
I'm tired already.
Trouble is a friend,they said.
How strong I am to face this make-you-stronger-thing?
Haiihhhhh~

Oh, I don't care~

Today, I feel like writing. Hmmm, it's been ages since I last wrote and updated Chocolate. I mean, update about my current life, story and how it flows recently.Yeahh, as usual, exam was just ended. Outcome? I don't know yet, but what I can say for the time being, I'm regretted of what I did for this whole third block. I played around, spent time doing things I shouldn't, cried for those simple little things that I should really put those matters aside. But, that was it. I can't turn back and correct it. The only time to regret is now, before University Exam shows its shadow very soon. As what people keep saying to me, when I sighed to them, " U still have time Fitri to catch back what you have left before, to grab back what u lost before and to start struggling back from day one." Ohh, I nodded. That is what I should realise long before, before it's too late. :(. As a summary, what I can say now, I want to focus back again in Block 4. I'll make sure things were not the same as the previous block. Hmm, I believe in one quote, that keeps me in the line till now.

"People make mistakes cause they are not perfect.
Learn from the mistakes and live your life."

That is it for my current update in my study. Love? Don't have one till now. Huh? Does it matters after all those tears that surrounded me last 2 months? I'd better stop. Disappear like as if nothing happens really get into my nerves now. But, so what. Do I look like I care? I'm well HAPPY now with my life.(:. U are like pieces of those poems that u used to give me, and now I've thrown it away already cause it made my heart sick and plus, my Chaurasia is far better to be read and memorise compared to your so-called-love-poem. I love ANATOMY more okay? =)

Should stop now I think. I got some more planss tonight.(:

MOVIE MARATHON jom newarn? ^-^

happy birthday sayang.(:

'ohhh.tetiba teringat kesah lama. arrrggh. tasuker,tasuker,tasuker."

introduction untuk kali ini.(: hmm, hari ni tanggal 5 November 2009 adalah birthday adikku, NURUL FARINA BINTI MUSTAPA
yang ke-19.Hee.
HAPPY BIRTHDAAAYYYY~~~
You know, u almost getting to the 20's life,jangan perasan muda lagi yehh.
Hee..Maaflah semalam tak dapat kak own call sebab focus gila dekat Biochem, sebab biasa laa banyak lagi tak study.Hee...^-^.Malam ni ataupun esok kak own call anda okehhh syg...Hee....
Sempena hari ini, kak own ada beberapa ucapan untuk kamu wahai adik Na.
The lists are as follow:

• moga dimurahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan umur
• moga sentiasa dalam rahmat dan inayah Nya.
• moga terus sukses dalam hidup.
• moga berbahagia selalu and I know u are because of us right sis? lalala
• jadilah Cikgu yang baik nanti yehhh.
• And you know I LOVE U dear.(: