Don't talk nuts. Cause you might regret later. (=.=)

I am the eldest in my family. The ELDEST. The one that is thought to have a matured thinking compared to the rest of my siblings. Sometimes, I think I am holding a very large responsibility, I mean in the sense of I am the one who should be giving some pieces of advices to my younger brothers and sisters if they have problems or matters that arise, I might say.

I don't know how to react with this. I think I am so cannot handle this thing because I judge myself as 'only a little girl who knows nothing', but weird thing is that, one of my friend said that,

"Ko jangan risau la. Ko fitrilina kot.;) Ko bleh handle benda2 mcm ni.;)" 

Haha, actually, I am wondering, am I a person that is described as above? Well, whatever it is, I try my best to give the very best from me. I don't talk nuts. Err, even sometimes I do. Hahaha.

Just want to make a brief rewind about what I did today. Hmm, guess what?I've done watching Gossip Girl for the fourth season! yeay to me yeah.:) I don't actually know what to study for psychiatry posting. So relaxed till now. Not much burden in the head. Is this considered normal? Lol.

They are hot! Macam goreng pisang hangat to Cik Joyah hoi~ :D

I don't want to babble more. Just one word enough to summarize the day.

SATISFACTION.

:))))))

If I Die Young~

If I Die Young- The Band Perry.

If I die young, I wish to tell how much you mean to me.

If I die young, I want to spend the rest of my days with you by my side

If I die young, I just want to let you know that, you are the one that brings back the smile to me.:)

We are we. We are we.

Hola. Hola. Hola. Three times, enough to greet all of you out there. :) Please don't hope for more. Lol. Right, today is a super duper drama day. Well, why am I saying this? I'll be explaining very soon.

First and foremost, today was the first day I went officially to the psychiatric ward which was at KMC Hospital, Manipal. If like previous days, we went to TMA Pai Hospital, Udupi, not to meet the patient but, to have lecture there. Freaking bored, I honestly hate theory classes. Duhh. :(

But, today was a bit different. We went to the ward, on the second floor, and we could see a ward, with a guard. Usually, there'll be no guard in front of any wards, but this one was different. There was a guard, standing right in front of the psychiatric ward and I guess you know the reasons. This is actually to avoid the patients to escape from the ward because, it is actually possible for them to run away. So, that is the main point why there will be the guard standing in front of the psychiatric ward. Once we entered the ward, I could see some of my team mates already reached there like Vidya, Sundaraa and Thayasheri. Suddenly, there was a man, an ordinary man I thought came to us. ( Me and Zaty). Sundaraa said, he was one of the patient, and before we arrived there, he didn't even speak to these three fellas but when Zaty and I came, then only he came towards us. Sundaraa said, maybe he looked at us as 'what the hell are they doing here, cause we looked different with our scarfs on.' He approached me, and I distant a little. Then, he spoke something in Kannada which I didn't understand. But my Indian colleagues could understand a little. He wanted us to play carom with him. Haha. Of course, I couldn't play cause I didn't even know how to play by the way. Even Zaty could play, she refused to play with the guy cause afraid that the guy might get angry if he lose. Haha. But, fyi, he really looked like a normal ordinary guy which is perfectly normal and educated, but pity him, he actually has mental problems. :(

At 3.00p.m sharp, we entered a lecture room, and there was a psychiatric doctor came inside. He was our lecturer. With his shirt and pants on like a doctor, he sat on the chair. We looked at him very anxiously. Was he the doctor? Cause, once he sat on the chair, he played with his hands, like a-mentally-disorder patient played. He moved his hands right and left, he played with the fingers then started talking. OMG. He really looked scary. Haha. Then, Zaty said, if like in TV drama, there'll be a guard enter the room and get this guy and actually this guy is a patient. But he isn't. HE IS A REAL DOCTOR. From my observation, I guess there's the point he's behaving like that, so that he can actually feel and listen to the patient, and so that the patient himself trusts the doctor, and thus, he can comfortably tell what his problems to the particular doctor in details. Well, bravo doctor. :) Hee. Even now, I am getting psyched a little. Haha.

The world of psychiatry.

After one hour listening to the lecture, we packed our things and ready to leave, because we had a mission after that- to watch MMMC Football players to play vs. MIT players at End Point. Well, what can I say, this was their chances to get into the final. History record. As MIT was labelled as the best team in football, they were actually kinda nervous for this game. But, it didn't matter much as long as they had the spirits, more than enough actually. Well, Bingo, I could see the spirits in the air, the struggles and the fights to reach at that far. You and your respective team. MIT played very good. As soon as we arrived the field, suddenly, one of the MIT players scored a goal. It was like some parts of our heart broke. But, they didn't give up. They defended very well and tried to score. The lucky was there somewhere, and fortunately, one of the MMMC players, no.14 jersey if I am not mistaken, an Indian guy scored one goal, making clear that the result at the moment was draw 1-1. Again the game continued. They attacked and defended. It was so much fun with the spirits all over the air. I was so proud of them and the fans, too. :) And suddenly drama came again. The MMMC captain looked badly injured, but I guess he was actually okay haha, :P. Actually, the extra times should be given for both team to play to find the winner but, since the captain wasn't that okay, so, the referee decided to turn it into free-kick penalties for both teams.( I don't know what actually they called it.)

Football.

If I were a boy, one game that I surely play is football.

The goalkeeper was Panjang. He was very good at defending and so did the teams in scoring the goals. Alhamdullilah, luck was on our side that time, MMMC won over MIT which means that MMMC is going to be in the final against KMC. How proud we were at that time. Goosebumps you know, seriously. =.= Well, to the players, BEST OF LUCK for tomorrow. Keep the spirits high up, and pray for the best. We will always be by your sides, MMMC.:)

Water- Is-Falling-Not-The-Tears

Salaam I bid to y'all. How u doing? Hmm. Just want to update what I've done today.

• spent time enjoying at one of the waterfalls nearby, Hana Mana Gundi.
• slept all day after coming back. I am a lazy bird. =.=
• went for bubble tea in the evening. Vanilla + Chocolate with pearls is my all time favourite. ;) 
• had a very scary dream. ( In the dreams, I was found to have brain tumor. Could you Imagine it? Fuh~)
• thought something that bothering me these few days. 

sayer. :)

them:)

The place. Waterfall.

takde kaitan. but, I just LOVE him .:)

I don't know what keeps bugging me recently. There are some things that couldn't be explained by words but, you really feel kinda disturbing. Let me tell in brief.

"What you gonna do if you are stuck in the middle, between the good side of you and the bad? "

"What if you aren't comfortable with a thing but, you gotta get used with it everyday?"

"What if your soul's decision didn't really match your body's action? "

Well, to be firm and rigid yet frank, now I am having this kinda problem. I don't want to bug anybody telling them what I feel, in which I believe they too, have their own problems to be settled down rather than listening to my problems which will then actually add the burden in their minds. I am still holding on till now. Maybe when I come to Malacca to further my study, this thing will end.. THIS WHOLE THING. Actually, there are one or two of my friends who knew about this, but yeah you know, the responds that they gave to me, weren't always the responds that I wanted. Not everything synchronizes with my
heart's desire. I try to be strong for this 6 months forward, hopefully. I try to be positive and cool .

I have a belief in one thing.
If you are treating something good even you are the one who hurts, good things will hit you back someday, some other times. :) maybe, this isn't your luck. :) ( That keeps me strong till now. Holding on.)

I don't want to talk more. Enough of speaking, I know not everybody read this, not everybody follows my blog.. Those who is reading my blog, thank you so much. :) I am not hoping that everyone notices this blog, but at least, I've got loyal reader who is there somewhere, who follows CHOCOLATE. Thanks readers. ;)

Hey, there.:)
I guess you all know that today is our first day posting. But, differently, our groups (F1 and F2) have BLS class and examination first, at the library. Owh, btw, BLS stands for Basic Life Support. I guess you know what it is. It is all about how we manage the situation about a person found to be cardiac arrested or stops breathing. Basically, we gotta do CPR which stands for Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation. It is actually different for adults or infants. It was nice to learn about that, cause you'll never know you maybe one day are caught in the situation. If you have this basic knowledge, at least, one life can survive. :) Apart from that, we were taught to do one technique known as Heimlich's Maneuver in choking. I couldn't snap pictures during the time cz I came late. Hee. So sorry to you guys. :)

Anyway, I would like to congratulate MMMC team who won over MIJM in football match. 10-0. Pergh. You guys are SUPER SUPERB! :D Congratulations. :))))  Congratulations, Bingo. You are not that bad huh. Hahahahaha.

Mr. Adam. My adik .:)

Owh, one more thing to be updated. I have a plan this weekend. Some mysterious plans, so just wait and see. Haha. :D and to my younger brother, Adam, Happy birthday!! You are already 16 years old. Study hard if you really wish to be a pilot one day, Love you so mucho. =)

Psychiatry. :)

3rd year. I'm on my way. V semester. I can't wait to go for posting. :) Meeting patients and I do hope everything goes well and I can learn what they say, at least, to ask their names of course. :) Learning Kannada, Malayam or Urdu despite of Tamil are pretty good. ( Actually, I think I should know Tamil first. Cause my colleagues are all Tamilians. :D)

Third year. What should I say more? It is actually a beginning of something. Something that I hope it will go very smooth till the time comes. We are nobody to swear or promise. We just can pray for the best. :)

Btw, I've got my posting department already, and firstly I am posted to Psychiaty department. I wonder how the posting would be anyway. Wuhuuu. Psycho. Psycho. All we can think when we listen to the word 'PSYCHO' is orang gila. Haha. Yeahh orang gila. Actually, this is the wrong interpretation. Not orang gila, anybody can also refer to the psychiatrist if they have problems or matters that arise. To get some advices and solutions, this is the best way. But, to be honest, I am not really good in advising people. haihh. Crazy. :D. But I can listen. So if you feel like telling me the problems that haunt your day, I'm here. :)

Speaking about third year, you know what? I SHOULD at least have 10K rupees to pay for the books!!! So expensive!!! :( Sigh. And I really hope that it worths it. :)

Ttyl. You know what it is.;)

Wait and See.

Hey. I am back. :)
Back means I am at Manipal already.
Many things await. And many things to be prove.
Just wait and see people.
Love ya all. ;)

Baby Dell~

hey hey hey! :)

I ada baby baru. Yeay baby! :) Best best. I will take good care of u. Will update the photo later.

Awak si Merah, jangan nakal-nakal yea. Saya nak guna awak sampai saya dapat title Dr. nanti insyaAllah. :)

Ingat je,, tak susah pun.

Does that hurt?
A little maybe. :(
And state the reasons why.
Oh well, I don't know. Don't ask me.
Cz I'm not telling anybody.
Don't try to test me much, I am not able to face it anymore.
You know the truth, you keep it in the heart.
Remember it, till the last day of your life. Mine, too.

Yeah you.

I'm talking about YOU, not anyone else.

Please bear that in your mind.

:)

Again, you-know-who-you-are.:)

Home;)

Salaam to all.:) Guess what, world? Now I'm at my home! Yeah. Home sweet home like what they said, remember?:) Meeting my parents, my siblings and my other families is just too exciting. They said, I've put some weights. Oh well I don't know whether to say thank you or to get mad to them? haha. Whatever. Here are some pictures I've taken with them. Oh I love them like so much.:) Most of the pictures were in the car cause everytime I wasn't in the car( I mean when I reached the certain destination) I always forgot to take photo cause I was busy enjoying the place. Ngee. mengada kan. LOL. =) and for you guys info, the results have been released and thank God I've made it. We made it. All my friends passed. But, unfortunately, some of my friends didn't. :(

Oh, people, actually, there is one story m gonna tell. but not now. keep updating kay.:) ttyl. bye. =p