birthday mak.

Happy Birthday, Mak. I love you so much!!! You are the best mother on Earth. :))). I'm proud to be your daughter. May Allah s.w.t bless u.

MOGA DIBERKATI UMUR DAN DIMURAHKAN REZEKI.

Mak dan abah:)

Second of all, I finally finished my 3 hours of practical. At last, the car is moving. :P

Third of all,  I just found this video. Interesting. Paris, Je T'aime.:) 
 

That's all. 

Notes:

"I didn't mean to make you annoyed with me,

I didn't mean to prevent you from doing what you like

I am not mean like that:(

I didn't mean to force you

But, I just wanna let you know that I care for you way too much

I just can't see if you are hurting

I can't resist seeing the pain in your eyes

Please understand that, love

But, whatever it is, I know I am nobody yet to you

I can't ask you to follow my wish

I can't I really can't

Your decision is yours truly not me

One last sentence, please take care of yourself if you don't want to see my eyes leak again like 

now.

Ya Allah, Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Penyayang.

Tabahkan hati kami, kuatkan semangat kami, redha lah jiwa ini untuk menerima apa jua dugaan buat kami

Supaya kami sentiasa bersyukur dan masih yakin apa pun yang terjadi ada hikmahnya. 

Amin.

mistakes

Hey jumpa lagi for today :). Tadi berbicara tentang fakta umat sekarang. kali ni tentang study plak bleh kan?:p. Yeah. SURGERY, finally I shall say. The last 6 weeks of Sem 6 before the sessional examination which is around the corner. The so-called scariest posting in MMMC Melaka okay not Manipal because both are totally different, the lecturer wise. To be exact, from the kind-never-shouted-persistent-smile-don't mind if you bunk class lecturer to the harsh-persistent-shouted-big-eyes lecturer. What a difference kan? :) But well never mind. What Allah s.w.t has explained, everything happens for a reason, remember that.

This monday is the first day of surgery. I hope for the best insyaAllah and yeah I also hope I learn a lot. I've gone through lists of other postings namely psychiatry, O & G, Medicine, Community Medicine and ehem thats all. :). To be honest, a lot of mistakes I have made throughout the postings like simple mistakes that I made many times, maybe history taking wise or examination part. Because, this is human, we are all still learning each and every day, nobody says that I finish learning already or I have enough knowledge in my genius brain already. Nobody says that because even the best person in the world is still learning( I don't know who to give example, just think by yourself).

Those mistakes I've made taught me a lot. I did cry, I became sad and sometimes down to earth. I questioned myself, why I can't do even a simple thing? Why I hesitate to answer the question? Why I don't know the answer even I studied a lot? That sorts of questions always pop up in my mind, just like that. Tak percaya, tanya dia, he knows how often I cried for that, cause he knows how fragile I am. But crying doesn't solve the problems, it just makes you feel a bit better because you have spilled out the sad sorrow from the heart. What you need to do is that, TO LEARN FROM THE MISTAKES. I hope I do that, now and continuously everyday. Mistakes grow us up. Agree me?:)

 

So, all in all, I hope those mistakes will never repeat themselves again especially in this posting. I hope I improve a lot. I will try my best to improve, because yeah to change isn't easy as to eat peanuts. ( betul ke tak perumpaan aku ni? hehe). Because medical students should do less mistakes that other courses. Confused much? Let me explain. I give you a kinda situation if let's say doctors make mistakes during the surgery or treating the patients. Guess you can think the consequences, am I right?  Renung renungkan dan selamat beramal. Wallahualam. :)

I Should Have Known

Salam Sabtu.. Sabtu eyh? :) Well, yeah, it's 9.37am in the morning in the beloved Malaysia. And truth is I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. :P. Yeah I know it is kinda late for an anak dara like me, but who cares since it's WEEKEND!! Tidur la sepuasnya kan.. *hands up if you agree..*;p.

What topic to be told today? Or maybe to be discussed? It's about Palestine. Yeah Palestine, the story that we keep on uttering and sympathizing to them because of the things that happened to their country. Actually the things that are still happening.

Last night, I had this so- called 'Sister Gathering' here in Melaka, not far actually, at the area of Bukit Beruang with my usrah-mate with their friends whom I just get to know them last night. :). At first we cooked, talked, laughed and spent time together. It was so much fun since I love doing things with people like cooking because I love teasing and sometimes people love to tease me like Ariffah did. ;p.. And then the programme continued and we ate around 930pm after the dulang- dinner.

Then, came the tazkirah given by the one of the student from University of Newcastles, Australia and she's not Australian, she's Malaysian la. A girl one year younger than me.:). She talked and talked and suddenly it came to the story of Palestine. She asked all of us, "What do you girls know about Palestine?" My reaction was like, blinking three to four times, watching each others, trying to make the gyrus to work. Pity gyrus, because I actually, don't really have the knowledge of what is really the reason for the chaos happened in Palestine. Kesian kan:(. Padahal it is one of the story we keep on talking. We pitied them, sometimes some of us cried watching over the videos showing the suffering of Ummah there but, do we know the reasons for the chaos? Hmm. And 'we' here includes me myself. I know about the story but I don't dig, I don't find although I know it's one of my things to do( finding about what happened to Palestine) because we are Muslims and those that are suffering are our brothers and sisters. :"(.

Yeah maybe I have to start dig and dig and dig. I might not help much but at least I know what is happening to them. With the knowledge maybe something can be done, we never know. Wallahualam. Selamat mencari tentang Palestine. :)

bye bye commed sayang :")

Salam. Here I am again after the story of Don. Another story is to be told today. First and foremost, I have completed Community Medicine posting of three weeks. Ya Allah, it happened so fast plus the two Monday holidays in sequences. >.<.. Well, even the commed end posting has ended too. Comment about the exam? Not kinda hard, because Alhamdulillah I could do that even the MEQ part was quite confusing. Ah, never mind. Let by gone be by gone. :)

Move on. Next posting awaits! The scariest, toughest, monster-looking-ready-to-knock-your-head lecturer. Well, cut the monster-looking part. He actually looks just normal like me and you. The name of the lecturer will not be mentioned. Maybe next time? But, to MMMC student who read this, yeah you know the idea who he is right. *tutup muka*. Hopefully, everything goes well. I don't mind if he scolds us, because at least by his harsh words, and scolds maybe we can be a good doctor one day, who knows. There must be reasons for whatever he does. ;)*positive thinking*.

But well guys, I should have started to continue to complete my portfolio. Duhhh. Banyak lagi kot. Hee. takpe, since I don't have tomorrow morning class, then I can continue doing it tomorrow. HOPEFULLY. Lol. :D.

Maybe that is for now. Enjoy the commed pictures. For more details, you may visit my facebook profile because I have uploaded all the photos there.:)

Don 2

Nothing much.

This is what I did yesterday.

Yey yey happy happy!! =)

Dapat tengok SRK yang cute miut. ;D

rice cooker, I do love you! :)

Once upon a time, I did have a thought to buy a multi cooker like every body else. Yeah, it makes your life a lot more easier, you can cook even if you are staying in a hostel, like me. But, truth always hurts. hehe. The price of the multi cooker is way too much, till I have to think not twice but thrice whether to buy it or not. It is about RS200. Not Rupees okay, but Ringgit Malaysia( Rm). Hmm. :(

But, yeah I do have a rice cooker, special thanks to my mak and abah who bought me one, when they came visiting me about a month ago. Yeah, I don't have to spend extra Rm1 for the rice, bleh la nak jimat sikit kan, since nak jimat is one of my wish list this year. Lol. :D.

And actually, to those who didn't know, you can cook even if you have a rice cooker with you even there are too much troubles by doing this like:

• It takes time for the cooker to become hot. Maybe it can take ages you know! Err, I am exaggerating here. But yeah it does take TIME.
• The button tend to push back to warm after 'cook'. You can't make it remains as 'cook' all the time.( those who have cooked rice by a rice cooker understand this. Don't you?;p)
• The rice cooker might get contaminated with the food you have cooked inside it. Duh, you need to wash very thoroughly for this anyway. 

But but and but. Not this butt okay. Haha. But, I did something tonight. I cooked using my lovely rice cooker! Hee.. Not much, just veg soup I made, but yeah I made it. It was not as problematic as I have stated before if you could imagine. So so and so, I can save my RM200 in order to buy a multi cooker since the rice cooker which I already have gives so much benefits. ;)))

veg soup with the sardine. my dinner tonight:)

weekend likes weekday

Salaam.

Weekend is back again. Hello, weekend. :). But, lists of things should be done this weekend, like a lot. Hopefully I can manage all of that very well within the expected duration. One thing for sure before get started, "JANGAN MERUNGUT!" (",). Before you can happily go back home, please and so many please, use your time wisely, fit. These things in mind:

• finish up about 100-pages commed portfolio. not much actually, I just have to copy and paste. That's all. =.=

this much okay. banyak kot. T_T

• study for the commed end posting. Too much slides till I vomit! Duhhhh.
• pre-study for surgery posting. As what I can say, from heavenly commed to hell surgery? T_T. But no worries! I want to focus surgery as maximum as possible since sessional is just around the corner! =)
• Weekend equals to driving license class. Have to stand this for quite a long weekends afterwards. Takpe, good luck! (^_^)
• Yeah Don 2!! insyaAllah if it is fated that I am going to meet up the beloved SRK this weekend. Depends on time and availability. *finger-crossing*
• Counting days. :)

*lesson of the day: whatever you do, just remember that everything starts with your Niat. Niat as in your intention. Allah s.w.t will grant your wish the way you Niat. If you niat for A, then A happens. If you niat for B, then B sets in. It is the matter of what Niat you have made and whether it suits enough and whether it can give you something in future, some good things. InsyaALLAH.


Salam for now. :)

tq!

saya gemok, 

kuat tido,

kuat makan, 

berjerawat, 

emo tak tentu pasal

tapi 

dalam apa keadaaan sekalipun, 

kamu sabar je dengan saya,

kamu masih sayang saya,

kamu tak pernah marah.

kamu cakap, 

kamu terima saya seikhlasnya sebab saya adalah saya.

jadi, terima kasih. :)

"I Do"

whaddup? What a boring day.. Huuu... I didn't have d afternoon class today, yeah it is called SDL timezz! Should be yezza but yeahh when you don't have things to do it can be boring too.. T_T, but anyway boring is far way excited than being in a class and listening to a lecture which sometimes you don't even understand a thing because you keep on day dreaming. :P..

Well, anyway since I didn't have nothing to do, I sincerely played The Sims Life Stories which I have stopped playing for a long time! Hee.. :) I do have my own family, Bubu and Bibi with their two children. But, then when I was about to play, I realised that my both kids have gone! Yeah that two little twin kids. Duhhh I wondered and kept wondering. The last time I played was about a month ago or maybe like two months but I still remembered the last time I played that my both kids were there! Hmm, then one idea struck my mind. I forgot that when I went back home during Christmas last time, my youngest brother, Aliff and my younger sister, Wawa played my sims. Duhhh! maybe they accidently caused my two kids ran away.. :(.. But, those kids are twins, like I have dreamt in real life. Hihi. After I have found out, then I lost interest to continue playing. I youtubed and now I am still youtubing then I found this song of Colbie Callait, I Do. I've heard the song so many times and I kinda like it, but I never watch the music video. Then here it is. Done watching. ;)))

new year+ poem

Salam. HAPPY NEW YEAR people! I hope it's not too late to wish! =))) Sorry, not in the mood to blog for the past few days as I busy did something else. Well, just nak berlagak for a while, I passed my computer test! * yeah, the one that you needed to sit in the steps to obtain the driving license* Well, one thing I wanna say, alhamdulillah. =).. Eventhough I did all of that alone by myself, I managed to undergo that. *mula-mula cuak giler kot sebab sorang-sorang..huuu*..

Okay, fine. New year has come. 2011. eh, my bad, it is 2012 ALREADY LA GIRL! And this year, if "long live" I am gonna reach the age of 23. Phewww! About to reach middle of twenties. Feeling matured enough? Well, you judge it by yourself. ;).. Okay, the intro is in English but, the rest of the entry for this time will be in Malay. Yeah, I miss blogging in Malay. ;D

Ha, hello hello. Faham lagi kan? Ada lagi kan korang ni kan baca blog aku? Hihi.. Thanks sebab masih lagi setia dekat Chocolate, walaupun Cekelat ni takdela berinformasi mana pun. Hanyalah lebih kepada aku yang mengarut dekat sini. Lebih kepada luahan perasaan, yang aku tak mampu nak luahkan dekat orang lain, sebab kadang-kadang apa yang aku nak cakap susah nak digambarkan dengan kata-kata.. Hee, sorry konfius sekejap.. :).

Tick tock tick tock sekarang dah pukul 9.00 malam waktu Malaysia. Apa yang aku buat? Aku masih lagi stuck depan lappy mengupdate cekelat., kinda miss him somehow. :").. Hmm, berbalik kepada isu tahun baru, ramai yang menjadikan tahun baru sebagai titik permulaan pada perubahan ataupun titik pecutan untuk mencapai azam masing- masing. Macam orang lain, aku juga punya azam yang tersusun dalam kotak hati, dari sesimple azam kepada sekompleks azam.. Tak semua orang tau azam aku eyh.. sapa yang dah baca previous blog aku, dia tau la 3 azam aku tahun ni, tapi untuk the rest hanya aku, dia dan DIA je yang tau.. Hee.. Mystery enough huh? Well just let it be.. ;)) Berdoalah supaya azam dan harapan aku bakal menjadi kenyataan insyaAllah ameen. ;).. Aku tak nak cerita azam aku yang the rest dengan korang bukan sebab apa, sebab yang utama sebab yela azam tu bisa pudar kan, awal memang la semangat nak buat semua tu tapi by the end of the day, kita lupa dan leka dan kemudian azam tu pun hilang ditelan masa. Aku tak nak macam tu. Aku nak azam aku kekal sampai semuanya tercapai. Azam dan harapan. Aku tahu bukan senang aku nak capai kalau takde usaha yang kuat, tapi sekurang kurangnya aku mencuba. insyaAllah dengan izinNya semuanya boleh! :D Semangat! Semangat! Semangat! Hihihih..

Sekarang macam yang semua sedia maklum, aku tengah posting Community Medicine, jadi kena lah aku pergi Klinik Kesihatan terdekat, tak payah pi hospital dah. tapi aku rasa commed lagi best sebab lepak giler kot untuk yang malas macam aku. hihi. bleh main dengan budak-budak comel, ukur panjang, berat, head circumference, chest circumference baby baby tu. Hee. =)*sori la takde gamba nak tunjuk sebab aku tak amik pun. sebab biar lah kenangan tu aku simpan terus dalam hati, tade gambar pun takpe. :) Teehee,, sweet plak bunyi nya padahal tak sempat nak ambil gambar. :p. Selain daripada tu, kena jugak take care dekat ibu ibu mengandung nie, kena jaga diorang baik baik, bukan senang nak jaga sorang lagi dalam perut tu, hee.. :) kena dengar la apa nurse nasihat kat pregnant mother, selain daripada itu, kena jugak take note blood pressure, weight, BMI of these mothers, yela nak rule out high risk cases, sebab bila dapat tahu awal, dapat lah langkah pencegahan awal dapat dilakukan. :). Bila tengok ibu ibu ni pregnant, teringat la mak aku dulu pernah macam ni jugak mengandungkan aku. so, appreciate la mak anda sekalian yea. :). And dalam masa yang sama, aku jadi takut pun ada. Pheww. takut oww, sebab nanti aku pun akan jadi cmtu gak, korang pun sama la. kena jadi mak macam tu, kena jaga baby dalam perut untuk 9 bulan, sanggup ke korang? tak sanggup pun kena la jaga, amanah Allah kan.:) Best kot tengok mak mak tu, hee.. semangat je cerita berapa kali baby tendang, semangat cerita persiapan( untuk yang peramah la nak cerita. hihi). Selain daripada tu, aku dan kawan kawan aku yang lain pergi jugak 'home visit'. Pergi check mak dan anak lepas bersalin, well known as post-natal cases. tengok la kot kot la baby tu ada jaundice, ke mak tu pun kena tengok jugak kalau kalau ada tanda-tanda varicose vein ke, post partum haemorrhage ke. macam macam bleh jadi ow. Itulah kisah pasal commed.

Lagi satu hal, audry masih tak okay macam dulu. penat dah nak sedih. tak jadi okay jugak. entah bila la aku bleh hantar repair. :(.

oh guys, sekarang ni aku follow " how i met your mother' tapi baru 3rd episode season 1. Hehe. yela kan, bosan tak tau nak buat apa tiap malam. nak study malas,biasala commed. hee. :).

rasanya tu je kot. penat dah. mungkin nanti aku blog lagi. mungkin esok. entah. kalau umur panjang insyaAllah.

Lagu background:

*It Girl, Jason Derulo

*The One That Got Away, Katy Pery

*Smile, Avril Lavigne

*Quiet Hearts, Amy Stroup

*Wish You Were Here, Avril Lavigne.

*I Like It Like That

*Percaya Padaku, Ungu.



That solemn night,
Where blinking stars seem to be gone and the moon appears restless
The cold feet shivers at the corner of empty room
The half-closed eyes force to open endlessly
Mind has gone nowhere, trying to locate the heart
Don't blame own self nor others
It's the fate that remains unchanged over time
Stuck in the middle of journey
With failure and difficulties step in, we wonder
We know but we take things for granted
We understand but we avoid the truth
We learn but we skip the wisdom that sets in
Please change and make a move
Life is like a moving wheel
On top or at the bottom can't be escaped
Knowing about guided sequences
Shall survive us till the end.

Poem setelah sekian lama. :) Untuk kamu. :) Juga untuk kamu-kamu. :)

update. not much

the driver last nite. my cuzzie. thanks dear. :)

drinks that woke us up along the journey from kedah.

bosan bosan.

 Thanks to my cousun. finally she sent me safely to the college back. 1200am on the dot that time. then she continued her journey to her place, Kluang, Johor. By 230am, she arrived there. Alhamdulillah.

Anyway, today's event. windmill. celebrating epah's 22nd birthday. my usrah-mate. happy birthday dear. =) *sorry, the whole pictures are with Kak Mehy, my other usrah-mate. =)

grilled chicken and fish at windmill melaka.

notice the drink? ;)