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Hey there, salaam. :) Somebody asked me to update my blog, so well, here I am again. Hee. Now I am in Orthopaedic posting, yeah done for the first day, knee examination, so far everything went well, hopefully it will stay d same till the end of this posting. I kinda like this posting, seems interesting, and plus the ortho professor said that, those who wanted to become orthopedician must have very strong hands. Haha ! Kinda cool rite, if you join this department. Hehe, I will be as strong as rock. :D

nothing much, just my project today's evening. haha. usrah's project. :p

Referring to the above photo, I have spent this whole evening to finish up my usrah homework. Yeah, it may seem simple but, actually quite tough for me you know, for someone who are not creative like me. I had to struggle about the colouring part. You know what keeps on circling my mind everytime I talk, listen, watch about art: Why the hell I cannot be a creative fellow since I am left- handed person, because I have heard that left-handers tend to use their right brain more than left, which means, they tend to be more artistic, but in my case ( I am a left0-handed person) I am zero- artistic person. Sedih kan? :( Keep thinking what is my advantage actually? or may talent? Ape eyh? Takkan takde? T_T.

Anyway, speaking about new posting, I have a lot of things to be improved. To change from commed to ortho is a bit shocked, but not really actually, cz just like commed, ortho is labelled as one of the relaxed posting, but still there are too many new things we gotta learn in ortho posting, so I cannot waste my time like I did back then during commed. I'm thinking about making a daily timetable, timetable here I mean, the study timetable. Maybe I will become istiqamah after this, and that is what i want actually. InsyaAllah, I will try my best! Nak lepas P2S1 in time, and I wanna be a doctor in time! Tak nak repeat or suppli. Takut! :( Ya Allah, please ease our way. Amin.

And one more thing to be updated, I registered myself to be joining Sunathon program. ( Sunathon refers to sunat or circumcision with marathon). A good choice actually, rather than curling in the blanket whole day. At least, I have something to do in the weekend( 19/5/2012) and plus, I can achieve new knowledge which I'll never learn during routine posting. Alhamdulillah:)

ugly truth

Sometimes, I just can't bear the tears from falling. It just happened, as if I had no control over it. When I see pain in your eyes, it hurts me deeply inside too, I know it may sound lame and weird, but that's what happened to me most of the time. I can't listen to your voices when I know there are hurts beneath the voices, and that hurt is caused by me. Please don't ask me why I feel that way, even I cannot explain about it. I admit that I am someone who is easily crying over little things, but nowadays, I less likely to cry over that small things, not even with regards to the matter of friends, but truth is, I teared when it came to you, you and of course my family too. Avoiding is one way I try to do when I'm hurt by you but it can't last. I usually feel pity to you, get to you back as soon as possible. And if you are hurt by me, I did the same thing, in which I don't think it seems fair enough rite, because you are the one who are hurt by me, why I am the one who try to avoid you?

I am so sorry for acting childish all the way, for repetitively cry over simple matters, and easily get hurt. I am me, this way, silly I know, but I can't change that fact, as what once House mentioned that, women are programmed to be sensitive over small little things. Yeah, something like that.

I've tried to hide those tears, but I can't most of the time, when I am with you. It comes out so easily, even before I was talking to you, everything seems fine. ( not fine actually, I mean deep in the heart).

Accept me for the way I am. It's the ugly truth, I know, but that is me. Pity you, need to handle a sensitive creature like me. :( I am so sorry.

That's my ugly truth. Very ugly truth. Whatever it is, ily. Always, ily.

Forgot to mention, just finished eop today. Berserah.

And plus, I have watched Avengers. I prefer Iron- Man. Handsome guy with great sense of humour. That what makes me melted in the cinema. 

pre- commed eop

• Avengers
• Shopping
• House M.D Season 7
• Denyut Kasih Medik

Currently, those are my boosters for commed eop. Okay, berusaha! (^_^)

commed

Salam. Exam is around the corner. I woke up around 10 am today, not very early, because I aimed to wake up around 8 to continue studying. :( I haven't even finished the epidemiological study yet. Hmm, just thinking when will I finish this topic off.

I just came back from having my lunch, I guess, I can't take a nap now, since I woke up late today. Never mind, good luck fitrilina! Go and continue studying! :)

JPJ Part 3

Simply unbelievable. :P.

JPJ Part 2

Somebody is waiting for this post. Yeah, somebody. You know who you are.

Well, first and foremost, salaam I bid to all of you. Kinda nervous is it? Hee.

The story goes like this:

A little girl, err, not so little, a big big girl, went to a driving school to sit for her JPJ test, and it was 7.00am in the morning, the same time, MMMC students who are posted to Muar began their journey there. Waiting and waiting, the van came at around 715 am, and finally around 830am, the van reached the school. She made her way to the registration counter, and was given a card written 40 indicating that her turn would be 40th out of around 50 people. That girl with her two other junior friends around 18 years old made their way to the hill, parking and three corner sites, quite a walking distance from the main building. Her heart rate was very high, with a palpitation she noticed. Then the story continued..


Bla.. bla.. bla..So, the conclusion is..

ALHAMDULILLAH, I PASSED MY JPJ DRIVING TEST! AFTER SO LONG! :)

And now, what I need to do is that, go to the JPJ and get the P license.

Seriously, it's been such a long time I've waited for this moment to come. I started to get involved in this license thingy when I went out from UTP, but because of time barrier, I buried my wish to take the license. Then here in Melaka, I had to listen to the KPP ( used to call ceramah memandu) again for second time, quite bored actually, but I just tried to be patient, to obtain something we want is never so easy. That's how the story goes. What I can say now is alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, thank you to those who keep supporting me till now. I really appreciate it. :)

Maybe, later, JPJ part 3 will come if in case I remember, and during that time, I maybe take the picture of the license. and if in case I forget, sorry! 2Semangat kan. Hehe, but yeah I am really happy right now. Bersyukur sangat. :) Terasa bahagia sbentar, walaupun tak semua orang faham kan. ;)

Anyway, no motif of putting these pictures, just I am so grateful. :") Rasa macam nak nangis. :)


#np : Somebody That I Used To Know- Gotye

JPJ Part 1.

Salam everybody. How's the day? Well, I know you guys don't ask me, but I still wanna tell. Heee. :D. I woke up late today, around 1030a.m. Not scared, and ashamed to tell, cz I didn't have class this morning. Hihi. But, as soon as my eyes got opened, I looked over the skype and my friends left a chat. Two chats actually, those from my commed group members. Ira and Lina, they asked me about something related to our results and methods, the things that we had to present today's evening. I replied them back, in realize that we didn't put enough bar and pie charts in the results, then we had to add them up till the graphs became about 5 in number. 

Today it was still not my turn to present. Mine would be about discussions, maybe if Allah's will, next week. Gotta try hard to complete this weekend. Enough about community medicine.

This evening, about 630 pm, Syikin, Zaty, Mun and I made our way to go to the nearest CIMB bank in which I was the DRIVER. Percaya tak? Hee, actually, Syikin alllowed me to drive because tomorrow, yeah tomorrow I have JPJ test, at last. I was a bit lousy driving at the early part, but later when I got used to it, it became much better. But, still a lot more to improve. I did have the skills, but however, I just need to have some confidences to make it real, and do it well. Whatever happens tomorrow, I will try my best. I pray to Allah s.w.t to ease my way tomorrow, so that I will successfully pass. Cuma bertawakal saja for the moment. Doakan saya ye, kawan- kawan! 

Just to remind myself, commed end posting exam will be next week, I should have started studying and focus. 

Semoga berjaya Nurul Fitrilina. Banyak benda kamu kena hafal, for example the unfamiliar formulas which are so so many many many more more. Okay, gotta go. Till then, goodbye and salam. :)

P/s: Based on the title, it is mentioned as JPJ part 1. Maybe there will be JPJ part 2, in which during the time, I will tell you all whether I pass or not. Semua bergantung pada esok hari. Faith, confidence, and relax, serta tawakal. T_T

bubbles

I looked at it with a hopeless smile. I kinda miss it, but it didn't want me. at all. I knew, maybe at some points they were all my faults even I didn't know what are they. To buy a new one, I didn't have enough savings, maybe next time. If and only if I have the chance to buy. :p. There are still lots more things I need to do, for example, the JPJ thingy. It would be this Wednesday. Nervous? Can't agree more, that's what lingers in my mind so far, it's not that I don't want to think positive, it's just that I have history back then when it comes to pra- test, if at all you remember. What I will do now, I'll just try my best, later. ( one of my 2012 wishlist : obtain car license) I pray to You, Ya Allah, Ya Mujib, hopefully that all will go well as I wish, I successfully pass in the test, and if let's say, You want to test me, I will accept this with open heart.

To be real honest, I have left driving for about a month, hopefully I still remember all the steps, with regards to parking, hill, three corners, and even route A and B, not to forget C ( even cikgu said, they seldom brought us there). My mind is pre- occupied with so many things recently. So many, to mention it in here, I don't think so. Let it bury in my mind and disappear like the bubbles that come with the waves at the beach. Moga Engkau permudahkan segala urusanku. Amin.

Today, I have something to share, not share but, it's more of, to just mention, it passed by in my mind. Been thinking that it's been such a while I left poetry, maybe I should have started when I have time. A left- handed person like me, used to be labelled as the one that is creative sorts of things. But, to me, I am none of that, I am bad at drawing, singing, and even dancing. I am a little bit have interest in mathematics, but I don't think it is classified as art- thing. Whatever. And, today's VARK questionnaire told me something. I am an AURAL- person. I prefer listening compared to V- Visual, R- Reading, Writing, and K- Kinesthatic. Go and try to do it yourself. :)

Life's like a bubble,
It is there for sometimes,
but it will disappear when you notice,
Varying sizes but with single shape, fragile but round
Looking at it, with a transparent covering,
Unleash what are hidden,
Actualize what are unreal,
If it goes into the air, it looks beautiful and shiny,
Letting me smile with joy for a while,
But once it reaches the top, it's gone,
Like nobody can trace it,
Gone. That way.

Good bye Troy

Troy has left me.

Moga tenang kau di sana. Sorry, because I couldn't be a good owner. :'(

Thanks for accompanying me for these two months more or less.

I will be alone, in the room, no more cute small eyes looking at me while studying, eating, even changing my clothes( perlu ke mention tu?=.=).

I will miss you, and insyaAllah someday, I will find, something like you. :)

I love you, always.

hello back again

hye, salam, back again. :)

Tomorrow, I have commed block test. I don't finish studying yet as always, and the same lame reasons: TOO MANY to be read. I started to study today, err, to be exact, tonight actually, because today whole evening I spent to do that commed research thingy, till 545pm in the evening. Then after that, I came back to my room, got ready for sports. Yeah, squash to be exact. During the games, I almost fainted, felt a little bit nauseated and almost about to vomit. And all of these happened because I forgot to have my lunch. =.=. I forgot! :(. For the whole day, I only ate 3 pieces of biscuits. That was all. When I came back to the hostel when Maghrib azaan was heard, then I had my "lun-ner"( lunch added up to dinner, like qasar and jamak kinda thing) . Pelik tapi benar. I just didn't know why I  forgot. My friends kept scolding me, "Fit, hang nak jadi kurus tera mana lagi???" I just nodded, and said yeah yeah ha ha, trying to ignore of what they said. It's not that I purposely didn't want to eat my lunch, it's just I FORGOT. :( I know it sounds a little bit weird, where the hell people forget to have their meals. but that what has happened to me for real. 

Tonight, he slept early. Haihh, told ya. :(. You should have just texted me first, saying that you wanted to sleep early, I just didn't have that eager feeling to listen to your voice tonight to get me boosted up again to study. :( I am a bit disappointed actually, because I have texted you right in the beginning with the thought that you might be sleepy afterwars, why don't we date a little bit earlier? but yeah, you asked me to study first. :( Sedih sedih sedih. Tak semangat dah nak study actually, I am tired. Mentally, and physically, mentally because I can't take this anymore, this here I mean dah tak larat nak sumbat paksa ilmu masuk otak, seriously weyh. 

Yeah, that day I have talked about it's been such a long time I last updated photo in blog right? This is because of the problematic kiddo, Audry who happens to be my Android Samsung Galaxy SL, GT19003. Problem unsolved. Tired of finding new solution. Okay, that's all maybe. Ttyl. :)Salam and good good nite, sleep sleep tight everybody, including the one who have closed his eyes first to sleep, without saying goodnight and sweet dream. :"(

At 1.45 am, I have tiga keping roti pat sagi with nescafe. Long nite maybe. Alone. T_T

I don't know why, but I just love this picture, India,  in the train,  with that book. Kenangan. :) . Snapped by Mun or Redz, couldn't recall. 

:(

Please be back.

*Waiting with patience. :(*