Dia tak pernah tinggal kita.

Salam. Today the entire post will be in Malay. :)

Hari ini aku nak berbicara tentang Dia. Tentang Dia, yang di atas, yang sentiasa ada sama ada dalam masa sedih, gembira, mahupun sewaktu bahagia. Aku tahu aku adalah insan yang memang biasa yang tak pernah terlepas dari semua salah dan khilaf samada disedari mahupun tidak.. Aku tahu, aku kadang2 leka dengan kehidupan yang melalaikan, sedangkan aku boleh cuba tukar dari kehidupan yang lalai ke yang lebih fokus dan dengan matlamat. Tapi, seperti yang telah aku perkatakan, aku hanyalah MANUSIA BIASA.

Sebenarnya, mesti topik ini agak pelik la bila keluar dari blog aku.. Hee. Yea, aku tau most of the time, aku memang coret benda-benda mengarut je pun. Tah apa2 kan aku. Lol.. Tapi kali ini just nak share je something. Tentang experiences aku sendiri.. Sejak belakangan ini, secara jujurnya, aku rasa sangat jauh dari Dia. Sangat lah distant. Waktu yang selalu aku rasa dekat dengan Dia selalunya masa-masa nak exam jer. :( Inilah manusia, bila dalam keadaan terdesak, sedih, kita cari Dia, tapi bila kita happy, bila semua lancar jer, kita sedikit lupa pada Dia. :(

Masa exam tu hari-hari kita berdoa, doa dan doa supaya kita lepas exam, dapat distinction untuk sapa yang memang aim distinction la kan, particularly not me la kan.. Hihi.. Hari-hari baca quran at least satu muka surat..Dah jadi tabiat.. Tapi bila exam dah habis, bila results pun dah keluar dan semua baik-baik sahaja, kita jadi lupa sekejap pada Dia. Padahal Dia yang dah tentukan semua tu. Haih, kejamnya kita. :(

Untuk kisah aku pulak, bila aku dah third year, hidup makin indah, tak banyak kelas, boleh tinggal2 kelas, tak ada SDL, PBL, class test apatah lagi. So, memang free la kan hidup.. Tapi still, kadang-kadang aku lupa pada Dia. Dok syok sangat enjoy life as third year, aku lupa pada Dia yang telah memungkinkan aku masuk third year dengan berjaya. :S.. Just nak ingatkan diri sendiri dan orang lain, apa pun yang kita buat, ingat Dia yang satu. Tanpa Dia, semua yang senang pun jadi susah, yang mungkin pun jadi mustahil. So, fitrilina lepas ni, try lah buat something yang at least boleh cover up balik masa-masa lagha awak tu yea.:) Selamat mengingati-Nya semua. Moga hidup sentiasa diberkati. Amin.:)

Don't get jaded. at least for this:)

Don’t worry much, life is full of surprises anyway.:).

The feeling is uncontrollable, undecided and unexpected

It suddenly comes and sticks to the corner of the heart

Once, I tried to wash it off, because I was so scared of getting hurt

Even the core and resistant bleacher couldn’t resist it

How strong it is, if you never know

Again, the denial and lies tried to cover the feeling

Because we thought that it won’t be a permanent one,

Time did fly so fast and fast

Too many things did happened in which we both didn’t expect

You pretended to be cool, I tried to be ignorant

Yet, it becomes stronger and firm as the days pass.

Should we ignore it like we used to do?

Should we wash it off but at the end of the day we fail to get it clean?

Should we ignore the happiness that we feel because of this?

No, we shouldn’t, we definitely shouldn’t,

I am tired of getting hurt, let go off things that I love the most

Now, I want to be happy, with you, only you

Worries and troubles are humans’ best friends

We can’t avoid or escape, they will come no matter what

Let’s try to work it out, if you will I will,

Only the strength and passion will keep us stronger under the help of Him

If only we are meant for each other…:)

Ikan te-dap! :)

Hey, salaam. It's 10.03 p.m now in Manipal. What am I doing now? I am online. Youtubing, facebooking, listening to Nur Nilam Sari thousands of time. Tah ap2 je, isn't it? Lol. Actually I am supposed to open Psychiatry book and start studying. Lotsa things to be studied. But here I am, gossiping and chit chatting. :) Well, YES to me because I actually did it. I bunked the afternoon posting at KMC Hospital. Hee. Serves you right. Err, I actually don't know who 'you' refer to. Hee.


Okay, before I start to open my lovely dovey book, here I want to let you guys know. My closest friends, there are 6 of us, err, we convoyed to Malpe Beach, just to taste the fried fish, Fara and Mun always talked about. Hell yes, the taste was awesome! :) Should try it more often. :)

They say, she is my twin. :)

superb! It seriously tasted so good! Aummm! :D:D:D

Moral of the day: Do whatever you want to do to cheer you up, as long as it doesn't hurt others much.

Smile. Smile.

Just woke up. I hate sleeping at the evening. Actually, I have no intention to sleep, but you know, when you face or study while you are landing on the bed, definitely you'll be going into the dreamland. Kan?:) By the way, all of a sudden, I was kind of missing something. Missing something that has gone which will never come back. Missing something that once I lost it, even I aren't supposed to pray that everything goes back to normal. That is life anyway. Believe me, somehow, you gonna get used to it.

She's cute, isn't she? Suka dye. Cantik. :) Nak cantik macam dye. Hehe.

Just want to express something. Haha. Actually, as you all know, I am in the psychiatry posting now. There are so many lecturers that come in and out to teach us. One lecturer that touches my heart, named as Dr. Sameer. He's kinda cute. I love the way he talk to the patient. So cool and you feel like want to smile till you can't smile due to excessive smiling. You got what I mean? Lol. Just so you know, tomorrow will be the last day of posting in Psychiatry. Then my turn is Commed. Community Medicine. Again, I'll be so free, going to the different sites and will be back home before 4. This is what Fara said. hee. :) Anyhow, leaving Psychiatry posting and going to the other posting is quite sad. But, that is life. From one chapter to another. Oh, if you guys remember about the patient I told so long back named Vidya( I am not sure if I ever tell u all or not.) who has depressive disorder. She will be discharged tonight. I could see her smile when I went to the ward this evening. :) Get well soon, Vidya! NO STRESS, JUST CHILLAX.! This is reminder for me too n maybe for you all too.:)

Drop the subject.

Salaam I bid to you all. Here I am. Today was a terrible, bad day. Not actually too bad literally, but yeah still, it was considered as bad. Starting from early in the morning till the end of the day. What could I say more, I didn't expect things to happen sometimes, but truth is, they just happened. Well, first and foremost, exam is postponed to SATURDAY in which we suppose to free ourselves that day. Saturday from morning to evening. Can you I imagine it? Hmm. Majority wins as always. We, who are the minority side loses. Hmm again. Next, during my journey back to Manipal from TMAPAI hospital, I took a bus and the bus driver seemed to horn here and there NON-STOP. Urgh. It irritated me so much. I felt so  nauseated but, thank God the journey to reach Manipal didn't take too much time. I am officially HATE tempe. Next at the evening, we went to the psychiatry ward early than usual because of one reason in which I can't tell it here. So pissed off. But, unfortunately, not even a single lecturer came when time showed 3 p. m. Okayyy I hate waiting for people. I could considerate if it was only half an hour but if it exceeded more than that, I think the most tolerable person also couldn't stand I guess. And here he came. The lecturer, talking and kept talking till 4.00p.m.:( After that, I made our way to the hospital to see my friends involved in an accident. Poor them. Rohil and Mantap. Nothing bad happened, just after this, scars would be here and there over their faces. Plastic surgery helped a lot. :) And last but not least, it is about friendship. I am sick talking about this. So sick like what Ne- Yo said. Basically, what can I say, I am still holding on to this. Just hope and pray for this to end  very soon. Very soon. I just have to have to faith in Him. HE knows best. And to make me smile at the very end of the day, I've got something that I love the most. Thanks. You know me and you know who you are, too.:)

IDK

Salam~

Hye all. I think of something today, but however, I didn't get the response or any answer. I didn't blame you for all these.

You have the right to keep everything in secret. It is actually none of my business. I should not ask you that. I am so sorry. :(

But, I keep thinking about it for the whole day. I tried not to think about it but, truth is, I still think about it.:(

Owh, by the way, alhamdullilah liqa' went well last night. It was so tiring to complete the video, but the video was superb and

awesome! Yeay! ;)). Both the food and decoration were also great.:)

I don't know where to start. you too

A foot note at the end of the table
Untouched, with zillions of dusts and dirt
The writing gets faded and grayish
The number-wise sequences are seen
Mind is thinking, body is opposing,
Which one is to be done in prior to the others?
All are to-do-lists,
All are you-die-if-you-put-them-aside lists,
All are you-are-lazy-if you-ignore -lists,
But, still, ignorance is a sign of laziness
So, please don't ignore.

*In the mood of settling important things which are truly messed up these few days, because of I don't know the reasons kinda thing*
*Get the list and get started, girl!*

You have the right, too.

Heart. It may looks dull and lame, but this heart holds thousands of stories if you ever dare to feel it.:)

Have you ever thought that people don't actually believe in what you do? They simply put you aside thinking that you aren't able to do complex things, but they do. I am nobody to point to anybody anyway. Just want to speak in random. As what I've written in previous post, people are born with different abilities and talents. Just want to add some more, some of the abilities are worldwide and too general. All of us, have that ability like for example, leadership. Please don't think that only you have that leadership quality but others don't. Please avoid being too selfish. We live in a freedom world. There are too many things others can do, just let others to do, don't conquer it to yourself. :)

And plus, one more thing I want to state here. I don't understand why the effing hell some people don't bother about others ideas and opinions. Each and every one of us has the right to say what they think. If you reject others' idea some other day, others may reject yours too. Serves you right, then. Pedas tak? I am so sorry. Extra chillies today. LOL.

By the way, this evening my Malay batchmates had a video shooting at ICHS. This was all for the sake of the so-called Liqa' Mahabbah to welcome the juniors of batch 28( ohh not to forget, we are the super senior batch which is batch 24.:) Mine was not done yet, because the prop is still not there. Maybe tomorrow. Or maybe, this one might be forgotten as well.

Here are some pictures during the shooting session.:)

tasnim, daz and ijan

Wawan dan Zaty. Prince and Princess.

Some of the 24's heroes. :)

Alolo mereka. sweet sangat. hee.

Ladies.:)

Hasil kerja tangan hasmira. Dipegang oleh Edi amon.

Winning!

It is already 12am in the morning. I am so much tired. Today was the day of competition. Haha. The culture parade. UTSAV kinda thing. And the interesting thing was that, I gotta be bidan terjunn and had to transform into a kadazan celup, to perform because, not enough people were there voluntarily. And to make things super interesting, I didn't really good at dancing. For the sake of friend, I tried my best to dance. And alhamdullilah, we got the fortune and luck, we really made it. The first place among all the college in India ( to those who took part). MMMC won! Well, congratulations people. Pictures aren't there yet. If some of my friends upload it in fb, I'll copy paste and put it here. So , you guys can see how much my face transformed on that day itself. Woww. Even I was so impressed. Thanks to the make-up professional. Bella and Alia. You guys were superb. :) I am actually still on my bed, without even take a bath after the tiring day. Penat nak bangun! Okay fine, I am gemuk and I gained 2 kg recently. :( Huhu. Whatever. :p.

To my little sister, Wawa, if by chance you read this blog, I just want to say sorry because I am so busy lately with so many things that suddenly come up, so I am unable to call you and practise the interview with you girl. :) I'll do so, when I have leisure time, maybe tomorrow or the day after. Actually, she asked me to help her, because she's going for an interview to get scholarship which she never ever faces the interview session in her life. So, it is normal if she keeps repeating that she has the problems of butterflies in the stomach. I can understand that. :) Well anyway, I know you can do it. Just have faith in yourself and HIM too. (^^)

I think that's all for the moment. Well, one thing I want to stress here.

Each and every one of us has the ability and talent that we never encounter. We keep on telling ourselves that we are losers, unable to do anything, and we are surrounded with inability not ability. Well, you guys should think it again. :) The hidden or occult talent can be seen if you try harder to portray it. :) You got me, don't you?:) Enough of speaking. Diam diam! Hehehhehe. :) ( takde kaitan, tetiba rasa nak mengumpul setem. Jom. :)

At last.

I have done it. At last. Thanks to those who appreciated. And to those who didn't come, u guys were so losers. heee.

And to you, I am not dat bad, am I? Haha.

I forgot to take the pictures of that lovely laksa. Hee. Takpe, good thing is kept in the heart.;)

To mak, thanks for tutoring me during the holidays about how to make delicious laksa, and to abah, thanks because you

helped me prepared the things and ingredients needed.

LOVE you guys a lot. I really mean it. A lot.:)

@_#

If you ask what is my mood now, I will say,

I AM NOT OKAY.

SOMETHING IS BUGGING MY DAY RECENTLY. :(