Kucing hitam dan oren. meow2

Hey. Salam.

Nothing much in here. Just want to say something.

Hati manusia cepat lembut. Dulu mungkin pernah sampai suhu mendidih. Tapi sekarang dah macam dekat Alaska. lalalala~. ;)

 

Anyway, IMY. Just so you know, IMY.

I am hoping that one day, things go back to the way it was before.

Because memories can't be faded.

People tend to do mistakes, and people may regret of what they have done:)

:)

 

:(

Semangat itu kadang-kadang datang, kadang-kadang pergi,

Kalau dia datang kita biar, kita abai dan kita leka

Sebab kita terlalu yakin bahawasanya saat dan waktu yang lain dia akan muncul kembali

Tapi andaian tidak sememestinya betul, tekaan tidak semestinya kena

Dia pergi macam angin pergi lepas singgah untuk seberapa ketika sahaja.


Itulah semangat sebenarnya.

:( :( :(

Janji Allah itu benar.

Hello. Hola. Salam, sunshines. :) Well, meet again. Nothing much to talk and babble, just something about things I have learned today during Usrah.

• Whatever we do, like studying, just remember that no matter how hard you struggle to pass the exam, no matter how focus you are to gain the knowledge, always remember that you still have to put Him in the very first place. Never forget about Allah s.w.t who always listen to your prayers. To absorb well in the process of knowledge collection, the clean and clear heart is very crucial. :)
• Islam is very simple, it doesn't complicate the slaves. use the opportunity to appreciate and perform what you are asked to, as long as you are still breathing in this world. Once your heart stops beating and your brain stops functioning, nothing can be undo. 
• "Janji Allah itu benar."(^_^)

Second of all, my baby is about to be delivered. Still thinking about its name and its twin's name. Haha. :D:D. Hopefully, I will get it as soon as possible. So can't wait to meet it. ;)

Third of all, I just realized something during the group discussion just now. We have to submit the case-sheet which we never start doing it. And plus end posting exam is just around the corner. Takut. =.=

Hujan. Kirimkan pesanan kepada dia. :)

Salaam. Today again, there is raining, maybe a slight rain with a little thunder even till now. I can hear the sound of the 'awful' creature, Frog( as for me la kan. hihi) singing a terrible song. =.=. I don't know why the hell I am so cannot go with this greenly thing. I am sorry, I know it's not your fault, but till now, I can't open my heart to welcome you. T.T. well, move on to the topic of rain. Well, I'd love to say that I love rain! so much! Like I don't know how to explain but I love it so much!! :D:D I know some people may say that, yeah rain is not good because some people tend to fall sick when they are exposed to the rain, or some might have cold or fever, but truth is, all of these do not applicable to myself. Alhamdullilah, till today, my immune system is quite impressive. I can stand with this for so long, I mean the rain part. I don't mind exposing myself to the raindrops because the chance that I might get the cold is very much less compared to the others. Bukan nak riak ke apa, tapi kebenaran, even I don't know why.

Even when I was in primary school, I only skipped class for 3 days for the whole year, because of only 3-day-slight-mild-fever. Cool kan? :) hee. But, that time I was so jealous to those who could bunk class, using the reasons that they weren't feeling well. I obviously couldn't use the reason because I RARELY sick. But now, having this advantage really makes me feel kinda grateful sometimes. I don't have to buy medicines so much, like others do. Pity them huh. =.=. Spending sometimes about RM30 per day because of the drugs are so expensive in which you can use the money to buy something else apart from the medicines if you don't fall sick.

I love watching the rain. It touches the heart sometimes, I don't know why:)

Again, RAIN. I love playing in the rain. Getting yourself wet, and play something under the heavy rain is really satisfying. :) I know some groups of people tend to label people who love to play in the rain as crazy but I really don't mind. hihi. If those times when I was young, I used to go out from my room everytime I listened to the sounds of raindrops on the roof. It's time to play!! And yeah, mom always care about us. =.=. If my mom caught me playing in the rain, I gotta listen to her talks the whole day. Hee. sayang mak! ;)

masa first year:). nanti jadi monster ni la balik, dengan baju hujan dan bawak payung ke sana sini:)

By the way, even today, at the age of 21, I have the thought to play in the rain again. The last I remembered I played in the rain was during last year, heavy monsoon season and we played football that time. I miss those memories so much:(

Don't worry of being sick. Ubat kan ada. Main je hujan. Haha.

Bagi saya ni free, saya kahwin dengan sapa-sapa la. Haha~

That's the story about rain. Now it comes to the story about phone, yeah whatever you want to refer it to like hand phone, mobile phone or ring ring. :) Let's make thing simpler, I have my own NOKIA express music 5730 now, which I bought on August 2009. But now, I don't know why I think I want to buy new one. ANDROID kinda type. First and foremost, I preferred HTC brand more. But then, since the price is too expensive which I am not so affordable to buy HTC, I bury my intention deep down the ground. ( Actually, if I want to but it, there's no problem at all. but in Malacca I may have to eat Maggi for dinner. Haha.:P) So, from HTC I revert to SAMSUNG Galaxy SL. Hee. Still thinking about it, and maybe I am gonna buy it. InsyaAllah. :) I asked the opinions from different people, my parents, him, and my friends and they mostly say "It's up to you" which I interpret it as, "Yeah, you should buy it one. Hihi".
Today, we won netball over batch 27. Congratz, teammates. :) Hopefully we will meet Batch 26 again for the final , and this time we gonna show you guys our real 'we'. Teeheee~ :D.

That's all from now. I will have end posting exam this Tuesday at Karkala before move to the next posting, OBG which I can't wait the most. ( I am so thrilled to see the process of delivery with my own eyes. LIVE. ). Wish me luck.

Jadi Kuat Macam Badang ?

Salam. What's up people? Fine? Doing good? Or something happens in between? :S By the way, whatever it is, just live your life to the fullest because we only get the chance one, don't regret if time passes and you've done nothing good to yourself or others. :( Chillax:) Anyway, have I told you guys that now I have posted to Karkala? Well, it is 45 minutes away from Manipal, quite a long journey right? Takpe, people used to say that, the more distances you take to reach to a good place, the more rewards you get. Rewards macam pahala la. :) One word about Karkala so far. NOT BAD. Not bad in what way? Hmm, that makes me think twice to elaborate. Actually, there were many things happened for the past two days, things which were categorized as not so good. *Sigh* One of them was, we were scolded by lecturers in Karkala saying that we learnt nothing in Udupi and they weren't satisfied to our presentations. Pity us kan? :( But, actually, that was the thing we've been taught in Udupi. These lecturers expect too much from us. I'm sorry, we promise that we'll try our best to satisfy you guys okay. :) Please have faith in us. T___T


Second of all, I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home. I miss home.

Third of all, I lost one of my best friend, because of something that I can't control. My heart desire. I can't control, if only you know, and I can't choose if only you know. Then, goodbye from me, if that is what you really want and if that is what's the best for you. Take good care of yourself.

Fourth of all, I am thinking about buying ticket to go back to Malaysia, either MAS or Air Asia? T__T. Oh my my, I really don't have any idea about this. Should I buy the expensive one because after all, I can claim the ticket's price. Hopefully, I got the answer a.s.a.p.

Last but not least, last night I suddenly thought of something, something about my future career. When I was about to sleep last night, I suddenly had this thought:

"Lagi 3 tahun, saya akan jadi doktor. Bukan doktor haiwan ke doktor tumbuh tumbuhan, tapi doktor kepada manusia. Manusia yang ada perasaan yang boleh cerita dia sakit ke tak. Saya kena cuba treat manusia setakat mana termampu. "

What I thought was, am I able to perform this duty very well? Am I ready to be scolded when things go wrong during the duty-performing? Do I have the gut to treat people, and diagnose them and comfort them if I have to? Ya Allah, this isn't the easy decision. I've come this far, and I've to continue and have the faith in myself and most importantly, I have to believe in you, Ya Allah, whatever happens is under Your control, not mine or not others. I don't know the future obviously, but I hope I can do the best. Yakin pada diri, yakin dengan hati, gunakan ilmu yang ada untuk mengubati orang yang memerlukan dengan izinNya.

Sometimes, I feel so weak, thinking that am I that good to have the chance to be a doctor, or it is actually just a coincidence of all? But, deep down my heart, there is one voice that keep telling me this:
Nurul Fitrilina, awak boleh buat sebab tu DIA bagi peluang dekat awak untuk jadi doktor suatu hari nanti. DIA yakin awak ada kebolehan untuk selamatkan orang yang memerlukan bantuan awak dengan izinNya. Jadi, awak kena kuat supaya orang yang mencari awak nanti pun kuat macam awak."

And truth is, this voice which keeps me stronger at this point of time. Ya Allah, please help me to face all of these obstacles so that I will be stronger as the day passes. :)

Hey Stalker!

I like you without reasons
I care for you without hoping for anything in return
I only look at you from far doesn't mean I am scared of truth
It is just I don't want them to know, I don't want them to judge me
I just want ONLY YOU to know that I am here for you
Come hell or high water, the feelings will never faded
It is uncontrollable, unchangeable as the seasons are changing
Remember the first thing you gave me, I kept it at one corner safely
I don't want to lose it, I don't want to spoil it
Trying to retain it for the rest of my life
Because I appreciate memories and pasts
Some pasts are easily forgotten but some stay in the hearts,
Like the one I created it with you.

People always remind me that, we don't know the future,yet it can't also be predicted,
But, they also say, we can build the strong base for the future,
We can cover it with beautiful and strong roof,
And place a nice floor on the land,
That's how the future starts.:)

Maybe one day we both grow old,
You may have grayish hair, I may have wrinkled unattractive lines over my face
I may stumble while walking, and you may take the steps forward with stick slowly
We may come to 60, 70, and maybe luckily 80,
But one thing I wish from the day I met you till the last day I may see you,
you still remember my name, and where I once stayed which is in your heart,
You still remember the loves, laughs and the cries we share together
And you still remember I have once( not once but thousand times) uttered to you, "you are special to me."
:)

 

*I mean it. I really do*

Emo.

*Amaran keras: Hari nie post aku akan semuanya ditulis dalam bahasa kebangsaan, bahasa melayu terchenta.* Heeee~

Okay, macam ni, aku pun tak tahu kenapa dan sebab apakah tiba-tiba hari ni aku EMO gila. Aku ulang, aku EMO. Check check balik nak kata 'SPM' pun tak. Hadoi, ni mesti penangan Dr. Kunal Narad yang suka nak marah-marah bila kitorang tak ingat Anatomi. Logik la kan, dah dua tahun tinggal, macamana la nak ingat. =.=... Maaf, chekgu chomel. Hihi.

Mari fitri nak chechite chechite kenapakah fitri emo hari ni. Apa yang aku buat yang menyebabkan aku melabelkan diri aku sebagai emo? Adakah aku emo tak bertempat? Atau emo aku emo macho dan cool? Haha. Saspens tak? :) macam ni, tadi aku dail la nombor tepon mak terchenta yang duduk di kampung teroi, guar chempedak. Maka, aku dengar sayup-sayup suara wawa angkat. "Ya own, napa?" Kata wawa. Terkejut dengar suara dia, (sebab aku ingat dia kat rumah makcik aku lagi kat SP sebab dia nak pergi program 3 hari di hospital), aku pun bertanya: "Aikk? Dah habis ka program?" Maka, wawa pun menjawab ya. Dia pun tanya adakah aku nak cakap dengan mak. Aku cakap ya, dan sejurus selepas itu terdengar sayup-sayup suara mak dari jauh.. Mak tanya bila balik Malaysia? Aku  cakap lah tak taw lagi sebab ingat nak jalan-jalan Kashmir dulu. Pastu tetiba mak cakap, nanti wawa p, mak nak p manipal dengan aku n semua. Tetiba aku sedih. tah pape kan? Aku EMO. Aku cakap kat mak,

"Yela, bila wawa dapat sini baru mak nak datang tapi own kat sini mak tak datang-datang. :( Sedih sampai nangis. Pelik kan? hahaha. Mak cakap, "Sekarang mak susah, adik adik nak sekolah busy lagi, wawa nak masuk tempat baru lagi, banyak duit nak pakai. Nanti kita p sama-sama la tengok wawa. :)" Tapi aku ni degil. Aku pun cakap kat mak, "Takpela kalo mak tak mau datang. Tak kan nak paksa." Aku EMO. Skarang baru malu. Padahal small matter je kot. Emo macam tahi kucing. Oppss. Hihi. Tetiba mak bagi fon kat abah. Abah cakap napa? Lagi la aku sebak. Aku cakap takde pape. Takpela. Aku cakap kena hang-up aku nak pi solat. actually, tu alasan jer. then, lepas letak je telefon, ada orang lain call. Tersebak lagi kat orang lain. Sumpah segan. (T_T)..

Wawa gemuk :p

mak dengan abah:)

Sampai lah kemudiannya, aku jadi nyesal cakap macam tu. Aku rasa, kasarnya aku cakap camtu. Kenapa aku tak mengiyakan je apa mak abah cakap? Apa diorang cakap betul kot. Aku je emo. Mak, abah, own minta maaf. :( Sorry teremo tak bertempat. Sayang semua sangat-sangat. Rindu semua sangat-sangat. :(

Then, pada malam hari, aku ada basketball match. Macam biasa la main macam taik ayam kali ni. Haha. Main jela, try je sumbat. Kalo masuk rezeki, kalo tak de tak de la. Dah penat nak aim menang. :) Kalah pun tak pe, at least semangat tu ada..

adam n wawa. abah kat belakang.:)

ina busuk! ;)

aliff mata sepet. :D

Mungkin setakat ni sahaja entri kali ini. Maafkan saya andai awak terasa dengan emo emo saya, ya sapa-sapa pun awak. Saya ni manusia biasa, yang kadang kadang terkhilaf. truth is, I never meant to do that. XOXO, Fit. ;)

ABC

Salam all.:) I am here again. I will not talk much, just a few words about what has happened during these few days.

• I have watched Fast 5. It was super superb I shall say. The stunt was great, unbelievable and I love it! ;) I like the main character, so called Dom. OMG, he was so freakingly undeniable hot!!! Burning hot! The way he talked, acted and smiled, ohhh, so sweet and cool. And the best female character goes to the lady who ride the bike, with long hair. She was also hot. :D.

• I tried Ais Kacang or ABC which is made here in Manipal for the first time. Out of 5, I'll give 3 maybe. Not bad, but still cannot beat the one at Malaysia as always. :)

• My groupmates including me, were scolded by Dr. Kunal Narad, from the department of Pediatrics. :( At first, I felt kind of sad and disappointing, but when I take it from the positive side, if he never scolded us, we never learn. Cool huh?;)

• Again, we are busy with Supremo games. If you guys still remember, I've posted something about, I felt so not into sports anymore, but since too much supports I got and the left-over spirits, I decided to just continue playing. Thanks to the additional characters esp. the main one:)

• I miss HOME. Yeah, I mean this. I suddenly miss mak, abah, ina, wawa, adam and aliff. ;( I supposed to call mak tonight because I have promised her, but since I  got netball practice, I TOTALLY forgot about it. Sorry, ma, I call you tomorrow k. :) Love you always. (^_^)

• I fell down from the bicycle at T M A Pai Hospital. OMG, so embrassing. :( I didn't have pictures of me, on the ground where the bicycle was on my lap, but I've got the pictures before the incident happened. Ngeee~~~;)

That's all for now. Love you always. :)

layman.

I know I am not a good human being. I am not noble, not even great person. I am a common somebody who don't have anything to be proud of so far. I have a typical daily routine that I follow that have nothing to be satisfied about. Sometimes I talk about others behind, sometimes I say bad things, sometimes I am so not grateful of what I already have. I am me.

Even in studies, most of the time I sigh a lot, I comment about the hectic medical student life, I comment about the lecturers even I know I am not supposed to do so.:( My mom once said to me:
"Kak, cikgu ni pekerjaan paling mulia. Apa pun yang kadang-kadang depa buat, macam terpukul, termarah, tertinggi suara, depa buat untuk kebaikan anak-anak didik dia. Sebab depa ada mission. Nak semua students depa cemerlang dan jadi orang berguna masa depan." Those times, I didn't appreciate of all what she said. Even now, sometimes I do comment about lecturers, I get mad to the lecturers. Owh, how bad I am.:( And thankful to Him, I still have the thought that what I did was wrong. I have the thought that I want to change the part that I suppose to change about myself. I wish to not even sigh in studies when it comes to thousands of works to be done esp. in this medical field because I realise that life is still long. There are millions of obstacles are waiting along the journey. Life will never be the same. Later, I will get MBBS degree
( insyaALLAH) and that time, the responsibilities will be even more like hard time during work, etc.Hopefully, I don't treat the responsibilities as some kind of burden. Hopefully.

Then, in relationship, I shall say, I am not a perfect-noble-great woman in terms of qualities. I easily get jealous, tend to have bad thoughts when I keep thinking about futures and etc. Especially the jealousy part, I can't help it. I am so jealous even a little thing. I know, sometimes I have to be matured enough and be professional. But, yeah, things happen and we just can't help it.:(  maybe after this, I'll try my best to be as professional as I should be. =.=.  Maybe this time, tolerate and understanding between both is important. Don't worry, I will try my best.:)

All in all, I know maybe people may say back to me: Nobody is perfect, accept of who you are. I agree with that, but from some points I hope all my negative thoughts will revert to positive someday. All of these are for my own good and people around me. By the way, just so you know, I love you all and will always do. :)

yeah! :)

Salaam. :) Today, I played something that I never ever played before, something that is quite cool and sharp even precise to be scientific.:D. Presenting, the new talent that I've got( Should I stress the word talent? haha. Because, to be honest, I am still learning, not even reach the medium level. Pro memang tak la kan. hee.) which is the, POOL. Cool enough huh? :D Maybe pictures can tell how cool it is. :)

Sayang cikgu selamanya.:)

Finally. After struggling for about 2 weeks, The Red Hawk won the battle. Should I say struggling? Because, as per counted, I only got two gold medals for Tug of War and Volleyball out of 5 games that I participated. To be real honest, at the very first place, I was kinda disappointed, why we couldn't make it, although we've tried very hard, trained almost every evening but, the victory is still not ours. :( Even sometimes, I have to thought to retire from playing in any of the games offered. But, as what I encountered and as what he told me, "Menang Kalah adat permainan, it is the spirit that matters, " then I started to realize that, I need the spirit more, not the winning. Congratulations NORTH for the good effort. You guys are rocks.! and to the southern team, don't worry. You guys were great too, especially the ATHLETICS part because just so you know, I am athleticophobia. Hahahah. B). I love the spirits that have been showed by both parties. Love it so much. Sometimes, I feel like crying in a smile, when I saw those spirits . :)

That is it. And now. just want to update. Just finished community medicine posting. and the end posting exam was over! After the exam ended, both F1 and F2 groups together with Dr. Sanjay had a cake, specially made by Ain. Yummy! So delicious. :D. We watched the slide show of the groups together. Actually, at first I was supposed to make the slide show, but then, I passed the job to Sundaraa, as he knew more than me, as I am still learning to use the Cyberlink Power Director thingy.:) What I did, was just providing the appropriate songs to Sundaraa. By the way, when it came to the song entitled "Graduation" by Vitamin C, the air was suddenly turned sad.:( yeah, F1 and F2 gotta separate for a while, since Paediatric and OBG postings are divided into those who go to Karkala and those who go to Udupi. Hey, F2, maybe we'll meet again during the Surgery posting which will be in one months and half time.:) Don't miss me much. :D

Owh, one more thing. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all my teachers from kindergarten, SKKP, SKT, SKHHD, SMKGC, MJSC LANGKAWI, KTT, AND MMMC. Thanks for the knowledge that you guys poured to me without bored. Happy teacher's day to mak too. I still remembered when I was 7, when I couldn't answer math questions, you used to pinch me, and compared me to the best student in class. I was so sad that time:( But, now when I think it back, I think I should thank you for doing that, as now, I am standing the way I am now. ( Even I know, there is so zero relation between math and medicine. hee. :)) You are the best teacher I've ever had. :)

And one last thing I want to tell, I've got new message tone! jeng jeng jeng. :D