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Monday, November 30, 2009

i am a medical student.so be strong!

Being a medical student teaches me a lot.
  • Settle things earlier than dateline because each day there will be lot of things added up.
  • To keep strong even sometimes you can't score the exams even you study so hard the night before.
  • Be confident of what you did without questioning what might be the circumstances afterwards.
  • Put all your love life aside cause you don't have so much time to think about those stuff plus, no one will understand the 'busyness' of medical student.
  • tears are my best friend these few days.
  • closer to Him cause He will always be there to listen to your prayers.
  • Make me smiling everyday trying to chill myself though I know lots of things to be finished off.


Monday, November 23, 2009


I miss my old friend.
I really do.
An old friend who I've not known who he is till now.
A friend who suffers from leukimia and I wonder how he is now.
A friend who suddenly appeared in my life a long time ago and suddenly he went away.
A friend who is no longer Malaysian cause he moved to Russia those old days.
A friend who makes me remind me of him when I listen to these songs.
[Larut(Dewa), Pupus, My Heart,Kau Ilhamku and some more]
A friend who made me stronger than I was before.
And he is really my friend.
Wherever you are now, I just want you to know, I miss you and your story.
I try to reach u through our friend but I lost her number anyway to get to know about you again.
And these date: 22/1/2007 gave a lot of memories between two of us.
I hope you will be as strong as a hard stone to face your truth in life which might turns u a lot.
And as if you know,
Fitrilina sayang kamu.T__T

Friday, November 20, 2009

simply let it go.

Suddenly, it haunts me. I try to ignore it, but it keeps bugging me all the night. Suddenly, I reminisced the past memories which made me smile a long time ago with a sweetest smile ever. But, why am I keep thinking those little things when you don't even care how I feel? Do you deserve all this? Do you suppose to see what you shouldn't? Do you think what I might think when you did this to me? I wonder and wonder. It is all masked by a fake care that u seems to say every time you try to make me believe you. Will I enter your trap again? Will I just allow myself to be caught again? Am I willing to face what people might say later? Am I willing to hurt people again like I did those days before? I question but I don't even see the answer or the clues for the answer. People say the history is just a history. Just let it be and don't make it change your life in future. That is it. Enough is enough. The bruises will always be there.

Monday, November 16, 2009


It's just soo gloomy.
Can't it go for a while?
I'm tired already.
Trouble is a friend,they said.
How strong I am to face this make-you-stronger-thing?

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Oh, I don't care~

Today, I feel like writing. Hmmm, it's been ages since I last wrote and updated Chocolate. I mean, update about my current life, story and how it flows recently.Yeahh, as usual, exam was just ended. Outcome? I don't know yet, but what I can say for the time being, I'm regretted of what I did for this whole third block. I played around, spent time doing things I shouldn't, cried for those simple little things that I should really put those matters aside. But, that was it. I can't turn back and correct it. The only time to regret is now, before University Exam shows its shadow very soon. As what people keep saying to me, when I sighed to them, " U still have time Fitri to catch back what you have left before, to grab back what u lost before and to start struggling back from day one." Ohh, I nodded. That is what I should realise long before, before it's too late. :(. As a summary, what I can say now, I want to focus back again in Block 4. I'll make sure things were not the same as the previous block. Hmm, I believe in one quote, that keeps me in the line till now.
"People make mistakes cause they are not perfect.
Learn from the mistakes and live your life."

That is it for my current update in my study. Love? Don't have one till now. Huh? Does it matters after all those tears that surrounded me last 2 months? I'd better stop. Disappear like as if nothing happens really get into my nerves now. But, so what. Do I look like I care? I'm well HAPPY now with my life.(:. U are like pieces of those poems that u used to give me, and now I've thrown it away already cause it made my heart sick and plus, my Chaurasia is far better to be read and memorise compared to your so-called-love-poem. I love ANATOMY more okay? =)

Should stop now I think. I got some more planss tonight.(:

MOVIE MARATHON jom newarn? ^-^

Thursday, November 5, 2009

happy birthday sayang.(:

'ohhh.tetiba teringat kesah lama. arrrggh. tasuker,tasuker,tasuker."

introduction untuk kali ini.(: hmm, hari ni tanggal 5 November 2009 adalah birthday adikku, NURUL FARINA BINTI MUSTAPA
yang ke-19.Hee.
You know, u almost getting to the 20's life,jangan perasan muda lagi yehh.
Hee..Maaflah semalam tak dapat kak own call sebab focus gila dekat Biochem, sebab biasa laa banyak lagi tak study.Hee...^-^.Malam ni ataupun esok kak own call anda okehhh syg...Hee....
Sempena hari ini, kak own ada beberapa ucapan untuk kamu wahai adik Na.
The lists are as follow:
  • moga dimurahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan umur
  • moga sentiasa dalam rahmat dan inayah Nya.
  • moga terus sukses dalam hidup.
  • moga berbahagia selalu and I know u are because of us right sis? lalala
  • jadilah Cikgu yang baik nanti yehhh.
  • And you know I LOVE U dear.(: