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Monday, February 27, 2012


Halo. tak lama I nak cakap- cakap nie. Please lemmi talk about 5 minutes only , before I continue facing the bookssss urghhhhhh ::(((. You know what. I tengah bosan gila, I dok study ENT then bosan, bosan nya ENT, sebab I tak pergi hospital meet patients lagi untuk subject ni, memang la bosan kan. >.<. I bosan, tapi nak kacau boyfie I dia pun mesti tengah study kuat- kuat sekarang. :) So, I kacau la Cekelat ni kan, yeah yeah, you know what? suddenly I miss poeming. Serius weyh, I tak tipu, tetiba rindu nak berkarya. :) Tapi mesti sekarang kekreatifan dah tak macam dulu, sekarang dah tumpul dah, ni semua sebab buku medik tebal- tebal I kena baca, itu lagi penting dari berjiwang berpuisi melayan perasaan. Hik hik hik. :D

Okay, 2 minutes gone! T_T. Tadi, I dah settled pun satu subjek sessional examination which was MEDICINE. Dafuq, memang susah gile nak mati la kan, not as what we expected. Banyak keluar soalan soalan pharmac, padahal mana lah kitorang nak ingat, lupa habis kot, tak lekat dah dalam hippocampus ni ha, betul tak tipu. Kalau dia tanya pathogenesis disease boleh la nak happily cerita, ini tanya adverse effects drug, memang la tak dapat la nak korek otak sebab dah volatile dah pun. Sedih oo tak tipu, tapi takpelah nak buat camana, nama pun exam, harap lah nak senang. :)

another 2 minutes gone. Okay, takpelah nanti bila I ada masa, I update la poem terbaru, yeah mungkin nanti. Bila sumber ilham tiba;)) I kena pergi sambung study ENT. Takpe, jangan bosan2 nak balik dah , tak lama dah pun. Teruskan bersemangat okay, Fitrilina! Chayok! ;))

kucing ini I jumpa masa study dekat library tempoh hari. Comel bukan? Macam apa? Cuba teka ;)))

Macam Garfield! Dy mok mok bam bam macam Garfield. :D:D

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Don't be sad. Just remember whatever happens, there must be good things lie behind, we never realize it somehow. :")

Untuk kamu kamu yang tengah down dan sedih macam saya:(

Mari kita senyum, Allah dah aturkan semuanya:)

now it is raining heavily outside:)

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

harimau malaya vs. japan

The game is over.

It turns out to be 4 for Japan and nil score from us, Harimau Malaya. T_T. Never mind, whaddaya expect la kan, we are just a small country who is trying to get the place in the world cup, meanwhile Japan has established that long time back already. Anyway, good job Harimau Malaya, you guys have tried hard to score and defend. ( Actually, I am no good in commenting, but hell yeah who cares?;p)

comel kan. haha :D

Next come to the list: Finish up my readings. Ophthalmology.

Quite a lot actually, but yeah KITE BOLEYH OKAY! :D

You know what, I just realize one fact just now.

The more nearer I am to the exam, the more frequent I update my blog. 

This is how it goes.

The more nearer exam is,the more stressful I will be, 
The more stressful I become, the more typing or writing I'll do to lessen the mind bulk a bit. 

Note the last sentence k. Heee. Good night. Salam. :)


Damn it. I just woke up. And again I peeped outside through my window, it is raining. Still. Yeaah not my fault I had this excessive sleep. :p. But, I should not waste my time now. I should geared up back again. Gotta make some coffee and clear my room a bit.

You know what, lately I am a caffeinated girl, the one who is caffeine-addict. I don't know what is the reason, but everytime I have a cup of nescafe usually, I will feel energetic as ever. Actually , the reason is the caffeine la kan. Hahaha. Okay, chiow, a long listed learning objectives should be covered. :)

Selamat study to those who is reading this, and currently a student like me, no matter what course you are in now. Best of luck:)

belajarlah sampai ke negeri China( note: Bukan Paris okehhh;p)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


It is raining outside, not a heavy one, just enough to make you feel like getting into the bed and curl up like a lazy prawn beneath the thick comforter. So heaven. The wall clock is tickling, showing that it is already 5.02 pm in the evening. I don't know what is my mood now, just neutral I guess. But, regarding the rain, yeahh I love the raindrops and love watching over the rain. If you guys ever read my tweet, let's climb to the roof, so that we can feel the raindrops together very close:)*mode:It's raining!!!! =)
Hey, facepalm! Dreaming again, huh nurul fitrilina? =p. I turn around and look the condition of my room. So messy, but you know why? It wasn't my fault! Haha, today I was posted to Muar Hospital, so I had to wake up earllyyyy in the morning, and thus I had to rush and went for the bus, so the room was messy as I couldn't tidy up my room first before going out. Will do it later, but now, I want to enjoy this rain. :)

Sessional examination is just around the corner. As everybody has noticed and aware, the exam schedule is as follows:
I am not really in the 'ready ready ready mode'. yeah it is true. :( I do studying but it's too much to be covered up all within one week duration. ( actually less than one week to be exact.). But well, at least I have had the spirit to work hard, it is just okay already right? :) I don't want to score distinction as some students wish, but at least getting the mark within the passing rate is just a good achievement to me. Medicine is not about you passing high marks, it's more of either you pass or fail. Hmm, I know it sounds like scary when I stress the word FAIL, but hell yeah just DON'T GIVE UP dude! 

Study hard as maximum as you can, struggle and just semangat3 as infinity as you can. Allah swt has mentioned in the Al- Quran,

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib suatu kaum kecuali kaum itu sendiri yang mengubah apa apa yang pada diri mereka ; surah ar-ra'd : 11.

So, let's change and be hardworking from now on! ;) It's not easy to gain what you want, if you really wish to get that, you will put so much efforts to finally grab what you want and make them yours. :)

It can be many things. Success is one of it. The one you love can also be the next example. I will not explain details about this, because most of us has experienced this right. Tepuk dada tanyalah hati awak- awak semua. :)

Okay, enough babbling, now we move on to the thing that I have promised you guys before. Regarding the pictures of a 'thing' I bought in Pasar Malam that day! Heee, yeahhh it is actually an alive FISH! and I already have the name for it after thinking and thinking for so many times and after discussing with him, I finally came out to the conclusion to name my fish as 'TROY'. teeheee, Troy suits him best. The handsome one, the charming one, and the cool one. :) Here's the picture.:)

meet my Troy. ;)

That's all for today. See you guys again. Salam.:)

Sunday, February 19, 2012


There's few things in mind, that haunts me. I never blame you, it's not your fault at all, even not mine and not theirs too. It's just that, simple things that have pointed it to be like, yeah she likes you. I admit that I am jealous regarding this matter, but I also definitely know where you heart belongs, you have told me million times, and I have put that in my heart too. :) But, yeah I am a woman, and woman gets jealous easily, so it is actually a normal kinda thing. But, just want to make everything clear about this, I am okay with this, I just have to bear with it. :) Just like you have beared with things that come in my life before you. If you could face, why don't I? ;)). They may search you, find you, chat with you or maybe call you, but whatever it is, I have told myself so many times that, you and I have exchanged our hearts, remember? =)

Regarding today's activity, I have bought tickets from Kedah back to Malacca. Not a very long holiday anyway, it just A WEEK OKAYYYYY. Just be patient, this is what medical students should bear with. :) Semangat! =) And right after that, we( Syikin, Syaima, Kak Maryam,Me) went to find a famous coconut milk shake in Batu Berendam, Melaka. But, it was not our lucky day, the shop was closed. But fortunately, there was Pasar Malam near there, and I bought something there. I will post the photo later. Surprise! :)

this is today's dinner. yeah for this, I can upload the photo. Nasi Kerabu,. Jeles much? ;p

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Bermain Di Pantai:)

Yesterday's evening after class, we went to Pantai Klebang, somewhere in Malacca. Here are some pictures. :)

With Munira Masri

With Syikin Wanzul
Kami letewww.;p

Zaty, ex roomate.;)

Anak daraaaaaa =)))
Love this!

And this view too!!! <3

sun was about to set
Nampak la pesisiran pantai tu:)

ayu la plak dah. ewwww dgn diri sndiri =p

Notice their styles. Haha.

With Mira Rafeah Bismi,;)

  • During the night, around 940pm we made our way to Giant AEON, Malacca to watch movie entitled 'Beauty and The Beast'. :) *errr, you are the beast not me. hikhik* Sorry, no photos available. :p. 

  • And today, I SHOULD HAVE STARTED STUDYINGGGGGGGG!!!! (^__________^)

Friday, February 17, 2012

flawless. them not me.

OMG. So bored of studying, about 2 hours I stucked with the thick thick books like Bailey and Love. :(. Yeah, blogging is on of my way to chillax. ;).

Today's topic is nothing but skin. You know what? I am so jealous with those who have very baby-like skin, soft and smooth. Very pretty! :) If I saw one, I was like, "Cantiknyaa lahaaaai orang ni, untung laaa dia.. ". =.-. Well, not everybody knows that actually I have a very senstive skin, very very sensitive I would say. Mak said that, when she was carrying me in her womb, she refused to eat lots of vegetables and fruits because yeah she was diagnosed to have hyperemesis gravidarum( excessive vomiting in pregnancy). She suffered that for about up to 6 months carrying me. Huuu, and she said sorry because of that, my skin isn't that perfect, in a way that it is so sensitive. I didn't blame mak. Hee don't worry.:). I am the eldest, yeah maybe there was exaggeration of morning sickness kot, never mind. :) Speaking about those sensitive skins that I own, even a slight rub maybe due to a mosquito bites, it leaves a mark, quite prominent anyway.. Huaaa, pity me kan? dah la, truth is, mosquitoes love me lot kot! Haihhh everywhere I go, they will tend to attack me first compared to others! Maybe 'darah manis' kot. hahaahha, okay habis dah. ;p. And yet, because of that, I am the winner with multiple mosquito bite marks. Sedih okkkkay tak tipuuuu...I tried so many products and there wasn't any improvement. Maybe a little, but yeah it still looks ugly mugly uggliiiiesssstt okieyhhhhh sobsobbb.. :(..

Even I have a thought to do skin laser to remove all of that, you know, hmm but yeah there are too many complications can be listed because of the laser. Tak cantik pun takpela, at least I am safe from those complications. :). And if one day I am pregnant, I will will will make sure that I eat food fruit and vegetables a lot, and to my future hubby who is reading this, please mark. And remind me in case I forget it. :) If I don't have that soft, perfect, baby-like skin without those mosquito marks, maybe I can make my babies have that. :)
untung lah kulit flawless:(

*p/s: saya memang tak chantik takde kulit yang lawa cun melecun, tapi saya bersyukur saya masih hidup lagi thanks Allah:)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


Surgery end- posting examination, just ended today. Yeah it was all about luck. Dr.Myat( Lecturer from Myanmar) took my end posting. There was issue actually regarding my end posting. Something to do with ICU room, we could not enter the room but we DIDN'T EVEN KNOW we are not allowed to be inside there but to make the story spicy, I took my case in the room, taking history of a cooperative pak cik about 70 years old. Bla bla and bla, they scolded me, but I told them again , I DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT IT, and finally it seemed that Dr. Myat and Dr. Saw( the other lecturer from Myanmar, he's very nice. hee) understood. Yeah, a little bit misunderstanding about this. Surgery department should inform the students at the very first place about this. All in all, Dr. Myat didn't even comment a thing. He just nodded along my history presentation and just nodded during my general and abdominal examination. Only a question that was asked to me: The investigations. I answered all but I forgot to mention about CT Scan which was actually an important point for acute pancreatitis. Not even a single theory question he asked to me. It was either, he was too satisfied, or too bored. I hope the earlier one was the right one. @_@.

Thanks Ya Allah, I finally did that. Even though I didn't know the outcome yet. Million thanks to him for helping me listing down all the acute pancreatitis even though Dr. Myat didn't ask me that.. Heee.. I forgot about what I have read the night before. Maybe, super- added nervousness and trembling did that. Thanks dear for being there. ( and thanks God he was there that time in the same ward). :)..

I have had usrah just now. We watched an Indonesian movie entitled Delisa. So touched. :") But I didn't finish watching since it was Maghrib already. I will continue maybe later. Good lessons and great story. You guys should watch, too. It was something related to the previous tests and pain that Acheh people suffered before because of the big tsunami on December 2006.

Gotta stop. I didn't even take my bath yet. Haha. end-posting-syndrome can't help it. Gotta finish my surgery portfolio too.

Well, guys, refer 7:179. Lessons I learnt today:)

Oh yeah, sorry can't help again. I am currently in love with Taylor Swift new song. Safe and Sound. Heeee... She' s so cute!! Adorable. :)

P/s: Thanks luv, you are super sweet for the message you've sent to me. <3<3<3.

Okay, jum mandi. ! (^_^)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Cats Meow Meow.

Guess which one is male and which one is female.:P

Monday, February 13, 2012


ATTENTION: To my family, friends and you know who you are, this post doesn't mean for you guys. And not to accidental visitor too. I don't mind if I've got visitors.Welcome:) These are what blog means for. I am talking about others who don't have any relation to me, but yeah maybe a little relation still they love to stalk my posts if not everyday, every three days or yeah a week can be counted too.-.-

Yeah to you, in front of your lappy reading my posts.

Happy enough to stalk me?

Stop stalking me if your intentions are just to monitor me , my life.

If you come visited to learn something or maybe for the sake of seeking knowledge( if I do posted notes/ lessons) I really don't mind. But, somehow, there are these groups of people who stalk me because they aren't happy with my life. :( . Stop finding and searching the pasts that has gone somewhere else. Just let go and start your new life back. Sometimes things happen for a reason and it meant to happen. Don't be sad because many good things are there in front of you, maybe you just don't realise it. I don't want to accuse anybody, I am tired of guessing and watching over the LIFE TRAFFIC FEED and suddenly it pops up your name in my mind based on the place shown there. Not good you know. :( I also don't like to guess about something unsure.

Leave this alone. Do visit for other purposes like I've mentioned before, I don't mind. But please not because to monitor my life. Don't take into your hearts. :) Be happy and keep smiling. Salam:)

Sunday, February 12, 2012


Goosebumps, when the song was sang for me from you yeah you yeah you not anyone else. :)

I don't mind if you have flat voice or not, I just love it. You are my addiction, baby.

When your eyes look through mine, I feel pretty and tachycardically special,

I feel happy, appreciated, being loved and cared by the most important guy in my life.

Never felt this way before. I admitted I've known many guys before but they are totally different

from you. You are so special to me. Very much.

Nothing much here. Just a confession I've made. May Allah s.w.t smoothen our way ameen:)

P/S: Sapa kata tak kena lagi? Dah kena p****g dah okay dengan budak paling gemuk dalam dunia;). no way out ;p. Warong kap as always:)

The Story That Touches The Heart:(

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.


What if.

What if.

What if.

Goodnyte world.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

landscape. cycling. ice-blended.

Yesterday's evening event: Cycling around the Taman Desa Baru and MMMC. No pictures of the bike, but yeah I got a chance to capture the moments Syikin and I played in the playground. Love it. :).


With the ice-blended:)

Should do it often later, insyaAllah. It was so calm, watching how people spent their evenings. Some were jogging, some were gardening and others were talking and sitting at their own landscapes. Yeah LANDSCAPE. Speaking about landscape makes me so excited to tell you guys. I love to have landscape. If one day I have my own house, I wish to garden beautiful flowers and have my own landscape too. I can spend my tiring day there, watching over the flowers, feeding the fish in the man-built pond, and talking to my loved one there;). <3<3..

It's true:)

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

Masjid Selat, Melaka. :)

Monday, February 6, 2012

Denyut Kasih Medik. Dup Dup Dup:)

Fuhhh so tired. Just came back from shoppinggg!! Hehe.. Forget the part that I lost Rm100++.. :(.. Hmm... Yeah, it's true, but alhamdulillah at least I got my purse back, I don't have to apply for new I/c again, senang kerja. But, sedekah je duit yang hilang too. InsyaAllah mungkin ada rezeki lain masa hadapan.:)..

Anyway, good news is, Syikin already has a car! A cute Kancil, Mrs Deer. :). So, it makes a lot more easier for us, to go somewhere in weekend or whatsoever.. Dapatlah tumpang kereta kawan:). Mun brought her Persona too for a long time, but since she quite frequently went back home, so can tumpang her car during weekdays and yeah some weekend too if she didn't go back.:). Thanks to Cimun and Ckin. Sebab korang dapatlah aku tengok melaka n shopping sikit bila weekend takdelah terperap dalam bilik hostel MMMC je.=p...

Last night, to celebrate the newcoming car, we went to Tutti Frutti, somewhere in Bukit Bruang. There were four of us, Ckin, Ira, Piah and I. :).. Some pics to be shared. =).
dap gilerrrrr

syikin wanzul, me bestie:)

safiah hasuni:)


Mine, jangan jeles.. :)

And as what I have planned, I already bought something too! Can't wait for the response. Lalalala..=).. Owh not to forget, I found an Eiffel Tower Replica- kinda- thing at New Jusco. So cute and stable! :) But it was about Rm50. Hmm, maybe when I have extra money next time, I can buy one for myself;)

currently reading the book:)