Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Just I realised about one fact.
The more nearer the exam is, the more frequent I update my blogAnyway that's the fact. I don't know why but it seems that, when I wrote something or for this case, when I blogged, I feel more happy, and enjoy my days, if in case I've lots of works to do actually. As what I've been saying, exam IS really around the corner. Less than 30 days +/-. I don't actually know how to interpret my pace of studying at these moments but it seems a bit too slow. Because too much of exams, too much of block tests made me unable to focus to other subjects apart from my specific subjects for posting. Just, for now, I hope the things I've read for the current posting will still be remembered during my final BIG EXAM which is P2S1.
Speaking about exams, now I know what is my weakness, it is actually the CLINICAL part of the study, in which it is so important, for us, us a doctor, because CLINICAL helps you to reach to a diagnosis, try to think about the appropriate investigations and plans of management. That's I've lack, to be specific, the part to come to a diagnosis and the part to find the important clinical findings in the patients. :( This is the thing I've to improve. I really need my friends' help so that, I didn't lack behind. I want to master in clinical examination, be confident of my findings, and try not to miss small little findings, which is very easy to pick up.
Ya Allah, help me, in improving my clinical skills, help me to find this CLINICAL stuffs because this is so important, crucial for me to be a very good doctor in the future.
The day after, I've psychiatry sessional examination. I don't even start yet, about to actually. Hopefully, Allah ease my way. :)
On the other note, today, we really had a great, enjoyable day with usrahmates. We did activities, not a routine, lame one, but a nice, superb, awesome, adventurous kinda activity, which I enjoyed the most, not only me, almost all of us. :) Being together with the same missions, did the same activity with Muslim sisters, were really good things to do :). Actually, suddenly one thought came popped up my mind. How I am so lucky to be chosen among all others to be in this road, the road to be a better Muslim, the road to reach Ustaziatul Alam, the mission we all Muslims aim for. :) Thank you, Allah for this opportunity, I am so grateful for this chance. :)
I will try the best that I can to strengthen my basics, which I knew I still have so many holes, and not yet strong :(
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
I knew right, I'm a girl, I guess a woman already. Waking up late, thinking that soon I'm going to be a wife, *not sure when but just say soon lol* it's just so not right. Kesian my hubby later, can't have proper breakfast. Hee. Sorry sayang. :P. I should have stopped this worse habit, I knew life might be so hectic during the weekdays, it's just that, it's not a good way to spend your weekend like that :( Now I regretted, when thinking that weekends have gone and it's monday already!
I promise to myself, I'll try to wake up early, if possible, don't have to sleep back in a comfortable bed after Subuh, instead I can spend my time interval before Subuh to early morning, maybe by reciting Al- Quran. That's a lot more better. :) InsyaAllah akan dicuba! ;)
Then speaking about P2S1, not so much days left! 42 days left you know! T_T But, still I like/ love/ enjoy to waste my time :( Cannot anymore! :) Have to start study NURUL FITRILINA! Berusaha!! After passing P2S1, you can do whatever you want!!!! ;)
And so now I am trying to find my booster. Booster. Ehem!
- Learn to cook from Mak and learn recipes from the book awk gave. :)
- Practise to drive car for a long way journey. Cause, I don't really have so much confident in this, maybe lack of exposure?
- Other booster: Oh let it be a secret. :)
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Can you come back to me?
The long lost spirit?
I need the toughest, insensitive one,
I need the spirit with high ambition
I need the spirit which bring me away from disappointment
please.. stop wasting the precious moment with unnecessary thought,
Ahead of u, u've got a very hard battle, your destiny is unknown
Neither by you nor others..
Keep the head up, and the desired spirit, please come back, please, I beg with a very humble way I possibly offer....
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
noticed that just today. Not 'louder' as if I've got some kinds of murmur or what, but it is getting 'louder' literally. When speaking about 2013, I am getting nervous. I guess all because of the pressure of P2S1, a very important exam which may allow us to reach 5th year. I knew, my knowledge is still poor, still a lot more to be improved, but thinking about that, I get carried away, and try to avoid all of that. Actually, I SHOULD NOT HAVE that kind of thought. I should stop and sit and start studying. T_T. Ya Allah ,this exam is really important to me, and my friends. All depends on fate, and luck. And of course, the hard work. I really need to be calm, start studying and finish this off. It's so tiring to be in a medical school, thinking that, most of my friends, or high-school mates have graduated and even now, have started working and build a family of theirs.
I am still here, struggling and praying I can pass the exam with flying colours, and able to continue to the next level. I didn't know why, just now, during walking towards the bus in Muar Hospital, I had this one thought. Why at the very first place, I didn't choose a teacher/ lecturer as my career? I knew I have the talent to teach ( I think so la), and I can teach very well, and able to make people understand. But, I ended up in medical school. Yes, I agree that when I was in school, my ambition was to be a doctor, but now, thinking that, I didn't actually have the talents, and thinking that my life would be so busy after this, it made me have the thought, why I didn't choose to be a doctor.
But, then again, the other thought came and strike my heart. Allah s.w.t has planned everything very nice. Maybe HE has planned that one day, I can be a very good and dedicated doctor, trying to save lives of the helpless human beings, or maybe trying to use a profession of doctor as a medium for dakwah. Allah knows best. HE is the greatest.
So, to you, Nurul Fitrilina Mustapa, please have the thought in mind that you're so lucky to be in this field, you can get pahala for free everyday later, during your work as a doctor, since you will be curing people, or if not cure, at least provide comfort to them. Again, keep praying and praying. Allah knows best. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR. :) Refresh the niat, keep struggling to be a better Muslimah insyaAllah :)