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Friday, November 23, 2012


This is not the issue of pointing and blaming others, this is the issue of consideration as a human being.

Thank you.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Salam Awal Muharram :)

Assalamualaikum, dear friends. =))

Hi, we meet again, after so long I guess? Yeah, been having about a week holiday, currently in surgical posting, really kept my day so busy. Anyway, it's not that I don't have idea to babble in Cekelat, it's just that, I don't have time to sit and publish an entry. It's okay, since now I am in a good mood I shall say, let's use it wisely, let's update my days recently.

All in all, as what I've mentioned, I actually just came back from my hometown, Guar Chempedak, Kedah, from a 6 days of holiday (including one day 'buat buat cuti sendiri';p), and this cuti was actually for Deepavali together with the holiday for Awal Muharram, the beginning in Muslim's calendar if you don't know. :).

Part 1: Regarding the holidays, I've spent my time happily at home, yeah, at least a 6 days of holidays was worth compared to that time whereby I just came back home for three days during Hari Raya Haji. :( To take revenge of that, then I went back again this time, with the beloved. :) Being at home, when everybody was there, all my siblings, parents were there, since school holidays have been started already, I had so much joy and fun. My family is a spontaneously-crack-the-jokes-type and I, the one who listened, laughed so much, to their jokes. Alhamdullilah for that ;). Although we didn't go out much that time, (only visited some family members), since my house was under renovation, we still enjoyed ourselves at the place called home. :) Thank you thank you thank you. ;). That's why when I came back to hostel, few days ago, I was so homesick, since sleeping with my sisters has turned into sleeping alone in this room. :( But, never mind, whatever it is, I really have to stay alone, no choice, just have to be patient, and keep my spirit up high, that's the most important things. Thanks to my sistas for the support and to you too :') (I don't actually tell my parents about the homesick feeling I've been experienced last few days, since I didn't want to worry them, let  they know that I am just fine here, struggling hard to excel as a medical student and soon, a doctor, insyaAllah :)

Part 2: Being back at home means being able to date. Haha, so naughty one. ;P. But, in fact, it was true anyway for me. :D. This time around, we chose, again Penang, as the place to visit? Haha, well kinda la. :D. But, for me, this was the special one, very special one, I really realized that, somebody  really take good care of me, love me, and need me. And I do too. :") Thank you for the sad scene, and thank you la for making me teared a bit, because of so grateful having you in my life. :) . I pray to Allah s.w.t to ease our way, and to bless this relationship till we tie the knot and till the day after insyaAllah one fine day, amin :). And now I am tearing but.. shh! :"). And ah, not to forget, thank you for the ice-creammmmmm which I 'kempunan' so much!! :P

Thanks :)

Part 3: Gaza, Palestin vs. Israel. Please guys, have the thought in mind that, we, as Muslims really need to fight for them, need to support them. If we can't really provide those things, like weapons, booms, M16, at least, we pray for them will ya? :") Pray that Allah s.w.t help our siblings out there, in their jihad for Islam. :"). Amin. ;) and it does count. :)

Part 4: Interbatch is back! :) And as usual, I am one of the 'bidan terjun' to play all the games which I really don't have any idea about, just a little skill left, at least to participate. :P. Done with basketball and badminton. And AS USUAL, I won! Haha, no la, mimpi la, I LOST actually! :D

Part 5: Our superb Surgery lecturer, Professor Dr. Than Zhint gonna resign from MMMC in a two weeks time. :( So sad, but at least I've got the chance to join his OT with other colleagues. :)  And plus, at least, I've got a picture with him. Yay! :)))

Part 5: Jaab Taak Hai Jaan. Wanna watch please? :))))))

#np That Thing You Do- The Wonders.

Sunday, November 11, 2012


Life's like that, yes like that. Happy Sunday everybody. Today I woke up so so late, like a boss. I know, as a so-called anak dara, it isn't nice to wake up that late. Hee, but I was so tired these few days, thanks I shall say to Surgery. T_T. But, never mind, I should have get used to it, P2S1 is really around the corner actually. About less than 14weeks liddat. Few things happened:

  • Medicine results have come out, Alhamdulillah I passed, even I only got 64. It's okay, I should have be grateful for that matter. Thank you Allah, I shall work harder next time for the remaining Surgery, Paediatrics and ONG which will be followed by P2S1. 
  • I'm going back weeheeeee! On Deepavali with love. :)

That's all. And yes, I am still craving for the ice- cream @_@

#np Our Hearts Are Wrong.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


2nd day of Surgery Posting. I think about babbling something in Cekelat. It won't take much time, 15 minutes will do. =).

Salam and hello everybody.. Hi, since I've been gone for quite a long time. Can imagine right, an 8 weeks of Medicine posting, continues with the busiest posting which is Surgery which I am facing it now. I know, it's a bit too exaggerating saying that I am damn tired because of surgery since this is only the second day of the battle. A lot more to come. But, truth is yes, I am so so tired, with a bit of feeling unwell physically. I feel feverish, cough with running nose, maybe because lately this is the season of sickness I guess. Even my best friends, Mun and Zaty also had just recovered from those fevers. My turn has come. I don't like this feeling, feeling of unwell making me so lazy to do things, so lethargic most of the time, but however surgery postings requires me to spend a lot of time to study! Yes, a lot, since there are many things being covered. Before you can do well in Surgery I should be good in Anatomy. Even the distance between pubic symphysis and pubic tubercle does matter! ( 1.25cm, hee, nak berlagak jap because this was the only fact I knew when Dr Das Gupta asked us this morning. Hihi). Yes, surely ANATOMY is important, in fact you need to know every single thing because when you are in an operation, surely you don't want to get sued when you wrongly remove the organ, since you are weak in Anatomy right? A fact.

Thinking about this unwell feeling makes me so can't wait to go home, I miss home. Alhamdulillah, I've bought ticket to go back to Kedah which will be on this Monday! Hip Hip Hooray! =)..

Results medicine is not out yet . I am so scared, having so many negative thoughts that I might have failed because I couldn't answer much during the exams, and in fact if I answered some of the questions, I've checked and turned out to be most of them were wrong. Pity me. :( Please, pray for me, at least I pass. :( I don't want to consider to be as in ' Conditional state' in which I need to pass 8/10 in Osce station during the real exam P2S1. I hope and pray that I pass. Amin.

That's all for the now. Just wanna tell you one thing.

"I'm sorry if because of me, you can't focus so much. I'm really sorry, and I will be away for a while, and make sure you focus to the max! :)"

P/s: I'm so addicted to ice-cream and so kempunan!!

Let's have a scoop of ice cream together please one day? :)

Monday, November 5, 2012

Maafkan aku, andai kacau bilau dalam jiwa hadir dengan hadirnya aku,
Maafkan aku, andai malam-malammu tak setenang dulu kerna adanya aku,
Maafkan aku, andai airmata ini kerap kali menitis bila dengan kamu,
Maafkan aku, andai aku terlalu membebankanmu..
Maafkan aku.....

Friday, November 2, 2012

EOP Medicine.

After 8 weeks of medicine it is finally over. I just finished my end of posting examination today itself. The outcome? A big sigh I shall say.. :( I am so super sad, why this happened to me? I have studied so hard, I've risked my two days postings just to make sure that I studied well for the exam. :(

Not to say that I was regretted of what I've done in the process of studying, it was just that, why I couldn't do well even I've worked hard?

Just remember, that everything has been arranged by The Almighty, we couldn't do anything except for keep working and praying. At the end of the day, I finally try to accept that whatever happened, happened for a reason. Ya Allah, everything that You've arranged, I know have hikmah behind it. Please let my heart accept it. Berserahlah... Doakanlah yang terbaik. Moga aku PASS. :(