Incompetent doctor? :(

Assalamualaikum, readers.

Hi. It's 1932 and I should have bathe myself right now, to go to library but well yeah, just wait a while. Today, I feel a bit disappointed, to what comments lecturers have put up during meeting about performances of our groups.

Professor Uduman Ali:" What have you been studying? You should know most of things in medicine now. I thought you guys are only lacking of knowledge and skills in neurology (toughest area in medicine) but it surprised me and it seems that all field of medicines you are all lacking off. You are 10th semester already (final semester before we become a doctor), you SHOULD KNOW everything, just on the tip of your tongue! "

The talk continues by Prof Uduman: "Yesterday, we had a meeting, and this issue has been brought up by Prof Lakshmi. She said none of you are competent for the final exam! Even your semester-in-change ( we know who, and it is Dr. Kolitha)  was also annoyed."

That was it. That was right after my presentation this morning regarding one Neurology case about one pakcik who has this cerebellar disorder presented with only complaints of vertigo. After the presentations, Dr Uduman asked us questions which we supposed to know but we stumbled in answering it, and not properly confident with the answer even the answer was correct.

At that point of time, I felt like going to a place to hide, where nobody could find me, I felt so disappointed and I didn't know what to do. Yeah, we've learnt all of that, but we forgot. We always forget things we should remember. It's not that we don't know a thing, it's just that we don't remember. Prompting to answer without any level of confidence really disappoints me and I know it disappoints our lecturers too :(

From that moment on, I promise myself to work my tail off, study hard and try to revise back the things I've learnt. We've come across about those things previously, and by re-reading and studying won't so much difficult, as it will stay longer in our brain as yeah we've been exposed to that kinda topics.

I know it is our responsibilities to study hard and hard and hard and I know we really should be blamed for that incompetency and lack of skills. We should practise more and more.

I really want to be A MUSLIMAH, AWESOME, SMART, INTELLIGENT, ELEGANT FUTURE DOCTOR,  yes that is my aim and goal.

O' Allah please help me in achieving that aim, remind me if I lost and forget the things I shouldn't. ;)

Falling in love

Salam everybody.

 Since we postpone to submit our case sheet medicine to Tuesday, I lavishly are blogging right now ,

yeah right now. Hehe. Actually I suppose to study for PBL but yeah take a break for a while.
Anyhow, just want to tell everybody that I am currently already falling in love with medicine.

I don't why but, it just makes me happy when I can come up to a diagnosis after examining the patient.

 It feels as if Malaysia is snowing!

Haha! Pelik kan :P Okay itu sahaja. Salam :) 

random moment

There

will

always

be

that

random

moment

when

you

suddenly

smile

for

weird

reason.

I

am

melting

right

here

and

 put

 all

the

 blame

 to

you

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You know what hurts me?

You know what hurts me?

It hurts me, knowing that I can't help my parents financially even I need their help,still, as I am still studying.

You know what hurts me?

When I know that they have to sacrifice a lot of things for the beloved children like us.

You know what hurts me?

When they go out to work as early as 6 am for a cent and come back home sometimes late at night, all for the sake of our family. 

You know what hurts me?

When I know they are aging, sometimes they feel tired, their bodies cannot tolerate hard work like they used too.

You know what hurts me?

When I can't do anything but only pray for them, for their good health and rezeki. 

Oh, Mak and abah,

Nurul minta maaf kadang- kadang Nurul ni macam- macam, tak pernah terfikir akan kesusahan mak dan abah lalui untuk membesarkan kami adik beradik.Nurul kadang- kadang pentingkan diri, tak study betul2, padahal itu yang patut Nurul buat. Nurul minta maaf. Ampunkan Nurul. Nurul janji Nurul akan berusaha bersungguh- sungguh lagi 4 bulan untuk menjadi doktor yang berjaya, nak balas jasa mak dengan abah, and nak tolong adik- adik. That what I should do so long ago, as a big sister. :(

Where should I begin?

Where should I begin?


I don't know where to make a start.

I am confused, nobody to guide or give some kind of help.

 And now, I feel lost. Lost in my own world.

Where should I seek for help?

Nobody seems to care much what lingers in my head.

They tend to push me away, just letting me drown

Where should I begin.

Where? and how?

=(

Happy birthday to me:)

5 minutes post prior to sleep. Go.

Happy belated birthday to me. 

And to all of you, my birthday was on 31 August if you may know. Well, one year is added to my age, which gives a total of 24 years old I've been living in this life.
Age and maturity is not related.

Don't say that if you are older, so you gotta be matured enough in handling things and don't say that you are still young, you are immature to most of things.

As for me, I think I am still not in a fully matured 24 years old lady yet. Hee :P.

 Actually, I'm improving myself to be a full matured lady, because soon enough I have a lot more responsibilites comin up and waiting for me; responsibilities as a wife, as a doctor and insyaAllah as a mother and most importantly as a muslimah.

And hence, I did try my best to accomplish this mission of being matured in so many ways.

And I know sometimes I stumble, forget my missions, and lost with the impermanant life of world we are staying.

Hey, Nurul Fitrilina, happy birthday :)

Okay, time's up. Add up another 5 minutes, I've got lot to say, still. :P


And anyhow, about my current updates, I just sent off my sister at KLIA to Jakarta to pursue her study in medicine. Best of luck sister. You can do it. Be a good muslimah doctor insyaAllah, and we can open up a branch of clinic later together insyaAllah amin amin. :)

From left: Me, Adik Wa (my 3rd sister), Ina (2nd sister). :) Love them so much!

To my surprise, I met with Mr. Razib, Miss Suriany and Madam Ozie, who were my former lecturers in KTT, a place where I did my A level. So glad to seem them.:")

With Mr Razib, my math lecturer :)

Last but not least, I've watched CHENNAI EXPRESS, thanks to him :") As always, SRK is always adorable :)

Okay gotta stop. It's about time.

Pray for me, currently I am in MEDICINE posting, which is one of the important posting, in which a great amount of marks will be carried forward for final exams, P2S2. May Allah bless :)